~suddenly felt a sense of achievement~

yesterday i was kinda panic how the ger's mum will be like.luckily she still ok, not as bad as wat i seen in my music sch.actually i was quite scared to walk to her "home" cos tat place is industrial area and apparantly there is no females at all..i think i am the onli female walking along the streets, and yeah i duno why those contruction workers keep starting at me as if they have never seen gers before.oh man, tat place is reali scary man.kay, abt tat ger tat i am teaching,she seems reali bo chap when i teach her,somehow i feel tat she never reali pay full attention in learning,cos i always repeat the same thing again and again and it seems tat she cant get it.but i am not angry lah,in fact i still have lots of patience for her. at most she is just wasting her money onli for hiring me and like tat she cant reali learn much in one lesson.anyway tat ger is rich la.$100 to her parents should be peanuts ba.initally i reali wanted to teach her lots of stuff cos i prepared quite a lot for yesterday lesson, but it seems tat i overestimate her le.when i told her tat i am going to teach her more chime stuff then she complained tat i shouldnt teach something so chime on the 1st lesson.ok loh, i listen to her since tat's her wish..hopefully yesterday i didnt cramp her with too much things cos to me, i think those stuff tat i am teaching is reali too simple liao,maybe i didnt take into consideration tat she is onli new in music.yeah,next lesson i shall teach slowly and make sure she knows her stuff well.
todae work is so siong,well didnt have time to rest and i could onli slack a while when all of them have went out for lunch,so left me alone for my dept.hai~i duno if i am heartbroken or wat.yes, mind is veri confused now.i reali duno if i said something wrong the previous, so things turn out this way..hai~perhaps last time i shouldnt tell him abt it,then maybe things wont turn out this way..aiya duno lah, i am reali going crazy liao.why does things always turn out this way ah?last time the same thing occurs once before and now it happens again.damn shitty man, i am not going to think of such things again.

~super bored @ work~

hai~work lately has been so sian man cos i got nothing to do.previously i was given so much work tat i cant cope..then i think they always see me knock off so late, so they decided to lightened my work load..somehow i onli need to follow up the work tat belongs to 2 of my collegues,those tat belongs to other collegues are non of my business..haha,finally they liang xian fa xian liao,else i reali work like mad.but now,though its gd tat i got nothing much to do, but its kinda boring when i got nothing to do to kill time..cant surf net openly either cos small boss is around.sometimes i decided not to be so calculative la and help my the other collegues complete some of her work cos she got quite a no of things to do and last time she did helped me out when i cant finish my work.so i shouldnt be tat calculative.anyway i also zhuo bo once i complete my work.todae i came to work super early todae, then big boss was kinda shocked so she asked me why i cant to work tat early..haha.i told i woke up early, but actually i got motive for coming to work early todae de.actually i wanted to photocopy some of my piano scores using the office photocopy machine,but apparently she believes..haha.i think she is impressed with me for tat moment since i am super damn early and no one is in the office yet except 2 of my the other collegues.
recently i relai admire this particular collegues of mine cos i reali felt tat she is someone who is quite humorous and someone with character..though she talks and walks relai like some tomboy,but duno why she appeals so much to me..haha.reali feel like calling her "jie jie" cos she is so cute.so far no tomboy has impressed me before, i think she is the 1st one.haha
yesterday i was kinda stressed up and cracking my head over what should i prepare for todae's lesson.i spent like 2.5hrs thinking and reading through the materials tat i have at home.actually this is somehow like forcing me to revise what i have learned in the past, cos most of it i have reali forgotton le.hai~sian, i duno how can i go through tat 1hr of teaching.i think i am going to apply my brother's tactic le.my company has lots of ex food to eat.one of them is choclates.wah,the chocolate are swiss made and its contains some small % of alcohol in it and some wine also..though it taste horrible to me cos i have never eaten such a weird taste chocolate before,but one look can see tat the chocolate is damn expensive.its just i duno how to appreciate such taste onli.
hai~things seems to be not going well since tat day onwards,i duno if is it like wat yh said before.afterall things are quite fresh initally,but after tat things will turn stale and boring le.oh man, i am reali veri sian now !!! i slack for so many hours le and nobody gives me anything to do.
chinese new yr is coming up in a wk time.sian, its another boring celebration again.i think i am going to slack at home again and watch tv again.and i have been told by someone tat the results will be out only at end of feb or early march just like last yr.ok at least for now, i can play hard now and worry later.yawns,i am so sleepy now...

