wed was out the entire day to ntu cos we are having our freshman ceremony at the nanyang audi..but i seriously find tat all those "talks" are abit crap la, onli for my own mse sch then i find it more useful cos it explains most of my doubts abt the uni grading system.then wherever we go, i realised tat there are lots of buffet onholding la.so practically i am eating non stop the whole day.then after which everything ends, i went to my student house to teach lo.actually it seems tat i veri long time never teach piano liao cos i feel tat i have lost touch with the piano since i stopped practising my piano last month.
then yesterday ( thur) went to ntu again to accompany xin yi cos she wanted to get the ntu sweater so bo bian have to listen to the crap talk at nanyang audi again.then i saw my SP, but he didnt saw me, so i was hiding myself away from him to avoid him seeing me cos i was quite ugly in dressing yesterday.but apparantly, the more i wanted to hide from him, the more i always bum into him.but heng eventually he still didnt notice tat i crash into their talk yesterday.but wat shocked me yesterday tat i actually saw ac after so many many yrs.i reali did expect to see him there..initally i didnt notice him de even though he was standing rite behind xin yi and me, but after he walked down the stairs, i suddenly remembered this familiar face and yes its him.actually at tat point of time, i reali hope to say a hi to him if he were to walked past my seat,but apparantly, he didnt walked past even though we are just sitting at the most end of the seats, so didnt got a chance to say a hi to him.xin yi told me tat i should go bac to say a hi to him after the event ends, but i did tried looking for him, but ended up duno where he has gone.i guess afterall we are not even fated to be friends ba. =( anyway after which went to meet up with can to pei her cut hair cos she reali came all the way from aljunied to my house just to cut hair.haha, i think she is abit siao huh.then after which she pei me to jurong there to dye my hair.now my hair is coloured and i got a new image now ! yeppie =) but seriously i am not going bac to the salon tat i dyed my hair yesterday cos the service is super damn lousy and slow.by the time i reached home, its already 7 plus.kay.tat's all for now,cos i relai need to do research on my uni stuff liao cos i am still veri blur over lots of things.in an hour time, i am going to meet my ex colleague for lunch =)
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
~Qet test today~
yesterday reached home then rot a while and watch tv til like 11pm before starting reading my gp notes, hopping tat i could spot some topics,but apparantly none of them came out.seriously i very long never write eassy liao and all of the sudden i need to write eassy, so i seriously got no idea wat to write and somemore my brain is already rusty man, so gonna write crap then..so today while waiting at the 179 bus stop for eng lim to come, i saw 2 familiar yjcians..yes, they are kelvin and mark soon.ooo,my eye candy is in NTU =) but we didnt talk to each other la..too bad.in general, i just hope tat i can pass the test so i dun wan to take english course in uni and i have got my timetable liao..seriously i am super blur now.duno wat electives i am taking either and neither do i know how to read the timetable cos its just so confusing.actually i am just veri blur for everything.
it seems tat everyone is attached lately.though i have someone tat i admire, but too bad he likes another girl, so i abit sian liao..never mind.though i yearn to have a partner once in a while, but too bad i dun have the luck...kay, gtg to meet can.
it seems tat everyone is attached lately.though i have someone tat i admire, but too bad he likes another girl, so i abit sian liao..never mind.though i yearn to have a partner once in a while, but too bad i dun have the luck...kay, gtg to meet can.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
~my SP partner~
last wed i tried to sneak out of the camp since they are going to sentosa to play beach games and i find it abit no point to travel here and there since tat nite i need to leave to teach piano..as i was reali too tired liao, initally promised hong li they all to come bac the changi chalet de at nite , but since my class ended reali late at 9pm, and also partly tat i am reali tired, so i told them tat i am going bac the chalet the next day (thur). so i brought my stuff and travelled for 1hrs 45 mins before reaching there and the journey is super long la.
first when we reached there, we had our SP session.and i am just lucky to arrive the chalet on time..hehe.overall my SP is reali not bad cos i got the most shuai guy in my entire group and most importantly he is taller than me.the rest abit cui except for another guy which i find him not bad too, just tat he is abit short.so practically, every gers in my group envy me la and i reali canot stand my grp gers when they came flocking towards him when we had a group date at tampiness mall fish and co..lohz..its super damn obvious la cos they bo chap their own SP and came to talk to mine.ok lo, i am fine with it since i am not reali interested in him though he is not bad looking.duno why, i just dun have the chemistry with him.so later they went for a grp movie date but me and another ger didnt go cos we came in late and there isnt anymore tickets for us anymore.so we went to eat ben and jerry and chill out instead.but i must say this SP of mine reali memerizing cos he got dimples..haha.super nice la.but i reali feel bad for not giving him my SP gift cos mine is reali cui man cos its meant for my previous cui SP, so i told him tat i will owe him a gift..but apparently i forgot to take his hp no, so duno why den manage to get his no and ask jing ying to pass to me.lohz.i sound like i am interested in him, but i think i am not ba.cos i just feel bad abt it..afterall he paid for the lunch and the taxi's and all those stuff..abit not nice huh.then thur nite had our fright nite.though its supposedly to be scary, but apparantly i am not frightened by those fake ghosts cos i have been trained in the previous mse camp liao..haha.but this guy partner of mine abit CMI cos he even scared himself before the ghost is out..lohz..so i choose to protect myself rather than he protecting me.haha.then ever since tat nite did sleep liao cos the chalet was too cold and so chatted with the seniors, but apparently tat AGL of mine chased me away cos they wan to have some meeting, so i no choice but to go bac to sleep but ended up cant sleep.
