she told me places tat can do tat..first is mount faber, (duno where is it even though i heard b4), next is staircase..but how did they do it..maybe they are just skilled enough to do tat..but funniest part is when a guy walked past the staircase and saw wat they were doing and waved to him..and he actually waved bac..wa lao he still got the cheek to wave at ppl sia..he should be pei seh like anything..kay no i know if guys asked gers to go such places then i know wat they up to liao..anyway he not gd guy..she wanted to cai chuan him after she got wat she wans..and worst she got the proof and everything..after his gf sees liao sure got heart attack..she has an evil plan..wa she reali smart to think of this kind of plan..so never underestimate gers cos they can be evil if they wan to ,.anyway i just hope tat his gf would see his true colours..if i know his gf then i sure tell her tat ur bf is cheating on u..
then on my way home, while taking the bus, saw tat guy playing squash in jj..initally, cant relai see clearly cos i not wearing spects mah..then later i see until too ming xian liao until he caught me looking at him..then he was telling his malay gf abt it..then his gf looked at me but i pretended to look somewhere else..anyway i also not interested in him wat..just onli wan to see how he has changed since i 1 yr never see him after i left jj..last yr, he is our idol in jj..duno is wanyi, yi hui or maril admired him..forget liao..anyway he so skinny in home clothes..tok he veri ma cho one..chey..
then christ called me last nite when i was studying for my test..then talked to her quite a bit..almost forget tat i got test to study for..she asked me out on this sat for a gathering..initally i rejected her but later i changed my mind cos i everytime reject her..now i reject i pei seh and guilty liao..anyway she got the xing, so i just go shun bian can meet up with my old friends..but i feel a bit weird leh..long time never talk liao duno wat can i talk on also..our first topic tat we always talked abt is do u hav gf or bf b4..this is the typical topic we usually talked abt..after tat then we will sae u become more chio and handsome and all those..look forward to this sat gathering..hmm..wonder wat should i wear for the day..anyway must pay for the gathering, 10 bucks then can get to eat 10 dishes meal..oh no time to grow fat..and i also going to broke liao..i still owe my teacher money..
then todae tat yh is angry with me..she is ignoring me when i talked to her..hai~~~feel so sad..duno if tml will she still talked to me..i talked to her she also dun wan to reply me nicely, just tat bu shuang tone to talk to me..=( then tat cm todae also never come..cos she find tat todae coming to sch for a lesson is a waste of time..how arh..my mind just couldnt concentrate..i just keep thinking of how should i hong her to make her not angry with me..tml i still got test..so sian..after tml can reali rest liao..so sleepy and tired nowadays..dun feel like doing anything except slack..this is bad..hai~~~~~~~~
btw how come she so gd ah..is it becos wat i said tat she allow me to go..sian man..think now i go home to sleep..my eyes reali tired..later will wake up in the afternoon to study for the big test tml..=(
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Monday, May 30, 2005
~duno wat should i sae..~
fri came home veri late cos i was still angry with her..so i purposely dun wan go home so early..i finished my lessons at 12.30 but i onli reached home at abt 8 plus like tat..after celebrating family day with my class ppl then me and tanu went gai gai..then on my way saw my ex 106 classmates.., then we went je together..then after we finished our shopping, we went to the library to find them, then sat down there to do hw..there reali gd place to study and relaxed..like the environment alot..
when i reached home no one asked me why i am home so late, which is gd..i didnt talked to her neither do she talked to me..but later somehow we quarrel again..she called my CT and tell her wat i did..i was angry loh..just think tat wat she did is veri childish..she dun respect how i feel then why should i respect her..i just hate ppl tat if they are wrong just admit it..she always wan to win no matter wat, cos she is the mother and i am the child..i do hav my wrong doings but she also does hav just by way she said..then when i told her tat other ppl mpther always encourage their chid when they do badly, but for her she just look down on me and despise me..when i said tat she kept quiet..so wat i said was correct lah in other words..anyway i just sae out watever i feel like saying..my dad was just stuck in the middle..he did sae my mum and me..then i told her tat in future if i am able to earn money, i will moved out of the house if she continues to be like this..cos i reali canot tahan her sia..anyway after 21, i will be an adult liao..wat can she do to me..
my mind still thinks if mr A..i did tell myself tat i shouldnt be thinking of him anymore..but wo zhuo bu dao even though i know tat he is finding his other half cos he no longer young liao..but ppl always sae tat luv is blind..i am just blinded by luv deeply this time i should sae..so tats the sad thing..seriously i still find it sad tat we hav to go seperate ways becos mainly of external factors..not sure if there is internal factors..
then sae was crying terribly cos i quarell with her again..just find tat i cant click with her...she just wan to find fault with me and torture me..she wanted to kill me initally, not sure if she is seriously, but i just sae if u dare at most u just ended to jail wat..i die also never mind..at tat time i was feeling terribly sad..i wished tat there would be person to lend his shoulder to me for crying, but there is no one..so i just hav to sit at no corner of room's wall to cry and sob..i feel so tong ku, when can i ever leave this house where i find no warmed at all..my mind just keep thinking of mr A when i cry..when is this ever going to end..hai~~~=(
then todae came sch onli for 3 lessons..wa lao so lame loh..come all the way just for maths..seriously nowadays i am losing interest for maths liao..duno why maybe is becos of the teacher ba..so bored and duno how to teach..last yr ms ong reali attract most of my attention..hai~~so sad tat she is not my maths teacher liao..then gp todae also zhuo bo..onli got 3 of us..the 2 other guys didnt came..then think tat our class got 2 couples coming together liao..one has already formed liao..the other seems like..not veri sure also..but hopefully he can manage to win her heart..see him so kelian kana rejected 7 times by gers liao..
from last week i hav feeling veri slacked..duno why..no motivation to study sia..every things seems so sian for me..i am now just waiting for tanu to finish her lessons then can go home together..waiting for 4 to come..finally reaching liao..at last..studied just now until so sian so decided to type my blog..sian tml must come sch onli for 1 test..even more bo liao..after which maybe eat breakfast with them ..
when i reached home no one asked me why i am home so late, which is gd..i didnt talked to her neither do she talked to me..but later somehow we quarrel again..she called my CT and tell her wat i did..i was angry loh..just think tat wat she did is veri childish..she dun respect how i feel then why should i respect her..i just hate ppl tat if they are wrong just admit it..she always wan to win no matter wat, cos she is the mother and i am the child..i do hav my wrong doings but she also does hav just by way she said..then when i told her tat other ppl mpther always encourage their chid when they do badly, but for her she just look down on me and despise me..when i said tat she kept quiet..so wat i said was correct lah in other words..anyway i just sae out watever i feel like saying..my dad was just stuck in the middle..he did sae my mum and me..then i told her tat in future if i am able to earn money, i will moved out of the house if she continues to be like this..cos i reali canot tahan her sia..anyway after 21, i will be an adult liao..wat can she do to me..
my mind still thinks if mr A..i did tell myself tat i shouldnt be thinking of him anymore..but wo zhuo bu dao even though i know tat he is finding his other half cos he no longer young liao..but ppl always sae tat luv is blind..i am just blinded by luv deeply this time i should sae..so tats the sad thing..seriously i still find it sad tat we hav to go seperate ways becos mainly of external factors..not sure if there is internal factors..
then sae was crying terribly cos i quarell with her again..just find tat i cant click with her...she just wan to find fault with me and torture me..she wanted to kill me initally, not sure if she is seriously, but i just sae if u dare at most u just ended to jail wat..i die also never mind..at tat time i was feeling terribly sad..i wished tat there would be person to lend his shoulder to me for crying, but there is no one..so i just hav to sit at no corner of room's wall to cry and sob..i feel so tong ku, when can i ever leave this house where i find no warmed at all..my mind just keep thinking of mr A when i cry..when is this ever going to end..hai~~~=(
then todae came sch onli for 3 lessons..wa lao so lame loh..come all the way just for maths..seriously nowadays i am losing interest for maths liao..duno why maybe is becos of the teacher ba..so bored and duno how to teach..last yr ms ong reali attract most of my attention..hai~~so sad tat she is not my maths teacher liao..then gp todae also zhuo bo..onli got 3 of us..the 2 other guys didnt came..then think tat our class got 2 couples coming together liao..one has already formed liao..the other seems like..not veri sure also..but hopefully he can manage to win her heart..see him so kelian kana rejected 7 times by gers liao..
from last week i hav feeling veri slacked..duno why..no motivation to study sia..every things seems so sian for me..i am now just waiting for tanu to finish her lessons then can go home together..waiting for 4 to come..finally reaching liao..at last..studied just now until so sian so decided to type my blog..sian tml must come sch onli for 1 test..even more bo liao..after which maybe eat breakfast with them ..
