letting go...

Nothing is worse than someone breaking yourheart. To need somebody so badly and then tohave to let them go is hard. And as we grow older,the more people break our hearts, the worse it canfeel each time.Broken hearts are depressing, embarrasing anddifficult. Fortunately, heartbreak doesn't lastforever.Let yourself let goIn dealing with a broken heart, the first thing is tolet go completely. If it was not meant to be, thenjust let them go, and trust that someone better isgoing to come along. If we go back to that personwho broke our hearts, they will see us as nothingmore than defeated, and we would riskembarassment. A good way to just let go is toresist the urge to return, and simply avoid callingthem on the phone, emailing or contacting themotherwise.Feel your heartIt's okay to feel bad. Take some time to feel bad.Take a walk by yourself, or listen to some sadmusic. There is value to every feeling, as everyfeeling teaches us something new about ourselves.Talk to somebody about it. A close friend will letyou vent all of your angerAs time goes on weand move further andfurther away into the 'past.' And as each daypasses by, the hurt will go away, little bylittle, untilwe don't even remember the pain at all.Keep your eyes forwardThe future is rushing towards us faster thanwe can comprehend, and if we keepour heads turned backwards, looking at the past,we will miss seeing everything that thefuture is bringing to us.
yesterday so shiok sia stay at home do my own stuff..then can do things at my own speed..then tmml think i will pon again cos reali got a lot of stuff to do..cant finish my hw!!!!!anyway todae's lesson quite ok lah..then my dad's is veri demanding sia..maybe this job wont last for long..sigh...then cm actually appeared on then FHM..sia lah
this week veri busy sia..duno why..then hor duno why on tues nite i cried..not sure why, maybe i still cant get over it or i am just lost in the mist and duno wat should i do..hai~~

~todae workshop~

todae's lesson so little ppl loh..aiyo onli 12 turn up loh..then the rest come to sch but never go for the workshop.think tml i not coming liao..waste my time sia..anyway todae got presentation again lah..then i talk abt the vaules for gd spouse..firstly i think he must not smoke, drink or gamble..plus he ,must not be violent...then he must be caring and help me do housework lah..then they guys feels tat they wan a wife who can cook and do housework..sia lah then like tat i confirm no guys will wan me loh cos i am super lazy to do housework and i know nothing abt cooking..so tml i think i will giv excuse saying tat i got stomach ache so not coming to sch le...but i am scared tat i need to pay extra $30 if i never go go..hai~~but thur confirm will come cos go nice food..confirm sure go one..hehe..anyway i having test next mon..so scared...todae tat ch seems so sian..everybody bang seh him..hai~~

~my weekend~

sun went out to jp to buy 3 mini skirts cos on sale..i bought 2 skirts, which look like some layered cake, whereby there is 3 layers..the other one look like some normal skirt, but this can tie a belt but the other 2 canot..anyway actually there is onliy discount if we buy 2lah, but later the other 1 , my mum ask one of the ppl in the shop to share with us..so afterall, we zhuan dao loh..actaually shopping with auntie also not bad..at least they can help u bargain with ppl..for me, i dun dare, so my mum do the job for me..seriously when i wear it, it looks super short, it seems like my legs very long like tat..seriously i also duno why i so siao to buy such schort skirts, cos its like reali difficult to sit, but still it looks nice , cos wear liao look like some xiao mei mei..then on sat nite, my mum bought2 jeans..one of is for me, other is for herself..so afterall we spent quite alot of money on clothes le..then later went ntuc saw qian xi..wa she looks quite trendy now after graduating from jj..her bf was just in front of us queueing in front of us but i think she cant recognise me..seriously dressing up can reali change a person's look..i might wan to try out if i got the money first after my Alevels.., which is still quite long, hai~~still got 1 yr and 4 months more to go..waiting and waiting..tat seems a veri long way to go..if last yr i were to be hardworking then at least i would be taking my A LEVELS this yr le..then i will going for the prom night next yr then..sersiouly i am veri curious how my j2 friends will look like..hmmm..isit the same old nerd or pretty chio bu..haha..
then my indonesia auntie called becos she ask my mum to go bac indonesia during dec for some wedding..wa lao they biased sia never ask if me and my brother wan to go or not..anyway they will provide everything..but my mum just refused to go and then she cried when talking to my auntie..duno why..hai~~aiya i think in the end she will surely go like last time like tat..but when i think of the days when i hav to wash my brother and dad smelly underwear, just make feel like puking and i think i am a maid at tat time..then somemore still must cook for them then my brother always complain tat i cook until veri lousy then i always get fed up cos they did nothing yet complain so much..i rmb last time, i always cry for my mum cos i canot tahan doing such things plus tat time i am scared of ghost mah cos tat time got ppl die at my house downstairs so i veri scared..always canot sleep..so duno if i hope tat she should go or not leh..if she go, then i will hav my freedom and do wat i wan, but on the other hand if she go, i will become a full time maid..then must wash the smelly undergarments..yucks....i girl must wash guy's stuff so the er xin man..
todae when to sch, then cm dyed her hair bright red just becos she hav to go for a date during the weekend..sia lah then sat she dye yellow, now red, so she was ask to change her hair colour b4 she can step into the sch..stupid sia..waste money on dyeing when u know tat our sch is veri strict with dying hair..for me, my colour doesnt look obvious, so not too bad..at least mine look like some natural colour..then todae the public speaking super sian man..feel like sleeping..then so the shit man, still must stand in front of the class to talk abt myself..anyway i just anyhow sae loh, dun reali hav things to sae..fot the etiquette workshop, learn quite a no of things..hehe learn how to make up liao, finally..actually the person got ask we all to try out but i dun wan, scared later spoil my complexion..so i just sit down there and see..then i was asked to be the volunteer to show ppl how to sit properly..sia lah, i feel super nervous sia..then some more in front of me all guys, some die die must sit properly..i always like to sit with my legs wide open, but at tat time i cant do tat, so feel reali uncomfortable..anway on thur, got nice food to eat sia, going jack place there to hav 5 course meals..shiok man..

