Friday, December 29, 2006

~i am busy nowadays~

last mon (18/12), i pon work since i reali tired of working everyday but i didnt tell my manager the real reason why i didnt turn up for work, just told her tat i got something on.seriously nuahing once a while reali feel shiok..working everyday from morning to nite reali make me veri tired, moreover its so far from my house.last wed also took half day leave cos mum found a new paino teacher and she is going to test me out whether am i capable fo taking the exam this july..yup, she is quite pretty considering she dun put any make up..also, think she looks reali sweet and she is the most chio teacher tat i ever have,i think she got went overseas for futher studies cos she got tat slang and i like her slang veri much..wonder when can i speak so gd eng like hers..haha..i am trying to learn well my spoken eng now as i speak..anyway thur feel reali bad for not going to the bbq cos last min i rmb i got training for the hotel, when i promised tat u wukk go for the bbq b4 he leaves singapore.so overall the training was alright, not as bad as i think..seriously i think its not easy to work as waitress cos they are veri particular abt how we place the utensils and all those and i was reali shock when theys sae tat the golden plate cos $65 each and i was reali impressed with the spoon and chocksticks cos they are quite heavy and they sae its plated with some metal.the trainer, christ mention somethings tat i must agree..he siad tat work is veri different from studying..the paper qualifications just show tat we have gone through the hardship..when it comes to work, everything starts from ratch..my brother kind of dislike him cos he feels tat he is a bootlicker..yup, i do agree with him and i think he is a veri alert and manulative person, someone who is veri smart and cant be fool around with..he also said tat in this world, its abt acting and how well u act..yup, wat he said is veri true in this society..tat day i was kind of switch off cos after work have to go..duno why those unimpt things did go inside my brain, but not the impt stuff tat i need to take note.but i am quite worried abt this job cos wat he sae is one thing but can u actually carried out wat is required is one thing.there is no trial seesion for u to practise, so i was kind of scared of making mistakes and getting scolded for ruining the hotel reputation.during tat nite went to their canteen to "take" some food..food want tat bad.i ate lots of their ice cream and lots of packet of yogurt..ended up feeling bloated cos tat nite ate nothing for dinner except lots of ice cream and yogurt..haha..
fri was a reali tiring day cos learn how to detorn roses..put in alot of strength to detorn roses, tat's why so tired..kay, there is this particular unknown guy who msg me and ask me how's my weekend..i was like huh?cos i was wondering who was it so i replied bac.so he intro himself but i still duno who he is until he told me tat he is the one tat i did survey for him.he asked if i still rmb him and i was think of cos i rmb him cos he veri irritating and keep pestering me and asking me qns which are unrelater to the survey,he said he wanted to make friend with me but i ignore his msg cos i find him disgusting , nerdy on the whole.just too bad loh, i just dun wan to make friend with strangers n the streets..i was kind og not happy with him cos how can u msg ppl's no without their consent.i did it out of kindness to do the survey for him cos i know doing survey veri chiam.i learn my lesson tat day and its never give unknown strangers your real no..
sat initally need to work but i told manager tat i canot make it cos wanted to go shopping becos there is warehouse mango sale, so she asked me to work at imm on sun, which was christmas eve..wanted to celebrate with yg, yh they all but since i work until veri late, we had to cancel the celebration..i realised tat after i work, spend quite a lot of money on clothes.in 2 days spent like $65 just on clothes and a bottle of leave on conditioner and a bottle of hair mud.tat's not like the usual past qm who dun spend tat much on money.
