~i am damn bloody sian liao~

Haiz, this holiday like damn sian man lo..like no time to even rest well at all..damn..there are endless projects and lab to do..haiz..then from tues to fri i decided to stay at home study but i realised tat i keep sleeping man..cant reali concentrate on studying cos was kinda sick man...keep coughing and having flu like mad...then still got fever..sian lo tat's the consequence of eating too much ba gua and chocolates without drinking water..but during this sick period i still continue eating those heaty stuff cos i dun reali care..my house reali has nothing for me to eat lo..wat else can i eat except the ba gua tat i still have..haha!

thur went to my student house to teach again..this time she keep pestering me to tell me wats my CCA ..then i dun feel like telling her initally cos its kinda dui lian to say i am frm which particular CCA..she say i confirm cant be from sports cos i dun look like one..then i told her "of cos i dun look like one cos i am not tan at all !" then she guess i am from band or girl guides..lohz..all wrong lo..musically inclined ppl doesnt mean u need to be from band..and rough girls doesnt mean u need to be from girl guides..anyway i am now reali clueless how can i help her improve when she so bo chap in her practising..haiz..i am just scared tat if her mum asks abt her progress then duno how to say man.

then hor this few days at home duno why i cant concentrate man..1 day hardly can read one chapter notes.haiz..die man..holiday so fast gone man..initally still wan to catch up with all my work for tutorial and lecture notes de, but like no time man.i am reali sorry to my dearest grp project mates cos i realised tat i didnt reali do much..yes i feel reali guilty now cos i feel like taking free marks when i never do much..sigh..this feeling is bad..

and lately my mind keep wodnering off whenever i study..haiz..maybe i too "lonely" liao until mind wonder off to something tat i shouldnt think right now cos too much things to do liao...i got no time to rest well liao where got time to waste on such stuff..anyway its been long i have went shopping liao..feel like shopping man..but i still got so many tests to study which i haven touch at all..haiz..jialat..i think i am just kinda stress now.need to relax myself now man..

and suddenly i miss my dearest sec sch moments..cos i feel very happy over there.unlike now in uni..life is so bored..all studies everyday..and last mon night when i was late outside travelling bac from boon lay station, i suddenly saw the guy tat i like in JJC for the 1st 3 months and he is just right behind me nia..i kept looking at him but apparently he didnt realised tat i am looking at him lei..or he forget me liao or cant recognise me? lohz.anyway tat's not impt..seeing him is gd enough liao..;)

~too much inertia for me to take it~

today went to sch to scan the picts in for the lab reports..bloody hell, tat report i reali do until quite pissed and fed up cos i cant reali type out those special characters tat are not inside the keyboard..so have to copy and paste like siao..and doing such repetitive things are seriously damn wasting time man..i got millions of things to clear and i think its like some mountain now lo..if holiday dun clear then sure gi gi once sch reopen again..

then today in the night time met up with jy at yck for 40 mins dinner..initally wanted to have a longer dinner de, but i was late, so its my fault..then after which met up with the guys for a haircut at tat hairstylish guy's house..wah, once i stepped into tat guy's house i was totally memorized in tat "romantic atsmosphere" of his house..i guess perhaps tat effect was due to the nice lighting in his house ;)..and my first impression when i saw him was quite a gd one cos first of all he look stylish, so i can trust him to cut my hair until quite nice. secondly he look quite young..so ok liao..as long as not aunite or uncle cut my hair can le..so at the end of the day, the 2 guys and me all have a very nice stylish haircut..i think tat slightly expensive haircut is reali worth the price..but when he suggested tat i cut short hair, those (bob type, where the hair length in front is longer than the behind), then my first reaction was kinda big cos i think i look super ugly in short hair, but he keep telling me to trust him..so i believed him for once..i was totally lost of words when i realised tat he has cut away so much of my hair and make it so short...but tat 2 friends of mine thinks tat its not bad lei..got tat cool style..but for now i seriously cant accept my new image man..perhaps need more time to adjust ah..and my mum first reaction when she saw me stepping into the house was " wah wat ah lian hairstyle is this.." aiya i think she is super outdated man..this hairstyle is quite hot now lo..

and seriously i duno why quite a no of my friends keep asking me the same qns since the past few months..even strangers feel tat too..wah duno like tat is it considered a gd news or bad news man..

