i dun understand is money that impt?????

this mad women still haven end her nonsense..even after the 3rd day after i landed in sg she still keep scolding  and keep finding fault wif me..i am pissed off when she kept throwing my things away when i still need it and she claims that i anyhow put my stuff tat's why she is clearing my room for me..pls..i always put watever i need nicely..she just dun like things to be put on my study table..she wants it to be empty so that she can keep the table aside in a corner..she is just a weirdo freak !

and she every min keep saying : u will regret not marrying a rich guy..she kept asking me go find doctor and dentist..pls la, its not as if i study dentistry or medicine..how to know all these ppl..and moreover i dun pei them at all..duno why she is such a materialistic person..all she knows is just $$$ ...every sentence she says also link to $$$...she says he also an undergraduate will also earn ard the same amt as u..then why bother to be together.so she say i should find someone who study masters or hounours..she said who knows nxt time u will be the one supporting him instead of him supporting u..sigh..i just feel she is damn calculative..and she added something lik : nxt time when u guys gg buy hse if he earns very little then you will have to fork out all the money urself..like that u might well dun marry and stay single like my aunt...come on, u is u..me is me..i am so old alrdy..i dun need u to control my life..this mad women is really damn fann..i wan to faster get out of this bloody hell place.

the worst has come-my parents have discovered my r/s

9 days in phuket and bkk was shoik.it was really a mental break for me from home.but during this trip, i kept on receiving calls from home, and at that point i really wondered what's so impt that she kept on calling me except from wanting to know my results..yuan lai she discovered my photos in my cupboard..what made me angry was i really kept it in a secret place alrdy and even kiap in between pages but i didnt expect she went to ransack my cupboard when i was away for this 9 days and saw my private photos with eug..initally wanted to do a scrap book for him..i kept all the chicken essence and movie tics wanting to paste in all in the scrap book..now that i tink she either threw it away or she kept it away from me.seriously i am super super angry.not only that, she kept on scolding non stop and every min since ytd i landed in spore.its like wtf i gg mad man..just now i really broke down and scream at her cos she has hit my torelant level..watever she say i chose to keep quiet and ignore her..but when she kept on throwing my new stuff tat i just bought from thailand, it really pissed me off cos i did nothing wrong why throw my stuff in the bin..f*** man.and she kept on saying and make me sound like i am a prostitute..and ask me go see doc to see if i pregnant or nt..bloody hell..i hate listening to all this.u like to sound like a crude so i will be crude and rude to u..who cares !!!!!!!!!!! u say every daughter very nice to her mum, but not me..come on, u wake up ur idea first..who is the one who treat me like tat first..i dun treat my dad lik how i treat u..u should really reflect on urself rather than thinking that u are some power women in which everyone has to listen to ur bidding like a dog..

bloody hell looks like i needa find a job that work til damn late..reach home will be super late and by then she will be sleeping..if not for bf i would have find a permanent job overseas..go alrdy wont come bac spore alrdy..work there forever and i really mean what i say.and the reason why is becos i wan to get away from this stupid family.i dun wan see her face hor hear her voice. but i will still care for my dad.

alrights bac to my trip..phuket generally quite sian in fact..luckily we didnt stayed there for long...but i overcome my fear in pools..thanks to my dear..he helped me overcome it..but i duno how to swim though.but at least now i nt as scared in water liao..and best is i even went down to the sea to canoe..its the best experience of all..although i cant canoe but i feel its quite fun though..

bkk wise is super gd for shopping and eat..i really ate non stop over there cos every meal seems so cheap..but i am so dark now..my feckles are so obvious now man.. ;(

for now i really hope my mum can accept him..i seriously dun understand why she sees money as such an impt criteria to be my bf..i dun even mind, why should she bother tat much..sometimes i just feel she is just so materialistic..and so what my bro has a doctorate degree..he has lousy character...so pls dun everytime compare me wif him..i am totally diff frm him..and pls stop asking to find richer bf..i hate it. !!!!!!!!!!!!

i am gg phuket and bkk in 2 days time ! whoo !

i cant feeling excited gg for phuket and bkk in 2 days for shopping and relaxing..totally happy !!! its er ren shi jie wif dearest ! i guess i will shop til drop like what i always do whenever i go shanghai..

right now i cant find any temp job... ;( how man..i need alot money for sdyney..jialat now..july i needa clear off tution loan liao. ;(

a month of update-happiness and unhappiness all right here !