~panic over wat to teach tml~

teaching piano is something tat i never thought abt cos i reali dun have the intention to teach even after i got my grade 8 cert.no particular as to why i dun wan to teach..actually i dun reali have the passion to teach piano and i am inexperience in teaching too and i dun wan to see any students failing their exams becos i am not gd in teaching.but yesterday i received a phone call from a particular agency which i registered last yr since i was kinda desperate for jobs.yeah , i was kinda surprised tat the girl's mum is willing to hire me when i told the agent tat i haven gotton my grade 8 cert.i was told tat the girl onli want to learn it as a leisure,no need take exam.somehow it seems quite ok to me since i need not to stress over teaching her for exam..so i decided to take up this assignment since pay is kinda not bad..$25 per hour..wah, its just easy earn money la,i just need to work hard for an hour for teaching..at least its much better than working when i need to work for 4 hrs just to earn tat $25.yeah, but problem is everything came veri rush and i am still not yet prepared for the 1st lesson.though her mum says tat i need not to prepare and just go there gauge her on the spot.but i think i cant go there unprepared lah cos its not too nice. though i am a person tat wan to earn money, but at the same time i wan to be a responsible teacher and i wan to make sure tat my student do learn something la.cos since young,i always get those teachers tat i didnt get to learn anything at the end of lesson.so i must make sure tat i am not those kind of teacher.this shall mark a new beginning for teaching and i hope it will turn out nice.hopefully tat ger's mum is not nasty one, like those i met tat day..if not i will faint man.Hai~still thought todae go home can slack,who knows tml got to teach her liao and it was a sudden decision cos i was onli informed of the last min change.actually surpossedly it should be next week de,but CNY mah, so put it tml loh.hai~i now headache man,duno where should i start teaching her from.

~case closed for now~

fri work til pretty late cos before tat i slack too much liao since my small boss on leave and so i can take my own time to do my stuff..haha.wah, i still download songs and blog online.haha, tat's kinda outrageous if boss were to see it.the rest of my collegues were sitting there drinking wine, preparing to do OT afterwards.actually if i wan to drink with them, i am allowed to do so.but i dun like to drink cos wine doesnt taste nice at all..i would still prefer drinking my preferred non gas drink.actually my company got lots of can tiger beer but it would be waste if i onli wan to try a slip of it,so til now, i dare not open a single can.anyway drinking is bad for health la,i shall sustain from drinking as much as i could.