~the wedding preparations~

haiz..sian i am kinda sick now..coughing terribly now and some more voice cant reali recover/speak..then now got running nose..so i always felt sleeply these few days..sian lo, cant reali do much of work cos i feel very tired..i tried eating lots of lozenges liao, but apparently like no help man..sigh..nvm, i shall heck care liao, let my sickness recover itself, but i think it will take kinda long ;(

yesterday (sat) sat went off super early in the morning to see my mum's friend son getting married for the morning ceremony..but apparently i cant wake up so we reached there late and so the tea serving session to the in-laws i missed it..so we went there just to eat lo..then after tat my mum decided to stay at her friend's house to help out since she say she lazy to travel home and come out again for the night wedding dinner, so i no choice stayed over at her house too..but then i wasnt there to help out.in fact i was so sick tat i slept on her sofa..haha ! then later in the evening time, they had a hair cum make up stylish to help them makeover..so i decided to go in and peep at how they do it..and i was so happy tat i manage to learn up all the steps liao with my powerful brain memory for hair design..i guess perhaps i have interest in tat area, so naturally i tend to learn things fast in tat aspect..if u were to give me eqns to memorise, then can forget it liao cos i am kinda lousy in studies..yipee ! then next time when i am free in the holidays shall DIY myself to try out wat i have learned..but i am seriously impressed at the wonders of make up..initally when the bride removed her make up after she came bac from the tea serving session, my first reaction was "omg ! why is there such a drastic difference man..wah, the face kinda can shock ppl.."but after when the hair cum make up stylish came and help her out with everything, then she reali become super chio and pretty liao..and my mum's friend too..initally she was reali damn auntie de, but after the hairdo and makeup change over she look like a rich tai tai liao..lohz, i am impressed man..but the service is super ex man..$70 for each person..seriously i think i am unwilling to spend so much on these kind of servies unless one day i am married tat day then i shall dress myself until very pretty til ppl have tat jaw drop effect..haha !i guess i will look super different with make up cos i tried tat once before liao when i attended my JC prom night..usual days my makeup was kinda light cos i didnt reali apply the foundations or anything..so i guess it makes no differences from the usual self of me without makeup.

anyway yesterday i was at the bride room and i saw so many sets of the bridal dress..wah all of them looks super nice..tat time reali have the urge to try on for fun, but i guess its kinda rude man since i am a guest..lohz..so cant try to be funny huh..then yesterday the night dinner was kinda full la, cos our table onli had 5 ppl eating then i think i ate super alot man til today i decided to skip my lunch liao..but yesterday the restaurant tat we are in are having two wedding at the same time..and wat amazed me was tat this groom was a chinese and the bride was a malay..both of them look seriously compatible and the groom was reali very shuai man..hehe..
i think guys look seriously shuai when they are in suits.. ;) then yesterday this issue came to my mind tat perhaps in probably 3-4 yrs time, i might start to receive lots of wedding cards liao..then perhaps by then i will then start to stress liao..for now, i think just relax first..still got so much time to find the right one.and duno why my heart still cant decide over if i like those guys with fun factor or am i just looking for guys who can make me secured in heart..but of cos having both would be gd, but majority of the cases is usually unlikely to have both..though i do have friends tat have the both things tat i hoping for, but they are taken already..so too bad ! no chance le..i guess perhaps as i grow older than i would know wat my ans would be..for now, my heart still doesnt know wat i wan...then .yesterday my mum friend also told me not to marry so fast..and i agree with her ! the feeling of being caged is reali not gd man..i think having our own freedom is better..then my mum friends also commented me tat i change alot since the time she last saw me when i was young..she say i grew prettier..haha..but i think natuarlly everyone will grow prettier de la as we go older cos we tend to be self conscious of our own image le..young tat time still can heck care abt looks, but now not so..

yawns, i seriously got thousand and one millions things to do now man..lab reports, reflections and tutorials and test to catch up with..i am seriously sian man..haiz..this one week holiday doesnt sound like a holiday man..

