~can i be your friend?~

oh man, i realised i have diverted my attention to this new eye candy cos dentistry guy kinda "far" from me and he seems unreachable at all as he is just too far from me..though i like that dentistry guy more than this new eye candy cos he has more of the ang mo seh and more matured in thinking...but then hmm...and i realised tat i always like guys who have "yong" in their names..duno why also,...perhaps i really have high affinity wif "yong" ppl..lol..

anw i am damn damn shagged now..never seem to catch up on my lectures one..damn emo man..and today i went for wsc curl sub com committee..when i reached tat seminar room, i was alrdy half sian liao cos all xiao mei mei and they are so young ! so this da jie jie of cos dun find it enjoyable la..cos the games they play kinda lame also, or perhaps i have really this age gap wif them..duno lah, but its not really applicable to everyone la..but some the way they talk is really zzz and immature..nvm i stil have rsp youth, i shall see if the ppl over there more matured or nt..aiya but actually i am realy really tempted to join tennis after i knew he is in there..initally i have the intend to join tennis alrdy even before i knew tat he is in there..but becos of the $105 i bu se de, tat's why i nv joined..at least play tennis i can sweat and slim down..not too bad an idea..hmm i hope this eye candy can realised my presence one day..actually he confirm see me many times in lectures, but then nv had a chance to talk to him..hope one day i can know him as a friend ;)

~haiz not sure why i am feeling really down~

haiz can someone tell me why am i feeling so down..even i myself also duno why..i am terribly feeling very down now, but i have no idea what's the reson behind this sadness..i am really emo max..apparently lately, i dun feel like talking to anyone..not sure why too..the radiant smiling qm is losing her shine recently..i guess i have been feeling really empty..partly cos i felt left out and also have been really stressed up wif so many things to do and yet i have no time..have to find time teach tuition, work and manage my studies..roarr...no time man..and i am forever lagging behind..the moment i catched up on the lectures, new ones will accumulate again..seriously i am SICK of this liao man..getting kinda pissed cos i nv seem to finish my stuff one..then ytd i went for the wsc meet up...hmm all i can say is i feel really old inside tat blk E grouping..sian..regretted why i didnt join cca when i am in yr 1..now really too late liao..haiz haiz haiz..

and today we had our first elective test..hehe shoik man, i tink we can score in this elective cos this elective damn easy and kinda crap also..mostly on watching video and the first CA was just 10 mcq and practically i finished it in 15 mins when the test was supposed to allowed up to 40 mins..haha i tink its really a crappy test ! anw today cb also have F1 tic..initally was supposed to teach my student chem de, but since she wanted to put it on mon, then even better, so ended up the tuition was cancelled..and initally i really could have go for the F1 show cos cb gt tic..but then i abit sian to see f1 cos afterall i went last yr wif playmate and we were standing near the bridge there to watch..its nothing much except the impact of the motor was really powerful..other than tat nothing much..but mariay carey would be coming, and she is my idol..even if i am going there, i would be just watching her sing..

anw this wkend still tinking if i wanna go for the flea..kinda tempted to buy clothes lately, but i dun really have much time tis wkend to shop..i have 10 online lect to catch up wif, write resume for the GIP, and print notes and do project stuff,...wa lao so many things to do in 2 days..haiz..jia you ba..

~nt sure why i am feeling very down and emo~

haiz, qm qm ah, can someone pls tell me why am i feeling so empty, down and emo..i am not sure why also leh..suddenly i feel i am not as close to my clique anymore..even hm also feels tat..haiz why the sudden change huh..i duno la, just damn vexed now..i am vexed over the overseas china trip too..although it seems tat i have no worry over anything, but in fact i do worry for one great issue and its tat, i scared this trip will either spoil one's relationship or make us closer..cos the KL trip was a spoiler liao and can moo used to be my close friend, now no more after she treated me and cb tat like through the trip..ya, tat's my greatest concern..afterall being happy in sch is a diff feeling from staying together for half a yr.

haiz and this wk i have so many things to do..freak man, i am seriously damn tired liao..

~the meet up wif playmate after so many mths!~

ytd met up wif playmate after so many mths.we went chinatown for food hunt..initally intended to eat the dian xin buffet one, but ended up the timing bo gum so bo bian ended up eating ala cart..and its kinda ex but the food is nice la..after which went to many other food stall to try other food.after which went to the chinese garden to xplore cos the last time i went was young..but sad to say the garden is damn cui man..i thought it will be very nice as lantern festival will be coming soon this wk..aiya if ytd we have candles then it will be perfect man ! sian cos somewhere nearby dun hav candle shop at all..lol

anw i feel very comfortable going out wif him..fun to mix ard wif esp he is someone tat can joke and play ard wif..but then my chemistry for him is really gone ! afterall its so long alrdy.. and this wk damn shoik man cos alot of lessons cancelled..awesome man !

~should i go or not to go~

mon nite ken told me tat most of our clique ppl tio china for our overseas work and study..initally i really dun have high hopes cos afterall my results arent tat gd at all. but i actually gt a chance to go there sia..but then now qn is the money tat i need to pay is kinda alot and i will confirm be much poorer after i come bac from this china trip..and i am really scared tat i will left alone to survive over there if let's say all my clique ppl are all dispersed to diff state of china..although there are also students from our sch tat are going there, but everything need to start from sratch lo..everything need to begin from making friends and adapting to their culture and lifestyle..dad is supportive of me going, but mum not really cos in her opinion, its wasting money..aiya to me, its not the money issue, its more of exploring the world and gaining insights and experiences..haiz so now actually i am abit scared too la..although my heart really keen to go there..

then wed nite went for cca interview wif jy..seriously i tink its damn sian to study everyday..and i onli left 2 yrs to study in sch, so i must maximise the remaining 2 yrs student life..hopefully they will accept me, but then the stupid interviewer didnt ask me much qns when he asked so much qns towards the freshie..wa lao so does it indirectly means tat i am alrdy no chance since he didnt ask me much..haiz...then outdoor ODAc, i am actually quite keen but no one wants to go wif me..go alone damn sian one..i rather not go like tat..haiz lately have been quite emo and somewat feels tat i am kinda a loner man..other than shopping and sch work it seems tat i have nothing to do..and ytd jy asked me if i do envy those couples..i told him of cos i envy la..cos afterall i am graduating soon in 2 yrs and i haven found a suitable candidate and this is bad la..so he say i should perhaps lower my standard..but in the first place, i always think tat my standard isnt tat high wat..actually to me as long as the guy is nice to me, i am ok wif it..but most of them will tink that i go for looks, which is not true la..although most of the time i usually look at those shuai ge..but look is look ma, most of the time i only admire them, but admiring and loving a person is diff..so yeah many ppl have a wrong perception of the guys tat i like..


anw tmr is a public holiday..time to catch up wif all my lagging online lect..sian max ! and nxt mon will be meeting playmate..its been months since we last meet up le..hmm where should we go man..

~sch has reopened~

last one wk i hav been nuahing to watch online korean shows..shoik man ! i am completing the show..alrights then last thur went to dyed my hair and initally i look like an ah lian after i dye and highlight it..so decided to tone down 2 tone..after which sun went out to shop since its alrdy the last day before sch starts...

sch has started for 3 days and i still hav no mood at all to study..the drive is dead man..but tis wk is only wk 1..so can slack abit..and i feel damn weird feeling being too free in sch ! i wanna join a cca soon man..i need to expand my social circle..yawns