then fri we had amazing race and it was super shagged cos we went round spore and later in the nite, we had bbq and some sharing session which is confidencial..lohz..they ask very sensitive qns like who u dun like ,etc..lohz.how u wan me to ans sia.seriously i dun feel like answering them too de.and i think i am the most dumb to say out who is the most shuai senior cos no gers spell out which seniors they admire.and worst still i said den and he was laughing away..actually i didnt wan to say him de, as i wanted to say another senior's name, but somehow at tat pt of time i suddenly forgot his name, so i said den's name instead since i could onli rmb his name at tat pt of time.lohz.i think this is damn funny and comical la..anyway he is happy tat ppl praise him =) tat fri nite i didnt sleep too cos no bed for me to sleep, so for 2 consecutive nite i reali didnt sleep at all..
sat nite when for mse bbq..ate quite a lot too and stayed overnite too cos i was dragged to stay overnite.yeah chatted with ah boon and i am impressed at the way he thinks cos he tried to tell me how my parents think and stuff like tat.he told me tat i should be more understanding towards my mum since i know tat she wont change her attitude and characher towards me liao.anyway tml i am having my english profiency test le..wish me luck man..oh man, i reali dun wish to take english course at uni again.
first when we reached there, we had our SP session.and i am just lucky to arrive the chalet on time..hehe.overall my SP is reali not bad cos i got the most shuai guy in my entire group and most importantly he is taller than me.the rest abit cui except for another guy which i find him not bad too, just tat he is abit short.so practically, every gers in my group envy me la and i reali canot stand my grp gers when they came flocking towards him when we had a group date at tampiness mall fish and co..lohz..its super damn obvious la cos they bo chap their own SP and came to talk to mine.ok lo, i am fine with it since i am not reali interested in him though he is not bad looking.duno why, i just dun have the chemistry with him.so later they went for a grp movie date but me and another ger didnt go cos we came in late and there isnt anymore tickets for us anymore.so we went to eat ben and jerry and chill out instead.but i must say this SP of mine reali memerizing cos he got dimples..haha.super nice la.but i reali feel bad for not giving him my SP gift cos mine is reali cui man cos its meant for my previous cui SP, so i told him tat i will owe him a gift..but apparently i forgot to take his hp no, so duno why den manage to get his no and ask jing ying to pass to me.lohz.i sound like i am interested in him, but i think i am not ba.cos i just feel bad abt it..afterall he paid for the lunch and the taxi's and all those stuff..abit not nice huh.then thur nite had our fright nite.though its supposedly to be scary, but apparantly i am not frightened by those fake ghosts cos i have been trained in the previous mse camp liao..haha.but this guy partner of mine abit CMI cos he even scared himself before the ghost is out..lohz..so i choose to protect myself rather than he protecting me.haha.then ever since tat nite did sleep liao cos the chalet was too cold and so chatted with the seniors, but apparently tat AGL of mine chased me away cos they wan to have some meeting, so i no choice but to go bac to sleep but ended up cant sleep.
then fri we had amazing race and it was super shagged cos we went round spore and later in the nite, we had bbq and some sharing session which is confidencial..lohz..they ask very sensitive qns like who u dun like ,etc..lohz.how u wan me to ans sia.seriously i dun feel like answering them too de.and i think i am the most dumb to say out who is the most shuai senior cos no gers spell out which seniors they admire.and worst still i said den and he was laughing away..actually i didnt wan to say him de, as i wanted to say another senior's name, but somehow at tat pt of time i suddenly forgot his name, so i said den's name instead since i could onli rmb his name at tat pt of time.lohz.i think this is damn funny and comical la..anyway he is happy tat ppl praise him =) tat fri nite i didnt sleep too cos no bed for me to sleep, so for 2 consecutive nite i reali didnt sleep at all..
sat nite when for mse bbq..ate quite a lot too and stayed overnite too cos i was dragged to stay overnite.yeah chatted with ah boon and i am impressed at the way he thinks cos he tried to tell me how my parents think and stuff like tat.he told me tat i should be more understanding towards my mum since i know tat she wont change her attitude and characher towards me liao.anyway tml i am having my english profiency test le..wish me luck man..oh man, i reali dun wish to take english course at uni again.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
~camps at NTU~
ok, its been one and the half week time since i last blog cos i was stuck in camps.so i am trying to recall wat i have did for the past 1 week plus.last last fri, the meet up with my ex jc friends at aujisen-bishan was kinda so so..managed to see my eye candy and they happily reserved a seat especially for me , next to him cos i was late tat day and actually in fact i am considering if i wan to turn up for tat dinner since i felt tat i am quite broke recently man cos spent alot of money on camps stuff and etc..yeah, but i didnt regretted coming..haha.cos of some mo mo reason..hehe.
