~i am kinda bad mood and frustrated~

oreo cheese cake that we made in hm hall tat time

ice cream buffet ;)

sat after going bac home and going for my jog i did seriously nothing at home from 5pm onwards til the night then seriously i was damn guilty la cos i already pschyo myself tat i need to piah tat nite liao..then so sun i decided to piah again..chiong all the online lects for chem and material sci..its indeed super duper shagged for me cos i need to listen like 7-8 online lects but apparently i didnt manage to finish it in a day la cos i got distracted after a while so decided to surf online net and do something else..then ytd i did nothing again in the morning cos my relative came to our house and she is seriously damn noisy la..talk so loud and i cant reali study also..then the afternoon went to my student house to teach piano again..she bought prata for me to eat...tat's so sweet of her..;) but anyway this wed i gonna go her house teach her chem sia cos she says she knows nuts abt acid and base then i see her like quite kelian totally like no hope in chem like tat so i decided to help her though i myself dun reali have time for my studies liao..and now i am reali struggling hard to catch up all the stuff from sch reopen til wat the teacher has taught us..haiz..and i think after this session i teach her, i got a feeling i am going to be her chem tutor very soon cos i think in future she will bark her with chem qns liao the min i come to her house..duno is a gd thing of bad thing..but of cos if i am free i am willing to help her la. but then if i am busy then i will surely sian diao liao..if holidays she were to ask me to teach her i am more than willing to coach her in her studies everyday cos i dun hope to see her getting to ITE either..then ytd nite after came bac piano went for a jog in the evening then proceeded to study my material sci again..but then at 10pm i received an irritating call again from tat pervert...this time i was quite pissed off liao cos i already quite fann in my studies then somehow this guy irritates me more..so my tone was reali very harsh ytd..i asked him wat he wans again then he hang up the phone..damn bloody idoit man..i seriously wanted to call the police liao cos i reali have enough of his nonsense..but then my parents doesnt reali care if i call the police or not so i just bo chap..the thing tat puzzled me was he even dares to call my house first before calling my hp..wa lao this guy is seriously very daring..i thought of calling the police cos past few days i realised tat someone somewhat steal my house metal door screw..somewhat it looks like someone wants to break into my house like tat..so i am kinda scared tat it might be done by the same person who calls me..anyway just hope tat i am thinking too much..alrights then after tat went online to relax abit and check my email for my project stuff..but then ytd i felt kinda sad over him..duno why sometimes i just feel tat i dun have unlimited battery like wat he says...certain times i just feel like closing one eye and ignoring everything, but then apparently its kinda hard man..alrights i gonna look on the bright side man..but then i was happy when he still rmbs to buy me tat pong piah tat i asked him to get from malaysia..;)


alrights today i was kinda bu shuang cos the moment i woke up in the morning, tat irritating mum starts nagging again and i am already so stress liao so i talked very rude to her..then she was telling my relative how unfilial i was to her and the incident on the police case she decided to recks up again..wa lao i think tat incident reali damn bo liao la..just becos we quarrel over something then she calls the police..i think she is just siao and crazy man..then i was reali very irritated over those ppl nagging at me so i decided to leave my house for sch since anyway i gtg so for project meetings..so might well get out of the house asap to stop hearing all those fann stuff..and today hopefully the project meeting can come out with more stuff to discuss if not seriously damn waste time man cos my schedule quite packed liao..tml need to teach my student chem and perhaps go hospital a while to pei my dad since he having operation tml..thur/fri need to meet playmate for his maths tuition..then after tat all my days will be gone..i got 2 tests after sch reopens..all haven study and touch..haiz..all i can say is my time management seriously sucks..

