~i would be lying if i say tat i am not sad~

sun evening decided to went out to relax myself cos i have been coping at home for many days le and i reali feel veri sian and tired to keep studying..and my body is aching like mad probably becos of the position tat i sit at home..i have been suffering from back pain too..haiz..old like man..then tat day brought a kinda short dress and i feel particular happy tat day..duno why mood feel lightened up when i spent money, when in most case ppl will usually feel heart pain spending money, but i feel likewise..haha.i abit siao liao..
mon then i reali start to panic cos i left 2 subjects untouched at all and i reali piah and put in 100% effort and concentration cos i never touch my lecture notes before for those subjects at all..so everything seems totally nice at all, though i did attend the lectures, but it seems totally unfamiliar when i look through the notes again..so its kind of mission impossible for me to remember everything in such a short time..but wat to do, who ask me to be so slack on usual days, tat serve me right..so tat day i tried sleeping lesser le..wanted to go running 12 rounds, but tat day reali cant find time off to run..so didnt run eventually.
tues was sch reopen again..had my 2nd CA for material sci..results came out to be super bad man..but if its in JC, then i would be veri contented le, but apparently all my friends around me got lik 80++ so kinda feel super upset man..duno why i always feel peer pressure from my friends around me cos they are too zai and pro liao, whereas i am those from the bottom end..tat kind of feeling is kinda hard to describe man..haiz..but wat to do..now onli need to buck up..i just hate the feeling tat i got in JC..tat (retain feeling)..but eventually after while i became ok after laughing out with those guys..i guess sometimes i need more laughter to cover my sadness, then i will be ok le..
then today i decided to weigh myself again though i was kinda reluctant to see my actual weight now after eating so much pizza on tat day..then i was shocked cos i lose weight just within a few days..but tat i reali put in quite some effort man..now, my target is to lose 5kgs, then i can become as slim as wat i am when i was seriously sick tat time..

~test week~

last wed nite didnt taught my student cos i decided to went home early to study for my test and ended up tat nite i slept super early and i didnt reali read ny notes in detail, or rather i was half awake, so duno wat have gone into my mind too..in fact, tat day i was super relax but tat was a serious big mistake cos it made me to forgo my marks in my test cos i duno how to do the qns at all cos i didnt look through my tutorials and lecture notes..so lesson learnt already..next time canot be so slack le..haiz..=( and tat nite partly i was finding notes for yk cos his chem pract is the next day for A levels and he dun have the notes..so i was looking and searching through my whole room to find the notes for him cos i wan him to do well this time..so partly becos of this, i was kinda distracted..then thur after sch went to jp to eat pizza put with they all...ate til super full man til stomach is kinda "big" after eating so many slices of pizza, but i didnt care abt my dieting goals, so i just heck abt gaining weight at tat moment, but this few days after eating tat fatting pizzas, i ran 12 rounds every night in my park, hopefully it will compensate for the fats in my body..haha..
and today my bro's gf send me a super long email and its a full page full..i was kinda impressed by her english cos i think its quite gd considering tat she is from taiwan..in fact i think my written english more cui than her..i am just gd in speaking, but written english wise is super CMI...i guess she is feeling hurt tat i scold my brother and she gave a long intro abt herself to me..and her family background..she thinks tat i dislike her but i reali didnt say tat !! in fact i am fine with anyone de..but i can feel tat she is quite mature in thinking considering she is quite young..i think comparing me to her, i am more childish in thinking man..and i can reali see and feel her sincerity tat she likes my brother very much..she thinks tat i feel tat she is cheating my bro, but i never said that before..so i guess she has misinterpret many things liao..anyway i guess in a relationship sincerity very impt..no money can buy sincerity and i guess sincerity can onli touch a person's heart if no matter wat she doesnt also doesnt satisfy my mum...for now, i can feel the obstacles tat they are facing, but i guess in the past i was not brave enough to face up the obstacles, so i kinda regret it now..haiz..
4 days of "HOliday" this week..gonna chiong and piah for studies man..if not i will reali let down myself this time round..!

