~oh my god, i must have struck toto..~

last weekend my brother decided to buy a camera since we saw a veri cheap camera and quality also not bad, so he say tat he will be forking out money this time round to buy it..ya, of cos he should be the one paying this time round since the previous time i fork out all my money to buy tat laptop..moreover this time he will be taking the camera to taiwan so i cant use either..the camera came with free stuff such as rechargable battery, SD card, cleaning lens and some tripod stand and many more, so i think its kinda worth it la and the brand is kinda not bad too.....i think in future i will go to the audio house at liang court cos i think its much more cheaper than SIM LIM lah..my brother get so pissed bargaining at the SIM LIM tat he told the uncle tat if he wont give him tat price then he will leave and wont buy from him..haha..but somehow tat method works ah and the uncle reali give in..
yesterday was mooncake festival and i think i reali ate alot of mooncakes in sch man cos whenever i walk outside the library i will take a slice of the mooncake as snack to eat until unknownly i didnt realised tat i have eaten so many slices,having walk pass the library for so many times..oh my god and worst still my brother said its super fatting...one quarter of the mooncake is equvilant to a meal and i think i am forgoing my lunch for this few days to compensate for the extra fats tat i have took in..the park near my house was kinda nice cos yesterday all those small kids was playing with crackers and lanterns..ya, wanted to go down to play with crackers but i have no time !!! and i think seeing a big girl playing with such things seems veri malu..haha..
todae i think i have reali struck toto man cos tat scarcastic guy somehow smile to me during the morning when i was walking towards class..i was reali afraid tat he would scold me for walking around the corridor when its surposely to be assembly time..actually wanted to wait for him to walk further away from my class before i proceed bac to class from the toilet but eventually i decided not to wait for him to leave cos i have the mentality tat why should i scared of him?? so i boldly and secretly walked behind his steps hoping tat he dun see me but somehow maybe i walked until too loud liao then he turned bac and saw me..its a miracle tat he smiled to me cos usually he seldom smile..but i must say he got a veri nice smile..so the first thing he asked me was "wat class am i from?" so i replied him then i quickly walked faster and run..phew luckily he didnt say anything...haha..but i think he knows i am a repeat student cos the repeat students are kinda "Outstand" from the rest of the students..and sometimes i also feel tat i do have "Special previlages" in some sense just tat sometimes i try not to take for granted wat i am given..
todae i also came to knew abt someone..seriously i think its kinda cruel for the ger to do tat to him..i have seen someone taking the steps of him and ended up repeating yr 2, hopefully history dun repeat itself cos i reali dun hope ppl to be like me repeating twice cos my results just not gd enough to go local uni..if u are rich then just be it..though its easier said than done but i guess there should be no more distractions from now on since its A levels time in 1 month and u have never taken A levels before unlike me..at least i have gotton my cert but u have not..so hopefully he can buck up..
this sun my aunt is going bac liao and thankfully i have lesser noise at home now so i can study better..aiya she reali came at the wrong time man, shouldnt have come now cos i haveing exams soon..else, i will reali sit down and chat with her all i want,...fri poning sch again, haha and mon sch holidays so i got 4 days at one go to study..and this time round relai must piah liao esp my gp got i no nuts on gp facts..so shitty man, i just hope tat i can just get away with tat stupid gp forever, but i cant...=(

~gd teachers often inspire u...~

todae i have decided to pon sch since i guess tat i reali have to sit down to revise my own syllabus myself since those new jc2 didnt cover in their syallbus and i am kinda scared now cos all this while i haven been practising wat is not covered by them..actually i did tell my form teacher tat i might not be coming to sch during oct onwards and she say ok for me cos i am different from them since i am taking a different syallbus from them..she says u urself know wat u want this time..yup but i wont disappear totally to the extent tat i wont come sch for all the days, just tat i will onli come sch twice and thrice a week ba..todae dad also didnt say anything abt me not going sch, so i was kinda surprised cos last yr he will usually nag at me and would consel me for not going sch..todae nobody is at home now, and i am kinda relief cos lately my house has been veri noisy because my aunt came from indo, so cant reali study since sometimes she will chat with me..
yesterday my teacher was nagging at the j2 saying tat he dun see the sense of urgency in them, some still look tat happy go lucky or either they just have the bo chap attitude..and he say tat more and more ppl and starting to pon sch..so he said tat if we are so gd then dun bother to consult him when we got any doubts lah..but hearing wat he say abt tat, i am kinda guilty abt poning sch but i think i shouldnt care now and i think my teacher will understand my difficulty..i think my chem teacher is a veri gd teacher and i reali enjoy his lessons and i think his style of teaching kinda suit me as compared to my previous chem tutor who is a bullet train (So catch no ball) and i think having gd teachers will somehow make u like tat particular subject..i like his lessons cos his voice is super loud and clear so i wont fall asleep whereas during gp lessons my teacher's voice is so soft lah, so i always fall asleep unknowningly during her lessons..seriously i am kinda scared of gp this yr cos it seems tat my gp is deproving since tat 3 months of nuahing make me lost touch of gp..
todae i will tell myself tat i will study reali hard so tat at least i wont waste my time and let myself down, to me now every min counts and i must cherish every min cos i onli left with around 1 month to exams..phew hopefully this time the paper will be easier and i must reali pray hard for it..and i am kinda of abit stress now but not as stress as last yr, but i think eventually all it matters is tat u try ur best just like wat my maths teacher told me...but i am kinda happy this yr cos the RJ, VJ and all the smart ppl are not competing with me in terms of the old syallbus anymore..so we onli have the private candidates, reapeat students and MI students competiting with each other..