anyway how's my mse camp..in short i felt tat its quite enjoyable..made a few quite nice friends in tat camp..got lots of jokers and entertaining people in my groups to entertain us and thankfully made our 5.5 days camp enjoyable rather than sian..though majority of my grp guys are abit canot make it from my first impression, but their humourous part has already won the females votes...but i must say tat my SP Nite is disasterous cos the match making session is totally a failure.oh man, duno why they pair me up with this "william hung" when he is shorter than me when i am wearing heels.oh man, i reali canot take it when his dressing is reali a fashion disaster.he wore his jeans until super high waist and he brought a ntuc plastic bag to carry his SP gift to st james..oh no..so my first impression of him reali turns me off.seriously when he speaks, he is kind of slow in response and i got so sian tat i decided to find my friend and do a dual match make session cos i more interested in my friend's SP, but later i realised tat my friend's is not suitable for me either cos he is too filrt!! anyway we are supposed to exchanged gift but he forgotton, so i cant be bothered either so i think the whole mse camp onli got the 2 of us tat didnt exchange gift,,anyway i am so "Mean" to the extent tat i didnt tell him my real name, just gave an ang mo name for myself and he happily believes it..haha.actually i didnt wan him to know my name, cos i dun wan him to go ard asking which grp am i from.and i think i am reali not those type of ppl tat likes to club.in fact i hate clubbing cos its super noisy and i cant dance either,.so this is my first and last time going club liao
yeah, sec thing is tat i so heng to be in the same grp as my schmates, so did chatted with him and talking bac abt our days in jc,..one of the programs tat i find it enjoyable was the scary nite.duno why i am the most "sway" ones to be scared by those ghosts actor and actress cos they look reali damn real..anyway of cos in fear, i reali scream at my top of my voice and hide behind the guys..haha.but ya, those ppl have already scared the majority of the gers.
ok, then sat evening came bac, initally they wanted to have a dinner de, but as u know, i am super shagged since tat one whole week i didnt sleep much at all..so i didnt go for tat dinner lo..the sun they decided to have a movie outing, but ended up seats were all booked, so went to the hong kong cafe to eat instead.then mon morning went to the bank to settle my fee loan cos my auntie last min back out to be my guarantor and she is super pissed now.yeah, so the bank decided to give us another 2 weeks to find..hope i can find one,,haiz..then afterwhich went to the camp and sad to say tat i reali dislike staying in this union camp cos i feel tat i am isolated from the gers cos i reali dun unwelcome when i joined the group in the afternoon since i didnt came for the precamp cos i went out with my other camp mates tat nite.and there is 2 gers tat are damn bitchy and arrogant man..always like to diao ppl seh and i seriously find them as attitude gers.forget it, no way am i going to get close with them for no special reason unless necessary..so i am always alone de lo since those bitchy groups of gers already take out 3/4 of it, so left 1/4 of the gers.but i am the always left out one cos i guess i didnt went for the precamp so i missed out the bonding session liao.but anyway the rest of the gers are ok and nice..and yesterday this fake freshiee suddenly accounced tat she is a senoir when i decided to make gd friends with her in the camp and probably make her my close friend in camp,but now,looks like not possible liao.
anyway todae i am so sian to the extent tat i decided to teach my student lesson and forgo my camp at sentosa and sneak out of camp earlier cos i also find it pointless to go there la.i rather earn more money for myself than to mix ard with those bitchy gers.and i seriously hate it when they diao me for no reason cos i dun think i offended them in anyway lo..perhaps the reason tat kept me staying in the camp was the seniors cos i think there is this senoir tat is not bad and heng mw friend is there to keep me accompany too.else, i reali pack off my bag and go off liao.wanted to kpo more abt this senior but i dun dare to ask him..haha.but anyway today i kana a forfeit with this senior,duno is he purposely volunteer forfeit to help me or he reali kana forceit,tat's out of question..anyway just enjoy the forceit will do..but seriously heng the forceit not too jialat else its super embarrassing.but well, the forceit tat they gave me was already kinda pei seh liao,but never mind,at least we need not have to stick our body together cos one of the senior sugguested tat, but i protested..haha.
ok tonite i got to go bac camp at paris ris there to look for them..abit sian man.seriously i feel abit reluctant to go bac,but...
