~treking at machitchie reservor~

ytd the day was somewat not too sian cos after meeting him to pass him the shoes, i seriously have no where to go..wanted to shop ard je area de, but its seriously damn boring la..and since he has nothing to do after going home, we decided to go somewhere..we reali brainstorm alot of places to go and we sat down the je control station awhile thinking of where to go having looking at the mrt directory, but apparently there isnt much stuff to do in spore..ideas like expo even came out from him and i was pretty stunned why he wanted to go expo..cos its kinda like those auntie go de place..but i seriously dun mind going there if there is sales la..so later i thought of going machitchie cos i never go before and i wanted to go places tat ppl will rarely go de cos i wanted to explore more rather the usual hangout tat ppl go like sing k, eating, etc..somewat the machitchie wasnt tat bad la..we explore the forest part in the WRONG ATTIRE though i cant be help cos i dun intend to trek ytd either and it was a last min thing. but at least he went bac home to change into his shorts and slipper, so its not tat jialat for him..whereas for me, i have to wear my sandles to trek so legs are kinda painful cos not use to it..alrights, after which went off to amk area to eat our dinner..wah there actually got lots of nice food man..he intro me the curry puff which i find it so so nia,..but then he find it super nice..duno why..i have eaten much more nicer ones at je..and ytd think he was kinda stunned by the amt of food i eat..haha..but then now jialat i gonna lost weight le cos i think i can feel tat i am gaining weight now.hai ~in short ytd was quite nice though =p

after tat we proceeded for home and yeah today i am off to sch for tat fright nite thingy..seriously i am very reluctant to go cos i am damn sian being there alone..no one to talk to also and ppl there also quite dao and i am not reali "gum" with them..haiz..

~haiz i seriously duno wat i wan..~

mon after work initally wanted to go eat char khay tiao with eye candy de at gim moh since its near our working location..but then tat stupid stall close freaking early la..so end up wasted our effort walk so far..so later we walked all the way to the holland bus stop 2 to eat..wanted to eat my favourite bee hoon de, but then it was closed ! zzz then eye candy felt abit disappointed cos ended up he has to eat something tat was not nice and it cost $4..so ex yet not much ingredient at all..after which i proceeded to melody's house to teach her piano..and her maid gave me 2 chicken wings cos she said she fried alot..hmm..tat 2 chicken wings taste reali yummy..haha..

and tues i was out to NTU..initally wanted to photocopy my lecture notes de.but then later didnt print at all cos i went to surf net instead..jialat..then evening met up with him to ecp..tat day we took a 2 hr bus ride and its freaking long la..but this time we didnt lost our way but the suay thing is tat i bang into a big size ger cos i cant see at nite so i fell off the bicycle and my cui slipper finally spoiled..all thanks to the impact of tat big size ger..so bo bian he lend me his new urban male slipper though its was kinda too big for me to wear, but bo bian tat's the best i can do at tat situtation..then he has no choice but to wear his cui gym's shoes (with one big hole)..heng he got bring extra shoe tat day if not i seriously duno how to get home man..seriously its tat bad man and the bad thing is tat there are no shoe shop at all..tat's makes things worst...and the bad thing was we came to rent the bike too late cos i wanted to eat dinner first then we dun have tat free 1 hr le..so abit bo hua..but then nvm la, next time i know le lo.

tat day i was kinda pissed with my mum cos she went to call my workplace and somehow got tat agent no..she was trying to check on me if i was working tat day..and tat agent told her i am not..so bo bian i have to lie my way through and keep on insisting tat i am helping my friend to take over the shift tat's why the schdule says tat i am not working tat day..anyway i duno she believes or not..but i shall heck la..and tat day as usual she lock me outside the house..i almost have to sleep outside the door le, but heng my dad got open the door after i called the house many many times..wa lao this women is damn bloody crazy man..i seriously duno where i have offended her man..always want to make life difficult for me..my dad is trying to help me make things better between us, but then i feel tat its no use de la..i dun see the point of making a show for her..cos i seriously i cant bothered..she dun like me then tat's her problem...i am leaving this house once i got the finiacial capabilities..yes its kinda sad also la cos i always envy my friends' mum cos i feel tat they have such a gd and caring mum but why is my mum like this?? she even once call the police for nothing just becos we quarrel over something..i seriously think she is very crazy man..maybe leaving spore like my brother is gd man..at least there will be less tension between us and she can enjoy the peace and i can enjoy my peace too..

