~i have finally convocate ~

last mon was busying taking my individual photoshoot in a studio..ppl like me of cos will find it mafan cos i can just use my camera and take will do...but mum insist that i have to go studio take cos its once in a life time.dots..ok fine i shall just go take then..i just find it a hassle cos needa make up and spend hours dressing up..and i dun understand why needa take so many photos cos take here and there also look the same with that gown..after which, went for a dinner wif dear ODAC friends.and the day ended at the dinner..

tues did nothing but wed was a shag day for me cos i decided to do a day job at NTU ( be a surveyor ). Of cos naturally i received many rejections so at the inital stage i got very sian when every one reject doing for me..but after a while i am used to it..i learnt to be thick skin and try to approach ppl..seriously dun understand why these ppl dun wan help me when they hv nothing to do and just purely standing down there..if my hands were free from bags and gown, i would defintely help but if those ppl were to approach me wif lots of stuff on my hands, defintely i wont do la cos i find it very mafan..but nvm at least tat day its was with fruitful with all my contacts ;) haha..

then thur went to JB with dear..FINALLY lo, waited so long just to go jb with dear..but he damn idoit forgot to bring his passport..ALL OF THINGS HE FORGOTTEN HIS PASSPORT ! yes initally i was damn sad cos i wanted to go JB badly with him liao then becos he no passport wif him so cant go.and of cos ppl like me confirm wont go bac home since i alrdy reach the SG custom and all i needa is just cross a crossway jiu reach JB so obviously i am not gg bac with dear..so i just say i will just travel JB alone.anw citysq nearby i still recognise the way..but out of tat area i dun really know the way alrdy..have to based on memory to travel..but i am a lu chi so i might get lost anytime cos in malaysia all the road names sounds the same to me.duno why..its the same as when i was travelling in china.i just have very bad memories for similar road names..i always tink that they are the same..unlike sydney the road names are very distinct and diff so easier to travel..malaysia road names all looks and sounds the same..i cant rmb any single ones.but dear felt guilty and worried for me so went bac home to take his passport and came bac to look for me at JB..ok la got happy dao cos actually i was hesistanting to take a bus out of citysq area cos i wasnt sure if i know where to alight to get to the place that i want to get to.so i just have to make a bet to try my luck.but since he wanna come bac JB of cos i felt happier cos with him i wont be scared to get lost. the day ended with me happily shopping with lots of food back..duno why i feel happy when i buy bac lots of food though most of the times its my mum who is eating..

Fri was our convo-as special remembrance..this time i try to tone down on my eye make up cos dear say my eyelash too dramatic on last mon photoshoot so this time round i use a more natural one.actually tat day i dun feel much feelings leh..its just like going around taking photos with friends, or rather more like my clique ppl..i didnt really go around finding my course mates to take photo cos i was carrying lots of things and finding my parents..mum didnt have hp so its hard finding her ;( but she was very happy that day apparently..i guess most parents will feel very happy that daughter and son have graduated finally..for dad i guess he has put down his burden liao..sometimes i felt bad not carrying on to teach piano cos his wish is that i will continue to teach piano..but i haven touch piano for long.if lower grade i still can teach la.but higher grade i totally cant make it.ya lo perhaps i should find new students to teach..i guess mum still find worth it not flying bac to medan for the funeral.actually i really felt tat this convo has nothing much.she should just have flew bac home cos my aunt was real gd to her whenever we have problems.aiya duno how she tink one.she finds tat see-ing me going up the stage was more worth it than flying back for the funeral.

and thank you dear dear for the graduation bear bear..somehow i find it nice though i am not a bear bear person cos u see i am no longer young anymore..i dun have liking for bears anymore unlike when i am young. Thankfully mum was ok with him that day..heng she didnt confront him,but i tink she wouldnt do such things although she always say tat.but a pity dad didnt saw him tat day.really wanted to intro him offically but he went to take plastic bag for me to put the bear bear cos i was wearing heels so dun feel lik walking ard..ohhh and i met up wif ex too after my ceremony.he came up level 3 for the buffet..had a chat wif him for ard 20 mins ? but i guess over these yrs his thinking have changed..its a nice catching up with him too anw  ;)

                                                yeah we graduated !!!