Friday, May 27, 2005
~the day tat i starved myself..~
after i went home, i quarrel with my mum..this time reali big quarrel..she was so angry with my maths results tat she scolded me..i just canot stand her loh..scolding me once is enough..i just take it tat she is scolding the wall and i will ignored tat..i just canot stand her for scolding me non stop tat she keep shouting..she asked me to jump down the window if i not happy or i can choose to leave the house if i wan to..i was so bu shuang tat i shouted bac saying tat"now u treat me like tat then in future be prepared tat u will be sent to the old folk home..and u better be knocked down by a car..even if u die , i wont cry for u wan.."seriously i said tat in a fit of anger, i dun mean wat i sae..i know tat i am veri rude and bad, but cant be helped..she keep saying tat i am hopeless, stupid, and sleeping..but in fact i hav tried my best liao..anyway i just hate her cos she asked me to be a prostitute, no such mother would sae such things to their daughter loh..duno why my dad eyes so blind, like this kind of women..then she was so angry with wat i said tat she wanted to beat me with my dad's belt and the bamboo stick used to hang clothes..then i throw the food on the floor to let her clear the mess..eventually, she didnt mange to hit me cos after tat i locked myself in the room..tat nite i had to go without food..had to live with water in my room..my brother wanted to leave some food for me but my mum asked him to throw away..so i just got no food to eat..sometimes i hate myself for being born in the family..other ppl families can be so happy yet my family is always quarrling and fighting..she said tat she wanted to call my teachers to disgrace me..fine loh..call all u wan..i am not scared..anyway is not totally my fault wat,..who give a damn..she always want to scare us by threatening tat she will jump down the window..but i wont fall for her tricks cos she has said tat since i was sec sch tat time..aiya cant bluff me..anyway yesterday she wanted to do tat, but i didnt bother abt her..i still stay in my room cos i know she dun dare one..afterall she just wan attention from my dad wat..then hor yesterday becos of her got headache cos i cry too much liao..wa lao waste my tears..
then todae, the maths lecture wasnt listening cos i dun even understand wat he is talking abt..anyway i think this topic die liao lah..must base on last yr memory to understand..later i having celebration for my classmate birthday, after which will meet tanu to go je for walk walk..long time never go there liao ever since tat thing happened..
then todae, the maths lecture wasnt listening cos i dun even understand wat he is talking abt..anyway i think this topic die liao lah..must base on last yr memory to understand..later i having celebration for my classmate birthday, after which will meet tanu to go je for walk walk..long time never go there liao ever since tat thing happened..
Thursday, May 26, 2005
~holidays waiting for me~
wa lao eh by rite this fri is the last day for this term, but this idoit sch wanted to continue leesons for another 2 weeks..sian man..then in between got so long of hours of breaks..then sometimes even comes sch for 1 lesson onli..wa lao waste my time loh from travelling from jurong to yishun..then holiday still must visit denist..hope tat this time dun meet a siao dentist..the 1st densist was a women after which the 2nd and 3rd one is a guy..the 2nd dentist veri funny and friendly, but the 3rd one is the worst dental tat i hav ever seen, frankly calling ur patient dear..
then todae just got bac my results..cant believe tat my maths results were lousier than my phy and chem , when maths is my best subject..not to mention tat there is 2 ugly grades for maths on the report card..oh no..my mum will sure hav a big reaction over it..but surprisingly my phy and chem did veri well, practically A and B..gp flung by 1 mark for the first test and just pass for the 2nd one..so overall i still fail..hai~~how ah..gp still so lousy..reali scared canot make it this yr..
then chem lect sit beside him cos no place liao..wa lao his and his gd frien so noisy, cant even hear wat ms chua was taking..see lah all his fault..never bring spects then dun bother ppl lah..then gp did nothing todae..wa lao practically we did nothing except sufting net everytime..at the rate we are going sure canot make it loh..hai~~then i just think tat heng got tat attitude problem loh..keep scolding bloody hell and those words tat i dun like..pls loh u are a teacher can u pls mind ur manners..ya u wan us to treat u nicely but pls try to correct the way to talk to us first..
think holidays going to cut hair liao..should i cut until short then no need to tie..feel like changing hair style leh..cut a few hair styles from the magazines think they not bad..aiya see first if i dare enough to cut, scared later i cry out if outcome is ugly..if i wan to cut then maybe can cut the jeanette aw hair style..
then hor this blog initally wanted to be kept as a personally blog but hor now so many ppl reads it liao..die man..i talk bac abt some ppl..most obvious is her..die sia if she knows then i die liao..
tml sch finishing early cos sch got function..shoik sia..but i will be veri bored..duno wat can i do..holidays will find a day to go orchard with yh they all..long time never go liao..
then todae just got bac my results..cant believe tat my maths results were lousier than my phy and chem , when maths is my best subject..not to mention tat there is 2 ugly grades for maths on the report card..oh no..my mum will sure hav a big reaction over it..but surprisingly my phy and chem did veri well, practically A and B..gp flung by 1 mark for the first test and just pass for the 2nd one..so overall i still fail..hai~~how ah..gp still so lousy..reali scared canot make it this yr..
then chem lect sit beside him cos no place liao..wa lao his and his gd frien so noisy, cant even hear wat ms chua was taking..see lah all his fault..never bring spects then dun bother ppl lah..then gp did nothing todae..wa lao practically we did nothing except sufting net everytime..at the rate we are going sure canot make it loh..hai~~then i just think tat heng got tat attitude problem loh..keep scolding bloody hell and those words tat i dun like..pls loh u are a teacher can u pls mind ur manners..ya u wan us to treat u nicely but pls try to correct the way to talk to us first..
think holidays going to cut hair liao..should i cut until short then no need to tie..feel like changing hair style leh..cut a few hair styles from the magazines think they not bad..aiya see first if i dare enough to cut, scared later i cry out if outcome is ugly..if i wan to cut then maybe can cut the jeanette aw hair style..
then hor this blog initally wanted to be kept as a personally blog but hor now so many ppl reads it liao..die man..i talk bac abt some ppl..most obvious is her..die sia if she knows then i die liao..
tml sch finishing early cos sch got function..shoik sia..but i will be veri bored..duno wat can i do..holidays will find a day to go orchard with yh they all..long time never go liao..
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
~the things which i hav learnt so far..~
Learn something tat cant be found in the textbk..once u are a failure, ppl wil always marked u as someone who is a failure..i realised tat the world is reali realistic from wat happened so far this yr..i onli realised tat onli this yr..u never know how failure is like until u experienced it..but most impt thing is tat after falling u must learn to climb up with ur best..my dad was right..i never appreciate wat he saes in the past until recently tat teacher saes such things then I started reviewing wat he saes..though I seldom talk to my dad but I respect him veri much cos he taught me lots of learning experiences..this yr quite a no of things has happened..indeed the breakup has made me into a more mature person, I should sae..i hav learnt to view things differently and things aren’t as simple as wat I think..maybe I am just slow and stupid to realise tat in the past becos I hav never experienced failure b4..maybe the failure reali hit me hard..
Then I reali waiting for the A levels to finish faster cos I reali wan to slack and do nothing else and not touching those retarded bks. I wan to enjoy life..got sick of this tiring life liao..seeing mi xue with her ah bing ge bf so loving, makes me so envy of her,,they spent their time on the cruise..wa so sweet and romantic sia..=)then for robinson, wa he changed so much, not to mention tat he has become so gd looking after dying his hair..his gf also look chio plus they look compatible..rafie also found a Chinese gf…actually he is a mix blood wat..so doesn’t matter his gf is Chinese or not..anyway they changed a lot after finishing jc..one girl even have a make over and practically tat doesn’t even look like her at all..then after As see if my mum wan to sponser me to go Indonesia..if she wans then maybe I go bac for a month..then maybe sat after As will do volunteer work for mr wong since I promised him plus he helped us quite a number a times liao..i must return something to him by doing volunteer work..then can also learn some skills from him..his so pro in his comp, then can teach me..
Then one of my relative came to Singapore for work purposes from Australia..then he still rmbs my name..last time when I am young, I used to “play” with him..i still rmb tat I always dun let him sleep and like to disturb him..duno why tat time I so playful and naughty sia to do such stupid and pei seh things..anyway he is now 27 yrs old..wa time flies reali fast..he wan to find a gf tat is rich then can help him..wa lao eh like tat not gd sia..later ppl will talk behind ur bac tat he lives on women money..then he gav us chocolates..
Then on dialogue on tues, got counsellor election..eee..some ppl sae how gd they can serve the sch and boost abt wat leadership post they hav in sec sch..i see already immediately switch off..just think tat they veri thick skin to sae such things..they not pei seh one ah..anyway I cant be bothered also..i just just follow whatever yh picks on..then later got house election, I sat into the cambera house when I belong to the pierce house..anyway they also duno which house I belong to so I just heck care and sneak in..i just vote for guys who are cute and yan dao and gers who are cute and funny..by rite, tat shouldn’t be the way to vote ppl, but never mind lah cos I dun even belong to the grp wat..i gave a vote to my eye candy “han han” but I dun hav feelings for him..just think he is cute gd..
Then me and yh yesterday went to find ms lim at 5.30pm..during tat time yh went to the loo to do her big business, then ms lim asked me how come I retained..then I tell her tat last yr I as too tired to do anything once I reached home,,then I told her the truth tat last yr I didn’t even do her tutorial and most of it were copied from other ppl..she told me tat she knew tat and said tat our class were veri “United” in copying..so moral of the story is tat never copying homework…copying too much is bad..it will onli make u retained with tat heck care attitude.. but never mind I learnt my lesson liao..no wonder my dad saes “ u will never know failure until u experience tat urself..”
Then think tat she veri cute and nice teacher ..anyways like to show us her 2 bao bei cats in her hp whenever we find her..think her bf veri fortunate to found her, a nice and patient teacher..anyway its gd tat my attitude towards work has changed GREATLY, I think..i should keep up the gd work..
Then todae was walking to sch with wee ping..then she started asking me abt him cos tanu told her abt tat , but anyway I am feeling better liao..at least I hav learn to accept the fact..and stop crying..cos tanu told me tat “ wat for crying when ppl dun even cry for u..u are just wasting ur tears..” kay tat reali knock me into my senses..then I think wat she said was rite then I became better..anyway thx for ur concern tanu =)..haha..so happy tat at least got ppl to care for me..luckily last time I didn’t pang seh my friends most of the time for him if not I will be veri miserable now..so conclusion is never give more time to ur other half...time should be shared equally with both ur friends and ur other half..ur other half can leave u any time but not ur friens..they will always be there for u no matter wat..