and tat day i duno why i felt tat maybe he is not reali someone i like after knowing him better..or maybe i call term it as a fling or crush ba..cos somewat i felt tat though he is 2 yrs older than me, his mindset is somewat still not very matured as compared to ace..cos tat day he was nagging me tat i shouldnt lie to my mum and this and tat..but sometimes telling gd lies is to prevent my mum from stalking me too much cos i seriously dun like tat feeling..everywhere i go also need to report..and eye candy was teaching me how to lie..aiya duno la i just feel he is just someone tat dun reali suit the guy character tat i am looking for,..and i admit i was attracted to him cos of his nice dress sense and sports looks also..but now thinking bac i think i would prefer someone who is more matured..alrights i shall see how it goes then..and he has no rxn when he sees tat cookie..all he says was the cookie is freaking big and abit scary..haiz..i think he is reali someone who duno how to appreciate hand make things de lo..aiya in future dun make things for him le..cos he seriously dun appreciate de..abit disappointed and sad over tat..and esp when hm and ken abt it..and i feel abit tired also le man..dun wish to care abt anything now..wan to stay in my own world man..sometimes i yearn to find someone cos i seriously damn bored during the holidays..everyone is attached and has their companion to pei them..onli left me..sometimes want to jio them out also abit hard..sigh.

and lately i have been meeting lots of weird ppl..past few days when i was jogging in the park then this ah tiong came talking to me saying tat he haven seen me for a few days le..wah when i heard tat i was damn shocked la but i pretended not to hear him and continue jogging..seriously i feel tat i am stalked at tat time man..no wonder long time ago i felt tat someone keep looking at me le when i was jogging, but then i thought i was imaging too much so i didnt reali bother abt tat..so i am right man ! haiz..now i try to change timing to jog le cos i seriously dun wan see tat scary guy again..

then ytd tues went to the aranda country club chalet..initally morning was supposed to go sentosa for the union camp de..but then i reali dun feel like going there alone cos i duno anyone close over there..i think jeremy sure not happy with me de cos i practically MIA for the whole camp le...haiz..sad la..but then the bbq nite was nice la,.the food is indeed very gd out of the 3 consecutive bbq tat i went for last week and this week..jialat this is so sinful man..3 bbq at the same time..but one thing i dun reali like was tat everyone keep on introduce guys to me la..and it sounds like i so despo like tat la..pls la i seriously no need guys now..so can stop introduce guys to me..and i am seriously not interested in xiao di di..

today i going to meet him again to return his new urban males slipper..hmm i seriously like his slipper very much..but then it cost $49.90...super ex for one slipper..=( alrights today i am damn bored la..seriously nothing to do..sigh..

~bbq with nuh~

nuh bbq gathering

cookies baking in progress

sun set

my hand made cookie



alrights last mon i went to dye my hair..finally man cos always wanted to dye de cos i am getting bored of this black hair colour of mine.the turn out somewat is not bad.hehe..after which went to melody house to teach her..my mum was saying tat long time she never see me..then i was like omg, think i am going to get said..so i told her tat i went to taiwan and jarkata,tat's why somewat didnt came her house to teach.she was saying tat i should encourage melody to play more cos she is not practising..haiz..jialat i seriously duno how should i go abt encouraging her man cos its hard..

then wed morning met up with kency at ntu to buy labcoat and after which went to eat at gim moh there.actually wanted to eat char kay teow de, but then the queue is freaking long, so didnt queue for tat.so ate carrot cake instead..after which i proceeded for work.but tat day heng working at main is not tat bored, but i am kinda irritated by him cos he keep suan-ing me til very jialat.and cb was nice to defend and help me..

thur was out with the jc peeps to town..we didnt plan anyting to do tat day so its kinda sian..and fri i was working in the morning..but the team leader swop me from carpark to main so i can chat with hm..so nice of him..after which went for the gathering at paris ris..and tat day i heard something from cb..now i know i shouldnt anyhow blog abt ppl cos its scary tat the person knows wat i said abt her..jialat..no wonder whenever she sees me, she give me tat black face..

i am kinda impressed by the barang tat they had on fri gathering cos i never had such experience before..the style of bbq is seriously very diff from the usual bbq man..then reach home tat day kinda late le..alrights then sat went to kency house to bake cookies..the turn out not too bad, but then i realised after 1 day the cookie abit turn soggy le..so cant reali let ppl try le..after which in the evening went for bbq with the ex colleague at her condo..food tat day was nice and i eat kinda alot cos i didnt ate anything for lunch tat day at kency house.so yeah tat day quite qiao i realised tat the place tat i going for bbq is just right beside eye candy house man..no wonder his condo looks kinda familiar sia..then sun i stayed at home to relax..initally supposed to go for union camp de.but then i was lazy to go cos its super sian without friends, so i chose to go at night..

then yesterday worked with eye candy cos we got the same slot..heng time past very fast and its not too sian..i duno should i choose bold or courage this time..haiz..