~videos~

~sexy voice ~

haiz..yesterday tat computing test damn cui man..jialat i think i reali do very bad for tat lo cos tat retarted comp cock up when i was having test..it suddenly blank out when i was typing the program..haiz..this sem GPA sure damn cui liao..haiz..

i think now i wanna be more femine liao cos i feel tat i am kinda rough then guys sure damn turn off de..maybe i shall start with walking..maybe i shall walk more elegantly..then eating wise maybe try to eat slower than guys..but like tat i wont be myself le..haiz..contridicting lo..i dun wan to be left on shelf even up to 30 yrs old if i cant get anything..then i will be damn sad to be wait for ppl to picked..haha..but now duno why still dun have the feeling of being want to be caged..or maybe dun mind, but the right guy haven come..i am lowering expectations yr by yr le cos i think hard to find someone to be as gd as him le..

lohz..now i relai gt a sexy voice lo..see too much ba gua liao..sigh..cant reali talk now..damn..
tml i am going for wedding..so sian lo..

~i am terribly concern for my bro now !~

haiz..sat was out the entire day cos i didnt reali wan to stay at home..so went out til 10pm then reach home..then sun early morning, my brother called home to break a bad news to my mum..then the next moment i heard my mum bursting out loudly with tears le, so i went to her room to see wat happen to her..cos duno why she suddenly cry so loud the moment she picked up the phone..and the moment i heard the news tat my brother got stolen ard $2300 and plus his valuables should all add up to $3000 liao, then the F word came out of my mouth immediately and i reali curse and swear at tat vietnamese guy who stole my brother money..after tat i started crying too cos this shock is reali indeed too much for me to take le..haiz..$3000 worth of hard earn money just kana stolen by ppl and this feeling makes one feel reali super heart pain..its not as though we have lost like $300 plus..seriously this is a super huge sum..tat money is enough for me to survive for 2.5 months in singapore lo..my mum couldnt take this fact too so i guess she should be more heart pain than me though its not our money..but i am reali worry abt my brother's safety now...though he has called the police to make a report, but i guess the chances of finding tat vietnamese guy is kinda low man even if my brother knows his particulars, but i think tat if a thief steals ur money le, he is certainly make himself disappear and make sure tat he wont be found..my mum was so worried for my brother tat she asked me to call his landlord to help him since he is quite new in sydney and he has no one to approach to..so i have to speak to this south african landlord of his cos my mum cant reali speak english...haiz..from the way she speaks, i find her kinda unfriendly leh as compared to those ang mo in my ex company..aiya but i no choice liao..if the police manage to find tat vietnamese guy, i will certainly ask my brother to make sure tat he ends up in jail man..cos i am not going to give chances to such ppl..they should be reponsible for their actions..once done cant be undone liao..and my brother told me tat he is certainly going to beat up tat ass hole guy..i think i would do the same thing as him too if i were to be in sydney now..i dun care if i am a ger and cant reali hit him tat hard..at least hitting him might makes me less angry..

haiz..eventually i still think tat its all voice down tat my brother trust ppl around him too much..he thinks tat since he is already at home, then he neednt have to lock his bag, but this grave mistake of his has caused this vietnamese guy student to steal his money..and wat pissed me off was this guy is exactly the same age as me and he is so young then so bold liao to steal so much..tat landlord says tat stealing is a criminal offence in australia, bloody hell man, i hope he go jail and get wacked by those canes or watever shit ! just get make sure he get watever punishments tat he should get. he can steal this time means he might steals again if there is chances for him to steal again.and seriously he is so bold enough to steal the landlord stuff too..wa lao i hear liao also pissed lo..i think tat landlord also not going to let him off cos he also steal their stuff..haiz..i think my brother just trust tat vietnamese friend too much cos he thought friends ma, so naturally can let him off guard, but who knows this guy is actually someone who steals..haiz..and tat day after he steals, he left secretly when no ones know..bloody hell til now i am still pissed man and at times i will still cry cos i am reali worried for my brother situation man..how is he going to survive for the next 5 yrs over there..but at least this guy still got some liang xin and didnt steal all his money..at least he still left $2800 plus for him..but i seriously dun understand why he onli steals $2300 when he could have steal $5000 which is right in front of him..and all the atm and debit cards too, why didnt he steal too..and why did he steal his clothes and camera when there is more valuable like laptops and PSP for him to steal too..all these conclusion must make us suspicious that its done by a student cos if its a adult, he wouldnt have left so money for my brother..if i am a theif and my intention is to steal, why would i steal onli part of it? i would certainly steal everything wat..