Then todae chem. Lesson, all teachers on course, then we do our given hw together in the study area..haha they veri funny..we sat together and talked in grps..the guys were veri fuuny..then during gp lesson the veterans grouped together..then tat ch cut hair..at least he look more stylish..then he veri funny sia anyways make me laugh..then we were joking and suaning each other..wa lao he laugh at me cos my eng lousy than him and yet I can pass but not him..wa lao kan sway me..anyway I make him bac by drawing a smiliy face on his test paper..think tat the next guy I will fall for might be him..i also duno..now still haven maybe in time to come when the feelings develops..
Then tml maybe go see star wars cos ch they all wanted to watch..justin, aik bin also going..i feel veri sian to watch leh..i also duno the start and u ask me to watch the ending part..then I will be veri blur..aiya duno also should I go..see if yh wans to go then I go..maybe can go there then will hav interaction with them then can improve relationship hor..haha..
Then I reali waiting for the A levels to finish faster cos I reali wan to slack and do nothing else and not touching those retarded bks. I wan to enjoy life..got sick of this tiring life liao..seeing mi xue with her ah bing ge bf so loving, makes me so envy of her,,they spent their time on the cruise..wa so sweet and romantic sia..=)then for robinson, wa he changed so much, not to mention tat he has become so gd looking after dying his hair..his gf also look chio plus they look compatible..rafie also found a Chinese gf…actually he is a mix blood wat..so doesn’t matter his gf is Chinese or not..anyway they changed a lot after finishing jc..one girl even have a make over and practically tat doesn’t even look like her at all..then after As see if my mum wan to sponser me to go Indonesia..if she wans then maybe I go bac for a month..then maybe sat after As will do volunteer work for mr wong since I promised him plus he helped us quite a number a times liao..i must return something to him by doing volunteer work..then can also learn some skills from him..his so pro in his comp, then can teach me..
Then one of my relative came to Singapore for work purposes from Australia..then he still rmbs my name..last time when I am young, I used to “play” with him..i still rmb tat I always dun let him sleep and like to disturb him..duno why tat time I so playful and naughty sia to do such stupid and pei seh things..anyway he is now 27 yrs old..wa time flies reali fast..he wan to find a gf tat is rich then can help him..wa lao eh like tat not gd sia..later ppl will talk behind ur bac tat he lives on women money..then he gav us chocolates..
Then on dialogue on tues, got counsellor election..eee..some ppl sae how gd they can serve the sch and boost abt wat leadership post they hav in sec sch..i see already immediately switch off..just think tat they veri thick skin to sae such things..they not pei seh one ah..anyway I cant be bothered also..i just just follow whatever yh picks on..then later got house election, I sat into the cambera house when I belong to the pierce house..anyway they also duno which house I belong to so I just heck care and sneak in..i just vote for guys who are cute and yan dao and gers who are cute and funny..by rite, tat shouldn’t be the way to vote ppl, but never mind lah cos I dun even belong to the grp wat..i gave a vote to my eye candy “han han” but I dun hav feelings for him..just think he is cute gd..
Then me and yh yesterday went to find ms lim at 5.30pm..during tat time yh went to the loo to do her big business, then ms lim asked me how come I retained..then I tell her tat last yr I as too tired to do anything once I reached home,,then I told her the truth tat last yr I didn’t even do her tutorial and most of it were copied from other ppl..she told me tat she knew tat and said tat our class were veri “United” in copying..so moral of the story is tat never copying homework…copying too much is bad..it will onli make u retained with tat heck care attitude.. but never mind I learnt my lesson liao..no wonder my dad saes “ u will never know failure until u experience tat urself..”
Then think tat she veri cute and nice teacher ..anyways like to show us her 2 bao bei cats in her hp whenever we find her..think her bf veri fortunate to found her, a nice and patient teacher..anyway its gd tat my attitude towards work has changed GREATLY, I think..i should keep up the gd work..
Then todae was walking to sch with wee ping..then she started asking me abt him cos tanu told her abt tat , but anyway I am feeling better liao..at least I hav learn to accept the fact..and stop crying..cos tanu told me tat “ wat for crying when ppl dun even cry for u..u are just wasting ur tears..” kay tat reali knock me into my senses..then I think wat she said was rite then I became better..anyway thx for ur concern tanu =)..haha..so happy tat at least got ppl to care for me..luckily last time I didn’t pang seh my friends most of the time for him if not I will be veri miserable now..so conclusion is never give more time to ur other half...time should be shared equally with both ur friends and ur other half..ur other half can leave u any time but not ur friens..they will always be there for u no matter wat..
Then todae chem. Lesson, all teachers on course, then we do our given hw together in the study area..haha they veri funny..we sat together and talked in grps..the guys were veri fuuny..then during gp lesson the veterans grouped together..then tat ch cut hair..at least he look more stylish..then he veri funny sia anyways make me laugh..then we were joking and suaning each other..wa lao he laugh at me cos my eng lousy than him and yet I can pass but not him..wa lao kan sway me..anyway I make him bac by drawing a smiliy face on his test paper..think tat the next guy I will fall for might be him..i also duno..now still haven maybe in time to come when the feelings develops..
Then tml maybe go see star wars cos ch they all wanted to watch..justin, aik bin also going..i feel veri sian to watch leh..i also duno the start and u ask me to watch the ending part..then I will be veri blur..aiya duno also should I go..see if yh wans to go then I go..maybe can go there then will hav interaction with them then can improve relationship hor..haha..
Friday, May 20, 2005
~ths biggest shock~
i didnt know tat cm asked ch for sex..the whole class knows liao except us..they tok tat we all know liao since we gd frien with her..i was shocked when denise told me abt it..then my first rxn was "huh?"then next i asked ch to ask him abt it..he still kept the msg..duno why, even though it is so disgusting..and the msg goes like this.."are u opened minded?am to hav sex"haha..ignored this if u wan.."gosh she reali sounds despo and she actually asked tat after 4 days after my birthday cos i rmb tat day i was talking to ch warning him tat cm likes him..anyway he was damn angry with her and wanted to call her slut and bitch if she continues to do tat to him..wa he reali angry liao..never see him angry b4..he actually knows tat cm wanted tat cos he is rich..but fuuny this time he actually knows..tok he always so blur one..anyway i just feel tat she is cheap, throwing herself at guys..think i should start distancing away from her cos she reali bad influence..
moreover all she did was unprotected..she could be a high risk of an aids carrier..sometimes i do feel bad when i talked bad abt her but cant help it..so sorry..anyway tanu told me not to stay so close to her..ya true..i tink next target will be justine..we shall see hor..then was going home then got ppl giving out leaflets abt church stuff..so i just tok it..then all of them are phrases extrated from the bible bk..some of them quite interesting but most sound bored cos i duno wat they trying to sae..they just sae tat we are sins and jesus is the god..ok..we are sins meh??i didnt do anything wrong then i will be considered a sin..huh?? a bit weird..
then on wed, cm told me in the morning tat andy asked her for tat..wa lao leh he reali sucks loh..got gf liao still wans to ask around and flirt around..so wat he is yan dao..his character just sucks..seeing him onli make me feel disgusted..lousy guy..
then during gp sat beside ch since tat cm tok my seat..i was surfing through some mm stuff and he saw it..to my surprised he is actually an mm member in sec 3 and 4..then he asked me"eh u never see me in great world in the 4th storey meh??i always go there play catching there..ppl there will know me.."then i told him, aiyau too short lah, didnt see u.." anyway i cant be bothered even though he is there..in the past i am onli interested to look at my ou xiang and his friens and my instrutors, then qwss and chinese high ppl..other than tat i dun reali look at the guys..he is actually from whitley sec, mouse call "the rider"..rmb his sch did quite well in one of the yrs..then he saes he know fhs cos always hear our sch name during the competition..haha our instrutor gd mah..anyway the world is reali small leh.we are actaully in great world but we duno each other...now we are in the same class..so qiao man..
then i realised tat nowadays cm is going to be a lesbian liao..cos from her character i can induced tat..then she saes" ur shoulder nice to lie on..can protect me..then i told her siao lah..then she still got sae more disgusting things to me like "hug me, ia m cold..then wan to f*** me.."gosh i was so disgusted by her man..anyway i just scold her and asked her not to be so er xin..even though she might not be serious abt wat she saes,i think, i still find tat disgusting..
thur got blood donation..wa so scary..the neddle is so fat..dun dare to donate even though i big size..after tat stayed bac after sch..then johnson and hao tan sit with me cos they see me alone..both the two go home liao..then they asked me abt cm..thinks tat she now has a bad reputation on class liao..anyway justine was there..wa he so cute when he smile and his tat blur look is so cute!!!then i if a veri veri pei seh thing by accident.,.then johnson ee so loudly tat the whole library turned around to look at me..gosh its so pei seh loh..i was blushing like hell..feel like diggin a hole to hide my face at tat time..and worst thing is tat the malay guy saw everything and he was laughing like mad..so sway loh to be caught by guys..if gers saw me then it wouldnt be so bad..
todae mood reali bad..hai~~duno wat should i sae..then during break time yh went to tell cm tat our class ppl know tat who is tat guy in the pict..then the matter reali blows up some sort..i manage to bluff my way to help johnson..hai~~then later we had a cold war for one period..i think tat now she dun trust us liao..i hope johnson will be ok..sigh...
then after the maths lect i went to find tat mr leong for something..then hor he said tat retainees are not surposed to apply..luckily u didnt apply, if not u are wasting resources..wa lao went i heard tat i am damn angry loh..ya lah i know tat i am a reatainee..i know u know down on us..then wat u wan me to do..then he said" why u retained?" then i told him tat i flung my gp plus promos did badly..then he sae, see lah never study..then my mind was thinking "wat the hell u are a teacher and yet u sae such mean things to ppl..u should be encouraging them to stand up again and not to look down on them and depise them.."anyway now i am super angry and i told them abt it..fine lah at most i dun apply lah..then i wont be wasting the sch resources..