sat went for piano lesson again.this teacher is reali damn shitty cos i asked him if he could sign my exam form for me, and he said tat "i am not going to sign it, u shall enroll for ur exam urself.."wa lao leh, when he said tat i was kinda unhappy cos where got teacher treat their students like tat de.its kinda sad to hear this from him.acually i know wat he is thinking lah, i mean if i were to fail then of cos will spoil his reputation mah..fine loh, i dun believe tat without his signature i cant do anything abt it.so i enrolled the exam myself.anyway i am just kinda pissed off lah,he has no patience to teach at all.many at times i cant reali pay attention cos i am more scared of him rather than playing attention on playing.freak out man, i am kinda bu shuang with this teacher.jialat man, i got to tahan him til july..sigh..and i think some of the parents of those kids who learn piano are reali veri niao man.5 mins realease early from class also wan to complain to the receptionist..wah reali canot tahan those parents.anyway tat 5 mins also cant teach much, why must they so calculative man?ok,after which rush down to katib to meet him to get flowers for wee ping on behalf..apparently we cant see any flourist shop despite his friend told him tat there is one flourist shop over there.yup, so eventually didnt get one for her to give garnesh.after which we walked to sch.somehow the sch doesnt seems veri crowded.didnt buy anything over there cos i felt tat the stalls are reali not organised and quite messy to the extent tat i dun reali know wat are they selling..ya its tat jialat and food wise by the time we reach there are almost sold out.yup, when i first step into sch, i saw idol 2..haha, i thought no chance to see him liao but somehow so qiao manage to bump into him.i think he did saw me too cos he did glance at me for a short sec.yeah some ppl say i do look different in outside clothes and sch uni.maybe he is recalling who am i..i was also looking out for the other 2 idols,but somehow they just couldnt be seen.duno where they go also.apparently all my friends are giving me tat look,as in who is this guy beside me and why are we always sticking together wherever we go.many of them are thinking of tat in mind,yeah even tat drink stall uncle also cos they give me tat smiling and curious expression.aiya i am reali not together with him,believe it or not,i dun understand why i must admit tat he is my bf when he is not at all and both of us got nothing between us.cos one of my ex clasmate was saying tat "wat's so embarrasing abt telling ppl tat he is ur bf.."but in the first place he is not my bf at all wat, then wat's there to admit abt.lohz..yeah, this is kinda awakward la when i told him abt it.but he didnt say anything and kept quiet.i was expecting him to at least fight bac or at least comment something on this statement, but apprently he didnt.yeah, after staying in the library for quite some time in sch, we decided to leave the sch since its kinda sian staying over there.so i was "Drag" to his CHC church at expo.other than tat, i wanted to go shopping for sale over there since i think i need to buy some clothes.but eventually didnt go at all cos its quite late by the time the service ended.initially still got some time to shop de, but i was hold on to stay with his cell mates to interact.actually i am kinda switch off tat nite le cos i am reali sleepy le.their church service was kinda emo to me cos they kept on crying when they pray.then me being there blur blur was wondering wat's wrong with them..yeah,even he cried and i am reali shocked cos i thought guy shouldnt cry and drop tears tat easily?ya, i was quite panic as in i duno how should i comfort him cos i reali duno how to comfort ppl when it comes to religion.he said tat god has touched him but this heartless qin min felt nothing at all.i am not even moved at all.all i can know is their church songs are pretty meaningful.but i think its kinda hard for him to change my cold blooded heart cos i rarely get moved over religion.yes, i am just tat no feeling and cool blooded person.
then the next day which was sun,i met up with him again for ice skating.yeah i had a hard time learning this cos i am afraid of falling and its kinda slippery man.yup,initally we were enjoying ourselves de, but somehow after a few hours got reali sian liao.and its kinda embarrasing esp when fell down and i cant even stand up on my feet on my own and he reali had a hard time helping me up cos he claims tat i am veri heavy..aiya if i am as light as those young kids,then i would have stand up on my own without slipping.the jialat thing is tat i almost want to give up on standing up on my feet went i cant even get up when i fall down.i reali felt like sitting there and dun move.and its kinda embarrasing cos everyone is looking at u when everyone can get up when they fall but yet i cant get up.ya, this just shows how heavy am i..ya, the most pei seh thing is when i almost hug his bac when i was almost going to fall again.wah, heng man, thanks god i didnt hug his bac,else, it would be super damn embarassing.phew..and for another incident,i almost hug an ang mo guy cos he accidently trip onto me,ya but just in time he hold on to me,else i would fall again and had a hard time getting ppl to pull me up.lohz, it seems tat yesterday was a hugging day..haha.but yesterday he got quite emo and troubled after tat skating,duno why also..i think yesterday i am too direct with words liao.jialat man, this habit of mine still cant change.i am still trying hard to change..sigh..
yesterday i was kinda pissed off over 2 jerks and yes they stinks of smoke smell and i reali cant tahan it but i dun have a choice to move away from them cos i am queuing for the shutter bus.as in why i am pissed off with them is becos i know wat they are looking at la, and i am not dumb kay..i just dislike them for exchanging those lustful expression and keep giggling at me for no reason.wat the hell man..i was so pissed tat i choose to ignore them and dun even wan to look at them at all.aiya those jerks are just trying to attract attention..initially one of the guy wanted to sit with me,damn man, if he dares sit with me, then i would rather go somewhere sit or choose to stand.but those 2 jerks are relai bold to say aloud in front of me,not fearing tat i will diao them bac. anyway i doubt i will see them again, so its not worth it getting pissed over such jerks.
eh i realised tat lots of ppl say tat i look like O levels student,even his majority church friends.They say tat i dun like 21 at all.haha, duno to feel happy or sad when i hear this.its gd tat u still look young depsite the fact tat u are stepping into the early 20s le.ok if i can look tat young forever, then it will be super shiok man. =)

~actually i do care abt it~

tml i am going to yj to visit the teachers.haha, i thought he forgot le, but somehow he still rmb..initally i thought of meeting tanu they all de, but since he is coming alone, i got to pei him since i was the one who told him tat cvd is tml.yup, hope tat tml will be an enjoyable day ba.sun i will be meeting him again for consecutive days..haha.ok, i have no comments on tat.oh man i have piano lesson tml again.wa sian man, i predict the teacher will nag at me again for not paying up my exams fees.then i think he will nag at me again for playing until so lousy.somehow i also think tat he is not happy when i say tat i am working.wa lao dun expect me to stay at home for 24 hrs just to practise piano rite?like tat i will go crazy de loh.wah, i think i reali dislike this piano teacher man.this is the sec teacher tat always give me problems man.