anyway sun was a bad experience at imm outlet.i think i create more trouble for her instead of helping her out..during busy timeing, i couldnt help her at all cos i know nothing abt the price of the things and watever customers ask me abt anything i also duno..and the worst case whenever every customer walk into the shop, all of them approach me instead of auntie poey..i was thinking, dun ask me cos i am just first day at work and i know nothing.hai~i was relai stress up cos she is just reali busy but i just cant help her in any way.all i can did for her is to entertain the customer and ask them wat they wan..i am especially scared when i deal with money cos i am afraid i will make mistake and give ppl the wrong money.i u keep praying tat customers dun pay by nets and mastercard cos i duno how to operate the machine and i reali make a mess out of it..there is this particular group of factory workers who came there and ended up they taught me step by step how to use the machine..everything was just veri funny cos i told them i was just first day at work at imm, so they sae dun stresss me tat much.there is this another customer and i dun understand he kept looking and smiling at me..i think he is crazy but i must agree he is friendly but i think he is not some gd guy also cos he sent flowers to a KTV pub but dun wan his name to be revealed..i also met up with another fussy customer,..he is just veri picky lah and auntie poey was kind of unhappy with him cos he is like not respecting her like tat..yup, i understand he wans the best for his gf, but shouldnt he change his character??tat day reali feel like i slack alot cos i did nothing but talk alot, yet getting paid at the sane time..kind of feeling abit bad.
christmas which was mon had gathering with my family members from my father side cos one of the daugther getting married on jan 7..the gathering was quite bored.we dun reali talk to them cos like i said b4 we are not in gd terms with one another and the family dispute have yet to resolved.seriously i duno alot of ppl there but yet most of them said they know me cos when i was young i take care of me..haha, some of them sae i pretty and my looks totally changed but i dun think so leh.still look the same as before..my father younger brother saw us and i overheard him saying tat we have grown up so big le..my dad didnt talk to him at all and they kind of pretend they duno each other..duno when will they will talk again..sigh..actually he is not reali tat bad person cos young tat time he is quite gd to us..i see him now like veri tired and looking reali in a bad condition..i got look at him but he never dare to look straight into my eyes..why arh?he is feeling guilty for wat he did? i duno..sigh..
at the workplace, got closer with janet, sharlyn and sharon they all..shuan are quitting cos of the low pay..yup, me, sharlyn and janet are quittin soon once we found another job cos we are reali unhappy with the pay..wa lao lunch time also must cut pay..we are already earning veri little le and still wan to cut pay for lunch time..i am reali veri unhappy with it cos where got ppl like tat de cos most companies dun cut pay for lunch time..u cant expect us to dun eat and work for 8hrs rite..i think this policy is ridiculous..and this place is kind of complicated..there are alot of backstabbers..they talk behind ppl's bac, duno if they got talk abt me, if they do then let them be..i dun like tat rosy cos she is veri blunt when she talk to ppl and she like to boss ppl ard just becos she is older than us and bully young ppl like us..seriously i will miss ppl there like sharon and mei jin cos they taught me lots of stuff and i still wan to learn more from them but next week i am tranferred to imm already..sharon is reali a nice person and i feel tat she can be a designer cos she got lots of talents..seriously i will gonna miss them..hai~~~
kay, fri nite when for a job interview with sharlyn..haha, it was a funny interview instead cos the moment i stepped into the room with sharlyn then i was so shocked to see the manager so young and he is exactly the same age as me..he said:"both of u all are young..hmm.."so i asked bac, u are also never young also, so how old are u??aiya everything just seems veri funny and we keep laughing away when this is an interview cos we think we are more like talking to peers rather than a manager whom i like should be someone like 30 plus yrs old..haha, i think he looks quite gd arh..but i think he got low qualifiations..actually have a reali nice time chatting with him cos everything was like just veri funny when he sae he is the manager..eventually me and sharlyn have decided not to take up this job cos canot relai earn much though its flexible working hours..the commision is low and there is no basic pay..so wat if we cant sell anything then how rite??haha,we sae we are veri slack cos we are looking for jobs and yet we still wan to go shopping after tat, which reali wat, last day of sale le so cant spare him anytime for more talking.he was reali nice to send us to the lift as he is the manager leh, haha, suddenly feel so hornoured..

Friday, December 15, 2006

~i saw tse hao!~

how times flies..i have zhuo bo for almost a month le..the argument between my mum and my piano teacher is never ending.now, she is demanding my paino teacher to allow me to take my exams during july which even i myself also think i canot make it.but both my parents just dun wan to listen to me, they kept thinking tat my teacher wan to earn more money just by dragging time..atcually i duno if my teacher has this mentality, but for certain, i have no confidence to fight this battle..perhaps giving me another yr to prepare will have a higher chance to pass..mum always complain tat since now there is no sch u should be able to practise alot but tge problem is i dun like playing piano and i have no passion for tat..seriously asking me to play piano for long hours relai make me switched off..