then the spa physic test reali srew up initally cos i read the readings wrongly..but later i realised tat i changed the readings..luckily i manage to finish everything on time..but i was reali stress when i did the test..duno why..but still there is an anomalous point..but never mind ms lim said tat as long as u can explain then u still can get the full marks..but i doubt so..its either i will be deducted 1 or 2 marks..duno why i reali no confident..i am feeling scared when i entered the lab..hopefull i will do well..duno why nowadays i feel veri scaraed when taking tests..i scared tat i wont do well then i wont be promoted..my mind always hav this fear..how? how chould i conquer the fear..btw yesterday i had a dream abt him..cant rmb the dream cos it is reali vauge..anyway i am still curious does he still reads??
this week will be a long weekend..must take the time to rest my brain and recharged my battery..anyway i am totally lost, wat should i do..my head reali feel giddy..
moreover all she did was unprotected..she could be a high risk of an aids carrier..sometimes i do feel bad when i talked bad abt her but cant help it..so sorry..anyway tanu told me not to stay so close to her..ya true..i tink next target will be justine..we shall see hor..then was going home then got ppl giving out leaflets abt church stuff..so i just tok it..then all of them are phrases extrated from the bible bk..some of them quite interesting but most sound bored cos i duno wat they trying to sae..they just sae tat we are sins and jesus is the god..ok..we are sins meh??i didnt do anything wrong then i will be considered a sin..huh?? a bit weird..
then on wed, cm told me in the morning tat andy asked her for tat..wa lao leh he reali sucks loh..got gf liao still wans to ask around and flirt around..so wat he is yan dao..his character just sucks..seeing him onli make me feel disgusted..lousy guy..
then during gp sat beside ch since tat cm tok my seat..i was surfing through some mm stuff and he saw it..to my surprised he is actually an mm member in sec 3 and 4..then he asked me"eh u never see me in great world in the 4th storey meh??i always go there play catching there..ppl there will know me.."then i told him, aiyau too short lah, didnt see u.." anyway i cant be bothered even though he is there..in the past i am onli interested to look at my ou xiang and his friens and my instrutors, then qwss and chinese high ppl..other than tat i dun reali look at the guys..he is actually from whitley sec, mouse call "the rider"..rmb his sch did quite well in one of the yrs..then he saes he know fhs cos always hear our sch name during the competition..haha our instrutor gd mah..anyway the world is reali small leh.we are actaully in great world but we duno each other...now we are in the same class..so qiao man..
then i realised tat nowadays cm is going to be a lesbian liao..cos from her character i can induced tat..then she saes" ur shoulder nice to lie on..can protect me..then i told her siao lah..then she still got sae more disgusting things to me like "hug me, ia m cold..then wan to f*** me.."gosh i was so disgusted by her man..anyway i just scold her and asked her not to be so er xin..even though she might not be serious abt wat she saes,i think, i still find tat disgusting..
thur got blood donation..wa so scary..the neddle is so fat..dun dare to donate even though i big size..after tat stayed bac after sch..then johnson and hao tan sit with me cos they see me alone..both the two go home liao..then they asked me abt cm..thinks tat she now has a bad reputation on class liao..anyway justine was there..wa he so cute when he smile and his tat blur look is so cute!!!then i if a veri veri pei seh thing by accident.,.then johnson ee so loudly tat the whole library turned around to look at me..gosh its so pei seh loh..i was blushing like hell..feel like diggin a hole to hide my face at tat time..and worst thing is tat the malay guy saw everything and he was laughing like mad..so sway loh to be caught by guys..if gers saw me then it wouldnt be so bad..
todae mood reali bad..hai~~duno wat should i sae..then during break time yh went to tell cm tat our class ppl know tat who is tat guy in the pict..then the matter reali blows up some sort..i manage to bluff my way to help johnson..hai~~then later we had a cold war for one period..i think tat now she dun trust us liao..i hope johnson will be ok..sigh...
then after the maths lect i went to find tat mr leong for something..then hor he said tat retainees are not surposed to apply..luckily u didnt apply, if not u are wasting resources..wa lao went i heard tat i am damn angry loh..ya lah i know tat i am a reatainee..i know u know down on us..then wat u wan me to do..then he said" why u retained?" then i told him tat i flung my gp plus promos did badly..then he sae, see lah never study..then my mind was thinking "wat the hell u are a teacher and yet u sae such mean things to ppl..u should be encouraging them to stand up again and not to look down on them and depise them.."anyway now i am super angry and i told them abt it..fine lah at most i dun apply lah..then i wont be wasting the sch resources..
then the spa physic test reali srew up initally cos i read the readings wrongly..but later i realised tat i changed the readings..luckily i manage to finish everything on time..but i was reali stress when i did the test..duno why..but still there is an anomalous point..but never mind ms lim said tat as long as u can explain then u still can get the full marks..but i doubt so..its either i will be deducted 1 or 2 marks..duno why i reali no confident..i am feeling scared when i entered the lab..hopefull i will do well..duno why nowadays i feel veri scaraed when taking tests..i scared tat i wont do well then i wont be promoted..my mind always hav this fear..how? how chould i conquer the fear..btw yesterday i had a dream abt him..cant rmb the dream cos it is reali vauge..anyway i am still curious does he still reads??
this week will be a long weekend..must take the time to rest my brain and recharged my battery..anyway i am totally lost, wat should i do..my head reali feel giddy..
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
~doing so bo liao things~
doing so freking bo liao things..no choice cos i am the one doing research..sian man..anyway just finish my gp test..topic seems easy but duno can i pass..anyway i just use my style of english cos duno can i pass or not..quite singlish also..anyway will update more on tml or thur if i got more time..then hor cm sae she going to work in pubs during holidays..i just feel tat she is downgrading herself hor..me and yh talked to her abt it and tell her not to do such job..but she sae the pay is high and is quick way of earning money..hai~~she reali bad ger sia..later i think she not onli serve drinks later become tat loh..even if i no money also wont do this loh..siao loh go there work onli got bad guys who always like to touch here and there..dun wan to downgrade myself..i got my own integrity..hai~~how should we convinced her not to do tat..
no wonder her ex broke up with her..she too demanding liao plus she easily got jealous over small things..aiya jealous abit can but not too much..abit of jealousy can shows tat at least u care for the guy..if there is no jealousy then will be the weird one cos this shows tat she doesbt even care for the guy..rite??ya should be lah..anyway we spent 2h talking and 0.5h doing hw..anyway we talked abt how she spent her days in cresent..amazed tat most cresent gers dun go toilet to change..they change in classroom..gosh..anyway saw mr sim yesterday..then so qiao tat 3 of us got the same mark..wa we reali gd friens sia..marks also must be the same..then yh treat us drinks cos she lost a bet..she did got F..but the results was a disaster..we were quite sad over it..then cm was telling me tat i am considered a mix blood..am i??my sch indo chinese all veri chio one..not like me lah..an ugly rotten apple..
then yh dreamt tat i got retained but she got promoted..hai~~so scared..dun wish this to happens to both of us..seriously i am wondering wat does the march 19 means..we hav broken up so wat is it going to happen on tat day..will it be a gd or bad thing???hmm..ponders..anyway my morale is getting lower and lower day by day..how arh..hai~~~~
no wonder her ex broke up with her..she too demanding liao plus she easily got jealous over small things..aiya jealous abit can but not too much..abit of jealousy can shows tat at least u care for the guy..if there is no jealousy then will be the weird one cos this shows tat she doesbt even care for the guy..rite??ya should be lah..anyway we spent 2h talking and 0.5h doing hw..anyway we talked abt how she spent her days in cresent..amazed tat most cresent gers dun go toilet to change..they change in classroom..gosh..anyway saw mr sim yesterday..then so qiao tat 3 of us got the same mark..wa we reali gd friens sia..marks also must be the same..then yh treat us drinks cos she lost a bet..she did got F..but the results was a disaster..we were quite sad over it..then cm was telling me tat i am considered a mix blood..am i??my sch indo chinese all veri chio one..not like me lah..an ugly rotten apple..
then yh dreamt tat i got retained but she got promoted..hai~~so scared..dun wish this to happens to both of us..seriously i am wondering wat does the march 19 means..we hav broken up so wat is it going to happen on tat day..will it be a gd or bad thing???hmm..ponders..anyway my morale is getting lower and lower day by day..how arh..hai~~~~
Monday, May 16, 2005
~something just happens.~.
last fri is the fri 13..no wonder so unlucky..we forced cm to sae out her secret since we gd friends mah then must share secrets..then came to know tat she and andy are ex..no wonder everytime she likes to hide behind me when she saw himand finally she admitted tat she is not a...asked abt how many times she has the experience and the ans was duno..then my first rxn was: "huh duno?"no wonder she so pro everythings also know..so me and yh take turns to ask her abt things tat curious us, u know u know..haha..then i was laughing like hell cos i reali canot take it when we talked abt such stuff..somethimes i do think tat have i mixed with the wrong company??cos yh likes to scold vulgarities while cm too open minded liao..scared later under their influcence will become like them..at boon laymrt station, just as i alighted the train, then saw rebecca..was she so hardworking sia, lives in yishun come all the way to city harvest just for church..eh seems like being christian not bad seh..ig i were given a chance i would rather be a free thinker, followed by christian then buddhist..i never believe tat god exists leh..duno why..unless i reali feel the presence of it then maybe i will believe..christine tries to convinced me during sec to convert to christian but duno why i am still a buddhist...maybe i just canot be bothered..then went to jp for window shopping..since can slack abit cos the next day no sch mah..then so qiao tat i met my mum when i was going to ntuc to buy so stuff..then she was with yi jie mum..she saes tat i reali slim down alot..face doesnt look as round as b4..so tanu cant call me pumklin face liao..yippie..then after tat we went to see clothes..usual stuff tat gers would do..then bought 2 tanks tops cos quite nice mah..think tat i wear tank tops nicer than t shirt leh..maybe in future will buy more of tank tops after my A levels when i am free to shop the whole day..after jc no more uniforms liao..headache seh must think of wat to wear so as to look presentable..realised tat most gers nowadays like my age seldom wear t shirt..they always like to wear skimpy clothings..esp they like to wear spaghetti straps..dun think i wan to wear those kind unless my body becomes thinner..think shopping with yi jie mum is more fun than my mum..everytime she will always sae me and shoot me bac..i treat yi jie mum as my frien like tat cos can communicate better with her even though she much older than my mum..plus she treat me nicer..not like my mum so outdated in thinking and so stupid..all she knows is just to nag and shout at ppl..