~do i sound so funny?~

work todae is kinda sian todae cos there is nothing for me to do now.i have been zhuo bo since lunch bac..i am trying hard pretending to find things to do, but reali cant find anything to do cos the rest of the things are not within my capabilites tat i can do.ok, lately i realised tat a number of customers will laugh when i speak to them.hey, do i sound so funny??lohz, duno why they keep laughing when they talk to me.then ended up i also laugh with them.aiyo, i think i am reali not up to the customer service standard cos my tone doesnt sound serious and firm at all man.ya maybe i do sound kiddish.sometimes customer always ask me this and tat, which i cant reali ans cos its not within my capability, so bo bian i have to pass the line to my collegues to take over..oh man, i reali feel so bad cos they are so busy le and yet i cant do anything to help them.all i can do is to help them transfer calls and keying things into the system, after i finish my stuff, i can reali sit there and shake leg.but its kinda hard to find things to pretend to do..aiya i think my boss also know sometimes i zhuo bo from my actions but she didnt say anything.hai~i reali feel myself so useless, anything also canot do..ya, yesterday also ask my collegues wat course is gd as in easy to find job in future.but seriously i dun reali know wat i like le, despite thinking for so many yrs le.jialat man,i guess i can onli decide onli when the results are out.
recently i am also quite crazy over this korean show (coffee prince)..haha, cos tat lead actor is so macho and cute.ya, though he is abit zuai (arrogant) at times, but afterall i still find him cute.haha,todae romantic princess is coming up.wao, looking forward to tat show.
and todae i am kinda happy over some thing cos todae met up with my boss in the toilet and she was saying tat she was kinda surprised tat me being a temp staff put in responsibility and pride in my work.oh man, i feel so happy when i heard this cos i thought i reali did a bad job, esp when i keep sufting the net,but i onli did it when i finished my work lah.then the other collegues thought tat i am onli O level student cos she sae i look veri veri young.aiya will meh?my mum always say i look like some old auntie.now i know why they always call me xiao mei le, cos i think to them i look veri young ah..and one thing i just realised tat they do talk abt my work performance, else my boss wouldnt have "praise" me.aiya maybe i am just better than the previous temp tat they hired,tat why they find me gd..haha, i shall do my work seriously from now on since boss has complemented me, so i mustnt play around too much without finishing my work.i mustnt give her the impression tat she has trusted the wrong person.yes, tat's should be the gd way.maybe this is a gd start =) she still say tat if i wan to continue on,she will still hire me.oh man, when i hear this, i feel seriously happy, but i am thinking of staying on or not cos i wan to try something new.perhaps working in a bank or some other things tat i never try before.i reali look forward to the company cny's dinner..haha, cos there is gd food to be and it will be on company's treat.

~freaking piano teacher~

hai~tat piano teacher of mine is so fann man.keep pestering me to pay my exams fees when the lastest date to pay up is not up yet.wa lao u think i am atm machine ah,want to pay exams fees also need time to raise money de mah.moreover my parents are not going to pay for it, so i gonna pay myself, which i am quite reluctant to do so cos its alot of money.(equvilant to paying for my A levels exam fees)..hai~i think so far i haven even save up any cent since i work.last month pay all went to the stock market for investment.this month pay gonna gone to pay piano exams fees plus daily expenses.oh man, i think i am going broke veri soon.suddenly i realised tat its not easy to "feed" urself and seriously money is not easy to earn either.
i duno wat is he thinking up his mind ,but i am pretending not to know cos i am uncertain also.this time round, i will reali think carefully cos i dun wan history to happen again.i shouldnt be tat soft hearted again.yes, i shall hold on firmly to my stand.

