~contact lens~

just went to orchard after sch todae cos todae half day then so heng tat last min we no need to stay for detention..u know wat i took 1.5h just to learn to put in the lenses in my eye..then the guy was like laughing..he said tat if i canot put in then he will put in for me, then so i the pei seh then i keep blushing cos i veri stress leh, he down there keep looking..then becos i dun wan him to put in for me so i die die try until i can..when i manage to put him, he smile at me saying tat at last i am finished...actually i think tat he quite cute leh..haha..

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i hav been using this blog for 1 yr le, tat is fast..a yr has passed....time flies....

~nice time~

went to see the singing competition after class on fri..actually i am reali shocked to see tat some eng speaking ppl went to participate in this competition..those gd looking canot sing at all, instead those ppl who are not gd looking sing veri well..during this, there is a lot of laughter whenever they sing out of pitch...i think i laugh until super loud man, even the teachers laugh too..actually this is quiet a gd entertainment..first time i so enthu in such things..then during phy, ms lim was asking anybody goign for the singing competition??then feezah they all sae "qinmin, qinmin"..wa lao i was so the pei seh cos tat was a made up story used for last wed and they still continue to sa bo me..then yh was telling me tat maybe we can join competition next yr, but i think i dun wan lah..i super shy one loh, where got the guts to stand on the stage to sing..so the finalists will be singing during this lantern festival..rmb last yr lantern festival, i didnt came to sch tat nite, instead i went for dating..this yr, i guess i will be staying in sch then to celebrate..then i so happy tat i manage to cheat my standing broad jump..actually i didnt reali jump, i just ask jie ying to write 160cm for me..seriously i find it hard to pass cos i hav been failing since pri5..
yh was telling me abt terence..she sae tat at times she felt angry with him cos she always felt neglected..he is forever busy and hav no time for her..hai~~why relationship always hav so many problems one??cant it be a simple one??and hor i reali hate liars even though i often lie to my parents..i just hate guys cheating on their gf..tat lousy guy lied to his gf tat he is a 9 pointer when he is a 19 pointer and he still bluff alot to her..i just hate this kind of guys..they can just go and die..so what he is gd looking..afterall he is still lousy to me..then now they just break up for a few days and he got a new gf..what the hell what is this man..seriously seeing so much i am reali scared of guys..i am scared tat they might cheat my feeling..i swear tat i wont cheat on ppl be it their money or feelings, cos i know tat its bad..i guess i reali need to open me eyes big big in future..
kq is starting to be her true self..she called our class ppl bitches..so wat they sae is true loh, she is a backstabber..i guess i hav to sit bac to see, cos there is reali much more to see..i didnt make it obvious tat i dun like her..but i treat her veri cold..my ans to her always one word or either just a few words..i realised tat i am gd at treating ppl veri cold, but just duno why my face dun look angry when i am angry, lots of ppl sae tat there is no difference..so i will treat ppl coldly then will get the hint le..then sat went to check out prices for contact lens..oh gosh the price is veri expensive cos i got astigatism..ppl onli nees to buy 1 box but for me i need to buy 3 boxes all of different degree..i guess i hav to stick to my spects then cos reali no money yo buy..then maybe will make a new spects instead..this current one looks veri auntie leh..then i went out with my mama to buy shoes..then i tried those high heels one..i feel tat wearing high heels reali difficult to walk..but it looks classy..maybe can consider wearing it to work in future..i still tok tat my mum will buy tat black high heels then i can borrow from her for next yr prom..but she didnt buy cos no size leh..aiya so the sayang..
then sharon said tat she always though tat i came from st margret girl sch cos i got the enf speaking look..then iw as laughing out cos i thought i look veri cheena, first time hear ppl sae i look eng..actually my mum did sae tat my spoken eng has improver..think partly becos i speak more eng now cos cm is eng speaking..but yh i always speak chinese to her..
then duno why todae morning or yesterday nite, i suddenly felt tat i am tearing cos i think tat i dreamt tat i didnt pass my gp..seriously i reali super scared..if i am relai advanced i will still cry and need ppl to comfort me..seriously i dun see my gp improving much, onli my essay improved abit, other than tat my compre still the same, still get super low marks..die like tat..promos is coming reali soon..in a blink, oct will be coming soon..hai!~~~~
i am reading my msg cos i feel so sian..actually i felt like tearing but...............

