~probably i have straighten my thoughts le..~

i haven been updating for a week le, partly becos i was having exams..so how was the paper generally?? i think physics paper is kinda hard and gp too..maths was actually quite ok but just tat my damn maths teacher didnt tell me tat i am sitting a different paper from them so i didnt study for those topics tat are not covered in their syallabus, so ended up spending more time on recalling formuale rather than doing the paper fast..anyway i have reali lost lots of marks when i cant recall the formuale and so i am stuck and so ended up didnt do 1.5 qns which cost like 14 marks to fly away..sigh, i am going to get nagged for not doing well again.And i dun understand why must isolate all the repeat students so far away from the jc 2 ah..it seems to me tat we have some disease tat will pass and spread to ppl like tat..lohz...finally now i know tat my sch have 7 jc2 repeats..hmm..quite a lot ah...
last sat i was kinda feeling bad mood, duno why lah..so my performance for piano was reali bad..so my teacher was asking me why is it tat my performance has dropped so much when the exams are nearing...she asked is it becos i am heartbroken or wat??i told her no, cos i dun have a bf so i cant be heartbroken in any sense, neither do i see a reason to be heartbroken over someone tat i like or have a crush on, cos i think its kinda stupid to be sad over this..anway my piano exams is less than 2 weeks to go, and i am reali scared cos i have zero confidence of passing at this rate..and i reali dun like the touch and sound of the exam piano after trying out on mon cos it sounds veri soft and i need to press reali hard on the keyboard man..oh man, and i reali hate the oral part, esp the singing hard cos my singing sux..
one of the nights last week, i cried cos i was feeling reali terrible deep inside my heart..i was just thinking why do i have such a hard life man??uni is starting in aug soon and seeing all my close friends, be it pri, sec or jc friends are all entering uni and yet i am still stuck and left alone in sch..seeing and experiencing such a thing happening on me is just more than being emtionally sad, but the pain and disappointment inflicted on me was reali painful to the extent tat it is so unbearable tat i had to cry out at times to feel better..maybe it will reali take some time for me, afterall I AM A GER, not a guy..to gers 2 yrs mean alot to them but not to guys and its hard to me to pick up from where i fall esp when i have lost faith in myself..but this this week, having steeping bac into the sch, somehow i have straightened my thoughts le..since i have survived for the last 3 months,i shall just endure for another 4 months and after which i can slack like mad again..maybe everything is just fated..being born in a poor family just forbits me to go private uni though i could have gotton a place over there..so wat to do??I guess have to resign to fate ba..
sat afternoon i was damn angry cos my brother kana some spyware thingy in my computer when he was downloading some game and i told him countless times not to play games esp those unsecured websites and now see lah, wat have u done to the computer and created so much trouble for me..i spend most of the weekend last week fixing tat comp but still canot remove it completely despite installing those antispy ware programs..wanted to format it but duno why the computer doesnt allow it..i presume there is some error in it which i duno wat is it cos i am a computer idiot..by the way anybody who knows how to solve this problem, got to tell me cos i have reali given up hope fixing tat comp le..yk came down to my house on sun to fix it for me but still cant completely remove ah, but at least the performance of the computer is better now..but i still dun understand why tat stupid icon at the sides still cant be removed ah after doing so much things on it..anyway i feel reali pei seh tat he has to come all the way from his house to my house when is reali far..and i wasted like $30++ just on his taxi fares alone..so feeling bad abt it, me and my brother brought him to the coffee shop nearby my house to eat..but wat he ate wasnt enough to cover for the taxi fares alone..as he was the first guy tat came to my house before, so my mum started asking lots of qns and i told her tat "pls lah, we are not like wat u thought.."i knew tat she would ask tat, so i told her stop being paranoid abt it..
mon also met up with yh cos she was in ntu for checkup so being somewhere near my house, so we decide to meet up..she still feels tat i shouldnt stay on and i shouldnt give excuse for repeating just becos i have no money..she says tat i can take loans but in the first place i dun even meet the loan citeria..i like her new hair colour ah..reddish brown but i will never dye tat colour, haha..but i am redying after i finish my A levels exams cos it looks kind of ugly liao since new hair has grown and i doubt i wan to dye it now since i am still studying in sch, just to reduce the chances of kana caught again..For this period of time i was reali touched when everyone is willing to extend their help to me when i am truely lost in life..and i am veri glad to have this group of friends around me, else without them probably i will still feel veri veri lost..though i am still lost at this point of time, but not as much as before..next wed i am going to attend a wedding and probably will doll up abit cos afterall its a wedding dinner, cant be tat nuah like wat i dress usually rite..haha..but by the time i reach home, its kinda late and the next day i still got sch..hai~~sian man..wed morning need to go sch and after tat still need to rush home to attend my friend's wedding dinner..but i look forward to tat cos i am curious to know tat he looks like cos she was saying lots of gd things abt him..i predict tat few yrs down the road wil have to attend more weddings and tat will be the time when ur pocket will grow big holes..haha..
mum is still unsupportive of me staying on even up to now since she felt tat its wasting time and she gives me the impression tat she has reali given up hope on me after repeating yr after yr..my dad told her to be more understanding towards me cos he said tat she should stand in my shoes, which i think she didnt do tat in the first place..dad was scared tat i cant take the blow tat the uni didnt want to take me in such tat i will do foolish things..aiya i wont be tat dumb to end my life at such an early age, afterall its not worth it man..moreover i dun want to die unpeacefully lah..but i would say tat after so many rounds of failures and obstacles to go through, i would say tat life is reali not easy ah..probably once after the piano exams i will start everything afresh and keep my feelings and give my reali best shot this time round..if outcome still turns out to be bad, then i will take it tat everythings is predestined and i will accept my fate tat is given to me..
mum called NTU on wed to ask for the appeal results cos i have yet to recieve anything regardless of any rejection or acceptance letter..my mum was told by the adminstrative officer tat i could have gotton in if i have applied it last yr or the yr before, but chances for this yr are slim cos its dragon yr and this yr all the applicants tat are applying have veri excellent grades..wat the hell man, if i didnt retained probably i could have gotton in already..hai~~life is always full of regrets...if i didnt retain probably my life would have changed now..but wat to do, maybe i deserve it for being so lazy and slack when i was in yr 1...hai~~~
then during this chem block test i was reali wondering why is tat caleb lee kept looking and staring at my bus pass for so long when he onli took a glace at other ppl..why ah??i still dun understand leh..then he asked me tat am i a repeat student?? at tat point of time, i was feeling damn ashamed when i said a yes..hai~~when i can i get this shameful idea over, i think its kinda hard..telling ppl tat i study 4 yrs in jc is just way too shameful for me..sigh..