then mum suddenly praised me tat when i smile, i look actually nice cos i got dimple and she said it when we were buying clothes tat time..then i was thinking did i hear something wrongly, she always like to critise me tat i look veri ugly and walk like a tomboy who has this bad habit of shaking my leg..
then was watching the love at dophin bay again after i reach home..was 2 guys like the same ger and they did so much sacrifices just for the ger..wa so sweet rite..how i wish i could be tat ger..must be thinking i dreaming ba..ya quite true, i am forever dreaming in my lala land..can help it..but seriously does it happens in reality??hmm..
sat was crying again..my mum saw my chem quiz which i got AO for it then she was like syaing me..i was so pissed cos i am already so stressed liao...my mind still feels tired even after sleeping..i duno why..my mind hav to deal with so many things..emotions, sch work and fear of not doing well and abling to promote..i always tell myself tat never mind, tml will be a better day after i sleep..but this time it doesnt work at all man..my mum just dun understand many things ..she expect me to get straight As which is impossible..i am already working work hard liao but she just think tat i am slacking and sleeping away..i dun understand why i can do everything for hw but not tests..hai~~maybe my mind just couldnt over the barrier..anyway i just agrue with her tat i am not sleeping and i am not sleeping..i know what i am doing and i know i die die must promote this yt..so stop bothering me..my tone was just veri angry..duno why i hav patience towards othe ppl but not her..i dun treat my dad like this cos he more understanding..think she needs counselling lah..then she told my dad abt it and my dad sae her bac tat every ppl has different ability..as long as she did her best is ok already..then he told my mum not to nag so much at me..so after all i was laughing behind her bac cos my dad did help her..haha too bad..sometimes i feels tat i rather be a daughter of yi jie mum rather then my mum..cant she be more understanding??i am also a human being leh..
hmm..think tat my attitude has changed greatly which i think is gd..last yr i just had a heck care attitude but this yr i cant do tat anymore..both yh and i was like tat last yr so both of us ended up retaining..but this yr can see we working hard liao..but cm still so slcak..hai~~she got the brain but lazy to study..and hor i dun wish to lie to myself liao..i must face the reality..i am always unluckly and things never ever comes to a better light..so be it now or in time to come, things will never come true for wat i wished for..maybe i should learn to be tat ger in the show..i think tat IT is fading as times goes by, maybe not too sure..sometimes IT will come bac natuarally then tats the day i start to think and cry..hai~~when will this ever end??aiya this is so tired..sleeping also doesnt help at all..so how??
anyway i realised tat guys like to scold na bei..how come arh..weird..he used to like to scold tat also..yu hui also like to use tat word..not gd lah..
then i was thinking should i change my blog website then it will reali be my own personal diary whereby nobody will know what i write in it..then can sae whatever i wan..hai~~duno leh..should i? or should i not???ponders..
then mum suddenly praised me tat when i smile, i look actually nice cos i got dimple and she said it when we were buying clothes tat time..then i was thinking did i hear something wrongly, she always like to critise me tat i look veri ugly and walk like a tomboy who has this bad habit of shaking my leg..
then was watching the love at dophin bay again after i reach home..was 2 guys like the same ger and they did so much sacrifices just for the ger..wa so sweet rite..how i wish i could be tat ger..must be thinking i dreaming ba..ya quite true, i am forever dreaming in my lala land..can help it..but seriously does it happens in reality??hmm..
sat was crying again..my mum saw my chem quiz which i got AO for it then she was like syaing me..i was so pissed cos i am already so stressed liao...my mind still feels tired even after sleeping..i duno why..my mind hav to deal with so many things..emotions, sch work and fear of not doing well and abling to promote..i always tell myself tat never mind, tml will be a better day after i sleep..but this time it doesnt work at all man..my mum just dun understand many things ..she expect me to get straight As which is impossible..i am already working work hard liao but she just think tat i am slacking and sleeping away..i dun understand why i can do everything for hw but not tests..hai~~maybe my mind just couldnt over the barrier..anyway i just agrue with her tat i am not sleeping and i am not sleeping..i know what i am doing and i know i die die must promote this yt..so stop bothering me..my tone was just veri angry..duno why i hav patience towards othe ppl but not her..i dun treat my dad like this cos he more understanding..think she needs counselling lah..then she told my dad abt it and my dad sae her bac tat every ppl has different ability..as long as she did her best is ok already..then he told my mum not to nag so much at me..so after all i was laughing behind her bac cos my dad did help her..haha too bad..sometimes i feels tat i rather be a daughter of yi jie mum rather then my mum..cant she be more understanding??i am also a human being leh..
hmm..think tat my attitude has changed greatly which i think is gd..last yr i just had a heck care attitude but this yr i cant do tat anymore..both yh and i was like tat last yr so both of us ended up retaining..but this yr can see we working hard liao..but cm still so slcak..hai~~she got the brain but lazy to study..and hor i dun wish to lie to myself liao..i must face the reality..i am always unluckly and things never ever comes to a better light..so be it now or in time to come, things will never come true for wat i wished for..maybe i should learn to be tat ger in the show..i think tat IT is fading as times goes by, maybe not too sure..sometimes IT will come bac natuarally then tats the day i start to think and cry..hai~~when will this ever end??aiya this is so tired..sleeping also doesnt help at all..so how??
anyway i realised tat guys like to scold na bei..how come arh..weird..he used to like to scold tat also..yu hui also like to use tat word..not gd lah..
then i was thinking should i change my blog website then it will reali be my own personal diary whereby nobody will know what i write in it..then can sae whatever i wan..hai~~duno leh..should i? or should i not???ponders..
Friday, May 13, 2005
~haiZZZ~
anyway zai rong (finally rmb his name liao after so many times)..called me just to sae hello..this is not the first time liao..sometimes i do feel veri tired saying so many hello to him..sometimes just feel irritated..and i will think huh is he abit too "friendly" liao..
he gav me a feeling tat i should avoid him as far as possible..duno how should i explain the feeling but it seems weird..duno weather is my institution correct or not..but i shall see..maybe i will onli talked to him during cca time..
and milli ex bf is slyvester (the singapore idol)..find it hard to believe but is the truth cos there is a pict online on the friendster tat chows tat they are together b4..but duno why she still put tat pict online when she is attached now..maybe she just wan to show off ba..anyway he still looks ugly now..still got the ah beng look ..no diff from the past..
then wed got a slight fever and headache..duno why..now ok liao..initally wanted to go home to rest but since most of the things are with me then i should go..anyway cm lost her nude pict which she saved in the cd..but when she realised tat it is already gone in the cd drive..but surprisingly she got it bac the next day,..wondered who took it..i think most proberly is a guy cos tat time when we were using comp..all are guys..no gers are around..so i think tat guy must hav seen the picts and must be drooling again..and she hor reali hopeless lah..think she too zhi lian of herself and all her friendster picts so the...she can reali attract alot of pervert guys..then i say to her"pls lah..can u pls put something more decent."then think she likes to see bikini gers..cos whenever i am looking at my friends then she will look to see big char siew bao gers..sometimes i think is she a homosexual..
was talking to zai rong through cca cos lina too quiet liao then got nothing to talk to her..we were talking abt "HL milk" and full of oil (angela)..but i am not the one who gac the nick name cos i not so bad to giv such hurting names..now the most hot topic for guys is the full of oil.,.anyway its funny lah..
then yesterday went to northpt since they dragged me there..yh needs to buy earing while cm needs to go buy photo bk..so i was just dragged there cos initally wanted to stay in sch..later then we went to waston..tat trip is the most interesting cos i learned alot of dirty stuff..was seh like tat in future my brain will be polluted liao..and i finally know what is a tampon liao..last time ask him wat is it and he told me to ask my mum..so now i know..then intersetingly now there is a new kind id condom tat can vibrate..hei interesing sia..now 2 for $9.90..wa so the ex..but weird how to they vibrate ah..ponders..hmm..anyway since i was so curious tat i took up the box to take a closer look..then sway man got a guy suddenly walk past me then i so pei seh..was blushing like hell sia..then later i put bac then cm and i were laughing..after tat we went to mac to study since its still early..then ms ang sae tat those ppl who went for obs last yr will not be going this yr..instead they will be going to raffles marina for a camp..dun think i wan to go obs cos like a torture leh..canot bath for 5 days plus later will hav sandflys and all those stuff..maybe go the raffles marina..then ms ang said tat maybe we can diao dao da yu over there..hehe..then immediately cm so awake liao..aiya she for ever likes to see cute guys,,wa thinking of the nice food over there..wa yummy..
then hor sometimes i think i am still veri childish given tat i am now 18 yrs old liao..maybe its time tat i should be more matured and start thinking critically..veri soon i will be and adult in 3 yrs time and veri soon i will get married..tats fast..last time ms ang once told us b4 tat she used to sae tat she wans to get married inli if she reaches 27..but later duno how ended up marrying at 25..so will my plans changed.,.hmm..duno also..see if the guy is worth to marry earlier or not..if not then dun marry at most..i will lead my carefree lifestyle..and hor my way of thinking is too simple liao..how should i upgrade myself so tat my way of thinking will be more complicated..sometimes its gd to be a simple ger with no motives..but if i continue to like tat veri soon ppl will climb over me went i go to the society to work which will be in 1.5 yrs time..so how??seriously i am veri scared to trust ppl now esp guys..cos i reali duno wat they sae is the truth or are they lying..i just canot see through them..neither am i smart to know wat they are thinking..