~watching F1 at suntec bridge ~

whee ytd i was kinda happy when i was out with playmate..duno why also..somehow its an non explainable feeling..hehe..ytd he was reali super late la..then i waited like for 45 mins cos i came pretty early cos i am the one always late so i feel kinda guilty..so decided to be early for ytd..chey end up in the end he was late cos rizar was talking to him at the mrt control station cos he was working there..no wonder i msg him he never reply at all la..then i waited til i almost fall asleep cos very sian man..alrights then after tat proceeded to town for our ice cream buffet..surprising when we reached there, there isnt much ppl at all..i waited like 10 mins then can go in le..overall the food not too bad lei..in fact it was worth the money tat we are paying..but then i realised ppl like me who likes cakes so much cant reali eat much cos u will get sick of the cheesy taste after a while and will seriously feel very bloated after eating..the ice cream also sia..first serving was quite ok, but sec serving onwards i eat til pretty ni of the ice cream liao..cos the flavours tat i take all taste the same sia though the names of the ice cream are totally diff..anyway playmate didnt eat much as me as i thought cos he sounded confident tat he can eat alot but too bad i still win him..;) so we ate for 2 hrs plus in between with rest break la cos cant possibly eat non stop for 2 hrs plus..then he talked abt his army life and jh and his army friends..i wouldnt surprise tat he claims tat he often bring joy to his bung mates and army friends cos somehow he is someone tat ppl can click along very well with..alrights then after tat we went to suntec area to view the F1 and it was a last min cos he say ytd was the preview trail or wat...since i never see before and it was quite a big thing in SG, so i decided to go see see despite no tickets at all..so stand at the bridge to see lo then i got quite a gd view of the racing..wah the impact is seriously damn great sia and its super duper noisy and loud til ur ears can be quite hurting man..and i am seriously impressed by the speed they race..in a few sec everything is gone and they are at the other side le..wah zai man ! then after tat still early then reali nothing to do so walk around marina and suntec to see got sales or not..but too bad dun have though ytd i got money to clothes..i am "Mean" ytd cos i kinda wanted to pshycho him to buy clothes though this wk he budget kinda tight cos the clothes at the suntec basement reali nice wat..but then too bad..so after tat walking around the basebase where the food area is, we still cant find a place to sit down cos both of us are seriously full due to the buffet then we dun reali wan to eat much too..so ended up we went to a small cafe in front of carrefour then he ordered a sandwich to eat while i help him with one of his maths tutorial qn on partial differential eqn..wah i do one hour still cant get the ans and the pissed off thing is my ans is quite similar to the form of the final shown ans so which means my intermediate is careless..wah sian so i gave up le then i go home redo again for him then finally can get ans liao..hehe..can finally do one qn reali can feel tat shuang dao feeling ! alrights then after tat we pass by a betting booth so i bought $1 of the bet since there is no queue at all but sad case la i onli got 1 no correctly then other 3 no tat i choose all differ by one no difference nia..if not i would have get 4 correct then at least can win abit of money..wah so wasted man..

alrights today i am to start to piah liao..tonite shall go for jogging burn all away the sinful fats intake tat i took ytd..this wk is gonna to be shiong for me..so many tests and tutorials to catch up with and not to mention abt projects..haiz..no time man..

next wk we might be going adam road again..whee i miss the ice kachang over there..haiz..i think i am reali getting to start feeling for him liao..duno is it a gd thing or not..somehow of all guys tat i like before i think i put the most effort on him..some i would just take them for granted if i dun like them or i never treat them as nice as compared to him when i like them cos somehow this guy is different from other guys in other ways..he reali got the healing effect when he talks to u man..duno why either..

~one wk of recess wk ~

wed i was kinda bad mood de duno why either..perhaps i feel reali fann got so many things to do and its never ending de..then at nite somehow i feel better after talking to him online..weird this guy somehow can entertain me and talk crap to me..watever it is thanks man play mate ! then ytd went for the thermody tutoring..haiz..all i can say is i am reali super cui as compared to them cos i think they abit sian diao i ask dumb qns and somehow like wasting their time for coming..i think my tutor reali speechless and feel kinda xinku get me as his student man..hehe..but bo bian wat thermody reali very hard wat then i cant understand..i not so smart as tat guy who is first class honours and still come peer tutoring sia..lohz..then after the peering stayed bac in sch to listen david teach us the chem lect notes slide by slide..wah i think he reali explains better than the lecturer sia..the moment i hear the lecturer talk then i reali turn off liao..then after which went for our supper cum dinner at chc there..