~lost in life~

last sat went to a birthday celebration which was held at the pasir ris chalet.buffet was pretty nice.other than tat i think the celebration was pretty normal..eating, gathering with friends and chatting with one another.tat's all we did during tat nite.actually tat nite i was pretty bored lah cos most of the ppl i dun even know them or some schmates tat i seen before, but never talk before.so since both me and my the other guy classmate were so bored, then we started chatting..seriously we were chatting so happily tat i have clean forgotton abt my ger- friends..ok tat seems reali bad.somehow my ger-friend was telling me tat she knows what kind of guys i like le..she gave him as one of the choice, plus the other guy whom i have never talked to before.surprising she can read my mind and she has guessed it all correctly.actually i cant reali spell out what kind of guys i like la,but i guess it goes with feelings as in how i feel for tat person during the 1st impression.maybe 1st impression is quite impt to me.so me and him was just chatting abt our current lives.yeah, i realised tat both of us are equally lost in life.seriously i have no idea what i wan to work as in near future.actually i am applying for uni just for the sake of applying, and i have yet to realise wat i reali like and my interests.so he told me tat i am veri lost cos i wasnt serious enough cos i always smile and laugh like nobody business.he said tat he has never seen me in a serious look before.ya true, wat he said was quite right.maybe its time tat i set goals for myself, but few yrs bac, i did thought of this issue le, but somehow still cant get an ans out of it.oh man, i am already going to be 21 soon, but yet my future seems so bleak and unclear to me.esp when i guess tat my A levels results will be out next wk since the O levels will be out this thur.oh man, worries has started accumulating cos there are just too many uncertainties tat i hope wont occur on me again.if i did worst this time round, i reali duno wat to do..i believe all i will do is cry til duno like wat, after tat then decide my future path.but i reali dun wan to work so early cos i feel tat working life reali sucks.for now, i am just embarking on tat "play play" attitude towards work.i reali cant imagine me working for life with tat serious attitute.
last piano lesson was kinda pissed off for me cos i cant tahan tat naggy teacher.i got a naggy mother at home le, and there is another one coming up..wa lao i cant even have a piece of mind.this teacher is kinda strict with me cos my mum told him tat i am quite lazy so i need ppl to "push" Me then i start moving de.so i believe tat he did wat my mum told him.wa sian and wat i am pissed off with this teacher is tat he kept on asking me to buy this and tat and seriously i find it pointless lah..not onli tat, he is just wasting my hard earn money when recently i am quite broke le due to the so many gatherings and birthdays and yet i have to search frantically for this stupid metronome which is so ex lah, so i lied to him tat i have bought one already,else he would nag at me again for being so inefficient at buying things. but eventually i still bought tat metronome cos he sae he wans to see it as a prove tat i have gotton one.wa lao i have never met such a "smart" teacher before.i guess i have met my opponent le.i guess i am going to have a hard time under this teacher.sometimes i am reali so unhappy with him tat i show him my black face.yah, recently i realised tat i am quite easily fed up with ppl.duno why also, hopefully i dun snap at ppl when i am in a bad mood.
sun went to the bugis temple to pray..this time i am reali quite serious cos i am praying hard tat i will do well this time.it seems tat watever the lot write seems veri accurate.it says tat i am veri confused and lost and i am left dangling no where.initially i reali dun believe such things de, but i guess i will start to believe it liao.i guess onli me myself then can help my own self to buck up.
this sun got a "date" with him again.duno why i dun seems to be looking foward towards this sun.aiya i think i am just a veri fickle minded person and hopefully this "Outing" wouldnt be tat awarward like the previous time.this sat going bac sch for cvd..haha, hopefully can get to see idol again.lohz..so many months never see them le..

~some bo liao update~

work todae is kinda slack in the morning since boss has went for meeting, so i decided to slack a while before doing my work.so i decided to surf net secretly, but ended up last min i got so many things to do..cos they last min forward me so many mails and i think i have to create those quotation before i leave else i will forget wat i did previously..hmm..eyes are reali getting tired due to the long hours of facing the comp man.oh man, how can i tahan tat 3 months typing the whole day..todae went to holland V to eat lunch.yup, food there not bad ah, at least better than the MOE food cos there not much variety man..hmm..actually when i am taking bus home, i did question myself again.looks like its just a moment of likeness, not reali have feelings for him.so conclusion is simple le.=)
tml i got a birthday chalet, celebrating wei fen 21st birthday.looks like i dun have the money to open a party for celebration of my 21st birthday..anyway its too costly lah..but i do hope to celebrate with my friends ba, or perhaps someone special to me..haha.ok,its sian again tml got piano lesson and whenever i see tat piano teacher of mine, i get turn off cos he is super naggy..aiyo..

~i dun believe this~

why do i feel recently tat my heart is going towards someone else..oh no, i reali cant believe this.i thought i would never break the rule tat i have lain on previously, but looks like i have broken tat rule.perhaps if he dun treat me tat nice, then probably my heart will go bac to me.but at times i reali duno wat is he thinking deep within him.hai~
work is seriously killing me.hai~it seems tat the more i do faster, the more work i get.ok, in future i shall be smart and do slower..and i have reali brought my own screen protector cos i am reali scared my eye degree will increase tremendously.ya, its seems tat i am veri extra in the company bringing my own screen protector, but this is just to protect my eyes.yesterday was super pissed off and frustrated day for me cos work load is so much and yet phone keep on ringing non stop and i have to pick up phone call to entertainment those customer enquiries.so fann lah, and i think yesterday my attitude wasnt veri gd lah.tone was kinda bu shuang when i speak.worst still tat stupid cute agent pissed me off yesterday when i reali rush there just to hand my timesheet to him and he was saying tat onli work a few days also wan to hand my thumbsheet to him.wa lao when i hear this i was super bu shuang cos its his responsibility to tell me tat i need not hand up to him, but in the first place i didnt know cos he didnt even tell me at all..so i was kinda bu shuang and walked off without saying anything.
sun went to meet wee ping they all to eat at clark quay @indonesian restaurant there.yeah,food to me was just so so lah.but its kinda not cheap after inclusive of GST and service tax.seriously i am kinda regretted quitting my previous job cos actually tat job is actually ok compared to this job but distance wise relai too far liao so i decided to quit le..just pray hard tat i will continue to survive hard in this company ba.so far i think the gers in my company veri cute ah..haha.