~yesterday~

yesterday on my way home saw yin mei and wei jie outside jp..eh dun tell me tat they are bac again???seriously i think tat yin mei reali look sweet looking and chio yesterday..wei jie dun saw me cos he is looking at the other direction..anyway we just said hi then later i go liao cos veri late le..then later went to eat the prema deli waffle cos my stupid brother sae duno nice like anything..but later i eat hor sweet like anything,so not tat nice, he cheat my money sia..
then yesterday i was watching the superstar, wa lao i laugh like anything..then mum sae i look like the ger who look like ru hua..wa lao i reali tat ugly meh??she sae me until i am a ugly duckling like tat..i am not reali chio but not tat ugly until tat extent rite??anyway yesterday didnt do much things..practically slacking..think todae and tml then study..anyway ch just now fall down, we laugh at him cos veri funny sia..then he sae tat he has lost his pride..but just fall down onli wat, wats there to lose pride..anyway he is lucky tat onli we sae it, if other then he will be pei seh like hell..then justin gav aik bin a hp, cos he got a new hp, wa so gd sia.i seldom see ppl giving hp for free..actually he quite gd sia..

~so irritated~

yesterday i pon my cca cos i wanted to go home early to study for my chem test, then so sway tat myriam saw me then i sae tat i going to participate in the chinese singin competition.,..actually i didnt think of this excuse but its cm who help me..i did tat she knows tat i pon lah, pls loh, i think kind of person where will sing one loh..then she was asking me to go cca after it ends, but i didnt go..feezah also told me tat she also pon, and she so sway tat she also kana caught by her..hai~~~i feel abit treating her like tat, cos she is my frien..she ask me to go but i dun wan..i just kept quiet whatever she sae, cos i reali duno wat to sae since she knows tat its obvious tat i am poning..then heard tat jacky wong veri angry with the ppl cos our attendance reali veri bad..i reali hate going cca loh..i find tat wasting my time cos i go there is chat session and slack there, plus cca now not counted in uni admission le, then why still bother to hav cca now..actually i also dun wan but the sch force us so i dun hav a choice..
after next week will be holiday le, so shuang, then i will cut my hair short this time..but promos will be coming veri soon..hai~~~~duno wether gp will make it or not..if i am advanced then i will still be scared and cry cos its like not 100% promote...
next week still got test..initally is todae then they postphone it, wat the hell man, i studied so late for it and u tell me its next week...
anyway i think my attitude towards cca reali veri bad, todae ppl ask me why i never come cca todae and they ask if i reali join singing competition arh..seems like i never come ppl will know..
it seems like i am quite "popular" of skipping cca till ppl knows...even zai rong ask me loh..
past few days were quite close to justin..wa lao he super the childish, then he kept taking picts of me to kar jia me, then i find him veri irritaing cos i am rushing to complete my gp then he kept disturbing me..then he lie on my hand, duno for wat..i think he siao man..actually the truth is tat i am scared when he lie on my hand, cos not used to guys so close to me..

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~the tiring weekend~

guess wat, last fri i was super tired tat i fall asleep on the train at nite..then at je i am still sleeping, then later a guy wake me up..but when i was sleeping, i was wondering which idoit keep hitting on the window panel, but actually the guy use tat to wake me up..actually i should reali thank him, if not i will travel to duno where then i will wake up..actually at times i think tat guys are better than women, at least they bother to call u to wake up even though we are strangers...he said something to me but i was reali listening cos i veri blur tat time, then some more the train came liao so must rush to catch the train..so end up i didnt thank him and just walk off..actually i am abit bad manners..but never mind tat anyway i wont see him again..
kay then the weekend, i super super tired..fri 1am then sleep, sat 12 something then sleep, sun 2am then sleep, todae duno maybe veri late again..seriously my eyes veri pain leh, duno why, maybe i lack of sleep, my eyes kept tearing..plus i think my eyesight got some problem..maybe i am going to make a new spects soon during the holidays..actually i did consider of wearing contacts, but i am scared to touch my eye balls, plus later i wear the lens shift up to my upper eyes then i duno know how..duno leh i still perfer to wear contacts, cos at least i no need to wear spects..
gosh tonite til thur will be veri veri tired again, cant sleep early cos i got too much test to do and study......duno why last yr at this time i so the slack sia, i still cant play and slack alot, but this yr super busy leh..
ouch, actually my eyes hurt now..time to do gp againnnnnnnnnnnn..........