then yesterday night we broke the news to my dad cos my dad still haven know tat..but when he knew tat he was very calm, which is something tat worry me cos sometimes when one dun say anything and keep everything to himself, then i will worry more lo..at least he must voice out then i will know how he feels ma..at least i cried to show tat i am upset over it..he has reali no expression at all man..haiz..all he said tat this shall be a lesson for him for being too careless and trusting ppl too much..but i guess this is indeed a big price to pay for..and i guess he will learn a reali big lesson this time cos ever since young, he has been very smooth sailing in watever he does, i guess perhaps one is not tat lucky everytime..but i must thanks chee how for willing to let my brother to put up at his place in australia, but the thing tat he lives at queenlands which is totally freaking far from sydney, so cant reali stay with him..if at least he were to stay with my friend, then maybe i will worry less cos at least my friend can take care of him..

today actually i am still kinda upset in sch de cos my mind cant stop thinking over my bro issue..but at least my friends around me kinda makes the astmosphere better today, so i got better and talk more..if not i think today i am not reali in the mood to do anything..i guess my friends have make my day today..thanks my dearest friends for being there for me..though you all dun reali know wat's is going through my mind, but i guess its the moral support for being there tat has lightened up my day.. ;)

~frightening encounter in sch~

yesterday i was seriously scared off by this guy ah nei in sch cos duno wat the heck he followed me out of the library cos initally he was sitting beside me in the library de, but duno why out of the sudden he ask me how to convert the file from adobe to microsoft word, so i abit lost and blur cos i am not reali sure either..so tried copying from adobe to microsoft word for him..anyway i computer noob la, i think he has seriously ask the wrong person liao..so after the library closed, i walked back home..then duno why as i walked along the pathway, i somehow feel tat one person is walking faster and closer to me..so i decided to turn my back abit to peep who is the heck is tat idoit..but just before i gt chance to turn around, tat ah nei guy was already beside me..he asked me lots of weird qns and i was thinking at tat time, "oh shit man ! wat this guy wans man !" he asked if i am studying bachelor or master now? and wat specialisation i take and which yr am i? my age and where i stay.. wa lao why should i tell him man..its none of his business man..he also said if am i a singaporean or not cos i think maybe i dun look like one but once i speak ppl will know tat i am a pure singaporean le..anyway he was saying tat i look like 24 yrs old, then i was cursing him inside my heart tat damn shitty u, guess my age until so old !! or maybe he's just trying to smoke things out from me..aiya watever shit i dun give a damn..and tat bloody ah nei slang of his reali canot understand at all de lo...so i think eventually he gave up talking to me cos i keeping huh-ing away..cos i reali dun understand wat the heck he is talking abt.so i decided to walk slowly and let he walk in front of me just in case he followed me home man. and i keeping turning back to watch if he got follow me or not cos i am scared..heng he didnt follow me anymore...haiz..scary man..first time encounter such weird ppl in sch man..still thought sch very safe de lohz..the day before vday kana followed by ah nei, tat's seriously so unlucky..if perhaps its a shuai ge who followed me then maybe i would be happier man..but i guess i would be equally scared too !

my brother is seriously suffering in sydney i guess cos somehow he feels kana cheated cos the place tat he is staying now is kinda ulu when initally the person claims to be how gd his/her place is, but turnout likewise..lohz.so all i can say is checking out things on internet is reali not trustworthy man..i guess there are lots of cheating case also..and the person doesnt allows him to use the internet, so i have no way to communicate with him..haiz..actually now abit worried abt him so i think the money wise tat he has might not last him for 5 days though the scholarship do sponser him quite a lot liao..but i guess the standard of living is reali high over there..so its kinda hard to survive over there unless u are reali thrifty..sigh..just pray hard tat my brother lives well man..