~almost got heart attack~

few days bac i went to weigh myself and i am kinda shocked tat i gain 2kgs just becos everyday i have been eating supper late at night and i went to sleep immediately after eating it..so now, i am kinda tense up as to how should i lose my weight cos its super ugly now tat that figure..(zzz) and lately, ntu have been giving out lots of freebies man just for the exam sake propose..hehe..how nice it is to be in a government sch where students enjoy such wonderful benefits ;) and i think lately i have been sleeping and slacking reali too much cos everyday go sch do nothing and sleep super early..duno why, i have this sleeping syrondme now and i always wake up at 4 am in the morning automatically..sian..

found something on a web mail:
ARIES - The Daredevil Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge... EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

some of the above points are quite true as in out going and lose interest easily..but confident and athlectic wise is super not true and the impatient thingy is also not true either..i am someone who has high torerance level ..;)

~kinda touched?~

weekend was busying mugging physics cos there is test this week and i am kinda surprised when i saw something on my lect notes cos i saw something unfamiliar in my notes and somehow i am kinda touched tat such things actually so nice could happen, but yet i never appreciate this "nice-ness" tat was given to me earlier so feel kinda guilty and bad abt it..i guess sometimes i shouldnt take things for granted many times..should always appreciate efforts and things tat i might not get in the past..sian, today come sch like waste so much time cos too much breaks liao and i find tat the breaks are reali super unproductive cos i will take tat time to talk to ppl instead of mugging for exams now.few weeks from now is my major exams le, and i think i am smoke my way out like the usual small CA tests when i can read lecture notes and just go for exams, but now, i guess i need to work super hard like A levels cos i dun wan to ta bao cos if not it will break my heart again and demoralised me further..so target for now is sleep less, eat less, exercise more and mugged more ! ;)

~exam stress~

lately, i realised tat i have been kinda quiet cos i have been quite tired recently, and i think i am reaching the falling sick stage too cos my body always feel very warm when my usual normal temp is kinda cold usually..so yesterday went home super early cos wanted to catch up with sch work, but apparently, my heart and mind keep wondering around and i cant stay focus, so fall asleep at 8 something til today 3am..intially i have the intention of studying at this time but i sian man to touch my books at this kind of timing, so went bac to my bed to sleep since its been months since i last sleep on a bed...but seriously i think bed is nicer to sleep on than tat hard floor..and today i almost overslept cos of tat cosy bed..haha..
and i decided to turn up for my material sci peer tutoring cos i wanted to give face to her since i think she is veri nice, and i think i shouldnt upset her by not turning up for the lesson..yeah and tat keith is super damn smart which makes me super stress cos he came super prepared with everything done and he knows wat to ask and for me, i am kinda lost..and worst thing is tat he told me he spent 1hr for one lect notes when i spent like one day to read one lect notes..omg..seriously this guy is damn pro cos his GPA is 4.5, which is something tat i cant get in uni man..and watever he says reali place lots of stress of me man so i feel reali stress now..he ask me to stop going out now and start studying but i all along never go out tat often wat except its impt thing events..and this guy duno how the heck he survive with 5hrs of sleep per week.oh man, i can never do tat cos before i adopt his style, i would have already fall sick..aiya in short, this guy is just freaking smart but duno why he still turns up for this tutoring thing man..wat a weird guy man..
and so my target now is to lose weight cos i feel reali fat now all over the body..and also to piah for studies now cos i admit i was too slack earlier on..or rather never put in effort in studies..haiz..but i always sleep alot now, tat's the problem and i get more tired the more i sleep !!sian,..
got this extract from someone blog: My ears will be deaf to your verbal diahorrea. Your advice to test my romantic relationship with my boyfriend barely on the basis that 2 years of dating is far too brief to consider any serious plan is nothing short of double standard. You yearn for your own boyfriend (of less than 2 years to propose to you with a big diamond ring) & yet still on active lookout for better-looking & wealthier other half is far from honorable. Your despicable mentality has stripped you all grounds to accuse me of abandonment on your own accord to seek better colleague-friend. Prettier? Younger? Richer I suppose? Good luck!
comments : tat's most ger's menality and tat includes me..haha..so ya gd luck to me man..