~next week super busy again..

hai~~~a week has past so fast, and next week will be super busy again..next week got 3 tests, all haven study, think todae canot sleep early cos i haven even touch my phy tests, which covers everything from the front to now we are learning..die man..so tired loh..yesterday i study until so late just to study on the SPA thingy...then todae super stress and scared sia, actually i got secretly see the things needed for the experiment when me and cm walked past the lab, by right we cannot like tat, cos i abit of cheating, but end up tat mr wong saw us then sort of ask we all not to see.. but conclusion is we cant reali see properly wat isit..so overall the A level exam was quite ok, luckily i finished in time, but one duno how to do...when tat mr leong keep looking at how i do the experiment then make me super stress loh, then make me do slower...hopefully this time can do better lah...
then just now went to find mr chua to ask him for chem stuff, but he veri smart sia, he knows tat i am looking for him to ask chem qn..surprising i will ask him cos last yr i didnt even bother to ask when i dun know, but he is still gd even though i dun understand wat he is talking abt cos its my fault tat i didnt study the notes b4 asking him..then initally wanted cm to ask mr lim to teach us cos he got patience mah, not my teacher now, she so the impatient loh, then will scold me if i sae i duno..but hor cm dun dare to ask him cos she sae last yr she didnt hand up her work and she is known to him tat she is veri stupid so i choose not to ask him..so in the end??most likely we didnt find a teacher to ask and i remain duno..
think this septmember holidays going to cut my hair short until canot tie, this time reali serious le..maybe i will try to learn to style my hair if it is reali ugly..actually yh hair style super nice..looks veri trendy, then she is becoming more chio and chio day by day...duno why my gd friends tat i mix with normally all veri chio one..maril, yh,wanyi..
todae need to do gp, so sian...then duno if my chem will pull me down or not, cos i feel tat chem can be the subject tat i cannot do well given the rate i duno things..but chem reali super difficult...hai~~~stress +()

~sia lah my sch got burner~

gd to know tat yj got burner..eh in future i will make gd use of it sia..maybe in sept going to buy a burner soon if i got the money..then hor duno why agnes sae i look like some pri one kid, she sae i use all the things like cute cute one, like the pencil case,and the rubber band..reali tat cute meh>>i thought okok onli..seriously nobody will use my pencil case le cos its like veri duno wat, but i like it cos its small then veri convinent mah..then hor tat mr heng tok i malaysian sia, duno why ppl always sae i foreginer, when i am a singaporean..hmm..ok i reali veri sian seh, todae poning cca, later she confirm will ask then i die, better think of some excuse first..todae going home to piah for my fri 2 tests, aiyo so scared of SPA..then hor todae just got bac my maths paper, not too bad lah, just got a C, but overall still C, so i quite satisfy with the results lah given tat i got an F in one of the major tests...kay go home le, after tat must watch tv while eating then slack abit then study...

~dieing soon~

tbis week super busy and stressed...dieing soon....my mum talked to my teachers during last sat, she sae the chem teacher veri nuah..aiya lucky tat i didnt go..if not waste my time sia..kay, this week i will hav veri little sleep, next week also, hai~miss my beauty sleep..then on 28 aug maybe going to a indian wedding cos my ex neighbour invites us..then maybe me and my mama going together to the sri something temple..hmm..wat shall i wear...

