~lost in career direction~

          i have been thinking what do i really want to do in life. After working here, i am pretty certain that i dont liked education line too. honestly speaking teaching is a super hard skill to learn man. Mastering to teach kids are seriously not easy at all. i am preparing lessons for seconday school students now and i am really no different from a teacher now apart from having to mark books and setting test paper. My job is to teach two lessons in sch starting in July and after which i am done for the day. The remaining time i could use it to mark the worksheets that i have given out to the students but well for my experiments there are not much to be marked actually because there are a range of ans for that. But right now, where can i go? i am really looking into a better package and better pay. i am not sure if i really regretted giving up that oil and gas job for my current job. But well, this job really feel less stressful and tiring as compared to my previous job. at least i didnt fall sick that much taking up this job.previously becos i spend like 9am-6pm in front of comp until my eyes condition turned really bad and thats how my dry eyes arised from there. now that i think my eyes should be better since i dun feel any pain now.

            i really hope to find my sense of direction now.Feel so lost ~ and i am not really sure if i look forward to going schs to teach in July although one of the school which i was asigned to is a few blks away from my hse only. so its actually damn shoik cos no need wake up early to teach ;) but another school perhaps further but luckily i am not posted to the east to teach. i am really the lucky one because some of the colleagues are really posted to the east to teach and travelling itself already very taxing and tiring !

           perhaps i should really start looking around occasionally now for jobs opening.

hongkong trip updates

            Hello blog its been almost 1 month since I last blog. Life has been pretty well, so far so good and during april went off to hongkong, macau, Shenzhen and Zhuhai. In fact honestly speaking I dun really like macau and hongkong. Everything is so ex and hongkong air is really super super bad..everywhere you go also got people smoke and you cant really breathe properly ! other than that shopping was ex too. Only bought a lot of cheap bags and clothes from a building that seems like bugis. Else most of the shopping are really high end. And I cant believe that over in hongkong, we practically had 4-5 meals everyday and yes supper definitely every night. Not that we are hungry, but rather that tiam chiak bf of mine wanna try hk food so no choice but to eat with him..and I gain weight after I came back ;( I went for probably 8 days and this holiday was really good. After I came back was really busy with unpacking of my luagge and work.

                I was kinda depressed and stressed initially over teaching..cant believe that I am the only one in the department that keep failing my certification for teaching. Duno is I suay or what, I am always the unlucky one who kana the HOD ppl and the HOD ppl are more stern and strict towards their certification and so I failed twice for two different assessments. So I was really demoralized and depressed cos its only me ! the rest of my colleagues are really heng. All kana the kind souls and all of them pass with first attempt. Well, teaching is really not my cup of tea. I am still looking for more options. I have really been trying hard to made improvements to my teaching. Really hope that one day I can teach well and made all students understand me.Apparently most of the time I already felt that my instructions are really clear with diagrams and everything, but student still dun understand. Is it me or isit the students problem? I always ask this but yet I never gotten any ans. That time was so depressed and upset that I broke down and cried in front of one of my colleagues cos I really see myself really unlucky always kana the HOD to access me. Well, they should understand that I have zero teaching background and all my colleagues have some prior teaching background. So of cos comparing them to me, I am definitely much more lousier. Haiz. Wat can I do now? I am really thinking of more options now.perhaps education really not for me.

 

               Today is the day I am going to catch luo zhi xiang concert ! super duper happy lo. He is my favourite singer since the jc days and today I am catching him live on stage ! super excited but I am really sad that dear cant go ;( sian de he always cant go with me.