~hai..another disappointment again~

this few days feeling better le..at least stomach not tat pain anymore and i have started regaining my appettite.at least for now, when i see nice food i got the appetite to eat, if not previously, i have lost my appetite totally..for now i am reali worried cos i haven finish studying my exams given my speed and i always tell myself tat" ok tonite i shall piah and finish everything, but everytime always ended up sleeping man.."seriously i am not as hardworking as before le..in the past, if i cant finish, i die die also will push myself to wake up to study, but not now..i am tired always, duno why ah..sigh..i reali dun feel like studying anymore !!! i am reali sick of studying the jc syallubus all over again for so many times...mum always sae, "Dun study lah..it is not as if we force u to study like tat.." eh hello, even if i dun wan me to carry on, dad will also force me to study again..hai~life is kinda hard on me ever since i come jc..then past few days my parents were saying more and more ppl are choosing to go poly rather than jc, so wat now??it seems to me tat u all have regretted ur decision..come on lah, i told u ppl earlier on tat i wanted to go poly all along but u ppl wans me to go jc..there is no time for regrets now lah since i have come to this stage..i knew tat all along tat i cant cope with the jc tat's why i wanted to go poly but u ppl just dun allow..so wat now, tat A results cert of mine is just useless to me, it is not even a professional cert, wat can i do with tat useless cert??then they told me tat "then u are just unlucky loh..we just wanted to try our luck since poly fees are so ex and moreover tat time ppl who go poly are usually those with not so gd grades.."

i just got a rejection letter from nus again..hai~~how it feels to be rejected again??i also duno how to say, but i must say i am onli left with NTU..if by next tues, i dun get a letter, then everything will just be gone case and it will reali seal my fate in yj for the rest of half a yr....sigh..