and today i gonna meet playmate again..whee.. ;) going to eat ice cream buffet,.hopfeully the queue wont be long ba if not i reali sian diao le..anyway i have been thinking something but i am not sure of the ans either...he has reali totally diff personality as mr A and the type of guys i like..so i myself not reali sure if i reali feels for him or not..maybe yes ba but i cant be certain tat it will be long cos of certain reasons..all i know is i enjoy my time being with him cos somehow its not bored being with him..looks wise he is not bad la but then i dun reali care abt the looks de, so he is just qiao tat he is kinda shuai..anyway kinda envy the 2 of them..guy so nice to the ger and long time reali nv have tat feeling liao..outsiders like me see liao so envy la ! maybe sometimes think bac reali regret certain things..hmm..but on one hand it can be pretty scary once the honey moon period is over cos i feel kinda sad for one of my friend..haiz..wat is relationship all abt man..i seriously duno man..many at times one of the party just take each other for granted then the other party suffers in pain..yes i know tat feeling cos i took mr A for granted tat time and i kinda regretted tat..so i told myself tat i musnt make the same mistake again...anyway friend hope things will be better for u yeah..

one week of holiday is coming man..its seriously not time for enjoyment man..relative is coming on sun then i guess mum will be out for most days ..gd for me man cos no one will nag at me..and today she and dad had a fight over money..haiz..sian man everytime also mention abt money..is money reali tat great meh..i see my dad like quite kelian then no money to play stocks also dun dare to ask money from me..so i gave him my bank bk and ask him to take out the money himself..it i never do tat, i guess he will still continue quarreling with my mum man..actually everything comes from my mum la, why is she so bo liao to consfiscate both my dad and my bank bk..so end up both of us damn kelian no money...but heng i still got another account with my dad..at least i still got some money to survive man..haiz..and this wed my dad is going for operation soon.hopefully he will be ok man..alrights i gtg meet playmate liao..hehe..tml i will piah liao..tonite shall enjoy first ;)

~bad mood today ~

haiz..i duno today wat's wrong with me man..i just feel totally damn bad mood today..irritated in fact so i dun reali feel like talking..cos like got so much things duno and so many many things piling up to do and today still need to teach piano..so i abit sian diao liao so i cancel the lesson..then my mind cant reali focus either..damn !

~sec harrassment call ~

last weekend i seriously did nothing man..haiz..fri nite came bac pretty late cos was shopping in suntec but bought nothing home..then sat nite i received a call from tat pervert guy again..wa lao this guy seriously damn sick la..el reali hit the bingo tat he will call again..initally he dun wan talk de when i say hello so many times la, then later he finally speak out saying tat "can u hear me?" wah the nxt moment i hang up his phone le cos i can recognise tat sick guy's voice..seriously i wanted to scold him de, but mum was around so i cant scold him cos i dun wan my parents to know abt tat..so i let him off this time round..if next time he were to call me again i confirm will call police liao..so dun try fooling around with me man, ass ! haiz..and all my weekends are just nothing nothing except reading tat maths lecture notes..haiz..guilty now sia..so many things to catch up in recess wk..haiz..and today come sch also waste time man..did nothing again !

~long weekend ~

today i feel tat i accomplish super lots of things man..quite contented seh.lab and my elective assigment mostly done le.yesterday stay bac sch to listen the thermody peer tutoring and the tutor was reali gd..i go there seriously learn quite a lot man..all my doubts mostly have been cleared..then after sch met up with david and hm to study then he teaches us chem..then he reali chop chop teach us and now most of the chem stuff i understand liao..whee ! suddenly feel more lightened liao man, if not i forever got so much things duno de..anyway a long weekend is coming..quite shuang man..i shall take this time to exercise more cos recently haven been running alot.anyway i gtg suntec shopping now..so long never go there liao..haha.and though ytd i was reali shagged sleeping at 3 am plus like tat cos i went offline at 1.30am like tat then after which went to pack my table stuff then all the time is gone again !