~eating dinner with ch~

aiyo tat yh yesterday reali bad tempered sia..even cm said tat..aiyo just fail chem onli wat, last time i also fail maths also never throw temper, i still talk as usual but quieter abit onli..then yh and cm said tat we never see me angry b4, like i wont angry like tat..then yh saes tat i will be easily kana bully by ppl..acyually true leh, many ppl told me b4, she is not the first to tell me this..maybe she saes tat i should find a guy tat can help to defend me..maybe should be fierce to ppl but not me..duno why i still haven tell my mum abt the chem tat i pass, i guess she will still sae i veri lan one lah, but its an encouragement to me tat i top the class leh..but on the other hand i hav to pay for the price tat is to do detention..sigh..todae doing after 5.15 again..maybe after tat eating dinner with ch, cos like nobody to pei me eat seh, tat 2 lovebirds is going somewhere else to eat, so better dun be gooseberry..if ch not eating then i dun wan to eat liao..eating alone like veri kelian like tat leh, like tat i rather eat at home..
so tml got the parent meeting session,but i am not going cos i not so free sia, go there just to talk to teachers..my dad and mum will be going instead, but i didnt tell my teacher tat i not going cos later she confirm will sae me one loh..next week got a lot of stuff to do, got A level SPA next week and 2 tests..dieing soon..gonna to be veri tired, but duno why i am still sufting net passing the time away...

~the past 2 days~

past 2 days was resting at home..then mon saw the jamie teo and the lin xiao pei..actually they two not reali pretty leh..if not for the big camera, i wouldnt know tat they are actress..then wed watch the live telecast..actually wanted to go je to see but ended up didnt go cos lazy..but tat rui en and tautik super gd looking..rui en super pretty and sweet..
then hor todae just got bac my chem blog test..i just got 50 exactly, actually not bad already cos onli 2 ppl in my class pass, me and john, the rest F..actually to think of it, i think i pon is a gd thing, cos i at least pass..but hor my tat mum sure sae, why so lousy!!!aiya sure know tat she wills ae tat..hai~~~reali scared duno i can promote..why i always sae tat arh..hai~~actually i hope tat this time they will count the chem marks cos i pass mah..but hor, most likely wont cos alot of ppl fail...so should i be happy or sad for tat??

~has been bad tempered lately~

Duno why this few days I super hot tempered and lack of patience..duno why I keep feeling vexed..also duno vexed for wat..hai~~~todae the day so the stupid, had sport day..seeing the suan kuay running, make me feel so excited..wa he super cool man..his legs so the nice..then some other guys were running also, then I see see lah, but no chance to talk to them..eh tat han han did talk to me abit..actually at certain pt, I feel tat he veri the shuai,..though he is a xiao didi to me cos he younger than me, but I still think tat yj got quite a few shuai ge..but too bad they attached liao..yh also like to sae this to me..aiyo..but seriously I admired guys tat can run veri fast and can play piano.it shows tat they hav the elegance in them esp then they play a romantic piano piece..
Then tanu was explaining a compre for me on some terrorist attacks..It involves the AL –Qaeda and the Abu Zubaydah..seriously I duno got such person and organization when they are so the famous..so this reali shows how terrible my general knowledge is..anyway if she didn’t explain the passage line by line, I might not even know how to do the compre, maybe I just dun hand up the assignment and got zero for tat..but now at least I know a bit of understanding for the passage liao..so not too bad..so todae go home must start doing le..i got yh reference so not too bad..at least I can refer to hers if I duno how to do..
Seeing yh this few days with terence together, it just make ,me feel like having a bf cos terence is like quite sweet to her..she told me abt wat they did and wat he gave to her, then I think tat terence is reali a gd catch..fri she asked me to show his picts so in return I get to see her exs..1st one not bad, 2nd one CMI.no wonder her mum objects..if I were her mum, I would also objects..but she told me tat her mum saw them together on fri but she didn’t sae anything so most prob she has approved…then she did mentioned abt my case to her mum..she told me tat her mum saes tat I am lucky and fortunate..but does all adults think alike??will my mum think so if she know abt my past btw me and him??at times, I feel like telling her tat last time I got a bf and tat guy is u know one..but til now I still dun hav the courage to tell her even though we are not together le…yh dares to tell her mum abt it even though her mum might objects but duno why I just cant open my mouth to tell her..maybe the reason behind lies in becos I am scared…hai~~duno how old then I can tell her abt relationship..she did mentioned to me tat if a guy fall for me then he will be unlucky..wa lao I reali tat bad meh..sae ur daughter until like tat..then hor my brother this morning purposely wan to make me saeing tat a guy msg me and I look secretive when there is no such things..he purposely wan me to be scolded by my mum and digged out the past..so I am veri angry of cos , I scolded him early in the morning and my mood was spoilt..stupid ass brother..hope he faster go army and stop being so kpo abt everything..
Then sat was watching a show, I cried out cos the show was like so sad loh..the ger chose to leave the guy cos she has to go overseas..duno why I always cry when I see such shows cos I always thought of myself…I guess I am deceiving myself all this while..i am still not able to forget even though its been so long le..i always sae tat I can do it but I always ended up thinking of mo mo ren..yh told me on fri not to be sad if mo mo ren to be attached..she told me to be mentally prepared..but…