~new workplace @biopolis~

newwork place seems pretty tiring for me especially to my eyes cos i have to face the computer for long hours and i think i cant reali take it cos my eyes will started to feel painful after staring the computer for a while.but what to do, i cant tell my boss tat my eyes feel veri painful so i dun feel like doing rite?so wat, have to tahan cos i dun have a choice.but i am pretty scared tat my eyesight will deteriate esp i do heard from my friends tat becos of long hours of facing the comp, then her eyesight became to 1000 plus degree..no, i dun wan tat to happen to me..so perhaps i will bring my screen protector to work everyday.yes, though it seems tat i am abit siao, but who cares man, i dun wan my eyesight to become worse.
actually the ppl over there quite ok, just tat i am the onli youngest over there and the ppl over there call me by xiao mei.though everyday they always smile to me when they see me, but who knows what they are thinking.maybe in front of u, they might be smiling at u, but behind u talk bad things abt u..some of the ppl over there speaks with an amercian slang, i believe they should have study overbroad, else how much they got tat slang..wah, it seems reali cool to me, and i do hope i can learn some of their slang.maybe sometimes i do admire ppl who can speak with slang.
first day of work is already veri tiring cos my collegues kept on giving me lots of work to do despite i am just new here and i am just reporting 1st day of work.and wat the heck man, they always give me last min work and expect me to finish up by the end of the day when i onli have around 15 mins to finish up for them before its time to knock off.so what? i am supposed to finish 6 to 7 quotations in 15 mins?? wah lao its just impossible wat.so wat tat day i am the 2nd lastest to leave the company and all the perm staff has left liao, onli left me and another perm staff.so kelian man, i dun understand why tat day i am so hardworking to the extent tat even boss left before me and i dun even have OT pay for the extra hours tat i have worked for.The auntie over there keep asking me to go bac first and she wanted to wait for me to finish up my work but i told her not to wait for me cos its just reali too much to complete, so she call up my boss to tell her abt my progress..yup, so boss told me not to worry and so i left for home loh.so the uncompleted work i pass bac to the ppl who gave me loh, aiya who cares man.i mean u ppl should know tat i 1st day of work cant reali help out tat much since i am still not familiar with the system.just give me more time to master the new program then i will speed up my work..but seriously i am veri blur when i step for work for the 1st day cos everything seems just so alien to me.hai~and whatever they talked abt, all just seems so alien to me cos i dun understand at all..and they lunch time still talk abt work..oh man, give me a break lah.so i just have to sit there quietly and daydream during lunch time.
next week my collegue are on leave, so i am left on my own..oh man, i cant imgaine how i can cope with myself..ok, i predict next mon will be super stressful.
to me, i am seriously sick of this home especially when your mum keep finding fault with u for no reason and ended up keep quarreling and bickering the whole day with u..of cos being someone who gets flare up easily especially towards someone like her who show attitude to u and keep requesting unreasonable demands.how can i not be angry and quarrel bac with her.i think without my brother around, i think the frequency of us engaging in quarrels got even higher.she always says tat she prays tat i will meet with mischap some day, wat the heck, i hear liao also angry.yes, i admit tat i am unfilial to her, but if she change her attitude to me, perhaps i will change my attitude towards her, else i doubt i will talk nicely to her.i always respect and talk nicely to my dad cos he always reason out things with me and i reali dun like ppl to use violence to talk things to me.so wat u got a loud voice, i am not scared of u man.
21st birthday for lots of ppl are coming up..ok i got 2 to attend to, and i tink i gotta save up soon for birthday present..and my piano teacher is super naggy man..though i think he is quite experienced, but i dun reali like him..i would prefer my previous teacher.