~i feel kinda touched~

wed evening i decided to go home le since i have been staying out of home for almost 1.5days liao..but at least i did call back home to inform my dad cos i know tat my dad surely would worry for me since i am a ger and out alone at nite..but i have no fear of being alone at nite in sch leh..perhaps i am used to being alone wherever i go..but initally i am very scared from 2-4am tat nite cos its super quiet and those guys tat are around me are already asleep and i dare not sleep lo cos like so eerie man..so until 5 plus then i cant tahan liao then decided to take a nap..but by the time those guys are already awake ! so i feel safer to sleep liao..if not i am kinda scared man of seeing weird things..haha ! then during evening tat day the moment i stepped into my house, i got scream again by my mum..damn bloody hell man..i hear liao also pissed so i just pretend that she is "Talking" to the wall and ignore her..i just cant tahan when she keep scolding me from the moment i reach home til the airport even after my brother departs..bloody hell, even my brother and dad cant stands her ! tat day before my brother departs was supposed to have our last lunch/dinner with him de, but apparently i was still outside and haven reach home.so i didnt join them for tat..so feeling bad abt it, so decided to go and send him off though i got super lots of things to do..so fork out the entire night to send him off..but i do feel very guility for coming home so late cos becos of me, his friends onli have little time to chat with him cos we reached the airport quite late...wah, and when i saw his friends, the first impression tat they give me not too bad lei..most of them are quite smart looking cos they just came from work so they were wearing those long sleeve shirt..so most of them looks kinda not bad..haha, got 1 reali not bad man..height and looks quite matched my eye candy's requirements lei.. ;) but aiya he is xiao di di to me nia since he is younger than me and moreover i think our character abit hard to match ah cos i think he likes smart girls judging from the way he carrys himself as he speaks...but guys who can speak gd english indeed is a plus point.. ;) but duno why i dun feel anything when my brother leaves us..not sad at all lei..in fact i feel nothing..i guess i have gotton used when he is always not at home de for the past 1 yr..my mum was reali sad when he leaves us cos she cried at the airport and the time she sleeps...i could sense tat my dad almost wan to drop tears liao, cos i could see his eyes quite watery..but i guess he held on to his tears..but my point of view of not being sad is becos i guess somehow as a person grows older, he cant forever stay by ur side, so sometimes must learn to let go and move on..

yesterday decided to wear something special to sch cos feel reali bored of wearing the usual same attire, so decided to wear something more "sexy" to have the jaw drop effect..haha..but hor the moment i hear comments like " wah u look like u got saggy boobs then i half sian liao but i still laugh out cos i think quite funny ;) .." of cos i didnt take the comments seriously cos i know mine isnt like wat they say lo (double confirm liao ! ), but my ger friends did help me adjust til everything looks ok..after tat i become more confident liao..but tat confidience is act out de, cos how can somehow who has airport wear out something nice.but nvm la i still wanna try out something new everytime.then yesterday lesson with my student was another wasting time session la..seriously i feel bad taking her mum's pay when she never learn much cos she talks non stop lei ! keep want-ing to drag her back from the convo but she just cant keep stop talking man..so i decided to get serious with her liao..cos i think previously all the time i am reali too nice to her already tat's why she dun listen to me...so yesterday i told tat i wan to be serious with her le..then guess wat she say to me ! she said tat even if i try to be serious, i would certainly laugh ! and damn shit i reali laugh and smile when she said tat cos she hit the bull eye's man..cos i think i reali cant have tat serious look lei..duno why i always smile and laugh nia..shit man !!! no wonder no ppl respects me in work too..everyone just me as xiao mei mei nia...even if i am angry lots of ppl say tat my expression couldnt show at all..so duno if this is something gd or bad..but anyway yesterday i tried to talk sense to her man cos i think she reali need to wake up her idea liao man..cos her bo chap attitude is reali too much..if she continue to like tat, then she forever cant progress de..though i like to take free and easy earned money, but i think on my part i still need to fufil my responsibility as a teacher..dun wan later her mum asked me how she progress then i got nothing to show her..then i would be too ashamed to stay on and teach her..

