i am really upset yet angry with my colleagues

          yesterday i was feeling really depressed and upset over my colleagues comments. they are really a bunch of asshole who commented on my learning style. i was badly hurt by their comments and to prove them wrong, i shall do much way better than them so that they shut their mouth up !! fucking insensitive idoits who gave such hurting comments. guess what they say..they keep saying i memorise the slides and keep writing scripts which seems like i am going for "A level exam"..fucker ass hole who are you to comment on my way of learning. i needa a script to sort out my thinking then i can then predict wat qns the students will ask..and worst one bloody lady wanted to swap classes and me and she is not even sincere about swapping..she still added that i got more time to "revise"..wah when everyone heard that they were laughing..u know at that point of them how ashammed and how much dignity i lost..i really cried after which and i ask my guy colleague to pei me cos i really wanna let out.he also heard that and feels that they are too guo fen..fine since they say such mean things to me, i shall be sacastic one day !! dun think i am nice to bully just because i smile everyday...you have made me angry and make ppl laugh at me.i will sooner get back to you and make you lose face !!

i am the most angry when they ask if i am a JC student and they say they are from poly.thus it explains the way we teach classes..come on la.i know my stuff better than you..u dun have the right to look down on me when both of u have a local degree..come on, SIM and overseas university is afterall not as preferred as local certs..so please ppl stop thinking that you guys are smarter than me.i really hate that bloody cocky attitude of urs ! i shall give you black face from now on !!

~lost for a new start ~

           its been really long since i last updated my blog.kinda been busy lately rarely got time to go online now ever since i started work. well, right now i am very lost..duno wat am i doing also. no aim..zzz department doing de stuff also all purely on research.Man... worst still i am the only young chiense girl and apparently i feel that i attacted the wrong crowd of guys..really zzz..i thought they knew i am attached right.then why is he trying to eat my tofu leh. DAMN really feel like screwing him off although i just say say cos i wouldnt dare to say him for constantly touching my shoulder..initally thought that its me who think too much but he really did it on purpose for a few times. so after which i smart liao keep finding excuses not to let him come close to me. he jio me eat lunch i give excuse not free. Stay back after work do stuff i also not free. lol say i got date. whatever it is just come out with some shit ideas to get off from him.. u know i am damn sian diao when my supervisor ask me to work with him..seriously why so suay ! luckily after tmr i no need work with him closely anymore.

             and yes still got another weirdo guy also.keep send me random text that is not related to work stuff.diaoz.. why all the ppl there so weird de. i take it that i am the only chinese young girl there so they bo bian only got me to see. I shall not tell myself that i am attractive over there although after going through the orientation i am pretty confident that its not hard to be attractive over there when there are no pretty girls over there.lol cos mostly middle age aunties haha

Am I really very stupid to reject a high paying job for a low paying job for a long term career plan?

             This whole week I am really depressed cos suddenly so many companies offer me job and every company pressing for me to give a decision soon. Wanted to make a decision liao then suddenly got 2 more companies ask me to come down for interview and all the companies all not bad one. Until now I am really reluctant to take a lower pay job and some more its only a renewable contract job… To me I see money/ salary as a very important factor in deciding whether or not should I take up the job. Honestly speaking the pay really low compared to my last drawn basic..i really wanted to reject the job liao and go for my oil and gas job which pay much much higher with better bonuses and aws. In fact its even better than my ex company. Because of that I was really depressed cos I cant accept the fact that I should accept the lower paid job for a long term career plan. My best friend keep telling me to go for the lower paying job and it will definitely be a stepping stone for my future career. I wish it could really happen but I really no confidence of jumping into another public division because there are so many smart and good people out there. Question is how do you outshine these people to get a switch in job. I am really scared. Whereas if I were to take the crewing job, although I hated the job cos that’s the reason why I left the ex company also. Although I can do the job, but for the sake of high pay and money for my future, I dun have a choice if I were to choose this job.

 

             Eventually 2 days before, the crewing company kept on pestering me for a decision and I bo bian rejected it although I really wanted to take up the job liao when dear said that maybe I should work for the sake of money. If you are willing to piah, oil and gas can really make you a Richie. No joke man. The bouses alone can really make you rich if you can endure the industry and work for many many yrs. Well, I really forgo this opportunity given this time..abit sad though cos I gave up a job that can make me richer next time.

But now, since I have made up a decision. I shall work hard for 1 yr + within the public service and I shall see if I got chance to proceed further. If I am going to stuck at that level, I guess I am going back to my oil and gas and be a more practical women. Money is still an important factor. I want to work hard now and earn more money so that next time I can finish my housing payment earlier. I dun like to be in debt cos the feeling really very tong ku.

I gonna tell myself that I shouldn’t be that sad anymore because in life its about making wise choices and taking a risk. Perhaps I am betting one yr of my career on something which I am very uncertain about now. After a year I will decide again where to go if things doesn’t appeal good. I hate changing jobs cos I dun like changes but sometimes if things are not favourable you just have to make changes so that things would be in your favour.

I shall commence work next week. 5.5 months of slacking is enough. Time to earn money again. Cant wait for my hong kong trip next month. Shall earn this one month pay and spend it in HK !