~relax feel~

yesterday went to my student's house to teach and apparently, she is still as bad as before..lohz..duno how should i teach then she can put in effort to learn..haiz..then the maid was telling me tat i look kinda decent cos i dun wear those super mini shorts..lohz..i laughed when i heard tat cos duno wat logic is tat..i think her idea is tat whoever wear shorts are those not decent gers..haha..anyway next week onwards gonna have more tests coming up..sian man..wat an ineresting life i have man..and this week initally my colleague jio me out again for gathering, but i cant go cos i already feel guilty for not studying and doing anything last weekend cos was busy with attending 21st bday..yeah, so i turned down..so feel kinda guilty abt it..;( haiz..

~envy~

sat when i was sitting with these grp of 208 ppl, i could felt the glow and shine in this particular ger cos she was sharing her luv story abt mr SK and her and i overheard by accident..haha..yeah i do envy her cos its reali not easy to mantain a relationship with someone who is 8 yrs older than her and yet able to continue their relationship up to now cos i tried tat before..it requires lots of effort and determination..wat makes me envy of her is not tat ring tat mr SK gave her, but rather the long relationship tat she has gone so far despite one is studying and the other is teaching..apparently, i feel tat they should like 2 worlds apart, but apparently FATE brought them together.haha..of cos now i can envy of ppl, but when it reali comes true on me, i would certainly think twice cos i have been through many things in life and know wat i reali wan in life..althogh sometimes many things still appear vaugue on appearance, but i shall heck le, and i shall use my guts and heart to feel wat's rational and logical..though sometimes i always wanted to use my logic to lead me, but i realised tat sometimes it doesnt reali work man..i guess i wouldnt wan to follow mr A style of deciding things cos after i am not as experienced as him..
anyway i asked my friends as in why i am someone who is such an open bk and the reasons tat they gave was becos my expressions gave me away !!! oh shit, i think my facial expressions reali too much.i guess in future i shall try to smile less whenever it comes when ppl trying to dig ans from my side..i shall act and pretend to act normal from now on..and i shall learn now, else i always give myself away man..-notgd-

~enjoyable and fun weekend~

this dress look so nice, but its super ex !!
hehe..trying out a new image of me
terrence 21st bday
tanu's bday
weeping,me,alex, ben and bday ger..;)

weekend was kinda fun this week cos i was kept busy with many activities.but i do feel guilty at the same time cos i never reali touch and "Smell" my book at all..haiz..anyway sat went for tanu's bday at some hotel and food was not bad..but i didnt eat alot cos i am kinda dieting to put on my black shirt the following day..then tat particular evening, i felt tat i have made someone angry by the comments tat i made..anyway tat was meant to be a joke, but tat guy kinda take it seriously..others of my friends laugh when i said tat, but apparently, he gave me the angry look when i gave those comments.aiya..in future, i guess i better not crack these kind of "JOKes" In front of ppl tat i am not close with, else ppl will misunderstand me.then after which went to window shop with weeping before proceeding home.yeah and i saw a nice blue dress and it costs like $80..haha, wanted to buy it down if its cheap, but $80 abit not worth it man..so i just took a pict of it and try it for fun..haha.
sun evening was terrence bday and i think it was quite an enjoyable one, esp when u are entertained by those horrible voices when we are singing kbox..yeah, it was reali indeed an entertainment show man..i reali couldnt stop funny cos its just super funny.i onli sang a few songs nia cos i think my voice super cui compared to those pros tat are singing with me..so better dun disgrace myself man..and yesterday i think i look super not myself, cos i actually wear a skirt and this mo mo ren keep laughing at me..sian man..but indeed, i must say i reali dun look like me ;) its a different style tat i am protraying to ppl..haha.and ytd i kept on jioing eye candy to sing, but eventually he sang after i left..sian..miss the climax part and i guess i found another eye candy at this gathering too..haha..almost the same pattern and style as my current eye candy too..and he is kinda gentleman cos he opened the door for me to go in although he is quite far from the door..hehe..so nice man, i doubt any of my guy friends will do tat for me lo! and his smile is kinda not bad too esp when the smile tat he gave me after i go bac to the ktv room from toilet..haha.overall he is not bad la. but i guess this is the first and last time we will see each other..(so ke xi man)