~thinking something..~

Was watching zhen qing in the evening. Xiaoan still missies her ex-gf, joan even though he is currently attached..his current gf is veri nian towards him, which make him feel veri irritaing..but his ex gf still misses him a lot too..so she decided to pick up her courage to call up and meet up with xiaoan..initally he feels veri confused who should he choose to be with, but after clearing up the misunderstanding, they became together again..and his choice is to break up with his current gf becosshe uses underhand ways to win his feelings towards her..in the end, they reali became together..so sweet sia..in the show they sae tat the presence of the current gf is planned by the god, just to test them how much and deep they feel for each other, maybe for me, its my parents..so does true luv reali exist?? Not long ago, I came abt this phrase when I was reading an eassy, "its better to be luv than not to be luv at all.."sounds meaningful to me after I read it..agree??kay, I think guang and ester cant reali last tat long cos I can see tat ester is veri nian towards him..maybe he do feel irritated at times..i also duno..i did ask him b4 does he feel nian, he dun dare to giv comments..anyway I thik tat initally guys will treat their gf super gd, after a month they will tend to bo chap their gf liao..true??I think tat this honey moon period can onli last for a while onli, not forever..anyway at times I do feel tat ester is abit jealous when he talked to us..maybe he dun know tat but to gers we can see clearly becos gers can understand gers better..ya??anyway if even if he is the last guy on earth, I will also not wan him becos I think he is veri er xin to me..ksy this weekend reali busy sia..got lots of stuff to do man..esp the gp, spend so much time on the comp..hai~~and chem just suxs becos I hate chem!!!!!

