~busy week ~

          chinese new yr is coming and last sun went out with my jc girls for shopping and lao yu sheng. went to explore a few eating place too and the time just passed very fast when i are outside the entire day. monday was a tiring day, went out with dear with no aim cos duno where to go liao..spore so small.went town whole day do nothing.

      tues got a call for an organization and she asked if i can come down the on the day itself on the afternoon. Walao crazy i never even prepare how to even go for interview.. so obviously i say i not free even though i am free.i wont be so stupid to kill myself on the spot. so i tried delaying 2 days after when i am very certain that i have enough time to prepare for the interview. So thur went for the interview and i tink i did pretty ok. but oh well, even if i think i did ok, its still up to the interviewer if they wants me. perhaps on my side, i might be asking too much, but i am just trying my luck and i am putting negotiable for that pay. honestly speaking i dun think i am asking too much considering my last base pay was quite high as a recruitment consultant. now that i wanna switch line i wouldnt want to get a lower base pay either. Becos i used to work for the oil and gas industry, thats why my base pay was quite high, other wise as a recruitment consultant, the base pay wouldnt be that high since there will be commission given.hopefully i can really get the job as a project executive, although i dun dare to think too much cos i always think that there are always people better than me and asking for lesser money.LOL..i gonna pray hard that they call me again after cny for the 2nd interview.

        this week gonna be busy..going sailing today and perhaps movie at night. and today my bro gf coming from sydney and tmr needa meet up as a family to have our reunion dinner cos she will be back to sydney in a few days time..

~why cant i have a happy family?? ~

         monday interview wasnt what i really wanted too. Firstly company was small and there isnt much staff.. Another thing is its location is super ulu at TUAS and i feel like i am totally out of place when i used to work in a CBD area and now i am desperate til dun mind working in the industrial area..honestly its not what i really want but the company ask me come for second interview though for the HR opening. But i failed the buyer interview cos the interviewer say my experience not enough.. Man i spend one whole day reading up on supply chain lo and indeed its not easy to spot the interview questions that they ask..alot of them are actually scenario qns like: " if all three suppliers are good, how do you know which one to choose ?? " this qn really stumbled me cos i no experience of cos wont know what to do. So i anyhow say bo bian..but for HR wise, since msot of which i have done it before, but perhaps just expanding what i did previously for oil and gas.. Actually now, i feel really demoralised looking for jobs. Find and Find but hard to get a job that i want.. ;(


         and tues was rotting day for me cos was tired after a consecutive days of preparing for interviews.. and yesterday went out with dear and bro came along to join in for lunch at wild honey.. and i was feeling very depressed yesterday after i came home..i was asking myself why cant i have a happy family whereby everyone respect one another.. Mum totally dun respect me at all. My bro wants a personal room by himself, she give him, but when i want she dun let..what sort of reasoning is this ?? its obvious that my mum is biased and she favour my bro over me..just becos my bro is smarted and his career next time is more or less confirmed working in the govt sector liao..in fact his career will only sore higher being a scholar but people like me continued to remain unemployed..


         My bro attitude is rude and arrogant but mum has to choice but to boot lick him cos all her future lies in him..she rely on him to get her citizhenship now, also next time he is sure to earn alot so she will defintely stand to gain..and this is what i hate about her..yesterday threw so much of my stuff away and i told her countless times not to touch my room stuff when i repeatedly shouted and screamed at her..i really felt very tired and going crazy soon until yesterday midnight i really shout damn loud and scream like a crazy women cos she really blew my top liao..i am always very nice and well tempered..never got angry except she making me pissed..she really dun respect people stuff..people stuff is rubbish and gargage but her stuff is precious like stones..seriously if she pissed me off one day, i will throw away all her favourite stuff and let her know the feeling of losing her favourite things..

         she kept on saying that we 3 singaporeans keep bullying her as a foreigner but we really dun have such intention.. i never even tink of her being a foreigner..is she ownself think too much..and when we say she has some mental illness liao ask her to see doc but she say we are crazy..all the symptoms already show signs that she is siao -over possess over cleaniess..

           seriously why cant i have a happy family..All i want is peace and a happy family who gives me warmth..why cant i feel that in my family?? why is it that whenever i comes home, i feel sad and angry?? sometimes i really ask myself when can i get out of this house and live with dear even if i dun get married?? i cant stand it already..she is just too much..i really family warmth, not a battle field who always quarrel everyday.. maybe thats the reason why i always go home late and goes out of home early..i never want to stay at home cos of her :( i really hope one day she will changed

pineapple making and interview

               these few days kinda busy...first was pineapple tart making with dear and i spend 1 day doing that and its really shag imaging doing everything from scratch. Then i prepare for my interview and honestly i dont like the job scope cos i am the only HR in the department and it makes no difference to me being the director secretary or PA..seriously cos i was interviewed by the director and one thing is the company is small. ;( OH WELL i shall wait for news then.. Monday going to have another interview again for 2 positions in the same company. hopefully i can get one of them cos its near my house and i no need travel so far better man..


                and my bro came back spore yesterday..looks like he cant adapt staying in our cui house..everything is so lousy compared to his sydney house. oh well, what to do, he has to recognise and understand that our family are not as well off. so getting an accomodation is already very good already.


            i really hope that monday the interview that i am going will be the job that i will like. at least its something related to my previous industry ;)

getting demoralised over job search

           guess what, i am really getting more and more demoralised over searching for jobs. Got an insurance job offer for 3k as business development but i totally not keen. fine if i want also can take up but i can tell you, within one month i will quit. perhaps just get that one mth salary jiu quit liao.after reading the job description online, i think its alot of fianical planing which i do not like. and moreover i shouldnt waste my degree by entering this line. perhaps in the near future when i am old then this will be my last choice, or maybe it wont be my choice at all. i dislike insurance company since young, so i wouldnt work there at all.

          and 2 days back went out with dear for food hunt. ate ramen burger which i felt was alittle overpriced cos the ramen burger not as nice as the photo seems haha. perhaps mayb the ramen not gd enough but the meat was pretty ok. if there are improvment to the ramen perhaps it will taste better..After which went to eat laska for dinner. apparently the standard drop for laskania..tt time i ate was nicer at bugis. oh well, but never mind, its cheap anyway after using the voucher.


          hai ~think my plan of starting work in jan doesnt seems to work out now. and honestly speaking, waiting for calls everyday can be a torture. ;(


       

awesome new yr eve to mark the start of 2014

           boxing day was good especially with nice jap food. finally meet up with dear after 1 week nv see him cos he busy with work ;( wanted to catch the movie but end up cant cos reach there too late so end up window shop.


           monday was a day where i went to agency to interview for some business executive job..the job isnt wat i wanted though but this job doesnt require any experience cos they will train you from start but problem is i dun like finance industry. aiya nvm just let the client review first. if they want can talk more during interview. but pay honestly not too bad for a non experience person. only concerned is i might have difficulty looking out for a new job in the event i wish to job hop again.

           new yr eve was gd. met up with my jc friends for lunch, then in the evening went siloso and at night go to floating platform. everything was packed in a day. totally awesome cos fireworks and everything seems so real and nice. and i was lucky that this yr my new yr eve wasnt as boring as last yr.;but nevertheless hope 2014 will be a better yr for me and faster let me find a job that i like ! hai ~ really tired of sending so many cvs and no one call me except agencies. ;(