And tanu always manage to read my mind..she reali knows what I am thinking abt esp when I mentioned something to her abt tat person..is my mind reali tat easy to read??it seems like yh also can read my mind at times..i am tired todae, shall take the day on tues and wed to rest and watch tv..

~was it fate??~

after watching finished the singing competition, we saw a disc man lying on the sofa in the library during fri..me and cm was like so excited cos its a disc man leh..we never so heng b4 to find a disc man in our entire life..but eventually we didnt take it even though we did planned of taking home for a few days b4 giving it to the lost and found ppl in charge..it seems like we recently veri close with money..always found $0.10 somewhere on the floor..fri increase to $0.20 le..it seems like we are changing for a betetr luck..haha..lets hope tat i can pick up a hp or mp3 in future..
then i saw rafie and his gf at jp..his gf seems quite pretty to me and rafie is veri shuai!!!but too bad they are attached..then also saw clement..he changed quite alot..became more ugly..then at nutc saw 2 girls kissing while i am queueing up..oh man, i was like so shocked and disgusted..they were both holding hands..one were trying to be a butch and the other girl seems not bad looking to me..but both were equilvant disgusting..it seems tat going homw late at nite can reali see alot of stuff..i saw a girl who is so hot cos her skirt was like super damn short..then i think some guys were looking at her..but i think tat she is reali pretty..then got those giant toy tat has ppl inside ..was at nutc, then the giant toy give those mei mei a hug..i was thinking can i hug u also cos i find them veri cute!!!!but in the end i never cos i dun dare..
on sat, daddy suggested tat we go canteen A to eat since he says tat he got money to treat us..and he sae tat the chicken rice over there is quite nice..then the uncle giv us extra chicken cos he knows my dad..then the uncle still tok tat my mother is my dad's daughter then i was laughing inside my heart cos my dad look like an old man like tat..then alot of ppl ask my dad is tat ur daughter???then i just smile..then i think tat i eat so damn lot tat a guy was looking at me at the way i eat the spring chicken..i duno how i eat also but i know tat it's veri ugly and rough..but after tat i stopped eating cos i feel veri pei seh le..then halfway through i was eating, i duno why i manage to capture tat particular person of all ppl..becos he just seems to be like him...his attire and hair style and all those just seems too alike like him..so i am not reali certain whether is tat person is him or not cos i cant see clearly...i tried hard just looking at him but still cant see clearly..i duno whether he did see me or not..hope not cos tat day i wear until super ugly..i was hopeing tat he can join us to eat since all of my families memebers are there..but sad to sae, its no longer possible..maybe i just think too much, but i reali hope tat this day will come..my heart sae tat i still hav feelings for him when i saw him even though from far i can onli see tat not clear of him..i duno whethershould i call it as fate or not becos everything is just too qiao..and its my dad who let me see him..and i relai duno tat is it tat whenever i see a lrmeans tat i will see him veri soon>>..cos its like on last tues and wed, i did saw 2..i duno if heaven is helping me out of kindness becos even my dad works there now..but still i am telling mysekf tat at the end of next yr, if there is no ans from him and if he didnt bother to make any moves then i am just not waiting anymore..yh saes tat me and her are devoted ppl..do u think so??hmmm..actually to sae the truth, i was quite sad when i didnt turn bac to look when i went off..hai~~actually at times i do find myself veri stupid but girls are like tat..not meh>>yh also same as me, she would wait all day long, just for terrence msg but this never happens..actually at times, i find tat terence is veri heartless..i should sae tat guys are all heartless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
then i called yh on sun cos i feel like talking to someone to tell my troubles to..i told her abt what happened on sat and she told me tat most of the chances is tat i recognised the wrong person becos most of the time i never recognised a person correctly..but duno why i am quite certain tat the person is just him..its tat feeling tat cant be explained tat i am right..sigh..actually i already hav an ans deep inside my heart without even waiting for the and from him..but sersiously i reali hope tat there will be a miracleto what i am thinking..at times i felt tat my greatest mistake is to go into a relationship..if i know tat i hav such a weak character , then i wouldnt wan to go into a relationship..becos i know tat i dun know how to handle everything if there will be a break up..seriously i will reali think twice, thrice or even more if i ever wans to go into a relationship again becos i dun wan to get hurt again..and i dun think tat i will be tat easily touched by anybody unlike b4 becos for now, my heart has died..actually i hav alot of things to ask him in my mind, but i just dun dare..my mentality tells me tat gers should and should never make the first move, becos it will make u like u sound veri despo..and it will be a disgrace..maybe i just leave the qns unanswered forever..yh told me tat we will eventually be togtehr if he marrys late..but do u think its possible??sigh...
then by accident i found where my mum wrote his hp no so i just liquid it away becos i dun wan anyone of them to bother him again..i dun wish to giv him a fright just like last time..like tat he will then live in peace..
then yesterday went bowling..so sian man cos so little turn up, waste my time man..anyway yesterday i was damn angry becos of my mum and my hp went out of battery..we quarrelled beocs of some some little things..then hairdresser said tat me and my mother hav 2 differend personality..and i totally agree..she and my brother is the same and i follow my dad..actually i dun know whether this short hair looks nice or not..but i agress tat my hair style has changed..most probably ppl cant recognised me now...