anyway how's my mse camp..in short i felt tat its quite enjoyable..made a few quite nice friends in tat camp..got lots of jokers and entertaining people in my groups to entertain us and thankfully made our 5.5 days camp enjoyable rather than sian..though majority of my grp guys are abit canot make it from my first impression, but their humourous part has already won the females votes...but i must say tat my SP Nite is disasterous cos the match making session is totally a failure.oh man, duno why they pair me up with this "william hung" when he is shorter than me when i am wearing heels.oh man, i reali canot take it when his dressing is reali a fashion disaster.he wore his jeans until super high waist and he brought a ntuc plastic bag to carry his SP gift to st james..oh no..so my first impression of him reali turns me off.seriously when he speaks, he is kind of slow in response and i got so sian tat i decided to find my friend and do a dual match make session cos i more interested in my friend's SP, but later i realised tat my friend's is not suitable for me either cos he is too filrt!! anyway we are supposed to exchanged gift but he forgotton, so i cant be bothered either so i think the whole mse camp onli got the 2 of us tat didnt exchange gift,,anyway i am so "Mean" to the extent tat i didnt tell him my real name, just gave an ang mo name for myself and he happily believes it..haha.actually i didnt wan him to know my name, cos i dun wan him to go ard asking which grp am i from.and i think i am reali not those type of ppl tat likes to club.in fact i hate clubbing cos its super noisy and i cant dance either,.so this is my first and last time going club liao
yeah, sec thing is tat i so heng to be in the same grp as my schmates, so did chatted with him and talking bac abt our days in jc,..one of the programs tat i find it enjoyable was the scary nite.duno why i am the most "sway" ones to be scared by those ghosts actor and actress cos they look reali damn real..anyway of cos in fear, i reali scream at my top of my voice and hide behind the guys..haha.but ya, those ppl have already scared the majority of the gers.
ok, then sat evening came bac, initally they wanted to have a dinner de, but as u know, i am super shagged since tat one whole week i didnt sleep much at all..so i didnt go for tat dinner lo..the sun they decided to have a movie outing, but ended up seats were all booked, so went to the hong kong cafe to eat instead.then mon morning went to the bank to settle my fee loan cos my auntie last min back out to be my guarantor and she is super pissed now.yeah, so the bank decided to give us another 2 weeks to find..hope i can find one,,haiz..then afterwhich went to the camp and sad to say tat i reali dislike staying in this union camp cos i feel tat i am isolated from the gers cos i reali dun unwelcome when i joined the group in the afternoon since i didnt came for the precamp cos i went out with my other camp mates tat nite.and there is 2 gers tat are damn bitchy and arrogant man..always like to diao ppl seh and i seriously find them as attitude gers.forget it, no way am i going to get close with them for no special reason unless necessary..so i am always alone de lo since those bitchy groups of gers already take out 3/4 of it, so left 1/4 of the gers.but i am the always left out one cos i guess i didnt went for the precamp so i missed out the bonding session liao.but anyway the rest of the gers are ok and nice..and yesterday this fake freshiee suddenly accounced tat she is a senoir when i decided to make gd friends with her in the camp and probably make her my close friend in camp,but now,looks like not possible liao.
anyway todae i am so sian to the extent tat i decided to teach my student lesson and forgo my camp at sentosa and sneak out of camp earlier cos i also find it pointless to go there la.i rather earn more money for myself than to mix ard with those bitchy gers.and i seriously hate it when they diao me for no reason cos i dun think i offended them in anyway lo..perhaps the reason tat kept me staying in the camp was the seniors cos i think there is this senoir tat is not bad and heng mw friend is there to keep me accompany too.else, i reali pack off my bag and go off liao.wanted to kpo more abt this senior but i dun dare to ask him..haha.but anyway today i kana a forfeit with this senior,duno is he purposely volunteer forfeit to help me or he reali kana forceit,tat's out of question..anyway just enjoy the forceit will do..but seriously heng the forceit not too jialat else its super embarrassing.but well, the forceit tat they gave me was already kinda pei seh liao,but never mind,at least we need not have to stick our body together cos one of the senior sugguested tat, but i protested..haha.
ok tonite i got to go bac camp at paris ris there to look for them..abit sian man.seriously i feel abit reluctant to go bac,but...
Thursday, July 10, 2008
~threading at little india~
yesterday afternoon, i went bac to the office to pay up the money tat i owe my small boss for the bbq thing and at the same time, had lunch with them and also viewed the video tat hussin has taped down for his trip in batam.oh man, in all wat i can say is the video is kind of not suitable for 21 yrs and below to be watched cos its kind of disgusting man with those gers with super mini skirt til everything could be seen under the stage..erm, i guess, no need me to explain further more cos u know what i am trying to imply..next up met up with wee ping to go for threading at little india.tat place looks reali nice and though its reali painful, but afterall the pain is compensated for the nice eyebrows, so is kinda worth it.after which went to suntec to look for FBT shorts for our camps.but ended up didnt bought any thing cos the FBT shorts look ugly so we went to eat ben and jerry instead and bought some pastries..after which late evening, met up with yh and can to do our most havoc activity in life (perhaps at this stage of life)..yeah, but ended up it turned out to be a disappointment..but never mind, this sun we will confirm be carried out smoothly.but seriously i feel so pei seh talking to the auntie cos no one dares to talk to the auntie and moeover it seems tat there is no gers over there except for us and it seems tat there is no youngers over there too ..so u know, its kind of dui lian to the fullest..and i reali feel like digging a hole to cover my face.
hai~later a nite got a meet up with my ex classmates too.and tml morning got interview and afternoon got meet up with jun yi too.evening, just to pack up bag for my mon camp liao, and sun got to continue with our havoc plan in life..haha.ok, my schedule is totally packed for now.