~harrassment call ! ~

Our cheese cake was quite rubbery and hard I feel.but overall it doesn’t taste very very bad la..at least it was still edible afterall.so I was quite excited on our cake on tues so after the library closes after 9 I went to her hall to see how is our cheese cake was like and I eaten 1.5 slice of it ! so sinful to eat at nite man, but dun care la since anyway the whole day I never eat anything except for the tuan yuan..wah that was yummy man the tang yuan ;) next time shall cook again in her hall..whee..then we also ate melted cheese de cup noodles..wah tat was reali super yummy man..but hm put 3 cheese into the maggie mee super sinful man, but the taste was bravo ! alrights next time shall cook at home to experiment again..initally wanted to left some for him de, but then he not free last min..so too bad next time then ! hehe..

then yesterday was reali reali a super duper unlucky day cos my house glass window almost fall down the building..if tat reali happens I think my dad will be fined or either jailed if happens someone pass by and the window panels hits him/her..phew..but then heng I am at home tat morning, if not I seriously duno how my mum is going to hold on the window panel for long cos its super heavy and the thing is the metal thing onli breaks halfway and so we need to break off the metal thing in order to take out the window panel..if not the window panel will be left hanging in the air which is super duper dangerous..so my mum went to find our neighbours and somehow we have gotton the window panel to be plucked out..heng man..then after which went off for sch..in sch as usual wed is emo day cos all lessons mostly cant undersstand..then at nite went to the library to study and somehow gotton abit help from him for the assigment..but the assigment is seriously a killer man..haiz..then the shocking story starts to happen at nite..guess wat I think my mum was kana conned by a phone call and she thought tat the guy who was on the phone was my relative, but then it wasn’t ! but then it was too late man ! tat “relative” of mine says want to talk to me so my mum pass the phone to me..then after which he starts to drift away from the window topic then starts to tell me abt sex and the procedure and everything..seriously I feel seriously disgusted man though everytime I always laugh when I talk abt such topics.but then ytd it was more of scary then being fun to talk abt..he told me to imitate the “noise” tat we are supposed to make when we are having tat..(u know..)siao la this guy..of cos I refused to make la cos this is seriously damn absurd ! and later he tell me all the posure and all those and the sex organs and I was seriously turned off..in fact I was quite pissed already cos I am really wasting my time talking to this nonsense person..but then since I thought he was my relative so I decided to give him face and the convo was 1 hr long..so can u imgaine how much he tolds me..wa lao tat ass guy..if I wan I can reali call the police man cos its harrassment..if he dares to call me again I make sure I will scold him vulgar man just like how he descibe the parts in hokkien..come on man, dun try to play on me cos I reali hate this kind of tigou guys and mentally ill guys…then my dad was super duper angry yesterday man..mum was in the midst of shock cos partly it was her fault for passing the phone to me and I was reali quite stupid to give him my bro hp no..alrights just pray hard he dun call again if not I reali make sure I call the police liao..

haiz..i got so many many things to catch up with and assigments got lots to do..but I need some entertain too ! if not I will be bored to death..haiz..my playmate this wk not free.if not I jio him go out play with me ;)

~when i ever dare to pick up my courage to talk to mr A again??~

fri came to sch for lab again and this time round the lab was slightly more interesting cos we see how the metal gets heated up in the oven and after tat quench it with cold water..wah tat was cool..but writing the lab report is seriously super sian la ! anyway after which i did abit of the lab then went off to west mall for the free dental check with him..wah seriously man, i was kinda stunned tat i got 2 decays in my tooth..so meaning i need to put 2 filing in tat 2 teeth..wah sian la cos money not onli fly away and the jialat thing is its painful cos they need to drill a hole to put the filings in..haiz..its been a long time since i last have tooth decay le..zzz..think i eat too much sweet stuff le man...and this guy is so unfair la,...sometimes onli brush his teeth once and some more his teeth is more yellow than mine, and his teeth is perfectly ok !! and he told me tat the moral of the story is not to be too hardworking and brush my teeth so much..wa lao wat kind of logic he has man..anyway its see how long his theory can last then i will sure laugh at him if one day he gets a tooth decay man if he still continue dun brush his teeth often..hehe...alrights after which we reali brainstorm where to go as usual cos we always duno where to go de..so we look at the mrt line and eventually decided to go great world city cos he say there got nice food..anyway i dun mind going there too cos i haven been there since sec 4 for the mm competition..going there reali bring bac memories man..haiz..all i can say is i miss those days when i can pon class and participate in the mm compeition..some more can see tat 2 instructor of mine and not forgetting mr A..yup then we sat at the macafe there to study and suddenly one grp of gers keep looking at us..duno why either, so i cant be bothered with them also..then ard 10 plus we went bac home..tat nite i told him lots of stuff..i did asked him if my expectations were high or not and he say yes..haha..seriously i think my expectations not reali high lei..its just tat mr A is just too gd liao and some more he is the first guy who stepped into my life and make a difference to me..so perhaps of tat my standard of guys is slightly higher cos he can just easily trash anyone out there in uni..but of cos not the looks la cos i dun reali care abt the looks also de..i am looking out more of the character de..and he says tat i am looking for ppl who can joke and play with me and tat person cant be boring type and i say yes ! seriously duno why i change trend of wat kind of guys i like le..perhaps its time tat i want a new start..i dun wan always stuck with the same old type of guys in the past..anyway he is getting married soon and i shall congrats him here then cos duno why i still dun have the courage to talk to him first even though its been many many yrs..hope tat both of them will stay reali happy..anyway last fri he was quite shuai man..abit dian dao by him..hehe..but canot kuah him man, if not he will shuang dao ! haha..