I am also abit sick of shopping.tues went to orchard with wee ping they all..yup, quite a boring trip.with no money reali makesshopping sian cos even though u might like it but no money to buy.wed suddenly I was offered with 2 jobs.The flourist shop and the hotel job.i was confused ast the moment which job should I go for.The flourist shop seems ok but lesser pay and my hands were crumpled due to long hours of contact with water.The hotel job is fussy abt the dressing and attire.they sae females need to wear stockings and wear light make up.When I heard tat I abit sian diao cos this job veri mafan and the make up need to put blusher and all those makeup stuff which I dun like.lips are still alright cos tat one veri fast one.hai~it seems tat working in hotel reali not easy.and their attitude towards employees reali veri bad.they shout at ppl and scold pppl like nobody business.i still think sch is better.working is worst than schooling.u kept doing the same stuff again and again until I am reali sick of it.now I know how to do bouquet wrapping of flowers but standard wise still lousy, cos afterall I onli learn for 2 days onli.after the 2 weeks of training will be transferred to IMM to work in the flourist work le.i hope I will be the one doing the admin work and taking orders cos I am reali lousy at wrapping bouquet.moreover I am a science student,sci student are usually bad at handicrafts.the ppl there seems ok but I was reali puzzled when we have to call those aunties by their names, but I am reali not used to it, I always like to call them aunite leh.they sae since we are collegue, then should call them by name, by somehow I think its weird and rude.
Yup, also went to watch eragon with my brother since we have free tickets.i was quite surprised when he ask me to watch with him becos he could have ask his friend instead.actually I dun reali like watching movie, but since the tickets are free, then ok loh.if ask me to spend my money on movie, then I wouldn’t wan cos I think it’s a waste of money, rather spend it on food, clothes and accessories.in short I rather spend money on practical things lah.the show was nice as said by him as said by him.as for me, I had no comment cos wasn’t reali watching.was busy messaging away with cm abt the job thingy.moreover I dun reali fantasy those type of movie, would prefer would ghost movie ba.think it would be more interesting and scary.yup, on the same day when we went for the interview, I walk past a pub, so I was curious how it looks like and the environment, so I stand outside the pub.the pub looks reali dark inside, cant reali see much but I onli saw 1 guy drinking.beside it is a toilet.so I went in there since I wanted to pee.sucks loh, the toilet stinks of smoke and those “bad gers” climb onto the basin to makeup.aiya one word to describe them, that’s is vian.most of them are not Singapore.there are some Indonesian and some from other country.but some of them reali pretty but some of them reali ugly.anyway I was reali scared when I went in there, scared they would beat me up so I faster went out of toilet the moment I finish my peeing.anyway dun understand how can SHE actually work in tat environment, if give me lots of money, I also wouldn’t wan.
On my first day of work which was thur, saw tse hao when I was taking the train and he just happen to come out of train.we chatted for a while even though I am already know I am late for work.he said I was just lucky enough cos he just came bac the day before.yup,he is a graduate student now.but haha, he still look ah beng, dun look like a graduate student at all, but he indeed became slimmer as compared to the last time I last seen him.he said my looks changed a lot, haha, did I ?maybe he didn’t see before I let down hair, tat’s why he said I look different ba.and he said I became more “Hiao”(some dilect language).duno wat it means, but I am thinking isit vain or is he trying to sae I trying to seduce guys or wat.but tat day I just wore a normal jeans and t-shirt, wasn’t tat seductive at all loh.its my prom nite dress tat is reali seductive.anyway I gave him tat look.but wasn’t angry wit wat he said.i was just joking with him.actually I reali duno wat it means, but I am used to it liao, he always like to sae me until veri mean, as if I de zui him like tat.seriously I hope there will be a gathering for the mm ppl..reali miss the times togther.i duno if my heart still miss him or not.probably if there is a gathering then maybe I will know wat’s the ans.tse hao did ask abt us and he is just reali slow tat we are no longer togther.he did ask abt the reason but his friend suddenly called and eventually didnt tell him.yup, anyway it’s the past le, no pt mentioning up again when it is not possible to happen again.some things are best left in the heart unsaid.moreover, he is veri happy with her, dun wan to mess things up cos I know he veri big mouth one, confirm will ask him for the reason.