~the meet up with ch~

fri afternoon went off to hm house to return her the lugagge then after tat sat down at her house chit chat a while before heading to city hall to meet ch..then before meeting him i decided to shop a while and SIX tat assessories shop is on sale..so i bought lots of assessories tat day which are on sale. =p seriously i like tat shop very much..but then their assessories quite ex..so i just have to wait for sales then can buy..alrights then after which went to marina long john to had our dinner since we have no idea where to take our dinner..then following tat since its still early he said he wanted to go to the merlion area where we went last time and sat down there to chill for an hour or so..

sat went off for an interview and seriously tat interview sucks man cos tat interviewer is out to suan me and my friend la for not getting so gd results as compared to the rest of the applicants..aiya watever man..i was just abit sian diao when he said those comments..haiz..

sun was seriously damn bored again cos i have nothing to do at home..so yeah stay at home to watch tv and transfer my hp contacts into another new hp..hai ~ i am just feeling freaking bored now cos i dun have much slots to work now everyday..

and today i think i am going to dye my hair finally le after saying so long and after which in the nite time gonna teach piano ! haiz..and tml wat am i going to do again ? this is so sian ! and yesterday nite while i was chatting tat guy kinda freak me out with those er xin words..hai ~ i know somewat he is nice and i give effort marks also, but then there are just certain things tat cant be explain explicitly..esp tat feel..

~i guess i feel somehow to the rock bottom now ~

my 2 weeks of jakarta trip from 27/6 to 11/7 was somewat terrible cos i can hardly survive there alone..and 1 wk after reaching indo i cried desperately to go bac singapore though my air ticket only allows me to fly on 11/7..and tat time i dun reali care if the ticket was expensive or not cos all i wan to do is to get out of indo as quick as possible cos i reali dun like the environment over there.but then i auntie keep delaying time and stopping me from going bac so i was kinda pissed with her man...the weather there is freaking hot and humid and worst still my ah ma house tat i am staying in is freaking hot like some oven man cos sunlight can get into the house and we can reali get tann over there.the sunlight over there somewat are just reali tat penetrating man...so it just shows how terrible it is..and my ah ma house was totally sealed and no air can come in at all, so it makes things worst so i cant get any fresh air..i kept on telling my ah ma to open the windows and stuff like tat but she dun reali wan cos she says tat the house will be super dirty and dusty cos she stay at the construction site. wah and tat 1 week stay at her house, suddenly it rains one nite and after which the flood came along le..seriously i cant tahan the environment over there cos its freaking dirty and stinko esp the air from the car exhaust and becos there are too many cars and motorcycle over there, so it makes things worst since the air exhaust is reali freaking smelly man..so everyday i am breathing bad air into my brain..and everywhere i go ppl smokes so i reali lost my appetite eating cos i cant tahan ppl who smokes cos like wat i say earlier (It stinks) and everyday for tat 1 week i have to stay at home and can onli go out at nite once my aunt came bac from work cos i cant go out alone since i cant speak malay at all and no one understands english at all over there.and i was somewat shocked to know tat in fact 95% of the population are malays cos whereever i go i hardly see any chinese at all.so i am kind of like sian diao like man..tat 1 week i kept on begging and crying to my ah ma to let me fly earlier but no one is free to send me off to airport and even if there is, my aunt is not willing to let me fly off earlier..so i am reali kinda pissed to her man..cos i seriously sees no point in staying on over there cos i am just wasting my time over there sitting at home everyday doing nothing (Just plain sleeping and eating everyday) ..at least if i were to go bac to spore earlier then at least i can go bac work and earn bac my air ticket money..so i felt tat its a better way out..but then my aunt just die die dun wan let me go.. and tat time i was kinda touched when wp and eye candy offered to help me bk the air tickets from the net cos they helping me to escape from indo, and i felt so happy cos i suddenly feel some hope though over there its reali cui cos i could hardly find any comp around to surf net..so yeah and when i was feeling reali down tat time cos i cry everyday begging ppl to send me home, then somewat the 2 of them send quite a lot of overseas msg to me..so got kinda touched by them..anyway great thanks to 2 of them for being there for me when i was reali down =) and another reason why i wanted to fly off earlier was becos everyone nags at me alot and i am freaking irritated with them cos i am here for a holiday and these freaking ppl just couldnt stop bugging me..they kept on saying tat i dun act like a decent ger and is getting from bad to worst and this and tat..and i was like wat the hell man.my way of thinking of somewat more open minded than them and most of the time they just couldnt take it..my ah ma was still scolding me tat i woke up every late when i was staying over in indo cos she feels tat gers should wake up early in future when they are married so as to do house chore or wat, but then i seriously sees no point in waking up so early over there cos i seriously got nothing to do over there after i wake up..cos wat i will do is just eat then after which i will be bored to death doing nothing le and its not as if there are tv shows for me to watch cos the programmes there are all in malays..so yeah wat's the point of waking so early man..and another thing tat she kept on scolding me was tat i like to wash my hair everyday at nite and she kept on nagging tat later will get headache or watever shit, but like wat i say headache can come as and when they like, they do no need to see if its morning or nite to make u headache cos they cant differeniate from tat..and those bloody ppl kept on saying tat my attire is very ugly and somewat disgrace them from the relatives..and when i hear this i was damn pissed man cos they are seriously damn sickening and irriating to give such comments...so yeah my stay over there was reali terrible which explains why i wanna get out of indo as fast as possible..