then sat and sun stayed at home to study but apparently sat i slept for almost the entire day cos the weather was reali hot and duno why i keep on falling asleep..so sun i decided to piah le..then today after sch we baked our oreo cheese cake..whee ! i think quite nice too..next time i shall do again for him if i got the time again..

~wat is my elective seriously talking abt man~

haiz i seriously know nuts abt my elective HG803 man..and now got project assignment to do le then how sia..i totally duno wat to do lo..hai. and this is so demoralising now cos i think i am too dependant on the peer tutors and this sem most of the tutors are quite cui as compared to last yr de..chem tutor seriously sux cos she seems not sure of the subject..duno how tat indo girl gets her A de..then thermody tutor is too smart for me liao..stupid ppl like me needs a tutor who teach me step by step..dun like ppl to advance things super duper fast..and the jialat thing is the ppl who go for peer tutoring all so smart la..wa lao these ppl reali damn extra sia..they so smart liao still come..one of them is even first class houours ppl...and wat am i man? i am just a third class hounours student..;( seriously i am cutting down this sem on going for peer tutoring cos i dun reali feel it effective this time round..haiz...and yipee tml is fri again ! ;) weekends are coming ! hmm wonder wat should i do tml...i ytd quite happy man cos i finally secretly withdraw my money from my other bank account without letting my mum knows..now i wanna set up a new account so tat she cant track down my money sia,..;)

~theme park isnt nice !~

fri came to sch just for one lab and i seriously find it damn bo liao and waste time man..and tat day i reali totally switch off in lab cos anyway i got sample copy from the seniors le, so just copy and edit abit can le..so the lab process just let those ppl who are enthu to do it..tat day hy didnt come cos he got hall production, so i paired with alvin lo and he do the experiment and i take the readings and its super sian la cos the experiment take 1 hr like tat..super ZZZ..then after tat stay in sch a while to do half of the E2 while waiting for him to end sch and come NTU..since ken haven gone bac home, i asked her if she wanna see him in real person or not cos she never see before his real person ma..then she says ok..so both of them did say hi and bye to each other and the comment tat ken gave her he looks seriously like a malay when he first speak english to me..and i truly agree cos long time ago when i first saw him i already think tat he looks super like a malay cos of his super dark black skin !! tat's why i always have fun of him of his skin colour..so after which we went to tutorial room and i choose specifically tutorial room 19 cos no need to walk very far..hehe..then after tat i show him tat funny video tat ken was seeing in lectures then he laugh also cos quite funny ! then 5.30pm i went off for my thermody peer tutoring while he stays in the room to study his stuff..haiz..all i can say is the peer tutoring isnt reali tat effective cos my grp got too many smart guys liao..haiz..and apparently the tutor knows tat i cant catch up with their pace cos i give them a blur look..anyway haiz..thermody is sure die..alrights then 6pm our tuition finally ends le ! whee ;) then i went to the tutorial room to find him and have dinner..so we went to korean can 13 to have our dinner..then after tat continue to go bac the tutorial room to study..and since tat day still early, he wanted to do eat dessert, but then the sch canteens are already close and so ended up eating chi char at the jjc there..