There is this show”triumph in the skies” which I think is reali nice, esp I am starting to idolized francis ng, the main actor in tat show.think he last time veri zuai , but this show he show the different side of him.aiya duno how to sae, but I just like him.the show did talk abt him and a ger being together.initally the ger tried veri hard to “Jio” him and yes she managed to moved and touched his feelings.the guy initially said he dun wan cos becos of the large age differences, but the ger wouldn’t mind as long as we can be togther.she wouldn’t care abt the incompetitble look with him.yup, but later in the show, many things started to surface out.their way of thinking are just totally different and the ger was kinda disappointed when things didn’t turn out as expected.somehow I think this show did resemble slightly part of my past relationship, so I was reali keen to watch tat show cos I wan to know wat’s the ending.i learn something from the show and it is if a couple wan to be foster closer relationship, can probably go for holiday or camping.actually i wouldn’t mind even though I know I might need to suffer during camping but it’s the process tat is enjoyable.i wanted to watch sunrise since last time but never have the chance cos my parents dun allow me to stay overnite outside.actually between a couple, wat u do doesn’t matter, as long as u can be together..haha.tat’s just my opinion on it.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

~the prom-the prettiest me since i was born~

seriously its not easy to find a job..has been finding for 2 weeks le, but in vain..lost 2 job opportunities le..first was the flourist who was willing to hire me but tat day happens tat my hp low batt so hp auto off..then the manager called my house, but i wasnt at home..went out with my brother for the tuition agency interview..didnt know tat need to do test for the tutition agency interview, other wise i would have studied for it..so go there empty brained without knowing any pri work when i am applying to teach lower pri sch kids..seriously the test not easy..forgot most of the stuff for sci, maths still not too bad..my brother know how to do most of the qns onli duno how to do one qn,but i think the person wont hire him also cos he going for NS..hard to find time for him to teach...for me i think i flop the interview cos i kept smiling, dun think i look serious tat day and i knew tat for sure tat i wasnt veri confident when i speak up..but i like the pay veri much $10 per hour for lower pri..such gd pay where to find sia..at least better than outside pay..second opportunities lost was someone called my house looking for me but didnt give his/her contact no, so cant call bac..duno why tat person did call my hp when my hp is working and full of batt..hai~~then my ass brother bac out to go interview with me at shangarilla on wed cos my brother was throwing temper tat my mum dun wan to buy the bag for him so he bu shuang went straight home..i cant go for the interview cos i duno where is it..onli he knows cos he work there b4..next wed gg for the interview with cm instead, working as waitress..i guess working over there will be quite tough..from wat i heard from my brother and some other ppl..yup, but no cares, as long as get some experience and know how working life is like, then i will know wat to choose for future job..for the time being need some money for some things tat i want to buy for veri long time, but just no money, so have to work..
yup, seriously was veri grateful tat jin yi was willing to lend me his camera when i and him wasnt tat close afterall..never talk to him b4 face to face..onli recently then i started to talk to him online..seriously was reali scared to meet up with him for the camera so i ask my brother to follow me cos anyway my brother also need it for prom..tat day i was wondering wat should i call him arh cos i duno how to pronounce his name..so heck lah, didnt call him, just call him as "err.."haha..was veri ackward tat day..anyway he made us wait for half an hour, which is veri impunctual of him cos didnt like ppl to be late for tat long..15 mins or so is alrite..anyway i think i reali owe him a favour..shall think of a way to repay him..maybe go out wit him for a day cos he did ask me out but i didnt give him a reply cos like veri weird and pei seh leh..its like when i first went out wit ac for our first date and i kept changing topics when he mentioned to meet up or so cos veri pei seh and seldom talk to each other except during mm competitions..but eventually somehow i decided to change my mind and meet up with him..somehow it did leaves beautiful memories for me for tat half yr..anyway it isnt easy to borrow a digital camera..many ppl dun wan to lend cos it is an expensive thing,but i dun blame them cos i understand the suitation..parents wouldnt want their children to lend an expensive device to their friends..