~tat cute agent~

todae early morning had to wake up early just to meet tat agent to sign the 3 months contract tat we have agreed on.yeah as usual i think he knows tat i wil be late again so he purposely put it at an early timing just in case i eat into his lunch time.yes, he was right cos i am late again but this time round not as bad as before lah.so before i met up with him in the office, i was quite urgent to go toilet and surprising i met him outside the toilet so he called out for me.seriously i am kinda shocked tat he still remembers me cos i thought usually agents will meet lots of ppl in a day and so the tendancy of forgetting a person's look is quite high.wah at moment, i was having some foolish and crazy thoughts tat if onli he is my bf then it will be gd..but hey i got to wake up my idea man.yup, he was saying me like why i look so sian and i was asked to smile more since i am doing customer service.and he sae i shouldnt sit the way i sit todae (slouching as if i have no backbones like tat) and i was asked to uphold a gd image of myself.well, tml i will put on my best performance.as for todae, i am still quite sick and sian so cant reali bothered abt all these small details.but i think he is kinda a blur agent cos ask him anything also not sure.aiyo..yeah i still got 6 chances to see him again which will last til april.haha.
after the signing of the contract went to town a while to walk around before proceeding home.and seriously i am super frustrated when i cant find a single bus stop along the road to go bac home..tat time i was cursing why is the road system so bad.i walked from far east all the way to outside the british council (Somewhere near tanglin mall) and seriously leg feels super tired la esp with heels.
also in the late evening todae i recevied a phone call from my the other agent from other agency.and she said tat the DBS bank has confirm willing to hire me, which means tat my interview has pass.but sad to sae tat i have already sign the contract with tat cute agent liao so cant run away liao.of cos i am abit of regretted for signing the contract, but wat to do, wat has done has already done.actually i think on tat day of interview tat agent did call me to tell me abt the gd news, but just tat i think my phone got some problem so didnt recevied her call, so i think she onli then call me up todae to tell me but it came too late cos tat cute agent has call me up the day before her and has confirm with me tat i have gotton a job.but seriously i thought tat i would screw up my interview at the DBS bank again and i didnt dare to think abt it tat i would get employed by them cos i didnt reali talk much and she didnt reali ask much qns either.but one thing which i kept emphasizing was tat i want to pursue business in university (Which was a lie) so i choose to apply for this bank job..oh pls, i never want to touch business in my life cos i am not those business type of person. then she answered me like "i thought u will go sci course since u are a sci student", but who cares lah, interview sometimes is abt lying in order to get tat job tat u wished for. haha.never mind, this time i shall forgo this chance of entering the banking industry, after april when my contract ends, i shall look for a bank job again.meanwhile i shall just stick on to my sci reseach company.just pray hard tat tml will be a nice and gd environment just like wat tat cute agent.hopefully he is not lying.

~tat place is kinda ulu~

todae just went for an interview at the DBS bank at the alxendra terrance road there, and its reali super ulu.its neither assessible too and i think onli ppl tat have cars can work there..ppl like us who take public transport dun reali yearn to work there cos reaching there can be quite a problem cos its quite isolated.of cos when i knew tat i started to feel reali sian liao cos i cant imagine myself working there.seriously this time round, i reali did prepare veri hard for the interview cos this time round i got more time to do research and of cos tried to memorized watever i can cos this time round i reali want to do well in interview.but so unlucky this time round the interviewer didnt ask the same qns tat were ask by the previous interviewers.so have to on the spot think of how to sae.but basically i talk crap again cos i didnt reali want this job after much reconsideration..she told me tat sometimes i might need to work late and perhaps some sat need to come bac to finish up my work.all these i just couldnt commit myself to cos sat got lesson to attend.weekday cant reali work OT frequently (but once a while still ok) cos after work still must go home practice piano.all my days are usually quite packed le.argh, sometimes i am just reali tired..
then todae my shuai ge agent called cos he got job lobang for me..yeah first was A star research company and i am shortlisted for interview.but seriously i reali hate to go for interview cos i always cock up in interview and i am bad at speaking also, so veri often i cant get a job.and i have gone for many interviews le, so i am kinda sick of going for another interview again and waiting for reply.but seriously i yearn to work at A star cos i think it would be benefical for me esp if i want to continue sci course in university. on the other hand, i have confirm been hired by some company without having going through interview and its a 3 months contract doing customer service.seriously i have never been able to stay for a job for more than 3 months, longest was just 1.5 months.i relai duno if i can take up this contract cos to me its quite long..wat if i dun like tat job? and i have yet to know wat am i supposed to do and the working environment and all those and yet i have to sign the contract already..all these seems veri unfair to job seekers man.oh no i am veri confused.
slacking at home this few days make me even more tired.duno why either.hai~everyday is just practising piano here and there and i am reali sick of such life le cos i reali hate ppl to force me play when i dun like to play piano at all.sometimes i think i am just wasting my dad's hard earned money and yet i put in no effort to learn at all..tat's also explain why i always fail my grade 8 piano.

~the gathering @ tanu house~

the gathering went pretty well at her house.food was kinda nice and i was surprised tat dogs can be so smart.well, for me, i am still scared of dogs despite knowing tat her dog is not reali tat fierce..though initally it will tend to bark at u, but after a while the dog will not bark at u anymore.seriously tat time was the first time tat i bodly dare to touch a dog's body cos she has agreed to hold on to the dog and preventing it from fidgiting.went home pretty late tat night again and gathering seems quite fruitful.
staying at home ever since this week seems veri annoying and pissed off for me cos my mum kept on finding fault with me regardless of wether i am right or wrong.at times dad is so unhappy and bu shuang tat he decides to step out of the house to take a breather.yes, hopefully i find a job reali soon so tat i can no need to stay at home anymore and see her shitty face.wat the heck man, she kept on cursing tat i cant get that particular job for whichever company's interview tat i went for.
deep within my heart, i want to tell myself tat i wont want to think of mo mo ren anymore.cos its enough and i dun want to play hide and seek with him anymore.i shall return to a bo chap person and lead my bo chap life.