~the terrible food poisioning~

Yesterday had a terrible food poisoning. I also duno why I will kana tat also, but every time during sch holidays, I will surely bound to have food poisoning. The pain was so unbearable tat I have to stayed in bed from yesterday afternoon til today’s morning, cos the moment I stand up or sit up, my stomach just feel damn painful, so I got no choice but to stay in bed. Moreover having going to the toilet so many times have make me reali weak physically. Face reali looks damn pale yesterday and I keep sweating due to the pain and the moment I stand up, my stomach feels damn painful til I have to squat down due to the pain. My parents kept giving me all sorts of medicine to eat, but it doesn’t seems to cure the pain..at night, I started to feel cold which indicate tat I am going to have fever le cos the weather doesn’t seems cold at all but I am feeling cold..and yes I am correct..after tat it came with a slight headache cos I went for a long shower despite knowing that I am already sick..so I curl myself up in the bed cos it was just too cold for me and moreover the pain in my stomach makes me feel reali terrible.wah I cant imagine how much pain a pregnant woman have to undergo when they are giving birth..maybe 100 times much more painful than a stomach ache ba, but I must say yesterday stomach pain is reali super painful. The feeling of wanting to puke and yet u are not able to puke make ur whole body reali damn sick ah..hai~then todae still not fully recovered. I still feel pain in my stomach, I am wondering if is it gastric pain cos the pain occurs at the upper stomach? Oh man, if it is then tat’s jialat cos I predict veri soon i will have stomach pain again.hai~and becos of this I wasted a day of revision..die man, I onli left 6 days to study my chem. And maths which I haven touch at all..how am I going to finish when I haven even finish my physics..damn stress now man, got so many things to do but yet cant finish a single thing,..i need to practice my piano and study for my oral exam, which I know nothing abt it since its been yrs tat I took the exam..i onli left 2 weeks to my piano exam and I have no confidence of passing at all.hai~my mum sae she will confirm yell at me if I were to fail again..

Weekends I also went for a jog in the park nearby my house since I have been suffering from indigestion..i realized tat those aunties are reali slow in running ah..i can run 1 round liao and they are onli half a round from me.and some of their actions when they are running are reali funny ah..i duno if should I laugh at them or not..haha..though it may seems tat they are jogging but it seems to me tat they are always on the same spot ah, in other words, it seems like they dun move at all..

My brother was also practicing his practical test on me during weekends cos he is having his exam this upcoming mon..he said tat being in medic, ur hand will be full of holes due to the jabs tat u have to try on..after a while I will form an mrt line..when I saw his hand I feel reali disgusted cos it is reali like wat he describe.phew, luckily I am not a nurse, other wise I believe tat I will have to try such things also and worst still, I am scared of needles, which explains why I never donated blood before, though I did wan to..and now i realised tat it is reali not easy to bandage ppl cos i thought it is easy all along..

~where am i heading to??~

Last fri saw yong siang and jia yu when I was waiting for a friend of mine at the yishun control station to pass him something..they are kinda shocked by am I still in uniform, I guess everything is just obvious and so enough said…wanted to talk to jia yu since its been a long time since we last chatted and she also wan to chat to me de, but yong siang was talking to me and moreover he also duno her and I cant chase him away just becos I want to talk her.so no choice loh, me and him continue to chat on while jia yu head her way home.

Sat I went for piano lesson and I was told tat the exam date are out and its on 9 of july, which falls on mon..oh man, its just less than a month left and I have not even 50% prepared for the exams given the conditions I am in..when I browsed through the exam list, not much people are taking grade 8 exam.i believe tat this round is not going to be easy cos after getting this cert, u are certified to teach which I doubt I wan unless I am reali desperate for money.and I was told by my teacher tat for piano exams, u need to be at least 70% pass then its consider pass, its not like the normal 50% pass can liao.i remember I did quite badly for the previous exam cos I didn’t practice at all and moreover tat time I was in j1 lah, super busy and got project work to handle with too. Hai~all the exams are reali near each other, the sch exams and piano exams are just few days apart lah, I wonder if I can take it or not cos for this two weeks I have to manage my time between sch work and piano and its kinda not easy considering tat I study super slow (even slower than before as I have forgotton most of the stuff)..i think I am just a turtle who is crawling reali slowing just to reach the ending point. I was also asked to book the exam studio for 2times which is 1 hour in total and each half an hour cost $13 bucks.i think its kinda of day light robbery lah.. I counted its $0.40 per min..wa lao damn ex lah..but do I have a choice? Obviously not cos I want to have a feel of wat the piano sounds like when I go for the exams, other wise I cant get use to the pitch and at those.