they sae i am a lesbian~

when we were walking to yishun library, on the way we talked alot..yh told me tat at times i give her the feeling tat i am a lesibiancos i always look at gers and not guys..and i always sae they chio and something like tat..i seldom comment on guys saying tat they are shuai..so they think tat i like gers more than guys..and so they think i am a les loh..ch also said tat last week, cos i was looking at some of my ger friends picts then he always asked me why i always look at gers pict and not guys..the ans is veri simple..becos i am not inerested in them plus they not tat eye catching to me..my definition of appealing is tat he no need to be shuai, he just need to be cute and always hav the smiling face, then sure will attract my attraction..those yan dao guys no longer seems yan dao to me liao..instead cute guys attract more of my attention..hehe..anywayi am 100% confirm tat i am straight..i still like guys, dun worry, its not like wat they sae loh..oh pls, if ever one day i were to bacome a lesibian, i will bang on the wall sia..but i 100% sure it wont happen..then we were also talking abt relationship..we share abt out exs story..both of us feel tat we ant a serious and lasting relationship...and not those short term realationship..if like tat i rather choose not to hav cos its like wasting both parties time.in the end, onli both parties will be hurt..i still want a guy who is devoted and caring towards me..i dun like guys being fierce..u will never know one day if he were to be angry, he might beat u up, so veri dangerous sia..anwyay i reali hope tat my parents can accept who i hav accepted to be my bf in future..hopefully everything will go smoothly.
and duno why my chem teacher always thought my name is serene..do i look like i got eng name like tat..i tok ppl always sae tat i look veri cheena..anyway she always like to catch my shoes, saying u not wearing the correct colour and all not shit..then i always reply, okok..this is the sec time liao..but who cares man..alot of ppl is wearing the incorrect colour..i am not going to change anyway, i shall let her sae until she sian then she will keep quiet liao..
duno why there is something tat kept hinting me tat i am going to see something but i didnt get the hint til on wed..actually i dun reali know how to express the feeling but everything just happened like tat..on tues, i saw a lr passing, then on wed, when i was walking towards yishun mrt, i saw a smae lr as his one except tat its black..then duno if it is concidence or wat tat near my house bus stop, i seem to see his lr passing by when i am inside the bus going to alight soon..seriously i duno if i hav seen it correctly or not cos my eye sight reali terrible..anyway if it is, then tat's quite qiao cos its hard to see any lr..seriously in my entire life, i didnt even see a single lr b4 til last yr..so seeing 3 lr in 2 days is consider alot liao and tat makes me feel weird tat someone is telling me tat i am going to see something related to lr, and it seems veri true..duno why sometimes weird feelings do come true at times..
then this few days i super tired and busy..i hav got too much hw to do cos i stack it there for veri long liao, still haven touched yet..seriously i am veri worried for my chem , at the rate she is teaching cos i dun understand wat she is talking abt..i am also starting to loss interest in maths liao beocs the teacher make me dislike maths now..yipiee, next yr can relax a bit cos no sch lectures but workshop..then heard tat there will be a makeup session then got hand on sessions on tat..wa seems not bad..i curious how will i look like in make up..haha..
kay todae then veri stupid loh must run 7 rounds the track cos i didnt wear proper attire..then they so sweet sia pei me run..haha..anyway i didnt complete all cos i reali veri tired sia..then todae maths lect the teacher teaching not bad, he also look quite shuai but he damn fierce sia, i so scared of him sia..kay to night still must go online to do gp cos tat mr heng sae tml deadline so die die todae nite must do finish..

*sweet*

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spiritual relief is still the best..
You will be happy that you read this all the waythrough.As you got up this morning, I watched you, andhoped you would talk to me, even if it was just afew words, asking my opinion or thanking me forsomething good that happened in your lifeyesterday. But I noticed you were too busy, tryingto find the right outfit to wear. When you ranaroundthe house getting ready, I knew there would be afew minutes for you to stop and say hello, but youwere too busy. At one point you had to wait, fifteenminutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair.Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought youwanted to talk to me, but you ran to the phone andcalled a friend to get the latest gossip instead. Iwatched patiently all day long. With all youractivities I guess you were too busy to sayanything to me.I noticed that before lunch you looked around, maybe you felt embarrassed to talk to me, that is whyyou didn't bow your head. You glanced three orfourtables over and you noticed some of your friendstalking to me briefly before they ate, but you didn't.That's okay. There is still more time left, and Ihopethat you will talk to me yet. You went home and itseems as if you had lots of things to do. After afew of them were done, you turned on the TV. Idon't know if you like TV or not, just aboutanythinggoes there and you spend lot of time each day infront of it not thinking about anything, just enjoyingthe show. I waited patiently again as you watchedthe TV and ate your meal, but again you didn't talkto me.Bedtime I guess you felt too tired. After you saidgood night to your family you popped into bed andfell asleep in no time. That's okay because youmay not realize that I am always there for you. I'vegot patience, more than you wi ll ever know. I evenwan t to teach you how to be patient with othersaswell.I love you so much that I wait everyday for a nod,prayer or thought or a thankful part of your heart. Itis hard to have a one-sided conversation. Well, youare getting up once again. And once again I willwait, with nothing but love for you. Hoping thattoday you will give me some time. Have a niceday!Your friend, ALLAHPS - Do you have enough time to send this toanother person?If you aren't ashamed to do this, please follow thedirections.Not ashamed? Pass this on......only if you meanit.Yes, I do Love God. He is my source of existenceand Savior. Allah keeps me functioning each andeveryday.Without Him, I will be nothing. Without him, I amnothing, but with Him This is the simplest test . . .if you Love God, and are not ashamed of all themarvelous things he has done for you. Send this toyour list!