~i had a bad dream~

wed nite had a reali super bad dream cos i dreamt of my dad passing away and i reali cried in my dreams and i think i cried too when i am awake cos i can feel tat my eyes are super watery..duno why i have such a bad dream but i am indeed heartbreak by this cos whenever i dream of such bad things, then they will reali happen..though i know my dad is kinda not healthy enough to live up to an old age, but at least pei me til i am independent...
then thur afternoon decided to go home early to study and indeed i did stay focus for the first few hours doing my past tutorials but eventually i still got distracted half way through cos i was tempted with food again when my dad brought lots of food bac for supper and after tat fall asleep on the floor as usual after a heavy supper..its been months since i last slept on my bed cos the cosy floor has always been my sleeping area..and yesterday i gave a surprised to everyone by wearing sleeves cos i never wear sleeves for once in sch and outside..i reali thought for veri long before i stepped out of my house, and i decided to give it a try and at most let those ppl laugh at me lo if reali veri ugly..first rxn tat i get was jaw dropping and ppl asking me why i change style..never mind, i expected tat..haha.aiya i am always unexpected de la..wan to change as and when i feel like it..
today was a slacking day too but i feel like a clown entertaining everyone cos i was "FORced" to wear a stupid guys' smelly black shoes during lab when my leg size is so small nia..and it arises cos i didnt wear covered shoes !!!!..wa lao feel super dui lian man, but never mind.i think once a while entertain ppl is gd..and today when to JP to watch a chinese movie with they all..think the plot is not bad..at least i can understand than cartoon huh..cartoons reali catch no ball man..haha.kay gtg le, weekends gonna enjoy myself with bday celebrations for 2 days..

~momemtum still not there !~

sian, yesterday went home did nothing..cos i was too busy with eating? mum they all keep on distracting me with nice food, so ended up got so full eating supper and fall asleep super early..so feeling guilty now never touch my books.and i realised tat lately, i have been eating too much and getting a little fat liao man..so i gonna cut down on my food,other wise i will become a big fat pig ! whenever i think of books, then i reali have no idea where to start from cos i feel kinda lost somehow..too many things to catch up with til duno where should i start from..sigh..duno why always have this kind of feelings de lo..
todae's sound lect was super boring cos i realised tat i couldnt understand wat the heck is tat lecturer talking abt..all i know was i was busy talking with ppl and didnt listen any single thing cos the 2 "Shuai ge" left le, so left me alone..though i am not reali bored, but somehow feel sian..so talked to ppl around me..anyway i think some lectures are reali damn crap man..no wonder now i know why ppl always like to pon lectures..
then on my way home, took the shutter bus A, then i saw a cute and well built guy !!..gosh, he was standing so close to me (haha.just right behind of me and the bus is kinda packed with ppl..so i got to stand very close to him ;) tat time suddenly have the intention to pretend to "fall down" just like wat those dramas always show in tv when the girl is "Eyeing" on tat guy..haha.... duno why i just feel tat he is a commando cos he reali got tat commando feel..his height and build..haha...doubt i will get to see him again..nvm..ntu has lots more cute guys ;)

~i gonna give up my aims~

looks yummy huh ?
look, who's behind !@! opps !

weekend i onli did one thing and i think i am super inefficient cos i took like 3 days to study my maths lecturer notes.seriously i dun think anyone can beat my timing man cos i am reali super slow and i guess no one else can be slower than me..and becos of tat, i am reali lagging behind alot..past tutorials and lecture notes are already piling up like a mountain liao..this is seriously damn bad man..but these always happens in JC, so i am kinda used to it le anyway..wat to do, wat is my style ma..then 2 days dun have enough sleep..yesterday slept for like 3 hrs nia just to study and chiong finish my maths lecture notes and ended up today, when i first turned over the qn paper, i was freaking damn shocked cos i think this is reali a rubbish test paper..as in, wat tat is needed to be tested never test at all..what the hell was reali my first rxn cos i study so hard for the test, yet come out stupid and dumb qns...then yesterday went with hm to JP for a while cos i reali veri sian study once i reach home, so decided to take some time off to shop around at JP..clothes was the first thing tat attracts me there, of cos..but now, i reali no money man..i realised something when i shop with hm cos she likes to look out for sleeves tops and super short pants, but i dun !! i think i prefer those smart looking attire or rather those office wear style..cos its make me look smarter and more presentable..anyway duno why today, those guys keep on laughing on my attire lo..cos i reali think everything is ok, but they feel tat something is very wrong with my dressing..nvm, i shall stick to my qm style of dressing-unique and uncommon..haha.
many things have been happening so far..i think i have thought through things le..as in, now i think i gonna giv up wat i wanted to hope for..cos i guess i didnt reali know what i wan eventually at the end of the day..i am not confused, just tat i reali dun realli know what i reali wans.maybe time will tell in time to come ( I guess)..now think so much also no use cos nothing will take place..this week i reali super busy man..duno why..so many ppl jio me out until i have to cancel some of them..so sorry ppl..this sat got colleague gathering at my colleague's house de..i wanna go, but i got a bday hotel celebration to go..i miss them so much la..though i might bum into tat ti gou colleague, but nvm la, since he invited me, i shall give him face by not going and treat him nicer this dec when i go bac..haiz..my miss the laughter of my colleagues man..the yellow jokes tat they crack cos of me appearing to be innocent, but apparently i am not cos i have been brain wash ! haha.

