~come on, pls faster heal~

i have been feeling really tired and sleepy over taking so much medicine..the non stop coughing and flu is really damn jialat..summer pls faster come, honestly i cant take the transition temp change in the morning and nite,which explains why i always get sick here when in SG i rarely get sick man..

anw get to the topic, actually i do feel like telling him tat actually i should be honest to myself, being tat actually i do feel abit for him..but duno why when there are chances for us to walk together, i always avoid him or duno how to get the topic running..cos most of the time he is out to tease me, and moreover most of the time his tone wasnt serious at all.so i didnt take his words seriously, but if he really meant wat he say, i would be defintely happy ;) but anw left ard 1.5mths bac to SG..lets leave up to fate yeah ;) cos i predict once sch starts, everything will be bac to normal..i will mug in lwn everyday after sch..no time for relationships..and moreover this yr have fyp, i will be even busier...so most likely its kinda impossible to have any progress

~am i tinking too much???~

anw my 24th pre-bday was not bad..had a really big surprise by my room mate, housoon smasking cake on my face...this was my first time getting cake smash on my face..though the whole process was damn horrible cos it is damn dirty, but it was fun cos its the process tat we had fun together..anw it was sweet of them to tink of having 18 baos for my bday..haha cos i like eating pao so much tat they can rmb tat i am a pao queen..but anw tat day i wished for something tat nite, and hopefully it will be fulfilled ;) and i do see some hope..hehe

anw fri was out to shanghai and we stayed at the shanghai ppl hse..went there to make spects on fri nite and it cost only $20..super damn cheap man ! whoo ! anw throughout this entire trip i was kinda happy over him, but i dared not admit..hai qm qm qm ah, if u dun admit u will nv get ur happiness man..then this kinda nice caring guy will be gone just like this..abit wasted ;( perhaps i should learn to be more thick skin hor.. hmm.. anw the story goes like this...sat was supposed to go for the clubbing and drinking..then end up i realised tat at the drinking pub we are sitting pretty close and apparently i do feel happy when he sits very close to me..i guess i hv really fallen for him ! else i wont feel happy when a guy sits so close to me rite??? or rather i should feel paranoid when a guy sits so close to me rite?? cos tat will be my usual reaction..but anw tat nite i do feel tat somehw he is quite caring towards me or maybe i am over sensitive..cos can see tat he keep "protecting" me during clubbing tat time..or perhaps its just guys' job to protect girls..i not sure either..but apparently tat nite i do feel happy though i really duno hw to dance, but i am happy with the company i am with...anw tat nite i wasnt sure if wat he said was joking or nt leh..he said he can lend me his shoulder and carry me cos i cant walk properly..and his tone was those joking joking kind, so i dared not take his words seriously..but i do see another ac ..how how how?? so i replied him jokingly and ask him nt to be so irritating..and the slow walk home was indeed a nice one, although the dist was pretty short..cos my legs still hurts, so cant walk fast then he purposely slowed down to wait for me..then giv excuses saying tat "they trying to create chance for us..blah blah blah.."　of cos this time round, i will take it as he is joking also cos his tone like not serious at all..but if everything tat he said was serious, then i would have gotton and given him a reply..

~swollen legs~

hai today i am damn damn emo man...cos leg super pain til i can hardly walk properly..cos lately i feel very down man cos it seems tat god is trying to play a prank on me man..first is toe infection and grey nails..now swollen legs for no reason ever since the hangzhou trip..and i have to suffer all these shit..honestly speaking i really felt helpless when my foot is really pain..wanna see doc but duno which place got clinic or hospital..so super emo and sad..so i was feeling really down man..at tat point of time, i was hopping someone would concern and care for me...even if it wont heal my leg its ok, as long as there is someone to lend me some moral support..cos for nw i really need moral support..when u are overseas, there is alot of things tat are beyond my reach..and i dun wan mafan ppl also..so i kept quiet abt it til my friend asked me why i am walking so weirdly..yeah then when i was very sad tat time this sporean neighbour struck my mind...so i msg them to ask if they know any sporean doctors cos i dun wan waste my money over crap doctors..but i am really damn touched when that sporean husband and wife came down to our flat and her wife even help me rou my leg..wah tat moment of time i really feel tat she is my mum man caring for her daughter..honestly tat rou on my legs really very touching..and tmr they bringing me to some foot massage and leg scrapping..and perhaps see doc..omg i duno hw to repay them man..seriously i gonna do something or buy something in return.. anw i am counting to 2 more days to happy 24..this yr will be special cos i will be spending my bday overseas..i predict they will be cooking for me ..hehe ;)