then yesterday night my dad brought bac lots of kuay again..oh man, then yesterday i ate 10 of the small green balls kuay, cos quite some time never eat liao, so tempted to eat man..so hopefully dun gain weight man..if not i sure half sian liao..so today i decided to be nice and brought those kuay for my friends to eat...hm said was it meant to be a valentime present? then i laughed out..but today the sch atmosphere wasnt as nice as last yr VDAy cos duno why the atmosphere just feel kinda dead lei..no surprised for any events in sch lei..still thought can see any havoc things lo..haha..anyway i was reali touched when my friends gave me those vday presents cos those presents tat i gotton was kinda sweet..thanks man my dearest friends ! though those presents are small but they looks reali nice and i guess its the sincerity tat counts, so i will keep them nicely in my house drawer as a mento.. ;) though this yr VDAY was nothing special , but i do think of XXX whenever this day comes cos i reali regretted for not turning up for this special occasion with him..now want also dun have liao..sometimes once u miss the chance means forever regret liao..so i must cherish the next time i have one ! i think i haven reali wake up from my idea leh..everytime will always look out for his lr whenever pass by there..maybe i guess its just too bad cos have yet to bump into him even up to now..haiz..duno when can i ever wake up my idea man !! qm qm gonna wake up liao !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yawns, tml Vday so sian lo..spend time with books nia..cos next week gt test..haiz..so sian ! but nxt next week gt 1 week holiday liao..yipee..tat time gonna recharge my "battery" man cos seriously very shagged liao..

~i am seriously damn lost~

haiz..u know what, i am seriously damn lost now..i am stuck of nowhere now duno wat to do cos duno where should i start from..argh..so fann !!!! damn it, i reali hate tat kind of feeling man..duno why i always feel so lost everytime de lei..and today tat maths test screw up made things worst..then make me even more lost and emo..aiya i just want to get out of this stressful place and go somewhere else where i can be myself and relax all i want..now i just want to be alone so tat ppl wont keep fann-ing me..tat house is forever so fann..whole day endless quarrel..now tat my brother is gone tml, i think the next target will be me le..so whenever if possible just try to stay out of house if can then i can get peace liao..so today i reali didnt went home and stayed in sch..the feeling of being in sch overnight seems not bad though my environment all guys..but i bo chap cos i doubt they will do anything to me de la. anyway its a sch..i believe they dare not try anything funny ah..

tml my brother will be gone liao..somehow i do feel abit upset though i always dun like him..duno why..maybe afterall he is still my brother.and he is gone for 5yrs..so duno how will he changed after tat..i think maybe he will become super open minded after he comes back..one yr to taiwan has changed him so much..i wonder wat 5 yrs will do to him..yawns..i got thousand and one million things to do now..duno where should i do and start from..and today i reali very demoralised over the stupid maths test liao cos tat idoitic teacher give so little time..then end up no time to think..i seriously got a shock from tat teacher cos the previous sem maths tutor tat i got was super gd..this sem math tutor reali cui until like shit lo..i guess this time i will probably fail my test man..haiz..nvm, lesson learnt..next time i must think and process my brain faster..

and last weekend also never do much stuff..spent most of the time sleeping and stonning, so wasted lots of time man..but i dun wan de lei..cos i duno why the moment i start studying and taking out my lecture notes i start stonning and sleeping halfway through.,.i spend like 3 days to study tat maths and cock up in tat test.so damn demoralised liao..then yesterday pon all the lectures and came for lab nia, and tat bloody lab report took up so much of our time, so kinda pissed doing tat report huh..then today i almost turn off for every lectures cos i reali no mood to listen..haiz..in all today is just a bad day for me..but i believe tml will be a better day ;)

haiz..i am super hungry now( For once during the night), but i dare not walk around the sch cos its so eerrie and ulu here..i think i have to drink water to satisfy my hunger then..no choice.seriously staying in hall isnt tat bad i feel..in fact can learn to be more independent..sometimes we just need to try to be more independent then we can grow up..if not moreover stuck at tat childish stage..