~wat's heart and logic ? ~

yesterday's lab session was reali boring cos its drawing session and my art and craft reali sucks.cant shade and duno how to draw man.so anyhow draw then and halfway through the drawing, i reali got pissed and impatient cos my eyes are reali getting veri blurry seeing so many lines, so i just heck le and draw my freestyle drawing..then after which went to eat at can 2 and proceeded to swimming le..actually i went there just to have the intention to tan nia.cos i feel tat my arms have uneven tone man..so gonna tan more then colour will more even man..but heng face didnt got reali dark man..or else, more freckles will pop out..then i will freak out !! haha..then mum did ask me today as in why i suddenly become so tan and my face is kinda red huh..i guess its due to sun burnt? cos i rarely stay in the sun for long..it wouldnt be surprising tat my face got slightly red the next day..but the red cheeks makes me look cute huh..haha..( i know i sound bhb, but never mind..tat's for self entertainment ).. anyway today supposedly should be going to east coast for cycling de and i think bo wei changed the timing just for my sake, but sadly, i didnt turn up for it..i am reali sorry bok wei for disappointing u..reali..somehow i feel guilty now..
anyway this week got lots of stuff to clear, but i doubt i can clear much due to my tortoise studying speed..anyway i feel kinda kelian for my bro gf cos she miss my bro veri much, and at times i can reali feel tat she is quite helpless but my bro is not ard to pei her..haiz..i can understand her feelings so moral of the story is dun find long distance relationship cos its pointless.and gers shouldnt like guys so much or rather put in so much effort cos i always think tat gers are always at the losing ends..they should learn to let go when they need to.,.cos effort and perservance is not always proportional to the feelings tat an individual feels..
sian..next week i gonna have maths test..sian..onli study one chapter so far..how slow am i man..haiz..

~i think i shall close one eye from now on~

i think my brother's gf is kind of nice la..i think i shall close one eye from now and not interfer in their love life anymore. cos she really found lots of nice stuff ( shoes and clothes) for me and i think its alot of effort and time consuming too..i didnt ask her to find for me but apparently, she took the initative to look for me..so i feel kinda bad cos she is still studying and yet waste so much time on me finding stuff for me in taiwan..lohz..i think i shall be nice to her from now on cos afterall i think she is not reali tat bad lah..at least better than me ;)
i think i am seriously still on holiday mood cos i haven got bac my momentum to study lei..still like to sleep and enjoy life as before at home..haha.and todae i think i reali switch off in class and lectures lo cos duno why the lecturer sounds so monotone til i turn off and the tutorial class tat i crash for is just blindly copy ans nia, or rather i go there just to see how gd the teacher look like cos they say not bad..but after i stepped in, i think its ok nia..anyway my true purpose of going there is not to go there look at ta bo, but reali seriously go there to get some knowledge, but the teacher quite cui man..
anyway i just knew today tat my nick for me is " the 2 piece girl" ...lohz. i didnt know tat i got such a uniqueness in me and i have established an identity in me from now on..haha.but tat can be bad cos maybe my dressing quite cui man..
today had a chat with eye candy cos he suddenly talk to me, which is something quite rare huh..cos he is changing his bday celebration to some other day and i am reali thinking if i should go cos i got 2 consectives bday to attend next weekend and if like tat i reali got no time to study and do my homework liao..but i thought through many times as in should i or should i not go for my eye candy's bday? cos he turned up for my bday, cant possibly dun come for his bday too..and moreover he is my eye candy..(got more reason to attend)..haha.but thinking so much, i still cant make a decision yet..need to see my schedule for next week man..haiz..wat a day man..initally still got onli waste one day outside. now need to waste 2 days liao..anyway i think he reali got no idea how should he plan for his bday so i suggested some for him..but duno he will use or not la..but at least his bday is different from the rest, so makes it less sian..at least its not the usual buffet stuff and its reali gd stuff from some restuarant man..haha.;) so should be going there enjoying gd food.