todae feels so sleepy in class..want paying attention to wat mr sim was talking abt..anyway the maths hor reali canot make it liao..hai~~~study yesterday still duno..duno why..sometimes i do feel like i am reali useless leh especially todae..i cant even do a paper tat i hav learnt..some more i am a retainee..sometimes the new j1 can even do better than me..hai~~i reali veri tired liao..my brain is reali not working anymore..i just think tat everything is against me..i reali feel veri sad..and reali feel like crying..i am going to breakdown veri veri soon..so how??indeed i see improvements..but sometimes i can reali do veri veri bad..duno why also..but i am happy tat the last chem test i got 97% fot the test!!!this is the first time i do so weel for chem..but hor still i feel veri sad..anyway my mum just feels happy tat i get such a gd grade for chem..now seldom see her scold and nag me liao..cos i always like to sae "how old am i liao..i know wat i doing lah..no need u to tell me.." this is my favourite words tat i like to sae to her,,anyway..duno lah..i still feels veri veri sad..weekends are coming but yet i dun feel happy at all..think tat weekends are worst..i will start to imagine things again..wondered when can i get over it..cm asked me to find a bf..but i dun wish to go into such rubbish again..never ever again in my jc life..unless tat guy can reali touched me again whoever he is..i am reali tired to sae abt such things liao.,.so in future dun wish to talk abt such things cos i cant be bothered anymore..
he gav me a feeling tat i should avoid him as far as possible..duno how should i explain the feeling but it seems weird..duno weather is my institution correct or not..but i shall see..maybe i will onli talked to him during cca time..
and milli ex bf is slyvester (the singapore idol)..find it hard to believe but is the truth cos there is a pict online on the friendster tat chows tat they are together b4..but duno why she still put tat pict online when she is attached now..maybe she just wan to show off ba..anyway he still looks ugly now..still got the ah beng look ..no diff from the past..
then wed got a slight fever and headache..duno why..now ok liao..initally wanted to go home to rest but since most of the things are with me then i should go..anyway cm lost her nude pict which she saved in the cd..but when she realised tat it is already gone in the cd drive..but surprisingly she got it bac the next day,..wondered who took it..i think most proberly is a guy cos tat time when we were using comp..all are guys..no gers are around..so i think tat guy must hav seen the picts and must be drooling again..and she hor reali hopeless lah..think she too zhi lian of herself and all her friendster picts so the...she can reali attract alot of pervert guys..then i say to her"pls lah..can u pls put something more decent."then think she likes to see bikini gers..cos whenever i am looking at my friends then she will look to see big char siew bao gers..sometimes i think is she a homosexual..
was talking to zai rong through cca cos lina too quiet liao then got nothing to talk to her..we were talking abt "HL milk" and full of oil (angela)..but i am not the one who gac the nick name cos i not so bad to giv such hurting names..now the most hot topic for guys is the full of oil.,.anyway its funny lah..
then yesterday went to northpt since they dragged me there..yh needs to buy earing while cm needs to go buy photo bk..so i was just dragged there cos initally wanted to stay in sch..later then we went to waston..tat trip is the most interesting cos i learned alot of dirty stuff..was seh like tat in future my brain will be polluted liao..and i finally know what is a tampon liao..last time ask him wat is it and he told me to ask my mum..so now i know..then intersetingly now there is a new kind id condom tat can vibrate..hei interesing sia..now 2 for $9.90..wa so the ex..but weird how to they vibrate ah..ponders..hmm..anyway since i was so curious tat i took up the box to take a closer look..then sway man got a guy suddenly walk past me then i so pei seh..was blushing like hell sia..then later i put bac then cm and i were laughing..after tat we went to mac to study since its still early..then ms ang sae tat those ppl who went for obs last yr will not be going this yr..instead they will be going to raffles marina for a camp..dun think i wan to go obs cos like a torture leh..canot bath for 5 days plus later will hav sandflys and all those stuff..maybe go the raffles marina..then ms ang said tat maybe we can diao dao da yu over there..hehe..then immediately cm so awake liao..aiya she for ever likes to see cute guys,,wa thinking of the nice food over there..wa yummy..
then hor sometimes i think i am still veri childish given tat i am now 18 yrs old liao..maybe its time tat i should be more matured and start thinking critically..veri soon i will be and adult in 3 yrs time and veri soon i will get married..tats fast..last time ms ang once told us b4 tat she used to sae tat she wans to get married inli if she reaches 27..but later duno how ended up marrying at 25..so will my plans changed.,.hmm..duno also..see if the guy is worth to marry earlier or not..if not then dun marry at most..i will lead my carefree lifestyle..and hor my way of thinking is too simple liao..how should i upgrade myself so tat my way of thinking will be more complicated..sometimes its gd to be a simple ger with no motives..but if i continue to like tat veri soon ppl will climb over me went i go to the society to work which will be in 1.5 yrs time..so how??seriously i am veri scared to trust ppl now esp guys..cos i reali duno wat they sae is the truth or are they lying..i just canot see through them..neither am i smart to know wat they are thinking..
todae feels so sleepy in class..want paying attention to wat mr sim was talking abt..anyway the maths hor reali canot make it liao..hai~~~study yesterday still duno..duno why..sometimes i do feel like i am reali useless leh especially todae..i cant even do a paper tat i hav learnt..some more i am a retainee..sometimes the new j1 can even do better than me..hai~~i reali veri tired liao..my brain is reali not working anymore..i just think tat everything is against me..i reali feel veri sad..and reali feel like crying..i am going to breakdown veri veri soon..so how??indeed i see improvements..but sometimes i can reali do veri veri bad..duno why also..but i am happy tat the last chem test i got 97% fot the test!!!this is the first time i do so weel for chem..but hor still i feel veri sad..anyway my mum just feels happy tat i get such a gd grade for chem..now seldom see her scold and nag me liao..cos i always like to sae "how old am i liao..i know wat i doing lah..no need u to tell me.." this is my favourite words tat i like to sae to her,,anyway..duno lah..i still feels veri veri sad..weekends are coming but yet i dun feel happy at all..think tat weekends are worst..i will start to imagine things again..wondered when can i get over it..cm asked me to find a bf..but i dun wish to go into such rubbish again..never ever again in my jc life..unless tat guy can reali touched me again whoever he is..i am reali tired to sae abt such things liao.,.so in future dun wish to talk abt such things cos i cant be bothered anymore..
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
~the cock up spa chem A level test~
anyway why does guys whom i know like gers from cresent ah..they reali tat gd looking meh??or do they just hav the charm to guys??hmm..weird..
anyway yesterday went home super early abt 4 plus reach home liao..knew my mum would ask why am i bac so early..so i just lied to her tat my pe teacher didnt came..so i just so home early loh..anyway i go home early is for some specail reason one..tat is to study for my chem spa practical test which is counted for A levels so canot play play..
and ah yi auntie told me tat i hav slim down abit cos my face seem sharper..reali meh..tats a gd thing..so running 4 times a week indeed help alot..but sad thing is tat she sae my face look veri pale..seems like my face has "no colour" at all..hai~~then she gav us bird nest cos my dad still coughing badly..was she so gd..giv $50 bird nest to us..long time never eat tat liao ever since i was young tat time..cos young tat time mum still can afford..now canot liao..maybe steal some to eat when they open the bottle..hehe..
then hor this week i reali broke liao..spent $18 on my gp bk then still share money to buy present for 2 friens..hai~~~so this week muz jian fei liao..no money to eat..
then todae had my chem spa test..I DUNO HOW TO SOLVE THE QN FOR PART 2!!!!! then canot get full marks for skill C liao..skill B duno whether got make mistake or not..but the teacher veri irritating seh..keep seeing wat i do and checking whether i got make any mistake..
then todae no need for gp..shiok man..cos they talking abt pw..so not my business..then later sat down with yh they all..later ch came then we talk..todae again bully i bully him..call him xiao didi..cos he so childish..then say him tat if he still continues to be so childish then no gers will like him seh..then during dialogue went to the audi to watch syf performance..eh i am amazed tat so many gers look so chio when they make up..so usually not so nice also gd looking with make up..haha..waiting fot the prom nite to come next yr sia...then can wear nice nice with make up..feel like going this yr to see see..but must pay money leh..then some more i haven graduate yet so abit extra to go there..maybe next yr i will go if i see is it reasonable to pay or not..hehe..
life is so bored nowadays..whole day onli do hw and sleep and watch abit of tv..my life is all abt this..reali sian loh..doesnt seems interestin at all.. plus wan to talk to ppl then ppl not free..hai~~jc life reali veri veri SIAN LEh!! wondered will my working life be the same after i finish A levels..seriously what do i wan to do arh??actually i also duno leh..maybe can go office to work or maybe be a teacher if reali got nothing for me to do..but being a teacher reali bored leh..whole day onli see naughy students and old uncle..not gd not gd..
anyway yesterday went home super early abt 4 plus reach home liao..knew my mum would ask why am i bac so early..so i just lied to her tat my pe teacher didnt came..so i just so home early loh..anyway i go home early is for some specail reason one..tat is to study for my chem spa practical test which is counted for A levels so canot play play..
and ah yi auntie told me tat i hav slim down abit cos my face seem sharper..reali meh..tats a gd thing..so running 4 times a week indeed help alot..but sad thing is tat she sae my face look veri pale..seems like my face has "no colour" at all..hai~~then she gav us bird nest cos my dad still coughing badly..was she so gd..giv $50 bird nest to us..long time never eat tat liao ever since i was young tat time..cos young tat time mum still can afford..now canot liao..maybe steal some to eat when they open the bottle..hehe..