~the date~

yesterday was my last day of work.i was kinda sad when i have finally decide to leave this workplace.my supervisor still sae tat if i want to come bac then they will welcome me.hai~feel reali bad for leaving the company for selfish personal reasons..ya, this week was quite slack lah cos i dun reali need to do much things cos i am handing over all my stuff to the new girl and so this week pay is kinda easy to earn ah..but yesterday i was super sleepy la cos i onli sleep for 3 hrs.so once a while when i was stoning then i suddenly fall asleep but of cos i didnt sleep boldly lah esp when the boss around , else this will leave a super impression to ppl esp if one fall asleep during work time.yes then after work went for a date i suppose if u wan to call it one.and worst thing was i waited him for 45 min. and this reali leave a bad impression tat i had for him.ya went to carl junior to eat burger but seriously the burger is damn big lah, so its kind of reali full, after which duno why he suggested to go to the merlion status tat area, somewhere near the esplanet.then half way through we walked through many dark places, and i dun understand why must he choose to walk such ulu place when we can walk through those bright places.ok, guys are always weird and up to no gd motives.but seriously the scenery over there are reali nice, esp when u sit down facing the sea and everything just seems veri relax.well, we had a talk for over 2 hrs like tat.but somehow duno why i feel abit weird going such places with him cos those places are reali meant for couples to go there de wat.ok, but i reali think things are going reali weird..
todae onwards jobless le.yeah, finally can rest for some time..todae also attended for an interview and surprising my agent was quite handsome..haha.but i think he is attached, for too bad.morning have an interview again, hopefully it will go well this time round.

~welcome 2008 ~

this yr countdown did nothing compared to last yr.well, part of the reason was my brother was not in singapore, so no one to pei me go home if i were to stay out after midnight.tat day also received my pay for tat month..tat time i suddenly feel so rich and loaded with money cos my wallet has never got so much money and thick before.so after receiving this pay wanted to go shopping but its seems tat there is nothing for me to buy leh..supposedly tat day should be a half day for most companies, but again my company is special cos we need to work for full day..wa lao hear liao also sian.but at least the boss agreed to let us off 1 hr earlier, else this company is reali too kiasu to piah so much..tat day also wanted to see the fei lun hai autogragh session de, but it oni startes at 11.30pm, which is near midnight lah, and seriously i duno why they put at such a weird timing.well, tat time when i was at imm it was onli 8 something, so decided not to wait le.
then regarding the previous "Dream" tat i had, it seems tat i am reali not dreaming ah..maybe wat yh said was right, initally i may find him relatively attractive and fresh cos long time never see each other liao mah, but after a while, things started to get kinda bored and stale and yes i do admit it.
then yesterday went to johor to shop and eat.we reali ate until veri full cos we kept stopping to eat cos their food are reali cheap compare to spore currency..and i find it hard to communicate with them over there cos they speak malay and i dun understand at all esp when they tell me abt the price of the food..i tried to speak english to them but they dun seems to understand.in all bought a alot of tibits home and nothing else, surprising there is no clothes or shoes..i am kinda surprised when over there we can self service our own food,just like buffet and take as much as u wan and yet u pay the same amt..then yesterday on our way to johor,one veri frightening thing happened on the train and my dad was the unlucky one who kana it.there was this particular indian man kana posses by "dirty things" and when he was sleeping on the train, he suddenly grab hold of my dad veri firmly and my mum who was sitting besides my dad shouted aloud and yes it attracted lots of ppl attention.somehow my dad didnt resist despite tat man grabbing him reali firm.after which tat indian man shivered tremendously and fall off his seat and his whole body just fall flat on the ground..oh man tat time i was super scared and wanted to cry out le cos i never seen so scary things before. then worst still he went to bite his own tongue and blood reali came off and stain the ground inside the train.apparently no one wants to help this indian man and everyone trys to shunt off from him, yeah this just shows how"helpful" singaporeans are.but there is a grp of indians did tried to splash and sprinkle water on tat man face and after which carry him out of the next station,my dad also helped him despite my mum kept scolding him not to help cos she felt tat this kind of thing are unlucky..well, someting tat puzzled me was why did he became conscious onli after they sprinkle water on his face??hmm..maybe tat's something tat cant be explain using sci..well, tat day was reali an eye opener for me.
yeah, tml will be my last day and maybe i do want to rest a while cos i haven been resting well since my A levels finish.its time i take a short break, meanwhile looking for jobs around.and now having paying adult fare reali feel heartpain man cos its so costly compared to student fare lah..hai~everything in spore is abt money..