but then the 2nd week things were much better cos i stayed at my other auntie mansion which is freaking rich..and the house tat i am staying in is watever cant be found in spore de cos i cant see any house tat is as big as wat it is in spore..and the happy thing is i get my own personal bedroom and toilet..so i can sleep anytime i wan without disturbing them cos the ppl over there kinda siao one man cos they sleep super early de..maybe 9 or 9.30 pm then they sleep le..for ppl like me who sleep super later of cos i cant get to sleep la so i listen to mp3 everyday just to past time..and yes i must agree tat during this trip my mp3 were some wat my "best friend " le...but the bad thing staying at her house is the water taste like seawater man cos we stayed very near the sea so my lips got reali dehydrated becos of tat..other than tat everything is quite ok with it cos this aunite dun nag as much as others so i prefer staying with them seh as compared to my other aunt and ah ma...but at least tat week i did more shopping and i stayed in somewat more like a civilisation (urban area) as compared to the rural area tat i was in tat past 1 wk..so i kept on complaining to my ah ma tat staying in her house is reali like some prison seh though i dun reali wan to say out directly de, but then i relai cant tahan le so i have to voice out..at least tat week i shop for more stuff..bought bags and one sunglass at super cheap price...but then the clothes there is reali cui to the max cos most of it doesnt reali suit our style..so yeah i got reali half sian when i bought one one clothes for myself and its those simple tank top..other than tat the food there is reali nice and cheap..and i loves the avogrado drink and i cant reali find it in spore man..so sad seh =(


and my last day of stay somewat my ah ma was sad til she cry cos i bid gd bye to her through the phone cos i was at my another aunite house ma..everyone of my relatives kept on asking me to come indo next time but i told them this shall be my first and last time here..cos i reali got a bad experience over here..so unlikely tat i will want to go bac there again for holiday..seriously coming indo is a big mistake man..i should have gone to shanghai with them on 11/7 when i was bac to sg tat day..at least i think tat trip will surely be more enjoyable than this indo trip cos being alone in a foriegn country with no friends is reali bored seh..


and tat sat evening once i got bac to spore i suddenly felt tat the air was super different and indeed i reali prefer to stay in spore cos its much much way better..then after which at nite i went to jog cos its been 2 weeks since i last jog and i reali grew fat le in indo for eating non stop and not doing any exercise over there cos there has no gym or watever for me to exercise over there.then sun slag at home and mon went off to work after so many weeks..and tat day finally got to see eye candy after so many weeks cos heng he also got work tat day..yeah so tat day after work some of them wanted to chill out somewhere..but ended up onli left 3 of us nia..so yeah went to bugis to catch a movie then later went to eat dinner and at nite wanted to get hm present de, but then later couldnt get anything at suntec so i suggested go the merlion since its been a long time since i last went there..but eye candy was kinda sian cos i think he dun reali like these kind of places so i think he feels tat taking picts is kinda lame..so tat day i feel kinda bad abt it cos somewat we are the one who dragged him there.

the tues went out early to attend mse camp but then all of us were super sian cos we didnt interact with the juniors and none of them look enthu at all.so we hid in the room to blow air con and take a nap..then during lunch went off to vivo to thai express to eat my green curry chicken.

wed was off to work again and thur met up with jy in the noon and evening time went off to teach piano after stopping for so many months. yeah and today i will be off at nite to meet ch cos its been a long time since we last met up..but initally i was abit sian to go cos somewat it was far, but since last time i already promised him to meet up le, so yeah i just go out then ..anyway i dun think i wanna stay at home to hear my mum nag.


now i am somewat kinda lost cos i reali duno if wat i felt was rite or wrong.as in i am not certain for tat..haiz..sometimes i think i should have just wake up my idea man..then now duno should i give up or just let it be..ytd was kinda sad tat i reali intend to give up le..cos i confused now ! sigh ..