hai~later a nite got a meet up with my ex classmates too.and tml morning got interview and afternoon got meet up with jun yi too.evening, just to pack up bag for my mon camp liao, and sun got to continue with our havoc plan in life..haha.ok, my schedule is totally packed for now.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
~i really hate it when ppl lie to me!!~
wat the heck man, i am super pissed off now !!! seriously and its all becos of my mum again...actually todae (wed) i have planned all my schedule of the day liao, but ended up i have to cancel all of them cos my mum bluff me tat my aunt is coming down at ntu at 1pm, so she wants me to be there by 1pm, but i waited for so long just like a stupid idiot and didnt see any one of them turning up, so i called up my dad to verify and he said tat its was 2pm..wat the hell man,my mum did it on purpose cos she wanted me to be one hour earlier just to wait for her, when the bank is just located right below the library which i am in now.what the f*** man, i got reali pissed off cos i promised jun yi to meet him at 3pm liao to take cert at YJ but ended up i cant meet up with him just becos of tat lie tat my mum told me.this is f***ing angry cos i reali dislike ppl lying to me and moreover she is an adult lei, even if she wants me to be early, then say la, why must go abt lying and like tat my whole schedule for the day is messed up.today initally wanted to go bac office de and my colleagues have already prepared the things and food for me de, but ended up i last min back out..seriously i feel bad abt it lo.all these arises just becos of the stupid lie tat my mum told me.as such, ppl might think tat i am someone who has low credibility and someone who cant fufil promise.seriously i reali hate this, and i reali canot tahan such behaviour of my mum..sometimes i reali think tat she is the boy who cried for wolf when there is no wolf at all and one day when the wolf really comes, then the boy eventually gets his lesson.yes, she is just like the boy character in this story..
~camps next week le~
i am having my MSE next week mon le,so happy =) then the week after, i am joining the UOC camp.actually i just wan to stay out of home for 2 weeks, so i rather spend tat $100 going for camps..haha.yesterday had a chat with mo mo ren..hmm..thanks your his ideas ah..anyway he is quite a gd listener huh..haha.
lately i have been watching the show" it started with a kiss 2"..oh man, its so nice and sweet..haha.kay, tat's all for now,i am going yj to collect my SGC later.
lately i have been watching the show" it started with a kiss 2"..oh man, its so nice and sweet..haha.kay, tat's all for now,i am going yj to collect my SGC later.
~i am so fann and helpless over finding a guarantor~
fri after going to NTU went to cut my hair..oh man,my hair reali look like shit now.its kinda short and ugly now,seriously i dare not let down my hair unless i am too lazy to pin up my back hair.but less than 1 week time i am going for camps,oh man, i seriously dun wan to turn up with tat ugly hairstyle.sob sob..
sat morning went to my small boss house to prepare for the bbq,help her bought stuff for bbq also in the morning.yeah and duno why tat afternoon, when we are singing k, the photo frame placed on top of her threate system suddenly fell and broke into pieces, so the glass was smeared and broken into pieces.haha.i think my voice is too powerful liao until the photo frame fall unknowningly..anyway in all the bbq session was a nice and a warmful one.but this bbq is kinda a very "A bbq" cos the topics tat we talked abt are very "A" and its all becos of my small boss husband and somehow it makes our day lo cos its so funny tat we are practically laughing away all becos of the "DIRty topics" tat he started out with.and i duno why they always like to kar jiao me with this topic just becos i am 21 yrs old this yr.yeah, they did mentioned to me tat they are looking for a piano teacher and i think they do have the intention of hiring me cos i am quite "gum" with their daughter, but the thing is tat i live abit too far from their house and moreover my uni is starting soon, cant possibly have lots of time to devote to teach her daughter.moreover i already have a student liao and i think i cant overload myself cos if not my uni studies will be gone case.cos i reali dun wish to ta bao in uni just like in yj like tat..my wound for ta bao-ing has yet to heal and i doubt this wound will heal in a matter of time cos afterall its not easy to get bac my confidence when i always face many many setbacks in life..perhaps i am reali very very tired liao..
this particular colleague of mine reali damn niao and stingy man.$14 for bbq and present quite ok wat, but he was complaining why is it so ex and wants my boss to spell out literally and one by one wat we bought,oh man, cant stand him man.stingy old man.seriously i dun understand how could such ppl exist man.at least i am not as stingy as him man though i am quite a thrifty person.
anyway yesterday my friend came to my house to learn piano from me.haha,but i think its my honour teaching her cos at least i could get honest feetback of my teaching style.but at the same time i think tat i need more confidence and more training in the way i teach cos i was told tat i doesnt sound confident though i know my stuff..well, i guess i need to be more confident in watever i do in short..then yesterday i started fann-ing abt my uni tuition loan.cos i have to settle my tuition loan by this week cos next week i am going for camp liao..and next week is the deadline le.what should i do now? my dad is over the age limit and my mum is a PR so both of them cant be a guarentor for me as i am a spore citizen,neither do my brother since he is still not up to age 21.my dad tried approaching my aunts for help though we are not "Gum" at all cos over many family disputes problems in the past.apparently all of them shunted this issue as this issue involve money ma.and for instance if i have no money to pay up to the bank, then the bank will have to bark them for money.of cos under such situations, ppl dun wan la.but of cos i dun wan my gurantor to get and suffer any problems due to me..afterall its not nice when ppl are willing to lend u a helping hand.but apparently, none of my aunt wanted to help me despite my dad used to lend a helping hand in the past.sometimes i reali think tat wat's the point of having kinship,to me its equally no use.forget it liao ba, all got to blame it on my ill-fatedness.