~one more wk i will be starting perm job

man its countdown to one wk more to the start of my perm job.hai totally has no drive to drag myself to work cos i dun feel lik facing my head leader tat i will be reporting to.he look so stuck up and arrogant just by the way he talk to me that time ;( starting work will also means you will have less time to enjoy and i cant get the luxury to sleep til very late anymore.i felt tat i have not enjoyed really enuff.time past real fast when you are enjoying life.sigh..this coming fri will be my convo..i dun feel tat happiness of graduating at all..duno why..i always told myself tat i cant be studying forever..its finally over !

and recently i keep having bad mood..but what puzzled me was after i start eating my anger is gone ! weird man..my mind kept feeling kinda stress lately too,but i myself what i am stress too...

bad mood today

man duno why today really bad mood...wake up morning jiu kana scolded non stop and i was bloodly pissed when early in the morning tat mum talk so loudly to tat extend tat she wakes me up..its not lik today only..its like everyday ;( bloody hell wanna have some gd sleep also canot...so many things to do also, yet everyday have to go out meet friends for gathering..i have yet to settle finding my studio for photoshoot for my convo..really dun feel lik taking but mum keep insisting and everyday fann me...SO FANN !!!!!!!!!!! last resort go jb take photoshoot liao..dun feel lik takin in sg cos its so ex although its not my money..but still she say she is going to fork out money for me to take, this money belongs to my dad anw..so what if i take the photo..she will just be hanging it on the wall..as if someone will come my hse like tat..for decades alrdy, no one ever come my hse for visiting..i seriously dun see the point of wasting money taking these photo..

so many meet up after coming bac spore

continue on my sydney trip , i tink i am damn zai by wearing 4 jackets and 2 pants on me cos i needa save weight and plus those those jacket occupy really alot of spaces of my luagge so i decided to wear everything on me..of cos i look lik some auntie fatso wearing all these, but i shall heck alrdy cos i dun hv a choice since i wanna help my bro bring bac all his notes, clothes and other stuff.so tat's the other way out. of cos when i reach the sydney custom, they gave me alot of problem..they wanted to weigh my bag pack when i dun see them weighing other ppl bag pack, so of cos i was pissed cos my bag pack is considered normal bag just tat its bulging out cos i stuff alot of stuff in there.so they didnt want to let me pass unless i threw some of my stuff away or either i pay for my overweight luagge..of cos ppl lik me wont pay so i would rather throw away my bro notes since he as agreed to let me do so..but luckly i met a kind soul counter guy and he manages to let me pass since he didnt weigh my baggage..phew !

the following day when i came bac met up with dear for a movie since we one month nv see each other.then fri met up with the uni clique for a dinner and subsequently more gatherings..but somehow its gd la,i guess once i start work might not have time for meet up alrdy.

man i still have ard 1.5wks more to start of work ! duno why i feel really scared cos i somehow i duno really like the guy whom i will be reporting to..he looks kinda stuck up.

post sydney

well, i am bac to spore for almost 6 days alrdy. Honestly speaking, i do miss the life in sydney there after getting bac to spore.i miss the days hanging out in the supermarket to see what meat there is on offer so that i can buy to try..i miss shopping for chips and grocery cos sydney has nothing for me to do at nite so shopping in supermarket will be my best friend. After that day when bro has ended his final exams and came bac from melbourne, we went out and explore most of the signifiance parts of sydney. We travelled to blue mountains, went a few neighbourhood places to shop for food and eat cheap chinese food. But in short, sydney is kinda a boring and dead place even in the city...Its not as lively as it is in spore. In sydney, i witness the importance of money..tat's something tat is sad to say..i realised tat if no money in sydney, u are sure gonna lead a hard life..one real example is my bro..he is never out of loan despite loaning him so much money alrdy..his car is a real burden..we paid for his fines and insurances but its still not enuff ;( there are still more to go..man this car is really taxing and squeezing our money real hard..but on one hand, its hard to survive in sydney without ur own transport..man, no wonder my bro feels so stress everytime cos i also experienced the same thing over there, i do feel the same stress he is experiencing..but of cos now tat i am bac in spore i no longer feel the stress anymore,but i can understand the hard life he is going through  now..at times suituation can be tat bad til he has to go ard loaning money from his friends..i guess for me, if i were him, it were defintely hard for me to open my mouth and loan money from my friends,.but i guess if there is no way out, i have to lower my pride and borrow from friends...well, i travelled for the last few days with his room mate brian..i saw how things actually work between him and his room mate..sometimes we just gonna close one eye and think abt how his room mate help my bro in times when he has finanical trouble..so shall not be so gei gao with him for eating our stuff without permission..cos bro is kinda pissed with him using his stuff without permission cos all the sauces and food tat he bought arent cheap and everyone is using his when he has no $ no buy those grocery liao..k i understand how my bro think cos when u are poor, everything counts, not trying to say tat he is gei gao.but serioiusly when u are poor, even $0.10 matters to u cos its still money !!