8th may was the finale for my 4 yrs of studying in uni..Finally i can say that i am offically out of the boring studies.but that day was kinda sad cos i couldnt ans most of the examinor qns.he still commented that i didnt get my fundamentals strong enough.wa this comment is kinda impactful to me.esp it signals to me that i will get lousy grades becos of his comments. So of cos i will be sad. but then duno why on that particular i dun really feel very very happy tat i am finally out of the boring studying cycle.

after FYP presentation was my prom.i felt abit confident tat i was better dressed than usual cos with the make up and nice hair, i felt better looking..generally, this prom has nice food but interaction with course mates was just so so.we didnt make new friends cos we are always in a clique taking photos together.very hard to mingle around with new ppl and take photos wif them.but wat actually surprised me that my clique actually agreed to go club after the graduation nite.i thought everyone is gg back home to sleep.for me, a very memorable moment was el sabo-ing me to take photo wif my eye candy. Though i dun think he look really tat fanatasic,but of all guys i tink he stand out the most among my course.but then i was kinda disappointed with him.my image of him totally dropped after the clubbing event. I still prefer "gd boy" over "bad boy" though many at times its the bad boy who attracted me at first sight.but i still prefer having a "gd boy" being my bf. He can be boring at times but dun do unfaithful things to me can alrdy.i dun like the betrayal feeling and 2 time gers too. Nevermind he is nt my bf anw.whatever he does doesnt really concern me.afterall he is just my eye candy.i cant say much..i guess once i offically stepped out of sch, there wouldnt be much eye candy for me alrdy.

then sun went for my first ODAC trip with dearest. i can only say ODAC trip is my god.i didnt expect to be so bad.i thought its just bringing us to see waterfall, and not really getting into the water and get the whole body wet.and i am defintely not those sporty ppl and i have never tried all of these activities before.and so i am the most noob ppl of all who cant walk and conquer the difficulties with ease.duno why those ppl can walk so fast with so many unstable rocks and so much water..and i cant stand the mud and dirtiness.perhaps i was trained to be a "clean freak" and i have never ever exposed to such dirty trips so naturally i will be abit princess compared to the rest of the ppl.i think those ppl might be thinking why am i acting like a princess..

then today was a bad day to start with.quarrel with bf..actually not really quarrel but was rather upset cos he suddenly sound v pek chek and flare up when i was giving him ideas for his prom....of cos my reaction is FINE la..then dun bother to ask me for opinion lo...my ex never flare with me before lo..we were peaceful couple, just tat i couldnt connect with him cos i was young at tat point of time.the age gap was a BIG PROBLEM...i guess after a long time being together,couple tends to take for granted of each other...tat is wat i learnt from my past relationship.so i told myself i dun wan take ppl for granted.Since we started our r/s, i never have problems with him..never say or nag anything.i am quite diff frm most gers..i can quite bo chap at times too.but then i really dun like ppl to nag at me.i will turn a deaf ear to ppl who nag at me often. by then in the long run, i guess i will lose the inital love that i have for you. probably i will find you a nag rather than love you and care for you. somewat i always feel i am a lousy gf, dun pei u at all.but since we have stayed together for such a long time, i wouldnt want to giv up that's why choose to giv in and listen to you.cos i have no opinion many at times.

on the other hand, my first interview went pretty well though i was quite upset due to the quarrel..i didnt expect i will get the job cos i didnt talk much and i gave rubbish ans also.but wat i manage to research totally came out !!! somehow i feel like i am doing some past yr paper qns ;) but anw when the interviewer said tat i will be given laptop and blackberry..my immediate reaction within my heart totally sian diao liao cos meaning i needa work outside office hours.this kind of job totally no life one.but the interviewer was a female and a guy..the guy whom i will be working under has pretty nice slang.i guess probably he has stayed overseas for quite some time to get tat slang.tmr i am gg for round 2 interview.i really hope i can get ard 3k for this job, but actually i dun really know if i wan this job or nt.cos somehow i still prefer jobs tat can travel...

alrights i shall forget the unhappiness today and hopefully i can "recover my heart" by tmr..i really hope we can stay a happy couple.no quarrels and unhappiness with each other.