though i did thought of asking my friends, but i understand from their part tat they do need their parental consent too and i doubt their parents will allow since this is quite a serious and impt issue, so i dun pin alot of hope of getting help from my friends.though i reali hope tat i could get some help from my friends, but highly tat my hopes will be dashed.so how wat should i do now?? i am reali helpless and lost at this junction of life.money is an issue to me now,.i reali need lots of money to survive in uni..yesterday i was so helpless cos i felt pathetic as in i always find tat my life is always screw up be it in jc or uni,so i cried cos i reali cant get help from any one of my close ties.i seriously dun understand why do other kids need not worry over guarantors issues and can happily get tuition loans when i need to search ppl like mad just to get a guarantor for me just to proceed with my uni studies.else, if not i doubt i am able to pay for the sch fees..sian i am reali very very fann over this issue now.i reali hope tat an angel would extent his/her kind heartedness and help me get over crisis.yes, tat's all i would hope for and nothing else..
todae my friend did came to my house again for piano lesson and after which i went to ntu bank again to double confirm with them tat is it tat my mum cant be a guarantor for me.and yes, i think those ppl have told me the wrong info previously,meaning tat its confirm tat my mum cant be a guarantor liao.sigh..hopefully i can find my way out soon i guess.sigh..and thank you my dearest friend for being so frank with me cos i dun wan u guys to be in a tough decision also..
sat morning went to my small boss house to prepare for the bbq,help her bought stuff for bbq also in the morning.yeah and duno why tat afternoon, when we are singing k, the photo frame placed on top of her threate system suddenly fell and broke into pieces, so the glass was smeared and broken into pieces.haha.i think my voice is too powerful liao until the photo frame fall unknowningly..anyway in all the bbq session was a nice and a warmful one.but this bbq is kinda a very "A bbq" cos the topics tat we talked abt are very "A" and its all becos of my small boss husband and somehow it makes our day lo cos its so funny tat we are practically laughing away all becos of the "DIRty topics" tat he started out with.and i duno why they always like to kar jiao me with this topic just becos i am 21 yrs old this yr.yeah, they did mentioned to me tat they are looking for a piano teacher and i think they do have the intention of hiring me cos i am quite "gum" with their daughter, but the thing is tat i live abit too far from their house and moreover my uni is starting soon, cant possibly have lots of time to devote to teach her daughter.moreover i already have a student liao and i think i cant overload myself cos if not my uni studies will be gone case.cos i reali dun wish to ta bao in uni just like in yj like tat..my wound for ta bao-ing has yet to heal and i doubt this wound will heal in a matter of time cos afterall its not easy to get bac my confidence when i always face many many setbacks in life..perhaps i am reali very very tired liao..
this particular colleague of mine reali damn niao and stingy man.$14 for bbq and present quite ok wat, but he was complaining why is it so ex and wants my boss to spell out literally and one by one wat we bought,oh man, cant stand him man.stingy old man.seriously i dun understand how could such ppl exist man.at least i am not as stingy as him man though i am quite a thrifty person.
anyway yesterday my friend came to my house to learn piano from me.haha,but i think its my honour teaching her cos at least i could get honest feetback of my teaching style.but at the same time i think tat i need more confidence and more training in the way i teach cos i was told tat i doesnt sound confident though i know my stuff..well, i guess i need to be more confident in watever i do in short..then yesterday i started fann-ing abt my uni tuition loan.cos i have to settle my tuition loan by this week cos next week i am going for camp liao..and next week is the deadline le.what should i do now? my dad is over the age limit and my mum is a PR so both of them cant be a guarentor for me as i am a spore citizen,neither do my brother since he is still not up to age 21.my dad tried approaching my aunts for help though we are not "Gum" at all cos over many family disputes problems in the past.apparently all of them shunted this issue as this issue involve money ma.and for instance if i have no money to pay up to the bank, then the bank will have to bark them for money.of cos under such situations, ppl dun wan la.but of cos i dun wan my gurantor to get and suffer any problems due to me..afterall its not nice when ppl are willing to lend u a helping hand.but apparently, none of my aunt wanted to help me despite my dad used to lend a helping hand in the past.sometimes i reali think tat wat's the point of having kinship,to me its equally no use.forget it liao ba, all got to blame it on my ill-fatedness.