~drinking a litre of milk..

having been having problem (contispation)..so yesterday went to the prime super market to buy a litre of chocolate milk in order to shit..so from there i walk home drinking the milk..actually i shouldnt drink like tat cos its like veri crude for a ger to drink like tat, but b4 i drink i made sure tat there is no ppl around, so i wont make myself pei seh..if guys were to see the way i drink, they sure to faint..
kay then todae yh asked me to talk abt my past relationship and how we started cos she interested..at the same time tat guy is jioing her so she wanted me to giv some comments on him..but she said one thing "when u going to find another one and forget everything abt him??"hai~~ actually i also duno how long it will take..maybe i just cant unless i found another person..then she wanted to see his pict then i showed her online..her comment was tat he look matured like tay ping hui..oh man..i was laughing out loud when she commented tat..HUH was my first reaction.ok lah, he is matured in thinking but not in look..
todae's detention super slack..doing with yi guang and chun yiat..wa tat chun yiat complexion super the gd leh..so nice and clear..kay later maybe still must come online again to go gp stuff..die i dun even understand the passage also duno how should i do the paper..and teacher sae tml must hand up le.........

~the detention wasnt as bad as wat i think~

guess wat u know, my mum and i gave different lies for my teacher..and our lies just dun tally..so i die man..she sae i got stomach wind so i just rest at home eating chinese medicine..and i gave the lie tat me and my mum went to the hospital to visit my aunt..hai~~afterall my teacher do know tat i lied to her..but anyway yesterday the scene was veri embrassing cos i dun dare to face her..but todae everything seems to be bac to ok liao..anyway yesterday the dentention was just counselling from the bo tah OM, after which 5 ppl hav to clean up the class..then hor yesterday i was super angry when the OM says tat my effort might not be recognised without the form then i was super pissed off and raised my voice at him cos my teacher didnt even give me then wat u want me to do..anyway yesterday i reali forgot tat i am talking to the OM, quite high rank in sch..anyway ch did the dentention with me cos he was having his badmination halfway then he see me at the study area so he just joined me..anyway he said tat it he never see me angry b4 cos i always smile lah..but ppl sometimes do get fed up mah cos wait so long for this damn thing then dare to sae tat my effort not recognised..i am paying the $30 liao wat then why still must do detention..stupid sia..then yesterday justin veri cute sia..the way he msg tat u wan me to accompany u??cute rite??haha..anyway i think he cute boi boi leh..but in the end he didnt pei me cos he no need to do..so end up is ch pei me..
anyway the 2gers doing with us veri bitchy man..dun like them..duno why they like diao us like tat..and hor onli me an ch and the li ting are doing the work then they 2 sit down to slack..attitude sia..anyway we just clean the whiteboard and the process seems fun..becos at least got ppl pei me..then later we finish i asked him to teach me some chem stuff..eh he seems not bad in explaining things leh..kay we then can onli leave at 6.45pm..so after tat must see garnish..then immediately i think, die, cos last yr he is my gp teacher then he treats me quite nice also..i thought tat i those guai students also..kay then i hide behind ch cos i reali dun dare to face him..then when ch read out my name then he scan for me then i gave him the guilty look..then he saes tat qinmin is guilty to face me cos she skip the workshop.. then i just smile..then he also smile bac leh..i am surprised tat he didnt scold me given tat he is the discipline master..kay after tat i went home with ch..on our way we talked alot lah, but duno why i feel tat i am him like together like tat went we walked together..then duno why i feel blushed talking to him, duno why i feel so pei seh also..he treats me like a guy like tat sia..cos guys and gers are not supposed to hav close contact unless they are bf and gf..hai~~actually i duno also..i dun wish to fall in luv so easily leh..but for now i am sure tat i still dun like him...i just dun wan to be a bad person..then hor duno why i find veri hard communicating with him cos he speaks eng and i hav to translate everything in chinese to eng..so reali got a bit of problem there talking to him...anyway yesterday reach home super late liao..hai~!~still got 3 more sessions of detention to do..
duno why i feel irritated when kq talks to me..maybe after knowing tat she is a backstabber then i reali dun wish to talk much to her..maybe i am just bad, but my class ppl all distance away from her..so she just join the 3 of us..i do feel veri weird when she suddenly pop up like tat..when i wan to sae secret, i must make sure tat she is not around b4 telling the 2 of them..so afterall i hope tat she dun pop up lah..then mon half day, tues and wed holiday, so shiok!!!!