~steamboat at kency's house~

wed afternoon went out in the noon time for my peer tutoring though tat day no sch at all..so its reali kinda sian man esp when you are going some other place later..wat's more is i feel very embarrassed when i stepped into sch cos i over dress liao..but i dun have a choice cos after tat we going to ah ken's house to eat..and i am too lazy to go back home to change another set of clothes again.. so might well dress nicely to sch then..seriously tat day when i got into the shuttle bus, i could feel tat everyone's eyes was staring at me..so i feel kinda dui lian man, tat time just wanna dig a hole and hide man..i guess perhaps my dressing for tat day is reali super duper bright..so i guess i attracted lots of attention..haha..tat day even if i am urgent wanna go toilet, i still need to consider if i wanna go toilet cos i wan to minimise walking around in sch..tat day some of my friends couldnt recognise me when i wave to them loh...so sad la ! aiyo means the make up make drastic differences,(which is something bad to know abt)..after which met up with the guys to buy the steamboat stuff and then proceeded to her house to eat liao..seriously i duno why tat day my appetite quite small huh..i guess the belt tat i was wearing on was restricting me to eat more, so i guess tat was a gd thing..but we left lots of food, but heng got 2 huge guys with big appetite help us clear most of it..but seriously i feel kinda guilty when i bought lots of fried stuff and ended up her maid cooked for us..but one on hand i feel very happy cos tat day was my first time frying 10 hashbrowns myself and the taste not too bad lei..at least it didnt got burnt..hehe..overall the steamboat session was kinda nice cos everyone was quite interactive though most of the time was the suan-ing of me..but aiya i never take it seriously cos i already prepared to be the clown liao..tat day i could reali felt the presence of family warmth at kency's house which i never felt at my home before..perhaps tat's why i am not close with my family members at all..haiz..tat day got home kinda late and my mum still left soup for me..so my stomach almost wan to "explode" liao lo cos i have to finish since everyone is asleep liao..so in order not to waste so finish drinking up the soup lo cos i know the soup will taste nice..

yesterday i was terribly shagged and worst still i have piano lesson with my student til very late..yawns..so my mind yesterday when i was teaching was half asleep...but heng at least yesterday she talk lots of crap to me..so i didnt reali teach much..she kept asking me wat should she do to her pimples since she say i gt a nice skin..so i recommended the whitening and pimple cream tat i have been using since young.( cos i was forced to apply when i was very very young)..so i guess tat's the reason why i am so fair now..lohz..

this weekend got so many things to piah man..last weekend too slack liao..so lag behind quite alot..and now i feel very sleepy liao the moment i wanna touch my books now..duno why ;( ...studying is so sian !!!!! give me more motivation man..i have been stonning for 2 hrs liao..

~endless war~

haiz..yesterday the moment i reached home and stepped into the house, i got scolded immediately without knowing the reason why i gt scolded by my mum..so my first reaction to her was:" wat the hell man..wat other thing u wanna find fault with me again..." i was reali tired yesterday so i reali have no energy to argue back, so basically i just kept quiet and let her scold all she wans, pretending as if she is walking to the wall...so wat is she exactly angry with me was tat i side my dad instead of siding her..so she was kinda bu shuang..so she kept on saying tat she cooks for me and wash clothes for me, so should at least side her..but aiya watever man, i will side whoever who is nicer to me and treats me better..and moreover i think i did nothing wrong by giving my dad the number for my mum's friend..so she kept on scolding tat i am out to create trouble for the family..FINE...WATEVER MAN..i cant be bothered..yesterday was reali super shagged..gt home wanted to do my tutorials but i was too tired and slept alsleep when i was online..tat's quite zai cos i rarely can fall asleep halfway when i was surfing net..at least today was slightly better..brain at least more awake today.. ;) and tml we are out to have a steamboat at ah ken's house..yipee !

V day is coming which means CAs coming too...so kinda sian lo...and i just realised tat MSE has this creative way of giving out flowers to gers whom those guys admire..and its through the secret mission via a messenger..so basically the ger will not know whoever sends her the flowers unless the card itself do states whoever he is..so its quite kinda a surprise huh..hmm..idea not bad ah.. ;) quite interesting..haha..but dun worry, i wont send any cards or watever to all my eye candies, cos i find it reali stupid and dumb huh..moreover they also duno me..so forget it la..see from far gd enough liao..