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seems like i long time never write liao..~!

hai~my dad is jobless again..i am sick of those food tat my mum cooks everyday..everyday is the same old vegetables..hai~was watching "tong xin yuan"..wa dayang sacrifice so much for baobei..the sceence was so touching..if ever a guy could sacrifice so much for me, i will be touched like anything..but the true fact is tat this will onli happens in shows and not in true life..then i think tat the power of luv can reali change a person's character..true??the person will try his or her best to change just for his/her other half..this is wat i think cos i hav seen cases around me..then my mum was also saying me tat i super damn lazy to do housework..ya true, even my dad sae tat i take after my mum when she is young tat time..she also sae tat in future my future husband will confirm find mistress with my this kind of pattern..actually true, think my greatest bad habit is laziness..if i werent to be lazy last yr, i also wouldnt end up retaining..my mum just hopes tat my brother can become a doctor and as for me just find a gd guy and complete my piano cert..saying abt tat, i can onli shake my head, cos i think i reali know nothing abt tat even though i hav gotten my gd 7 cert..i still think tat learning piano is for lesiure and not for exams..but they do not think so till now..they always agrue bac saying "wa u think ur dad veri rich arh.."
then last week miss lim actually choose me yh, wei jie, leonard, rodney and banana for some mechanics and aerospace competition in ntu, somewhere in aug 2..and the irony is tat there is this grp of china scholars in yj, but she chose to giv us a chance since she saes tat we perform well this time in the blog test..she saes tat she has confidence in us and we hav always been a hardworking and diligent students..when she saes tat, me and yh was like laughing out..she added tat she dun care abt yj winning or not..most impt is the teamwork..was when she saes tat i feel tat she reali a nice teacher..at least she treats every students equally..anyway she didnt force us to join..anyway after tat we stay bac to dicusse whether or not to participate..then i realised tat all of us belongs to the retainees club except for banana..my brother has participated in this comp somewhere in june and he got $50 for tat cos nj got in 2nd..he said tat the comp was veri tough..so this is how he got his new T630..i was veri hesistant whether should i join or not cos i reali duno how should i contribute to the team cos i know nothing abt making planes..i think i reali need the help of my brother this time..then leonard was saying "aiya just join loh..if yj will get 1st then will be a miracle.."actually true loh, we are yjcians, wat can we expect..i seems veri bad saying abt my sch..but stil i dun like being in yj..my heart is still in jj..anyway i treat it as a learing experience loh, dun reali except much..i also duno whether i will giv up or not cos it reali requires alot of determination..i hope i dun cos i dun wan to drag the whole team down..anyway i also hope to do something fruitful in my jc life..at least my testimonial can say tat i hav participated a comp in ntu, seems not bad seh..
anyway my dad is going to work in canteen A somewhere in aug 22..duno confirm lioa or not..but weird of all places why must he choose to work there...dun tell me he got lobang there..hmmm...but i hope he faster go work if not he everyday stay at home do nothing..onli snatch my tv programms onli..
then last next mr heng was telling us tat if we could write a gd eassy of more than 2500 words and sent it to competitio, then we can win abt $700 to $1000..sounds not bad hor..but in the first place do u think i can win..of cos not lah, given my this kind of eng..hai~~anyway i still need to do cos its counted in my assignment which is graded..so i die die also must do..after tat we were looking at our future fortune by oberserving our hands' lines..they sae i got 1 bf in my entire life..then i sae sure or not..doesnt seems to be accurate leh..then i sae we also break up lioa so wont be true..when i said tat ch looked shocked..i thought i told him b4 liao..blur sia..anyway he said tat "Maybe in future there is still.........."seriously i dun dare to think much abt this kind of things liao..i am scared tat i will be disappointed and sad if the outcome isnt wat i want..so lets leave it up to fate ba..let heaven decided on who should i be with in future..
then i also scalded my fingers when i was having chem pract..gosh i also duno why i so blur to touch tat super damn hot test tubes after heating..anyway i didnt report to the teacher cos i think its onli a small matter..but after i came home, then pain is still there..kay now then i know tat guys like my age also say the magic three words one to their gf..i thought those 20+ guys will sae such things one..few days bac, me and yh was looking at yi guang pict gallery, then we accidently press his inbox cos his hp veri complicated sia..then we saw, "dear i love u.."opps then we were like stun and laughing inside our hearts..then all his picts is ester picts..see liao also sian..then worst me and yh was their kissing picts..eeeee....wondered how they take it one..hmm...anyway i was right to guess tat they hav prigressed til there...let me guess will they do tat??eh..i think will cos yi guang like those despo kind..yuck...
then for the next entire week, i will be going for workshops on grooming and public speaking..actually quite ok lah, at least i can learn how to eat and sit nicely in a high class restaurant..seriously my eating habits reali veri terrible..i has got no table manners, need to be taught..plus got those haircare and make up workshops..gd sia then i can learn to make up cos i know nothing abt makeup..at least now got chance to learn the maybe in future i might want to try out..these sounds benefical for gers but do u think tat guys will care abt their hair??Hmm..i dun think so leh..anyway i will take this week as a break cos i relai veri tired..need some time to rest a while..plus at the same time must study for the coming monday tests..teacher sae tat its going to be veri difficult for chem..so i better be prepared..sigh....=( i dun wan to fail..i reali scared of failing..then saying of tat i will think of the coming promos in oct..so scared cos this is my last chance liao..