though i did thought of asking my friends, but i understand from their part tat they do need their parental consent too and i doubt their parents will allow since this is quite a serious and impt issue, so i dun pin alot of hope of getting help from my friends.though i reali hope tat i could get some help from my friends, but highly tat my hopes will be dashed.so how wat should i do now?? i am reali helpless and lost at this junction of life.money is an issue to me now,.i reali need lots of money to survive in uni..yesterday i was so helpless cos i felt pathetic as in i always find tat my life is always screw up be it in jc or uni,so i cried cos i reali cant get help from any one of my close ties.i seriously dun understand why do other kids need not worry over guarantors issues and can happily get tuition loans when i need to search ppl like mad just to get a guarantor for me just to proceed with my uni studies.else, if not i doubt i am able to pay for the sch fees..sian i am reali very very fann over this issue now.i reali hope tat an angel would extent his/her kind heartedness and help me get over crisis.yes, tat's all i would hope for and nothing else..
todae my friend did came to my house again for piano lesson and after which i went to ntu bank again to double confirm with them tat is it tat my mum cant be a guarantor for me.and yes, i think those ppl have told me the wrong info previously,meaning tat its confirm tat my mum cant be a guarantor liao.sigh..hopefully i can find my way out soon i guess.sigh..and thank you my dearest friend for being so frank with me cos i dun wan u guys to be in a tough decision also..
Thursday, July 03, 2008
~protrait of me by my cs team~
though it doesnt really look like me, but i am really really happy to receive such a gift ;) thanks ppl...
~i have finished my piano exam !!~
last mon, supposedly the sales team wanted to treat me lunch de at tanglin mall @ some thai resturant, but as it was month end tat day, so it was not possible cos they are super busy chasing after customers for PO and getting more sales coming in so as to boost their sales revenue, so they changed it to thur instead.yeah, tat mon was my last day and my big boss and one of my colleague crowd round my desk just to say the last words to me.whereas the rest of my colleague are no where seen,duno where they go either..wanted to bid gdbye to them de, but apparently they are not around.so ya, bo bian.the big boss was commenting tat i did a gd job for the last half a yr,aiya but i think all these words are crap la, those words are just part of basic courteousy.anyway i think that if i am free on holidays, i might want to go at my company and work there again cos its reali very nice working place,though the workpace is kinda fast pace, but the pay compensate for tat, so i dun mind either.anyway after tat i rush off to JE to book the $30/hr studio for practise.damn it, its super ex man, if its not for exam purpose, i cant be bothered to spent so much money on tat.its rouhly equavilant to my 3.5hrs of my pay.so tat explains how gd if you are a piano teacher.yeah, i seriously feel tat being a teacher piano for full time is better than working, as in you can get to earn money faster in than slogging hours in office just to earn tat pathetic pay.
tues was down at home studying and practising my piano like mad, just to pass tat stupid exam and yeah surprising i am willing to give up my tv shows just for the exam.and wed came,so i woke up reali early just to practise my piano for the last time before entering the exam hall..in all, i reali duno if i can get a pass this time cos its up to the examiner to decide..perhaps one might find tat your playing is gd at tat time, but the examiner might beg to differ.at times, for artistic views, its hard to comment and decide de.for all i hope tat i could reali pass this time round,even a border pass will be gd already.if i were to pass, then i gonna thank that xiao di di cos i imitate his playing ever since i went for the concert tat nite..though it was onli like few days to the exam after hearing his playing, but its not impossible tat i change my style of playing within a few days, as long as u are determined and willng to change, then u can surely do it de.but the examiner did nod his head in agreement after i finished playing tat song tat i imitated.so does it mean tat my playing is gd???haha.i hope so cos i can onli rely on my pieces to pull up my marks, cos the other sections i reali canot make it.as usual i always fail the 2 sections since young, so it wouldnt be surprised tat i fail tat 2 sections once again.
then after the exam,i went to shop at expo mega john little sales.yeah, i bought 3 heels and a nice white bag at the charles and keith booth and some cosmestic stuff,so ended up like spent a lot of money huh..so i gonna stop spending money on all these unnecessary stuff liao cos i am always telling myself tat i need to save money for my uni fees, else once i start graduating, then i have to pay money like siao.anyway the cashier guy must be thinking tat this ger (me) must be siao for buying so many shoes cos i overheard him saying tat why i buy so much shoes to his colleague..haha.so after which rush back home to teach my student,and tat calls it another end of day.