~sigh...~~~

then nowadays, duno why i keep smelling cigrattee smoke near my room..i reali veri irritated and i kept complaining to my mum.i feel like scolding the F word and shout out to them and ask them not to smoke..becos they are polluting my room..but in the end, i dun dare ..i complain so much but did nothing..
then is all the alvin the same pattern arh..the alvin tat i know is disgusting, despo to find gf, whom both gers and guys hate..and the new alvin tat i know becos he is sitting in the library beside me and talk to me out of the sudden when i didnt even know him..he asked are u a foriegner??then i said no and my tone was like veri bu shuang..becos i find him irriting and kpo, asking many stupid questions..then ester and agnes were laughing at the way i talk to him..then later he said tat i look like some ah lian..then i was thinking i look like ah lian also none of ur business..better do ur pw lah, xiao didi..anyway i just ignored him and continue sufting net..then he still sae dun u think tat sufting friendster is a waste of time and stupid cos he saw me sufting tat..when he said tat i feel like boxing him becos i find him veri irritaing and kpo..some more he is a stranger to me..anyway i dun wish to see him sia, seeing him onli spoil my mood..
then last week the meal was nice..now then i realised tat thousand island is veri nice..the host was telling us ways of eating esp gers, becos she says tat if guys were to see gers doing some rough actions then they wouldnt ask them out in future..reali meh???guys reali tat particular meh???i tok they heck care one..anyway i didnt pay attetion to her cos i onli interested in eating..anyway i had a hard time eating the chicken becos i duno how to use the cutlery..why cant we use hands to eat then can chop chop..anyway tat was the rule for western dining..i also dun think tat i ever hav the chance to go there eat unless ppl treat me then dun sae lah..
after which, last week went junction 8 to take neoprints cos was dragged by ppl...seriously i dun like taking neoprints becos i think tat i look veri ugly in neoprints plus its a waste of money..i rather take picts during hp man..at least i look nicer there..hmm..
then last week i am quite upset over some friendship problem..duno why whenever i am upset or wat, the first thing tat i will think of is my blog and not my friends..its not tat mt friends are not as impt to me, but its just tat i seldom tell me friends abt my problems unless they ask abt it..i always keep everything to myself and ending up feeling suffocated..i still think tat my blog is my gd frien cos i always share wat i feel..its alright tat my blog cant talk bac to me, but at least i do feel better after at times after saying out..whenever i am alone or wat, i just feel like having a person beside my side just to talk to me, but hor there is always no one..i always cried when i feel lost becos i cant solve the problem by myself..isit tat i am born to be a loner??i feel tat at times i shouldnt hav born man..sersiouly i miss the days in pri sch..i never got sad b4..its onli this yr and last yr then i know the cruelity of many things..first is the reality tat i got retained..first few months of this yr, i dare not face the reality tat i am retained..but later i got used to the word retainee then i started accepting the fact..secondly, its the failure of luv..actually such things will occur to everyone in his or her entire life, its just a matter of time 0nli..but most imptly, one must learn to accept the fact tat luv is a giv and take..