A friend of mine also asked me if whoever wants to teach tution can tell her, so I tell her tat my brother can teach cos I see his results damn gd,so I think tat teaching tution shouldn’t be a problem for him.initally her aunt has agreed to hire my brother but eventually she cancelled it cos I think she find the fees are just way too expensive considering my brother has never teach before.The fees are not set by my me and my brother, it was set by my mum la.i told her many times tat my brother is inexperience so shouldn’t charge tat high and so wat he is from nj and take special paper, there is nothing big deal abt tat..though u are gd doesn’t mean tat u can teach well til ur students get gd grades,,so she ask me to shut up and ask me dun interrupt in whatever she is doing.ok loh, fine la, see now things have gotton to this stage and u dun even earn a single cent lah, all thanks to her…seriously its hard to open my mouth to tell my friend abt the fees cos in Chinese they always sae : ”tan qian shang gan qing..” and I reali find it bad if we charge too much, but my mum dun wan to listen to me and she still pretend to call up those ppl who advertise in the newspaper to check out for the market rate.this is something tat I cant stand abt it..

Its been a reali long time tat I study for major exam and indeed I cant reali take it.i onli study like 2 chapters per day, oh man like tat how to finish everything in time when this time round the test cover the whole of j2 and some j1 syllabus.hai~worst still I get saturated easily and tired and tat explains why I am so slow.one of the days, joey friend msg me again but I didn’t know its him cos he has changed number so I replied bac..if I known its him, then I wouldn’t wan to reply him at all cos I find him just reali irritating…he claims tat I dun give chance and I will onli reply him if I sees a different number..wat is says is quite true but so wat, if u are tat rich u can go ahead and change as many number as u wan, but rest reassured tat I will onli replied u once. And moreover why should I give him a chance when I dun see a reason to it when he is trying not to be honest with me..initally wanted to be more meant to him de, but I decided not to do so eventually..maybe its just too bad lah tat I dun wan to be friend with him cos I dun even know who is he la, how can I trust his words..and moreover I also duno where he got my number from de..i think guys nowdays are kinda damn desperate lah..

My brother has gone to medic and I think tat its kinda not easy to study medic when I browse through the book cos its mainly biology and I hate biology !! mon night somehow I cried when I talked to this person cos she asked me how I fair for my results.i cried not becos of wanting to gain sympathy from her, but rather the feelings just suddenly came to me and everything was from my bottom of my heart..she says tat its not exactly gd, neither is it tat bad..i duno if she is trying to tat just to console me or wat,but nevertheless I still want to thanks her.the weeks ahead will be more busy as I have to spend more effort mugging, hopefully like wat the divine lot says tat I will met a gui ren to help me in the process when I am in trouble.but who is this gui ren?i also duno...just hope tat I can hear some gd news from either of the uni ba..my dad says tat around ten thousand students do not have a chance to enter local uni, which means tat its kinda difficult to get picked up by them unless u stand out from the rest.

~the charm in tat professor~

yesterday an NTU professor from the sch of physcial and mathetical sci came down to our sch to teach and me and my friend was kinda mesmerized by his charm and his smile.so both of us are more interested in him rather then listening to him explaining the concept behind physic..haha..i think my friend is more crazy than me lah.she still looks at whether he is married or wat by looking at his 4th finger on his left hand, and she was just happy tat he is still available..haha..anyway young gers like us always have crush on those shuai ge, but it will onli last for a few days, i believe tat after a while, the feeling will be gone..we were discussing whether he is a romantic person or not cos judging from his face, he relai looks like one, BUT the moment he starts speaking, i know he is not cos he is kinda boring and monotone.yeh, anyway i think he looks reali blur and innocent looking ah..when they whole lecture theatre group says tat we need to attend home econs lesson so cant dragged the lesson on, and he reali believes it..oh man, everyone was laughing like mad cos jc where got home econs lessons de, such subject is onli available in sec sch la.anyway i think he can explain reali well, just tat i am kind of switch off sitting in the lecture for 3 hrs consecutive and moreover its so cold lah..
i think tat gers who wear heels look reali nice and they just have tat charm in them..duno why ah...cos i observe most gers when i was travelling from home to sch and i realised tat most of them are just reali pretty ah..a pity pretty babe is no longer around in sch cos i always look at her whenever i am in sch..she is just damn hot and chio, someone with veri nice legs and figure.oh man, i think all gers hope to have her figure man.i am definitely certain tat i am straight though i always like to look at gers instead of guys cos i feel tat guys have nothing much to look leh, it just looks all the same to me..whereas i look at guys with nice hairstyle and nice features, esp guys with nice eyes and nose.haha.and i realised tat those surveyors who stand at the bus interchange at boon lay are mostly shuai ge and they tend to approach ppl like our age, seldom they will approach auntie ah..anyway i am just heng not to be approach by them cos i am wearing uniform, so tat's an advantage of wearing uniform.else, most of the time i have to listen to their crap but i dun dare to decline listening to them cos it just seems bad and unfriendly..
fri is the last day of sch de..yeh!! so happy man..finally can no need come sch le..but on the other hand, i reali need to study hard for the block test which is upcoming in 2 weeks time and i have yet touch a single lecture notes since the day i return bac to sch.and moreover i need to do my own revision for topics tat are not covered in their syallbus but it is in my syllabus.oh man, its just kinda lots of things to do..for now i can onli hope for the appeal case to be successful cos tat will reali be the one last chance tat u will have chance to go uni..else u can dun dream abt going uni le and stucking in ur yj..hai~life is kinda not easy for me to handle.hmm..