~my aunt just came yesterdae~

aunt just came from indo yesterday and my house is pretty noisy cos the 2 women just cant stop talking louding (reffering to my mum and her) so ended up like cant reali study cos its so noisy lah..and i feel reali distracted esp when they kept asking me to see this and tat (reffering to stuff she bought for us)..yes she reali bought the fake eyelash tat i told her to buy since its damn cheap in indo cos it cost $0.30 onli when singapore sells it for $2..it just seems how much those ppl can earn cos they earn 7 times of wat they sell in indo..and she bought lots of clothes for me and i think i reali have too much clothes to wear liao and after i finish my A levels, i need not have to worry abt buying clothes during working..anyway this week is pretty relaxed man..and i am going to stop doing the sch homework liao unless i feel tat its useful to watever my syllabus is concern...and i think the sch is reali making an effort to make sure we pass gp cos all the stuff tat they taught now haven been taught in the sch from wat i know from the past 3 yrs in yj and its this period tat i reali pay attention during gp lessons..aiya i think they should have started this earlier mah...

~the dinner @ ntu~

wed decided to meet up with yh and agnes at ntu since its been a long time since we last seen each other..of cos when i took tat 179 bus, its kinda awkward when it seems tat i am the onli person who wear uniform when others are wearing their home clothes..not to mention tat when i was walking into the sch towards canteen 2, everyone was giving me tat look as if i am so alien like tat..since my friends knew tat i would feel kinda awkward stepping into ntu in sch uniform, so they decided to lend me their big jacket so tat it would cover my uniform, but somehow it didnt hide tat well..well, i expected tat everyone would give me tat look so in future i will not stepped into ntu with unifrom again..anyway i onli have 2 more months to wear uniform, after which i can offically throw again my "ITE" uniform..we chatted for 1 hour before heading home to study while yh has some hostel meeting..she told me ntu has lots of celebrities and actually they look reali normal looking when they are in sch..of cos i reali wonder how tat "Xiao lu dou" look like cos my friend has seen him with someone from our sch..
few days bac, the math lecturer was saying tat "i am sorry abt the repeat students tat we have to neglect u all cos its not easy to cater to everyone.." of cos i predicted tat at the end of the yr we have to do independent learning liao and no one can help u unless u do ur independent learning..well, for now i feel tat its kinda hard to follow with watever they are doing cos though syallbus is slightly different for chemistry but their style of questioning are totally different from us and i reali feel like telling my teacher tat i dont feel like going for the extra revision programmes cos i felt tat it wont help much..i would rather i study on my own man, at least i am covering wat i should cover and not covering and not learning new stuff from the new syallbus..she also said tat this yr if we did worst than last yr then u ppl will have wasted 1 yr..of cos everyone dun hope such things to happen, but maybe this time will do better ba, but i cant guarantee an "A", just make sure tat i put in my best can le ..thinking bac of having short of tat one grade then i can stepped into NTU doorstep liao, spur me even further when i must tell myself tat this time round i die die also must step into the sch..
i think our new vice principle is kinda veri "on" cos i didnt expect him to search for our sch to know more abt the history of yj..he said tat even though u might have deleted ur blog, somehow he can still manage to track bac using some system which i duno how is it possible..
todae my chem teacher had a private consultation with me cos he wanted to go through stuff tat he didnt thought in class since those stuff are not in their new syallbus..of cos i was thinking he is quite a nice teacher cos from wat i see from my repeat friends, their teachers dun even bother if my friends know abt their stuff..but duno why i feel kinda awkward when he teach me one to one but not when he teaches me in class..of cos he is not tat fierce, but somehow the mood just seems to be reali weird and i think i am reali scared of guys when it comes to indivual face to face talking..duno why also ...cos in the past when all my tution teachers are all guys (cos my mum wanted guys and not females) , i would also feel fearful of them despite the fact tat they are not even fierce at all..i am so scared of them tat i wouldnt dare to look straight into their eyes..and tat's wat i did with my teacher and pretended to look down seriously as if i am looking at the quesion paper..
A levels in getting nearer and nearer..hai~