alrights then sat woke up early to study but apparently i was stoning the entire morning so end up did nothing..then afternoon went to meet him to go the theme park..wah i was shocked when the person say the entrance fees is $17.70 cos i thought was $7.50 nia..oh man and the worst thing is the theme park is seriously quite cui la..so little things to play with nia and the best and scary thing is just the hai dao cuan nia..seriously my heart almost popped out when i felt tat i was hanged in the mid air cos i chose to sit and the end of the boat cos i wanted to experience for chill ma..then he dun dare but he bo bian cos i wan to sit behind..but then i was too scared to watch the entire process man..so i closed my eyes all the way..other than tat, the spinning game also make me damn giddy la until my head reali headache la..but after walking around while waiting for shutter bus i felt better..so dinner we went to adam market and the food there is reali nice..;) esp the ice kacang..so far this is reali the best ice kacang i tried before..and tat day we tried the satay and the prawn noodles..all reali not bad sia..looks like his newpaper cutting reali is worst the price we are paying for..;) then after tat we headed home feeling super shagged ! he was very full but i wasnt even half full at all ! lousy sia..haha..looks like my stomach can take more food than him,,

sun i decided to open my books and study le..but apparently i feel very sleepy so did nothing much then mon i decided to piah til later lo..at least i finish maths tutorial 2 le..so i am one tutorial lag behind.the rest of the subjects i gi gi le la..still got so many many..haiz...today, tues i feel seriously damn sleepy man cos mon nite i slept very late..material structure totally cant understand at all la..sian..then this few days i am damn bloody pissed with my mum la..she confiscate my atm card and still dun wan return me and now i need money cos my money running low and she keep saying tat i keep withdrawing money when i already 1 month totally never withdraw money le cos she took my atm card away and come on la its just $100 lei..its not as if i take out alot of money like tat..and becos of tat she likes to make a fuss over it..so i am reali pissed with her..and secondly wat add on to me reali pissed was she keep confiscating all my nice clothes away and i am damn bloody angry cos she is seriously damn freaking bo liao man and damn ****ed up man..she dun like me to wear sleevesless and shorts and she is keeping away all my clothes tat i buy recently so end up i wont have a chance to wear..ass man ! she is just freaking damn bo liao..if you got so much time why dun u do sometime more constructive instead of creating more troubles at home..i am seriously have enough of her nonsense le..now i see her also dun feel like talking nicely to her cos i find it seriously no point when she doesnt even respect me at all..i am now so desperate tat i have to digged out money for my other bank account.. and today they say need ic to withdraw money and i half sian le cos my mum keeps my IC..she sure ask me why i need my IC..i shall hide this bank bk of mine man if not i will reali go crazy one day man if i dun have money..

alrights today evening gonna teach piano again..sian man..i am teaching just for the sake of the money now cos i need money now !! my money is running reali low le ..thanks to tat evil mum of mine dun wan return me my atm card..

~demoralising state~

haiz..my days in sch are getting more and more demoralising cos most of the lesson cant understand sia..sian la..and this sem i tink i dun wan relisten online lect le cos its seriously wasting of time.alrights wkend is coming..this wk going to play a while first..perhaps sun then piah again.. =(

~i need to diet ~

lately i have been eating lots of fruits at nite for supper cos dad bought almost like 1 kg bac every day..sat nite was some sweet fruit duno call wat then i spend 1 hr peeling off the skin and eating it..the sun nite i was so hungry tat i ate the 10 mangosteens at one shot..yummy..and lately i think my weight is seriously jialat man..i seriously need to slim down and cut down on food in take le..sian la i am freaking shagged now..everyday onli sleep afew hours nia just to catch up my past few wks homework..and tat bloody lab report is freaking time consuming.. =( waste all my time doing all these sia..hopefully wkend i can reali enjoy le..and today ace called me if i wanna work in the wkends at beauty promotor..wah i think he reali too kan de qi me le la..actually i gt interest in sales line but then i got studies now..if its holiday time i confirm will take up this job de..haiz..alrights i am off for my rite pizza now !