~hey i think i am damn silly!~

tues i reach sch suddenly realised tat i onli got one lesson, but i cant pon again since mon i pon already...nevertheless its just wasting my time travelling from the extreme west to the north on tat particular tues and i learn nothing much too lah..

yesterday suddenly saw him at the canteen..somehow when i see him, suddenly became veri alert and awake cos previously i was just reali sleepy..haha..initally wanted to eat before tat timing de, but somehow the canteen was reali crowded with ppl so me and my friend suggested to eat later on, else i wont get to see him de..yup, me and my friend was discussing over her so call not bad looking over our lunch while i kept taking glances over his table..hehe..he was sittin just right beside my classmates, aiya should have join them for lunch earlier on!..and i did one veri stupid and dumb thing cos i saw him queuing up in the malay stall so i follow him despite the queue was reali long..actually initally wanted to eat something else de, but since he is eating something tat i always patronize last yr, so i queue loh...its seems tat whatever i did was reali kind of stupid and i also think so, seriously i dun understand why i do such silly things too..!

yesterday saw the discipline teacher..wanted to siam him but he saw me again so canot le..he was looking at my attire, esp my skirt, i think its kinda short? but somehow i said nothing so i guess he close one eye again? luckily i sprayed the black paint cos previoiusly i was just reali lazy to do it.else, he will wonder why at times my hair seems so bright and why some days its so black..i was given a nick name by yk call "gim mo" (meaning golden hair in hokkien)..he says tat whenever there is no golden hair around (Which is me), tat's mean i am not in sch and wat he said was quite true lah.
for the principle wise, i always tend to siam her, not becos i did something wrongly or neither am i scared of her, just tat i am too ashamed to face her cos i know tat she will surely talk to me when she sees me.yesterday also had diagloue session, the topics mentioned abt was the long time table and i guess tat no matter wat they sae, they will always "Win" us.there is also this particular guy mentioning abt the expelling of one malay guy just becos of cheating in tests..so he felt tat it was kind of harsh on him to get this punishment.he felt tat the sch should give him another chance and show more passion cos A levels is just like 5 months away and now he is expelled and its seems tat everything before tat has gone down the drain.actually i also agree with wat the student said cos i reali think the punishment is reali too harsh le, but suspen him might be still ok..actually the malay guy also has his fault la, who asked him to cheat, if this did not happen, then he wouldnt be expelled.but anyway i reali still salute tat guy for being so brave and courageous to bring up such a matter..the principle also mentioned abt this yr intake is reali veri competitive and she was telling the new j2s tat for ur batch u all reali need to do better than them cos now, all the universities are more selective of students when we apply..true indeed cos lots of the newpaper articles are dedating abt how come this yr even average students also cant get in..ya, so i belive tat this time the appeal will kinda be hard, so i wont put so much hope into it, else the disappointment will reali be high.hai~~~next week must reali study like mad liao cos 2 weeks time haveing exams !