crying out cos i feel hurt..

seriously i dun understand why cm sometimes use tat kind of attitude and tone to talk to me, when i didnt even sae bad things abt her..duno why i feels like she doesnt seems to like me like tat..i wont blame her for perferring yh over me becos everybody has their perferances..but why must she sae hurting things right on my face..last week she said tat "this hand writing is so ugly.."initally she tok tat the paper belongs to mine, so she said tat on purpose..but after tat she realised tat she make a mistake and she immediately appolgised to yh..at times, she also call me names..wa lao i was quite angry at times, wanted to quarrel with her but i try to control myself from doing tat..seriously i duno how long can i keep my temper..if one day i reali lost my temper then dun blame me ..seriously why such things always happens to me arh..i hav lose him already and i dun wan to lose another frien just like wat happened in sec sch..the days eating alone, keeping quiet the entire day and crying secretly in toilet, is a veri terrible feeling..the days when you beg for ur frien's forgiveness becos i throw temper at her when she appologised to me, is a veri veri terrible feeling also..seriously i dun wish to happen such things again between me and cm..she also dislikes yi guang..duno why..i think she is mad..she puposely sae mean things and steo his foot puposely becos she dun like him for being talkative..i think wat she does is veri gup fen..not i am helping yi guang..ppl didnt do anything wrong then why treat him like tat..seriously i feel veri hurt..so far i am hurt by 3 ppl altogether since i was young, not counting my mum, for wat they sae..seriously wat should i do??should i control my temper and let her sae all she wans or should i just throw my temper at her.hai~~~so troubled...anyway i am thankful tat my friends duno my blog's website then i can write and scold all i wan..seriously yh and cm duno my website but they do know tat i hav a blog..so todae is a new mon..lets hope tat everything will be a fine day..

ways to dump a person..

are you duped?
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Not familiar with rejection lines? Here's what wereally mean. So get a hint, ok, guys? Sheesh.10. I think of you as a brother. (You remind me ofthat f**king pest. And I'm not into incest either.)9. There's a slight difference in our ages. (Youare one jurassic geezer.)8. I'm not attracted to you in 'that' way. (Youare the ugliest freak I've ever laid eyes upon.)7. My life is too complicated right now. (I don'twant you spending the whole night or else you mayhear phone calls from all the other guys I'm seeing.)6. I've got a boyfriend (He's my male cat and ahalf gallon of Ben and Jerry's).5. I don't date men where I work. (Actually, Iwouldn't even date you if you were in the same'solar system', much less the same building.)4. It's not you, it's me. (It's not me, it's you.)3. I'm concentrating on my career/studies. (Evensomething as boring and unfulfilling as myjob/studies is better than dating you.)2. I'm celibate. (I've sworn off only the men likeyou.)1. Let's be friends. (I want you to stay around soI can tell you in excruciating detail about allthe other men I meet and have fun with. It's thatmale perspective thing)