~super heart pain over medical fees~

last wk sat had a buffet at marriot hotel in suzhou.the cakes are awesome ! whoo ！ and its really heart warming to meet all the singaporeans in suzhou..when u can hear all the singlish where i haven been hearing for months..alright then after the buffet when to eug hse for movie marthon, ended up falling asleep at their hse, so stayed over at their hse til the nxt day then i go home cos tat nite was freaking cold..too lazy to go home man..then last sun was out to celebrate anne bday..i guess celebrating ur bday overseas is something special, esp when ur family and friends arent wif u and the only blessing u got from ur friends would be through ur gip friends, so its kinda a heart warming thing when u gather ur friends to celebrate ur bday..:) fri went to see doc cos i felt my toe nail wasnt getting any better..in fact its getting worst..so i am kinda scared now man..cos it seems tat more and more of my nails are getting purple..but then in order not to let my parents worry i bluff them tat my toe nails are getting better..sometimes white lies are for their gd..bo bian..first i went to the sch clinic then the doctor quite cui also..keep giving me infection medicine to disinfect my toe nail which is pointless cos it doesnt solve the root of the problem..so end up they suggest me to go to the sch hospital..so i went cos i was told most likely i needa remove my entire nail cos the infection is serious liao..when i heard tat i was totally dishearten and stunned cos i didnt expect it to be so serious.. anw when i reached the hospital, i was alrdy very sian diao alrdy cos they told its kinda serious..so went to the foot dept to see my nails..then they also duno wat's the real cause of this problem..so they transferred me to the skin dept..then the doc told me one of the nail is infection, and the other is due to grey nails..wa lao different doctor tell me diff things..who should i trust and listen man..u know i was totally damn demoralised and sadded tat day cos i felt totally hopeless..wanna see doctor and yet was totally handicapped cos i duno hw to get there and couldnt understand wat the doc is trying to convey my condition..and worst stil she still commented tat she felt tat i am a little child when i am alrdy old enough yet cant settle things myself cos i am overprotected in spore..hai this comment really sadded me man..its not i cant settle things myself..i just feel handicapped..if i wan to go that hospital, i could hv gotton there by a cab, but i chose not to do so..anw i am just sadded by her statement in short..and wat makes me even sian dao was when i was the medical fees it costs a bomb ! $90 in total..wa lao freaking ex man for seeing one doc..initally the doc wanna giv me 3 months medication straight, but i told her i just wanna 1 mth since its freaking ex..at least try for the 1st mth first to see if there is any improvment or nt.. alrights then after tat went off for the hangzhou trip..in short the trip was so so..staying in a dorm was a new thing though the toilet is kinda dirty..but there is always a first time..and tat trip i suffered terribly over cold legs..cos i didnt want to wear my boots since i thought initally i was cycling, but ended up i didnt cos i was given a option to shop over cycling..but i must say hangzhou is a gd place for shopping..although most of the shops sell many tiongs stuff, but if u really slowly shop and go through every shops, there is surely nice clothes tat u can buy..in all i bought 8 clothes items in this trip and its only for $60..super worth.. but this trip was disappointing wass tat i didnt hav much interaction wif him cos we stayed in diff hostel..so ended up most of the time the activities tat we did was own time own target..so i chose to do shopping for 3/4 of the entire trip since it was freaking cold and my legs just couldnt take it so its better to stay indoor..anw i am really scared over my toe nails..cos the doctor said it was contagious..come on, at least show me some improvement, at least giv me some slighiest hope tat there is some recovery..hai..... and my bday is slightly 1 wk away from nw..i hav a couple of wishes this time round..pls blessed me...