~the date with the gers~

fri after sch went to city hall to meet up the gers to chill out since its been a long time since we last met..so we went to the esplanet roof top to take picts..the surroundings are quite nice and i didnt know tat there is a roof top at esplanet til tanu told me tat..i saw this particular couple doing some intimate things during daylight and they not shy one loh...so i purposely stare at them for a veri long time just to signal to them tat "hey ppl, you all are not shy one ah..this is day time and u ppl are open abt wat u do.."wee ping asked me not to look but i did it on purpose to make them pei seh, but it seems tat they dun reali care..hmm..nowadays young ppl are reali not shy one loh..after which went to the zara warehouse sale which is advertise on the newspaper..it claims tat its 90% sale but when we reached there, the clothes are reali like shit and somehow feels tat we are kana cheated by the advertisment..all the ppl tat went to the sale said something like" we are cheated by the advertisement le ..." and worst still me and weeping spent like half an hour just to search for this particular place when it onli takes 7 mins to reach there from the mrt station..me and her was just walking around in circles!! tat's why we took so long to find tat place..
sat morning talked to jinyi online...he said tat he was accepted by smu and i am so envy of him lah...maybe i am just yearning to go uni until i dream too much of going through for uni life.i belive tat uni life is definitely more interesting and nice compared to yj life cos i feel tat yj life reali sux..so i asked him how he pass his gp de, considering he never pass gp before in his jc life except during the prelims.he told me tat he always copy essay de..i always did like wat he does since sec sch and i dun see myself passing gp leh..maybe i always copy the same old topics and end up if i were given a weird question then i will be stuck..then sat afternoon went for piano lesson and she asked me when i look so glum cos i am not the usual me.actually i also duno why leh, it just seems tat ever since i come bac sch, i have feeling reali tired, whole day onli feel like sleeping..or maybe mind is still concerned over tat BIG problem of mine which cant be solved no matter wat..though many things are easier to be said than done, but somehow u will ask urself tat are u reali capable to achieving it? take of eg, its not easy to get over a heartbreak, though many might sae tat aiya u just have to move on in life loh..wat else can u do..but if u think abt it, is it reali tat easy to get over it?? the ans is just a definite no..though its just a 5 months to endure, but how certain are u tat u are able to make a miracle out of it even if u are willing to work hard..i guess its hard to sae cos i know where i stand and yiping told me tat i should always prepare for the worst if things still turn out to be bad.sat nite went online to type my appeal letter for nus cos i have yet to decide on a course to appeal and sat nite i have finally made a decision.somehow tat nite ended up like chatting for 1.5hrs ..seriously its damn distracting to go online at nite cos u just cant stand the temptation to talk when so many ppl are online la..then u will start talking without realising tat time have past so fast when u are online.so ended up like sleeping at 1 something just to finish up my write up for the letter.anyway tat nite reali had a nice and funny chat with this particular friend of mine.
sun went orchard hotel to see the open house for the australia uni admission..initally i reali dun wan to go de but i forced to go by my dad...i reali dun see the point to go lah though application is free on tat day..so wat its free, u cant even afford the money to let me go private uni in singapore.let alone talking abt going overseas to study..so at the end of the day i still feel tat if u have no money, then no bother to even see cos u cant even pay for the fees la..anyway some uni are just sitting there zhuo bo cos they reali have no "business"..university like melbourne, unsw and queenlands are quite popular with singaporeans..and i heard tat those ppl who cant get in medicine will go to tat univeristy of melbourne to take medicine.anyway its seems to me tat those ppl are reali rich so i supposed tat they are reali going overseas to study..the orchard hotel have reali nice toilet man, the lightings and all those are just reali nicely renovated.how i hope tat i can have such nice toilet at home man..so after tat went to shop a while.though it claims tat now is the singapore great sale period but it seems to me tat the things are not reali tat cheap afterall leh.hmm..
lately my mum has just been creating lots troubles for no reason and i am reali sick of this house le..everyday is just like a battle field and market with no peace at all..she keep finding fault with everyone and i reali cant stand her !!! she kept on scolding me for wasting her money tat i took 4 yrs to go uni when ppl took onli 2 yrs..wat the hell, i have enough of putting up with ur nonsense, so just shut up..i just dun understand why my mum always rub salt on my wound when other parents dun do tat..in fact they will encourage their child not to be discourage, but this is not the fact for my mum.sometimes i just hope tat i dun have such a mum, maybe at least i will feel happier with life..
mon i pon sch cos i onli got a lesson and moreover the teacher is not teaching la, was just doing some papers, so cant expect me to go all the way just to do some papers..i feel tat i can do more stuff at home so i decided to pon. but before tat i have to pei my brother go camp cos he moving house to yishun so have to carry his luagge for him cos its too heavy..after which went bac home to do my stuff and by then its already 9am..seriously i was damn shocked to see this particular ws on the tagboard..cos i thought it was idol cos me and yk always call him tat, but i told myself tat hey, wake up ur idea lah, if he is idol then i would have strike toto by now ! haha..moreover he duno me la, so confirm cant be him..
seriously didnt do much time though i was at home.duno why spend most of my time dozing off at my table..i guess i am just too sian to do anything.