yup, last week also went to akira walehouse sale to look for some cheap stuff..actually was looking for some cheap camera but tat lousy camera tat JT sae got sold out so soon..tat reali shows how kiasu how singporeans could be..eventually bought onli a earpierce and some recorable cd..seriously i think the ppl over there shop like no need money like tat..see liao reali oh my god..yup, tat day went imm too..saw guo mei mei, the singer..wah she super chio and cute, eyes super big but veri veri thin..
last week was busy preparing for prom too..had to meet up the makeup ppl plus accompany yh to shop for her prom stuff..seriously veri tiring of shoping..dun understand why those makeup ppl wan to smoke when they look so pretty..-shake head- one of them is even younger than me..anyway tat day was veri anxious for prom cos first time makeup..reached suntec earlier than 5pm but the makeup gers wasnt ard, but i guess they went smoking ba..seriously they told me they can get paid even though they did nothing and roam around..kay, my first experience for make up is i dunlike make up cos dun like to put those loose power or foundation on face cos i have a hard time removing the make up and i think i didnt remove properly, got 2 pimples the next morning..i think eyes and lips make up still ok, at least they wont spoil ur complexion.somehow tat day got free plucking eyebrow service by a veri experienced auntie cos the 2 gers sae my eyebrow reali too ugly le and they duno how to draw..yup, now got nice eyebrow..the 2 gers was also helpless with my eyelashes cos no matter how, it wont curl..then ask the auntie which is their master to use the formidable "kiap" to kiap the eyelashes and it reali curl..hair wise was also made by tat auntie, she sae she used to style hair for brides..yup, actually can see cos she quite fashionable..so afterall the makeup and hairstyling i look in the mirror, oh man, feels like some monster, but all of the ppl over there sae i look veri nice..maybe i am not used to seeing myself with makeup ba.seriously i think its a makeover cos even myself i also canot recognise myself..yi guang who was down there wit his friend waiting for us to finish the makeup, was nodding and smiling away..i think i look reali funny tat day, not used to it..and there is this guy who ask my 2 gers to do make up for him, duno leh, think he veri gay seh..why must guys do make up??no wonder i see he so shuai and with gd complexion..so i see, he got make up..my makeup ppl sae i look veri sexy tat day, like those ang mo tat would look for one nite stand..haha..do i??dun think so at all..but duno why end up like tat cos initally my intended image is to look sweet and pure, duno how come image came out to be wild looking..maybe the makeup makes it look so ba..but seriously after i look into the mirror for long, dun think its tat ugly lah..not like the first reaction when i "wah" veri loudly when i see myself in the mirror..actually prom wasnt tat interesting..quite bored actually..they played quite lame games, but the kissing part between the prom king and prom queen does interest me..oh man, i think its veri pei seh when every one is looking and imagine u have to kiss a stranger..haha..but i think every gers will wan a kiss from the prom king cos he veri popular plus he veri gd looking esp his eyes..haha..manage to toke a pict with him..oh man..the gers wise mostly veri pretty, no ugly from wat i see..but there is one who just use a rubberband to tie her hair and without makeup..think she looks kinda wierd.guys wise got 2 guys dress up as gers..think they are mad..but one of them is the prom king.i think they are siao ppl..mr darius oh was like saying tat i have veri successful plastic surgery cos he sae last time my nose is not tat sharp, now sharper..but seriously they did nothing to my nose, haha maybe my nose reali grow sharper..who knows..haha..tat day all i know yh is super chio, not like the usual her without makeup.bell bell is super chio too, but duno why she isnt voted as the prom queen..think she more chio than the prom queen loh.food tat day was reali nice, but too bad cant reali eat too much cos otherwise tummy would show out..anyway tat day finished quite late, by tat time its 1 plus le..went to yh house to sleep tat nite, oh my god her mum super fierce lah..duno lah, in future dun dare stay overnite at her house liao.anyway for the time being shall continue to find a job suitable for me..next wed going for waitress interview..hai~actually dun reali like tat job but hard up for money, no choice.