~cny catch up with my jc and sec sch friends~

fri night reached home pretty late cos i was in sch surfing net til kinda late then this ah tiong peer tutor of mine had nothing to do while waiting for his movie to start, so we went to library to surf net since i dun wan to go home tat early..and its been reali long since i last went home early liao..and after which he pei me walked out of sch and i laughed kinda a lot cos i think he quite funny ah..perhaps he is abit different from the usual ah tiongs tat i see in sch..can be consider a joker in certain aspect..

sat was supposed to piah hard de..but ended up duno why i spend all my time stoning the entire day cos i onli read one set of phy lecture notes nia while ppl usually spend like one hour or so to complete reading liao..lohz..tat habit of mine always stonning has longed been "activated" liao..seems tat its becoming more active lately..oh man..this is bad..and tat nite my parents are dissussing abt my brother's flight to sydney and its like less than 2 weeks before he will be gone for 5 yrs..so my parents are kinda concerned as to where he will be staying right now..but the thing is everyone feels tat my brother has kana cheaten for his $1500 liao for tat deposit for rental..wa lao if tat reali happens man, i will reali curse and swear at tat swindle lo..wa lao damn bloodly hell, student's money also wan to cheat..hopefully its not going to be wat my parents say man..if not tat $1500 reali gone down the drain for nothing..haiz...

then sun afternoon went to gin's house to pai nian..wa her mum's cooking is reali gd man..if my mum were to be half as gd as her, then i will be super happy liao..cos my mum cooking kinda cmi man..all steamed and boiled..see liao also sian..but i must say tat day at her house i ate super lots of ba gua as we are playing games cos nothing to do ma, so decided to take tat bottle of ba gua to eat, then who knows the more i eat the more i cant stop eating..so later i cut down my food intake at zhen quan's house...ate super little cos i was kinda full liao..but later still eat lots of pineapples tarts at his house cos super nice huh..and i was reali bored staring at ppl playing cards, so just eat lo to entertain myself..so tat nite at zhen quan's house, i didnt reali talk much to my sec sch mates..the only one tat i talk most was my best friend,maril..so we started off with the usual topics tat we will usually start with and i learned something from her as in never trust ppl tat are close to u cos u might never know one day tat close friend of u might betray u too..so i guess she is kinda angry over this love triangle between her and yh..haiz..but i also envy both gers la..got such a shuai and sporty guy fall for them..kinda xin fu man..and tat nite i was reali happy though feeling reali tired cos i was out the entire day..the moment maril saw me, the first reaction she gave me was" wah, u slim down a lot and grow prettier quite a lot as compared to last time i last seen u..ur face and arms esp.."haha..i hear liao super happy lo cos at least tat one month vigourously running didnt gone down to waste man..though i dun reali see much effect cos perhaps i see myself everyday so its not easy to see any changes in me..but lots of ppl say i slim down liao..so i must jia you during the 3 months holidays this time..so i guess running is suitable for me to slim down..so yesterday i psycho everyone to run 12 rounds to slim down..but everyone of them say i cant even complete 4 rounds..i guess sometimes its abt perservance la..if u wan to do it, certainly there will be a way to continue on de..its up to whether u wan or not nia..so in general i see, most of my sec sch mates for gers has gone prettier..guys no difference at all..duno why..perhaps guys dun reali bother abt appearance, not like gers..but tat wei jie joker is still as funny as before..yesterday i guess he was the one who lighted up the astmosphere..

and yesterday i finally spoke the most english cos its been a long time since i last speak english..i guess in future i reali need to speak more english cos if not i reali scared i will get tongue tied whenever i speak to my student, then tat will reflect very bad on me..best is i can still mantain my slang..then tat will be gd..today was reali a super sleepy day cos i slept at 2am..lohz..super late lo..so today all the lessons kinda switch off cos cant reali concentrate cos my mind was kinda half death liao..haiz..i feel so shagged now.. ;( i need the motivation to carry on man..how i wish i am working now then i will have all the time to rest and slack now..yawns..i got lots of things to catch up now, but i reali dun have the mood..haiz..