then hor this week i reali broke liao..spent $18 on my gp bk then still share money to buy present for 2 friens..hai~~~so this week muz jian fei liao..no money to eat..
then todae had my chem spa test..I DUNO HOW TO SOLVE THE QN FOR PART 2!!!!! then canot get full marks for skill C liao..skill B duno whether got make mistake or not..but the teacher veri irritating seh..keep seeing wat i do and checking whether i got make any mistake..
then todae no need for gp..shiok man..cos they talking abt pw..so not my business..then later sat down with yh they all..later ch came then we talk..todae again bully i bully him..call him xiao didi..cos he so childish..then say him tat if he still continues to be so childish then no gers will like him seh..then during dialogue went to the audi to watch syf performance..eh i am amazed tat so many gers look so chio when they make up..so usually not so nice also gd looking with make up..haha..waiting fot the prom nite to come next yr sia...then can wear nice nice with make up..feel like going this yr to see see..but must pay money leh..then some more i haven graduate yet so abit extra to go there..maybe next yr i will go if i see is it reasonable to pay or not..hehe..
life is so bored nowadays..whole day onli do hw and sleep and watch abit of tv..my life is all abt this..reali sian loh..doesnt seems interestin at all.. plus wan to talk to ppl then ppl not free..hai~~jc life reali veri veri SIAN LEh!! wondered will my working life be the same after i finish A levels..seriously what do i wan to do arh??actually i also duno leh..maybe can go office to work or maybe be a teacher if reali got nothing for me to do..but being a teacher reali bored leh..whole day onli see naughy students and old uncle..not gd not gd..
Monday, May 09, 2005
~dots dots..~
my idoit brother saw my pict with ch which i saved inside the comp..wat the hell he go and tell my mum abt how close we are taking the pict together..he still sae some er xin things to me,..idoit..my mum did sae anything cos she tok he younger than me but in fact he is a retainee..her reaction was fuuny cos she sae" siao liao u like this guy..so ah beng.."then i shoot her bac..wa lao taking pit together doesnt mean anything loh..she is just stupid..
last week dialogue refuse to go so just hide inside the toilet to study inside going for the bo liao talk..luckily the toilet was clean so we just sat inside there..but its scary cos we were kana caught by the teacher but later we didnt go but hide inside the toilet cos its the safest place..anyway this is sec time i am hiding in the toilet liao..i will always rmb how pathetic we are even in my dreams..wa..
then had my eye check last week..wa seh my eye power reali increase alot from 2oo+ to 300+ going to 400 liao..siao liao lah..i reali regretted wearing the lower degree one..no wonder my eyes always feel so tired..i am currently wearing the new spects tat i made last yr i think..yh and can sae i look ugly with tat spect..and i do look like auntie..wa lao..ok lah..i admit the spect do look ugly..duno why i make tat spect also..aiya never mind..i feel like wearing contact leh..but hor..see tanu's eyes like tat abit fear to wear contacts liao..plus must touch ur eyes balls..eee,,so er xin..
wed.at yishun control station, there is this indian guy who approach us for $1..wat the hell..this is another liar again..hate this kind of ppl..matilda saes he kept asking ppl for money so tat he can drink alcohol..he kept looking at me and matilda..but we just refused..so wat i got the money why should i give money to ppl like u..i just gave him the get lost face..dun like liar to cheater to come near me..
anyway my chem quiz got AO..this is reali bad..but i must blame myself lah cos i didnt study tat nite..instead i slept and i didnt woke up..never mind..i think tat another test tat i didnt last week chould be able to get A..this is i got study..confirm..think todae will be getting bac,.
was talking to justine..he reali look like xiao didi to me..so cute when he smile..tok he from queenway sec cos his uni all white but later came to know he from victoria sec..wa gd sch..but why did he ended here..maybe he did badly ba..not i wan to look down on the sch..but its the truth tat most ppl came here becos they did badly during their O levels..including me..
yjc is changing their sch uniform for the gers..looks nicer with bigger shirt,.at least this time is tucked in with draw string..the pe shirt looks reali ugly..maroon colour..doesnt suit our skirt..duno who chose this colour..whoever he or she is their taste reali is veri veri bad..anyway i not going to buy..dun wan to waste my money..think my this pe shirt looks nicer..
was teaching yh and can to play piano on sch since they so curious and like playing so much..just taught them the basic..duno why they like piano so much..i dun reali like playing unless is i play for fun and not for exam..
fri is a busy and tired day..then saw mr chua..so i just smiled to me loh..then he stopped to talk to me..surprising he asked me how is my work doing..so did i pass my tests and all those craps lah..wa suddenly i felt like why he suddenly so gd and concerned towards me arh..last yr never see him treaing me tat nice..ask him qn always like to sae me bac and scold me for reading lecture notes..but i reali dun understand wat tats why i asked him to explain to me..so fierce for wat lah..so i always did not wan to ask him anything..
then tat nite was watching the show dolphin bay..the actress sae" am i an unwanted bottle cap tat is to be abanoned and throw away"and "i hav faith tat u will look for me.."these suddenly made struck my mind and made me think of something...........................................
then heard tat the movie tickets went up liao..wa seh..the weekends tickets so ex..wan to rob ppl sia..never mind at most dun watch during weekends..
last week dialogue refuse to go so just hide inside the toilet to study inside going for the bo liao talk..luckily the toilet was clean so we just sat inside there..but its scary cos we were kana caught by the teacher but later we didnt go but hide inside the toilet cos its the safest place..anyway this is sec time i am hiding in the toilet liao..i will always rmb how pathetic we are even in my dreams..wa..
then had my eye check last week..wa seh my eye power reali increase alot from 2oo+ to 300+ going to 400 liao..siao liao lah..i reali regretted wearing the lower degree one..no wonder my eyes always feel so tired..i am currently wearing the new spects tat i made last yr i think..yh and can sae i look ugly with tat spect..and i do look like auntie..wa lao..ok lah..i admit the spect do look ugly..duno why i make tat spect also..aiya never mind..i feel like wearing contact leh..but hor..see tanu's eyes like tat abit fear to wear contacts liao..plus must touch ur eyes balls..eee,,so er xin..
wed.at yishun control station, there is this indian guy who approach us for $1..wat the hell..this is another liar again..hate this kind of ppl..matilda saes he kept asking ppl for money so tat he can drink alcohol..he kept looking at me and matilda..but we just refused..so wat i got the money why should i give money to ppl like u..i just gave him the get lost face..dun like liar to cheater to come near me..
anyway my chem quiz got AO..this is reali bad..but i must blame myself lah cos i didnt study tat nite..instead i slept and i didnt woke up..never mind..i think tat another test tat i didnt last week chould be able to get A..this is i got study..confirm..think todae will be getting bac,.
was talking to justine..he reali look like xiao didi to me..so cute when he smile..tok he from queenway sec cos his uni all white but later came to know he from victoria sec..wa gd sch..but why did he ended here..maybe he did badly ba..not i wan to look down on the sch..but its the truth tat most ppl came here becos they did badly during their O levels..including me..
yjc is changing their sch uniform for the gers..looks nicer with bigger shirt,.at least this time is tucked in with draw string..the pe shirt looks reali ugly..maroon colour..doesnt suit our skirt..duno who chose this colour..whoever he or she is their taste reali is veri veri bad..anyway i not going to buy..dun wan to waste my money..think my this pe shirt looks nicer..
was teaching yh and can to play piano on sch since they so curious and like playing so much..just taught them the basic..duno why they like piano so much..i dun reali like playing unless is i play for fun and not for exam..
fri is a busy and tired day..then saw mr chua..so i just smiled to me loh..then he stopped to talk to me..surprising he asked me how is my work doing..so did i pass my tests and all those craps lah..wa suddenly i felt like why he suddenly so gd and concerned towards me arh..last yr never see him treaing me tat nice..ask him qn always like to sae me bac and scold me for reading lecture notes..but i reali dun understand wat tats why i asked him to explain to me..so fierce for wat lah..so i always did not wan to ask him anything..
then tat nite was watching the show dolphin bay..the actress sae" am i an unwanted bottle cap tat is to be abanoned and throw away"and "i hav faith tat u will look for me.."these suddenly made struck my mind and made me think of something...........................................
then heard tat the movie tickets went up liao..wa seh..the weekends tickets so ex..wan to rob ppl sia..never mind at most dun watch during weekends..
~wa seh..i accidently show out my secret..~die..
oh shit..i accidently publish out wat i wrote..die..hopefully nobody has read it..anyway todae tat ch was wearing the red shirt then i asked him eh?wat shirt is tat?he said is ur red T1..eh he still rmb tat i used to like to wear tat shirt..anyway i dun like to wear now liao after tat incident..
anyway just got timetable..3 oct having go promos..then the real want starts from 17 oct to 25 oct..gosh so scary and scared..this is my last chance liao..if i dun make it then its the end of me liao..
then tat mr heng seems veri bian tai..see gers legs one..no wonder he still haven married..eh now i think i must start doing "massaging" everyday after hearing wat yh saes..eh reali can work meh??maybe i shall try hor..
anyway just got timetable..3 oct having go promos..then the real want starts from 17 oct to 25 oct..gosh so scary and scared..this is my last chance liao..if i dun make it then its the end of me liao..
then tat mr heng seems veri bian tai..see gers legs one..no wonder he still haven married..eh now i think i must start doing "massaging" everyday after hearing wat yh saes..eh reali can work meh??maybe i shall try hor..
