It has been
quite some time since I last updated my blog. And yes I miss my blog as much as
I miss my dear. Recently have been very troubled over work. Got scolded and
blame for no reason when I am not the one doing the work..in fact I was the one
doing the coordinating only and when things don’t get well, I became the
scapegoat and get scolded for no reason. And I am not happy about it cos its
not me who delayed the whole mobilization procedure as like I say I am not the
one doing it ! I am just giving task to my colleagues in my other branches
office to do. So not totally my fault so I was really unhappy about it ever
since that meeting with the manager we kind of have a cold war..he didn’t talk
to me and I didn’t talk to him either although usually we will joke here and
there.
And yesterday
I chose to take mc although my eyes wasn’t that bad..cos I really need a rest
for my eyes. I have been feeling constant pain on and off on my left eye and I suspect
that it has something to do with my ingrown lash which causes the pain, thus I do
not want to over exert my eyes now. For the past few weeks, I kept on getting
the pain and its really very enjoying and give me lots of trouble as I cant see
clearly and I do get constant headache, really very jialat..i do feel bad that I
kept on taking mc but really no choice..yesterday is I took mc on purpose as I had
a shoot in the morning and since I have limited leave already so decided to
take mc as alternative. I like my Korean makeup and the makeover really makes
me like a Korean and the receptionist said that I really stunning after the
makeover..of cos la its professional makeup artist help me makeover de how can I
not look chio rite. But the thing is dear dun like my wavy hair cos he say I look
mature. ;( actually I like that wavy hair cos its somehow diferent from my
current look.haha
These few
days I was feeling really down cos first of all, my colleague who is younger than
me lecture me and I really damn bu shuang cos who is she in the position that
she can lecture me when she is just a junior level in the company..and the way
she phrase her message really very rude and I dislike tt..i duno how long the
cold war going last as I really feel very troubled seeing her black face
everyday. Who is she to question that why haven I leave although I kept saying
that I wanna leave the company soon. True indeed that I wanna leave but I have
my reason for staying on. I not so dumb to leave now when bonuses are to be
given out soon. Come on, I have worked for the past 1 yr, at least I have to
press on for that bouses rite if not I leave for nothing.. Honestly speaking I just
feel damn bu shuang that she question me in this way and moreover she is 3 yrs
younger than me. Stop talking to me as if you are an adult and knowing me very
well. DAMN..Indeed I am furious but what can I say. I shall just face her
blackface everyday then. Hope it wont affect my work in the long run. I told
dear abt it and dear told me that I don’t have a sense of belonging in the
company. What he say is true indeed as I use to enjoy working together as a
team with my ex colleague previously but all of them have left and new comers
have come. I can sense that this lady is very determined to climb up the ladder
and I am very certain that she is eyeing on promotion if given a chance.
Seriously I don’t care about all these promotion la. To me, as long as I am
happy with my work and salary I am ok. Hai ~
Nevermind,
apart from the sad thing, there are happy things happening in the past few
weeks. My mum actually tag along me and dear to jb.. I didn’t want her to tag
along cos she is really a big lightbulb but she insisted else she wont give me
my passport ;( after the trip hope she is better with dear. Hopefully better
impression now cos dear isn’t as bad as what she think, except for poor.
Another
thing is my 23rd anniversary was a surprised too although dear didn’t
celebrate it with me. Giving me a surprise is already a good celebration..He
left a cake outside my door step and I was really really touched cos I didn’t expect
him to do that. This was kinda sweet I would say.. ;) my mum was down there
smiling cos she got free cake to eat and me myself happy too cos I like cakes
!!
Nevertheless,
next week I am going korea le ! honestly speaking, I cant wait man ! cant wait
to take a break from work ! I am really burnt out le working for this one yr
without much rest.
GIVE ME A
BREAK NOW !