actually on the day i left sydney i was kinda sad..duno why cos somehow i bu se leave my bro in church when he has so many fianical prob..actually i find him quite pitifully cos right here he cant eat good food since he has limited cash..somehow that 2 wks has bond us slightly closer though we do quarrel with each other during this 2 wks cos he quite irritating too.but nevertheless he is still ok generally..we talked abt dear and this stupid guy critize tat dear is ugly !! and he claims tat he is better looking..alrights my bro has an adv over other ppl in terms of height.but complexion wise, his one totally sucks !

alrights shall continue updating again some other time !

i shall update my blog soon ! got lotsa to say

i will be right back soon !

saying hello from sydney !

i have been here for 1.5 wks in sydney..honestly speaking, sydney isnt as fanastic as what i thought..food here is damn ex.apart from that, shopping isnt that great either..everything is so ex..even sales items are either to big for me or its just too long for me...yea so i guess my entire luagge wiill be filled with food after this 2 wks journey..for the last 1 wk, haven been going to the city cos the farms are really far from the city..probably takes ard 5 hrs to travel to and fro bac home..so its really kinda tiring..cos in between there is a lot of time wasted on waiting for bus and train..imagine waiting for half an hr just for a bus or train..this really sucks..sg transport is nv like tat..which explains why i took 2.5 hrs each to travel to each place..ya lo so this trip isnt as fruitful as what i thought..and transport wise is real ex..one trip for a bus trip is ($4.50 aud) which equates to $5.76 just for a single ride trip..this is bloody damn ex..sg one bus ride ard $1.70 the most ex..so now u know why sometimes i rather stay at home rather than go out..so last few days i took of a way to cut down my travelling expenses..so i decided to buy the day concession and i " cheated" to be their student there, so its half price..but if they were to conduct checks, i will surely be dead cos bro got fine $200 aud for that..tat's why he didnt dare to take the risk again.but i heck it, since i am not staying here for long.so shall just pretend and say i duno..this is what i usually bluff to the bus driver too.when they requested for my new south wales student pass, i just literally flash my sg student pass..some just let me pass after seeing the word "student" on the bus pass..while i suay, one of them didnt allow me to pass so i have to pay the full price of $4.50 aud, else, i would be just paying $2.20..

dad haven been travelling to city either..i only brought him out for a day to sydney chinatown.its indeed the cheapest shopping district there..i doubt the rest dad will be keen to explore either.the most regretting part is i didnt have the time to bring dad to see the opera hse..cos he kept telling me he dun feel like travelling so far..so i guess its his choice not to travel then..so i took the chance to travel myself to the opera hse after he left..i did pop by the station awhile to take picts..but haven really explore the place fully.but i am left with last 3 days..hopefully i can do something fruitful this 3 days..and finally bro is ending his exams today..he only left 3 days to bring me ard..but one thing now is he haven pay $300+ aud for the car insurance..so he cant drive out..if he were to drive out illegally and were to get caught..then tat's it. ! so i duno if he wanna take the risk or nt..

but honestly, life in sydney is just real slow..abit cant adapt..5pm in sydney is total darkness alrdy ( which is singapore 3pm)..i guess its probably winter now, tat's why their night time is so early..and so far everyday i have been eating at home and cooking most of the days for them..last wk was cooking for dad...this wk i cook for bro cos he having exams..see him quite poor thing if just eat bread for dinner..so i decided to cook for him..ya lo seems lik i really cook alot for the last 1.5 wks..and i ate lots of sydney food too.( actually i tried alot of sauages) cos singapore is real ex.so just try it here,..but practically all of them taste the same..nothing much special..

alrights tonite i shall eat at sydney fish market with my bro roomie.hopefully it wont be too ex..but defintely this shall be my last few time eating good food outside..and yes i must say sydney seafood is kinda fresh..

3 more days to enjoy in sydney and i am back to see dear ! 1 month never see my dearest alrdy. ;(