thur woke up early,initally had the intention of going for an intensive jogs for twice a day, but i realised tat i am reali very lazy man,so ended up onli went for night jogging..so yesterday afternoon i was dressing up myself to meet my colleague from the sales team for lunch since they had postphone it to yesterday.well, lunch was reali nice, ambience wise is gd too.that thai restaurant was called pastara, if i think i didnt got the name wrongly.but one thing was their menu didnt state price at all, so i dare not anyhow order food cos i scared tat its will be too expensive..afterall its my big boss who is paying, and i feel bad if i order expensive stuff.though they kept on asking me to order things, but eventually i onli ordered one dish cos afterall it wouldnt be nice and i feel tat we should know our limits in ordering food huh, since i am not the one paying for the bills.so they gave me an 8GB ipod nano as my farewell gift,..oh man i was so shocked on the spot cos its an expensive gift man.but later my boss added tat i should thanks invitrogen cos its from them since i kept on thank-ing her.yeah,i was a bit pei seh to accept such expensive gift man cos afterall tat ipod cost abt $200 ++ huh.actually i knew tat the farewell gift was suggested by showen cos she saw my msn tat time, so i guess she knew tat i wanted an ipod.well, i wanted tat ipod cos i wanted to have a voice recording function and FM function for my uni study purpose.anyway thanks showen ;) i will miss you guys de.though yesterday i didnt talk much @ lunch cos afterall i am not tat close to them as compared to my own department, but i am wondering if do they treat the previous temps so nice? Cos from wat i know temps seldom enjoy such gd and wonderful treatment.maybe i am the lucky one ;)
ok, i am going for a hair cut later,hopefully it turn out nice, else i gonna hide my face for the next few days before my hair grows slightly longer cos i always look like a china looking ger after i cut hair !! and today i just weigh myself..i am so happy !! cos i have finially lost weight,looks like running do helps and at least my effort is not paid off.hehe.for now, i shall watch the vcd tat i owe my student for month..haha.feeling guility for owe-ing her things for so long liao.tmr i got a bbq cum bday celebration at my colleague house.looking forward to meeting them ;)for now, i am at ntu doing something..hehe.
tues was down at home studying and practising my piano like mad, just to pass tat stupid exam and yeah surprising i am willing to give up my tv shows just for the exam.and wed came,so i woke up reali early just to practise my piano for the last time before entering the exam hall..in all, i reali duno if i can get a pass this time cos its up to the examiner to decide..perhaps one might find tat your playing is gd at tat time, but the examiner might beg to differ.at times, for artistic views, its hard to comment and decide de.for all i hope tat i could reali pass this time round,even a border pass will be gd already.if i were to pass, then i gonna thank that xiao di di cos i imitate his playing ever since i went for the concert tat nite..though it was onli like few days to the exam after hearing his playing, but its not impossible tat i change my style of playing within a few days, as long as u are determined and willng to change, then u can surely do it de.but the examiner did nod his head in agreement after i finished playing tat song tat i imitated.so does it mean tat my playing is gd???haha.i hope so cos i can onli rely on my pieces to pull up my marks, cos the other sections i reali canot make it.as usual i always fail the 2 sections since young, so it wouldnt be surprised tat i fail tat 2 sections once again.
then after the exam,i went to shop at expo mega john little sales.yeah, i bought 3 heels and a nice white bag at the charles and keith booth and some cosmestic stuff,so ended up like spent a lot of money huh..so i gonna stop spending money on all these unnecessary stuff liao cos i am always telling myself tat i need to save money for my uni fees, else once i start graduating, then i have to pay money like siao.anyway the cashier guy must be thinking tat this ger (me) must be siao for buying so many shoes cos i overheard him saying tat why i buy so much shoes to his colleague..haha.so after which rush back home to teach my student,and tat calls it another end of day.
thur woke up early,initally had the intention of going for an intensive jogs for twice a day, but i realised tat i am reali very lazy man,so ended up onli went for night jogging..so yesterday afternoon i was dressing up myself to meet my colleague from the sales team for lunch since they had postphone it to yesterday.well, lunch was reali nice, ambience wise is gd too.that thai restaurant was called pastara, if i think i didnt got the name wrongly.but one thing was their menu didnt state price at all, so i dare not anyhow order food cos i scared tat its will be too expensive..afterall its my big boss who is paying, and i feel bad if i order expensive stuff.though they kept on asking me to order things, but eventually i onli ordered one dish cos afterall it wouldnt be nice and i feel tat we should know our limits in ordering food huh, since i am not the one paying for the bills.so they gave me an 8GB ipod nano as my farewell gift,..oh man i was so shocked on the spot cos its an expensive gift man.but later my boss added tat i should thanks invitrogen cos its from them since i kept on thank-ing her.yeah,i was a bit pei seh to accept such expensive gift man cos afterall tat ipod cost abt $200 ++ huh.actually i knew tat the farewell gift was suggested by showen cos she saw my msn tat time, so i guess she knew tat i wanted an ipod.well, i wanted tat ipod cos i wanted to have a voice recording function and FM function for my uni study purpose.anyway thanks showen ;) i will miss you guys de.though yesterday i didnt talk much @ lunch cos afterall i am not tat close to them as compared to my own department, but i am wondering if do they treat the previous temps so nice? Cos from wat i know temps seldom enjoy such gd and wonderful treatment.maybe i am the lucky one ;)
ok, i am going for a hair cut later,hopefully it turn out nice, else i gonna hide my face for the next few days before my hair grows slightly longer cos i always look like a china looking ger after i cut hair !! and today i just weigh myself..i am so happy !! cos i have finially lost weight,looks like running do helps and at least my effort is not paid off.hehe.for now, i shall watch the vcd tat i owe my student for month..haha.feeling guility for owe-ing her things for so long liao.tmr i got a bbq cum bday celebration at my colleague house.looking forward to meeting them ;)for now, i am at ntu doing something..hehe.
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