~my brother is reali leaving this time~

next week my aunt will be coming to singapore and she will be bringing lots of stuff for us, food,shoes and clothes from indonesia..haha..look forward for her arrival since i am quite "Gum" with her, somehow i can chit chat with her among all my mum's sisters..
its been confirm tat my brother will be leaving taiwan for his army for a yr and he cant come bac til one year..when he told my mum tat he is the onli hourned one out of the whole medic to be chosen to go taiwan, my mum was feeling rather sad instead of being happy for him..my brother was feeling rather happy since he can go overseas instead of stucking in singapore.its obvious tat my mum was unwilling to let go of him since she said tat she is worried for him when he reached there..as for me, i was kinda sad of a while when he said he will be going off in nov, yup i am kind of pity him cos he will be going into a foreign land tat he has never been to before and moreover there is no one tat he knows over there..neither do we have any kins over there..so i am kind of wondering how is he going to survive..but i must say his salary is reali alot having posted to taiwan, its so much more compared to wat my dad earn lah..anyway i think i will kind of miss him having gone for a yr..
yesterday mum and brother have a big quarrel over his lazyness to wash his army stuff after going to the jungle, and giving all the dirty job for my mum to clean up..and my mum was kinda pissed so he dumped all his stuff into the water and his impt maunal aid book got wet and his book is restricted so it cant be bought, so my brother is damn angry lah cos all of the pages of the book has torn..but wat to do, still have to dry it in the sun and hopefully still can read the words loh..tat nite my brother was so angry with her over something tat he use veri aweful hokkien vulgarities on my mum and i think its kinda rude lah, but i didnt say anything..seriously u cant tat crude vulgarities that he use cos i think its damn rude..and i think he has changed alot after going to the army, hai~~my mum was saying tat" so wat u are smart but u are so ill mannered.., what's the point??and wat high rank u got are not worthy of u.." ya i totally agree with wat she say..so wat u are so smart??why give tat arrogant attitude to us man..
sat my working friend is having a design flower competition..wanted to go down to vote for her but i guess weekend i am not free and i cant waste any of my weekends anymore cos A levels is just 1 month plus and i need to be more focus and do well this time..as time is nearing, i am starting to feel scared...hai~~

~the teacher's day celebration~

this yr teacher's day celebration was kinda special cos the sch has became a bazaar of selling 2nd stuff..yes i bought something from the teachers since i thought it was quite cheap..one of the stall has lots of students patronizing cos the stuff tat the teachers sold and wear was all branded was actually its considered cheap..wanted to buy some clothes from tat female teacher since i felt tat her fashion sense is just gd..my the other idol was equally wearing branded stuff too and it can be seen by the clothes he sell, such as zara and etc..tat day after the so many rounds of "Shopping" decided to sit at the top of the "roof" to watch everything..oh man i got a veri nice view to see the 2 idol, not to mention tat my friend is more crazy than me cos she also idolized one of the teachers and her actions are damn kua zhang..just when i was going towards that guy stall, my heart was smelt by tat librarian smile cos his smile was damn nice and sunshine..initally was standing there to look around to see if there is anything to buy from his stall by i think i am "scared"off by his smile so decided to stop going to his stall to "Shop"..haha..actually i thought he is a teacher but my friend told me he is not..chey no wonder i never seen him before..
at times i reali feel tat i am kinda cold blooded cos i am not caring towards others and neither do i show concerned for them when they are sick..i duno why am i like tat also but i feel tat i reali have tat bo chap attitude for others..yesterday when i was taking a train i saw a pregnant lady and i was sitted happily studying but i was just pretending to not see tat pregnant lady cos i was too lady to stand up since my journey is quite long..all the rest of the passengers are also like me pretending not to see too but eventually a middle man decided to stood up and gave her his seat..
yesterday i also fell down with a weird pose at the hospital and the nurse was so shocked by my fall tat she shouted out of the sudden..oh man tat's damn malu..fancy a ger who is so old liao still fall down despite the fall is not tat slippery..yes and i developed a big bruise man and its damn pain lah..
hai~this holiday like never do anything seh..hmmm..this is bad...though this is my sec time taking A levels but somehow i still feel abit of scare and i am scared tat i dun have time to finish doing my ten yr series and my mind would be worried de..but i still prefer going to sch cos at least i dun feel so sian..