~k box @ some cui place~

lately, i have been speaking lots of ang mo to my click friends.duno why huh..maybe i think i am abit siao huh..or rather i am trying to revert back to how i speak to ppl orginally at work..watever the reason it is, the thing tat i am trying to emphasize is to be myself..everyone has their own uniqueness and individuality..i guess sometimes its gd to change some parts of urself just for the better, but i must say that changing too much for the sake for changing, would be too over le or rather pointless, cos if tat's the case, you wouldnt be who you are, or rather you wouldnt be who you are made for.. ;) so, the moral of the story is to be yourself !
house lately has been happening lots of unhappy things..whenever i go home everyday, i always feel tat this particular house feels like a battle field or rather some war going on and there is seriously no peace at all..tat;'s why i always dun like going home..i would rather stay outside til super late then go home sleep and the next day repeat its own cycle again..ya, tat's how i feel abt my home now..mum keep finding fault with everyone and i am sometimes kinda pissed over it cos i reali feel like none of us are wrong lo, its her who is mostly at fault.haiz...even my dad sometimes feels damn pissed and angry with her and just leave the house..ya, i always wanted to do tat, but i scared later i am not allowed to step into the house again cos the nxt moment, the door would be locked ! i seriously feel sorry for my dad cos he always get "bullied" by my mum and seriously i feel tat all the guy's dignity and zun yan tat a guy have all is totally gone in my dad cos he always give in when its not his fault at all..for me, when i am bu shuang or pissed, i just dun talk to her and treat her as a transparent object..everyone in the family just seems "bo gum" with her right now..haiz...wat a "cosy" house i have man..
tues afternoon after sch, went to my house nearby with them to sing k..seriously tat place damn cui man and the sings are kinda outdated..but there isnt much ppl around, so not too bad, cos if not sure get laugh by ppl de..haha..but seriously i think my singing isnt tat bad afterall la, just tat i need more confidence nia and need to brush up on my chinese..other than tat, i think my singing quite alright..actually initally i cant reali sing de, but its through the many singing experiences with my JC friends tat i got to train and sing better cos tat JC click of mine can sing reali super well man..so whenever i sing with them, i always feel so cui man...haha.for the guys, i think el is quite alright, just tat need more guts, bold and confidence to sing..kh too monotone le, need to put in more expressions and feel abt the music itself..tat day was kinda enjoyable though its onli the 4 of us nia..cos too many laughter and jokes were made ;)
yesterday i had piano class with my student and my student has moved to a more ulu place where there are reali lots of ....ok, but i have gotton used to it le..i seriously dun understand why those ppl always like to sit at the pavements as if its like their house nia and why do they always wrap one towels across their waist? why cant they all just wear pants man..i seriously got the tendency to pull their towels down and made them pei seh man..and i cant stand it when they like to adjust their "towels" right in the public..wat the hell, this is so un-glam man..ok, enough of this crap..when i first saw the building outside my students' house, i was super shocked cos it reali looks veri nice and classy..and when i stepped into her house, i relai feel like i am staying in a hotel man..omg, her house is reali damn polished and big and there is this roop top garden to chill out..seriously i think her parents are reali damn freaking rich man..but ytd my lesson with her made me reali feel like giving up in her cos i always feel tat she is not serious in playing and watever i taught her cant reali get into her mind..or rather she is those bo chap in learning type..i reali feel veri sian teaching such students man..but i seriously duno how can i teach so tat at least she dun feel tat sian..haiz..i seriously dun think my lesson is sian lo cos i always wanted to teach her new stuff, but she always can play even the basics, how u wan me to teach the more chime stuff..haiz..wat a fann student man..