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If you're afraid to love a person because offriendship, you have two choices: either tell whatyou feel and let the love take place or hide thefeeling under a friendship full of pretensions.It's hard for two people to love each other whenthey live in two different worlds but when thesetwo worlds collide and become one, that's what youcall magic!Love can never be so beautiful without friendship.One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!I like you because you're my friend, and becauseyou are my friend I care, and because I care, Ilove you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make mehappy? To think that I have everything else, I getwhat I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad'cause it's you i can't have. I can't choose whoI'm gonna love, but I also can't love who choosesto love me.And you can't blame me in choosing to love you asmuch as I can't blame you for not learning to loveme. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way youloved the one before me, so I'll let you go findhim/her and hope someday you'll see that the onetrue love you're looking for was the one who setyou free."HOW CAN I SAY GOODBYE TO SOMEONE I NEVER HAD?WHY DO TEARS FALL FOR SOMEONE WHO WAS NEVER MINE?WHY IS THAT I MISS SOMEONE I WAS NEVER WITH AND I ASKED WHY I LOVE SOMEONE WHO'S LOVE WAS NEVER MINE?"Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.Food for thought, think of this:Have you really cared for someone more than youexpected?Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of allthe pain?Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whisperssomeone else's name? Will you?It's better to lose your pride with someone youlove rather than lose that someone you love withyour useless pride. When you love someone, don'texpect that person to love you back the sameamount. One of you will be head, the other behind.It's either you catch up or the other waits.When you love, you must not accept anything inreturn, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, forif you expect happiness, you're not loving butusing. True love hears what is not spoken, andunderstands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...Love is like standing on wet cement, the longeryou stay the harder it is to leave and you cannever go without leaving your prints behind.Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season.Love them like a river because a river flows forever.Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'causelove doesn't have to end at all.Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if youdon't follow your heart, in the end you will cryeven more for not giving love a chance.Love may leave your heart like shattered glass,but keep in mind that there's someone who'll bewilling to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is tolet her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall! And fooling around with her feelings like they meant nothing.(This goes for gals as well).

~upset~

just got bac my chem and gp paper..chem pass but didnt do weel considering i am a retainee..gp comp paper pass by 2 marks, which is a miracle..think the next mon compre paper sure to fail cos last yr my lowest mark was 12/50 and highest was 18/50..so hopefully this yr can hit a least 20 like tat then at least not too bad..hai~reali scared then for maths i got F sia..reali F this time..this is the first time getting F in my jc life..cant beliveve tat maths tat is my best subject is the worst now..hai~~anyway the paper was reali difficult..test more on thinking qns rather than applying wat was learnt..i hate myself for giving away 9 marks..during exams cant reali concentrate cos must sit there for 3hrs sia then i reali canot tahan..then halfway i did daydream cos mt mind reali tired liao..plus most of the qns i leave blanks cos i lazy to think and do cos difficult mah..if easy then ok lah..i reali worried sia, duno whether this yr can i make it to j2..i reali veri veri STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!! sia..i did thought of duno wan to study anymore and contiue to be wat i was in the past..i reali veri tired sia, study hard yet get this kind of results..then wats the point of studying???i dun feel like studying anymore, feel like droping out of jc and go poly..i didnt reali talked much in sch cos i was quite sad..so i just kept quiet,,then my class change a new chem teacher..wa lao she suxs loh..why must we change our previous teacher..she so the impatient and lousy in teaching...she got this black face everyday..she her liao also sian diao...wa lao she going to teach us for the next 1.5 yrs..sway sia..
then last 2 days i was walking slowly from the park to my house cos i reali veri upset, then a guy eating ice cream came running behind me and laster ask me for my hp no cos he said his frien wanted to make frien with me..i was thinking :"siao why should i giv strangers my no..."after which i rejected him and i just walked off without turning bac cos i dun wan to think tat i wan to make frien with his frien..anyway i dun think they are gd ppl also..anyway the guy tat approach me is quite gd looking except tat complexion is bad..anyway i also not interested in this kind of ppl..all i know tat i am veri sad tat time..aiya i should hav "play" with him a while sia..i should hav say:" eh i dun hav hp, u wan my house no?" then i shall see his rxn..maybe he will faster zhao...haha..yeasterday then told my mum abt my maths..she didnt scold me..weird, but just sae me abit.,..actually i am quite happy tat i got B for physics..so far this is my best results..but the fact is tat i dun like physics!!!
and i got this qn to ask..is the power of luv reali tat great..why isit tat ester and yi guang became so pro..last yr he did motivate me to study but i am just too lazy to study..to many ppl they like veri rou ma like tat but i think to her, she will think tat he is a sweet bf..to sae the truth..there is still a thing in my mind..

~heya long time never blog le~

feel so tired..miss my beauty sleep..kay anyway i just shop finish at bugis with yh after our pract..now my legs feel so the suan..anyway i looking for a hp pouch to bao my the other hp..change my retarted hp liao..at least this is better than tat, but still i miss my old hp leh..duno why, i always hav feelings for things i use..haha..mon holidays...so shiok..weekend i will slack liao..