Friday, May 06, 2005
~one week has over..~
hey realised tat so many also many ppl are aries..and their birthday in april..those ppl i know them but they duno who am i..anyway last sat was doing physic until like hell..got so many qns duno how to do..then mon she said tat her bf dumped her after doing tat with a prostitute..anyway that guy is juz lousy..hope he kana aids sia for cheating on gers..so conclusion is all guys are bad and none can be trusted..
anyway some day in this week my mum suddenly mentioned to me tat "so i am getting a bf in university arh..this reali shocked me cos when did she become so opened minded one ah.."anyway i juz sae aiya gd guys veri difficult to find one lah..then somemore still muz see if ppl wants me or not mah..if dun hav then never mind loh..maybe can be a nun..nun also not bad wat..but she sae tat she cant be kept in the dark..i muz bring tat guy home with me to see if he is an ah beng or not..aiya..this kind of things still early to sae..u never know who is ur the other half..anyway my mission now is to study hard so tat i am so uni since i hav wasted one yr liao..so die die muz reali so uni..if not reali wasted..hai~~anyway this few days reali busy and tired..practically sleeping after i reach home..this is bad..then my stomach feel bloated..feel so uncomfortable..aiya the problem still surface..duno why..
anyway seeing friendster is reali fun..as in can see their picts then know alot of ppl tat i duno their faces yet knowing their names..seems like ppl around 22yrs old like to travel with their their other half to countries and enjoy themselves..wa so shiok and sweet..in future when i offically got bf again then i go overseas and play and take pict with my 'future bf' then can upload picts into my comp and admire..haha...abit siao but never mind..then realised tat lots of ppl like to yang dogs..wa some of them so cute..then one of the days our class going down to the spca to do cIP..wa i so scared of animals sia..how to go there..think i wont be helping out..cos i reali scared the animals will bite me..aiyo..how arh..anyway..holidays coming soon...waiting for it...
anyway some day in this week my mum suddenly mentioned to me tat "so i am getting a bf in university arh..this reali shocked me cos when did she become so opened minded one ah.."anyway i juz sae aiya gd guys veri difficult to find one lah..then somemore still muz see if ppl wants me or not mah..if dun hav then never mind loh..maybe can be a nun..nun also not bad wat..but she sae tat she cant be kept in the dark..i muz bring tat guy home with me to see if he is an ah beng or not..aiya..this kind of things still early to sae..u never know who is ur the other half..anyway my mission now is to study hard so tat i am so uni since i hav wasted one yr liao..so die die muz reali so uni..if not reali wasted..hai~~anyway this few days reali busy and tired..practically sleeping after i reach home..this is bad..then my stomach feel bloated..feel so uncomfortable..aiya the problem still surface..duno why..
anyway seeing friendster is reali fun..as in can see their picts then know alot of ppl tat i duno their faces yet knowing their names..seems like ppl around 22yrs old like to travel with their their other half to countries and enjoy themselves..wa so shiok and sweet..in future when i offically got bf again then i go overseas and play and take pict with my 'future bf' then can upload picts into my comp and admire..haha...abit siao but never mind..then realised tat lots of ppl like to yang dogs..wa some of them so cute..then one of the days our class going down to the spca to do cIP..wa i so scared of animals sia..how to go there..think i wont be helping out..cos i reali scared the animals will bite me..aiyo..how arh..anyway..holidays coming soon...waiting for it...
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
wat guys shld do or aim to do
Message: Jealousy is man's greatest weakness. becausenomatter how strong u are,once u get to feeljealous, ull start wondering all the time. butthen again man dun get jealous unless the girldidsomething which made the guy nearly lose trustinher. and even as he forgave her and trust heragain, the slightest thought will trigger anemotion chain which just drains all thehappinessor any will to do something else as the man justgives up. even though it shud be the girl thatfeels bad , in the end its the guy that feels thepain and the more he wants to forget it the moreit will hurt because there is no running awayfromthe jealousy. until he noes thats nothinhappenedand hold her in his arms. maybe girls dun noticeit but guys has much more emotion than themandwud take things even harder than they wud. agirlcould cry over something but a guys heartshatters. girls would then say he doesn love heranymore but the truth is he is loving her somuchits killing him but he survives knowing that sheshappy. a guy wud do anything for a girl but a girlwun.----------------------------------------------When we support mens opinion, we arechauvinistpigs but when they support their own gender, itsthe love and bond between them and notbecausethey are feminist.
Message: : *Guys should NEVER make emptypromises..The girl will NEVER forget that uNEVER keep urpromise....*Guys should be MORE sensitive to a girl'sfeelings..*Guys should NEVER neglect their GF just becozof their buddies..*Guys should ALWAYS BE THERE for their GF..*Guys should NEVER LIE.. coz the Girls rSMART these days..*Guys should ALWAYS be the BEST ineverything...So that the Girl can learn from u..Yet DUN be TOO Arrogant...*Guys should be MORE Patient andUnderstanding when its the "time of the MOnth" forthe Girls.. They tend to haf MOOD SwIngs...*Guys should learn how to SHOW moreAFFECTION to their Loved ones..*Guys should ALWAYS take the FIRST STep..*Guys should MAKE DECISIONS... Not say "dunno lar.. or anything larz.." Girls like guys whocan make decisions.. whether is where to eat orgo or do... Bleahz~~*Guys should Try to send their GF home from schor work if they haf the time despite the distance..*Guys should learn NOT to be toooo Messy... inthe things they do..*Guys should learn to call and sms their GF anitime of the day/nite.. Basically give their GF thesense of SECURITY.. tats wat girls want frommost of their BF...*Guys should try to let their GF know where andwat their doing all the time.. SO should their Girl..*Guys should NEVER Flirt around too Much..Everyone would know that ya a JErk.. Girls cangossip quite alot..*Guys should learn to be more Passionate..*Guys should be SMART, Quickwitted andSTRONGWILLED..*Real Guys DO CRY.. they haf feelings too..But dun CRY to Often... Coz its NOT very manly..Besides ya be known as a WIMP..*Guys should KNOW their GF likes and dislikes..*Guys should know their GF contactNumberSSssbyHeart...*Guys should never give excuses like` - SOrry I fell asleep..` - Sorry I was caught in a jam..` - Sorry my hp went Low..` - Opps.. I didn't know that..` - Oh i forgot...*Guys should Never use phrases like- ya not angry r u? (when its OBVIOUS she is..)- I dun like it.. ( when u haven't even try )- I dun like them ( when u haven't even met them )*Guys should always TRY new things and learn toadapt..*Guys should ALWAYS make a good impressionon theGirl's Parents..*Guys should know how to make their GF happy..*Guys should be DARING to meet ani of theirGF'sfriends, relatives.. blah blah...*Guys should never make their GF to beg for themto do this or that..*Guy should Learn to behave themselves attimes..*Guys should be Fun, Talkative, Outgoing..etc..*Guys should Never force their GF to do anithingthey dun want..*Guys should always FEEL like a girl when guys rwif their GF.. Girls like guys who can be theirbestfriend too.. Understanding.. etc..*Guys should always talk to their GF about theirmade-decisions.. and ask how to feel about it..*Guys should NEVER always expect a GIRL totell them WAT THEY DID WRONG.. whenEVERYTHING was WRONG...*Guys should NEVER be Ignorant
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Message: : *Guys should NEVER make emptypromises..The girl will NEVER forget that uNEVER keep urpromise....*Guys should be MORE sensitive to a girl'sfeelings..*Guys should NEVER neglect their GF just becozof their buddies..*Guys should ALWAYS BE THERE for their GF..*Guys should NEVER LIE.. coz the Girls rSMART these days..*Guys should ALWAYS be the BEST ineverything...So that the Girl can learn from u..Yet DUN be TOO Arrogant...*Guys should be MORE Patient andUnderstanding when its the "time of the MOnth" forthe Girls.. They tend to haf MOOD SwIngs...*Guys should learn how to SHOW moreAFFECTION to their Loved ones..*Guys should ALWAYS take the FIRST STep..*Guys should MAKE DECISIONS... Not say "dunno lar.. or anything larz.." Girls like guys whocan make decisions.. whether is where to eat orgo or do... Bleahz~~*Guys should Try to send their GF home from schor work if they haf the time despite the distance..*Guys should learn NOT to be toooo Messy... inthe things they do..*Guys should learn to call and sms their GF anitime of the day/nite.. Basically give their GF thesense of SECURITY.. tats wat girls want frommost of their BF...*Guys should try to let their GF know where andwat their doing all the time.. SO should their Girl..*Guys should NEVER Flirt around too Much..Everyone would know that ya a JErk.. Girls cangossip quite alot..*Guys should learn to be more Passionate..*Guys should be SMART, Quickwitted andSTRONGWILLED..*Real Guys DO CRY.. they haf feelings too..But dun CRY to Often... Coz its NOT very manly..Besides ya be known as a WIMP..*Guys should KNOW their GF likes and dislikes..*Guys should know their GF contactNumberSSssbyHeart...*Guys should never give excuses like` - SOrry I fell asleep..` - Sorry I was caught in a jam..` - Sorry my hp went Low..` - Opps.. I didn't know that..` - Oh i forgot...*Guys should Never use phrases like- ya not angry r u? (when its OBVIOUS she is..)- I dun like it.. ( when u haven't even try )- I dun like them ( when u haven't even met them )*Guys should always TRY new things and learn toadapt..*Guys should ALWAYS make a good impressionon theGirl's Parents..*Guys should know how to make their GF happy..*Guys should be DARING to meet ani of theirGF'sfriends, relatives.. blah blah...*Guys should never make their GF to beg for themto do this or that..*Guy should Learn to behave themselves attimes..*Guys should be Fun, Talkative, Outgoing..etc..*Guys should Never force their GF to do anithingthey dun want..*Guys should always FEEL like a girl when guys rwif their GF.. Girls like guys who can be theirbestfriend too.. Understanding.. etc..*Guys should always talk to their GF about theirmade-decisions.. and ask how to feel about it..*Guys should NEVER always expect a GIRL totell them WAT THEY DID WRONG.. whenEVERYTHING was WRONG...*Guys should NEVER be Ignorant
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