anyway to conclude wat i said life is just a learning process...
then yesterday the chem paper just sux, its a killer paper..die like tat how to pass promos!!!!worried sia..wa lao i spent 2 days just to study fot this test but yet i cant do,..duno is i stupid or wat, retained one yr liao still canot do..for last yr case, i dun hav the facts in my brain so i cant do..but this yr, i got study still duno how to do..i just think tat i always think straight, i cant think things out of the box..maybe i should do something to my brain, maybe play more computer games??hmm..anyway now i just set up a neopet cos i see the guys play like veri nice like tat leh..actually last time i created a pet during sec sch but i forgot my password liao..
then hor yh now got 3 guys want to jio her at the same time...wa lao i think she must be veri happy sia..seems like pretty gers do hav a lot of guys to jio..anyway one of them gave her 6 roses..actually thinking of it, tat AJ guy quite romantic leh..but he ended up got rejected by yh..cos she find him too matured after finishing his army, cos he planned to far ahead le when yh onli looks at the present..then the other is a gd catch,..(terence) ..so now they trying out.,,then yh always ask me why guys do this and tat and wat does it mean..i just sae wat i think, anyway the choice is hers..then cm saes she wans to break up with her current bf cos she saes tat the guy always never msg her..but i still think tat is it worth breaking up with a person just becos of such small things??it is fate tat brings 2 persons together...maybe she should cherish wat she has now..
then yesterday nite, vincent called my house to sae tat retainees are invited to the prom nite this yr..but must pay $80..wa lao if free then i confirm will go one..hai~~my friends are graduating this yr and i am still in j1..going there will make me more sad..
anyway todae, tat garnish was scolding the 100 of us for skiping the workshop...die now must do detention for 6hrs..and is from tml onwards to next fri..plus i must pay $30..i reali die this time cos i bluff my teacher tat i and my mum went to hospital to visit my aunt and she called my mum to check just now..then she realised tat i bluff her liao..aiyo my mum should hav play the show with me..anyway i dun think she knows wat i bluff teacher, but i did tell her tat i am going to bluff my teacher tat my grandfather die..but she asked me not to giv tat excuse so i didnt use it..so i thought of another one..die man know tat she know just now then she msg me and tell me tat i should hav be honest with her..but u think i dun wan meh>>i just dun wan to pay the $30 mah tats why i lied wat..now tat i confirm will hav to pay liao plus i will hav a bad impression for her liao..and this time i will hav a bad conduct due to poning sch for no valid reason..die..then in future got anything tat i wan to apply also canot cos i got bad conduct..anyway i reali confused now..i duno how to face her tml..she confirm will ask me why i lie..hai~~~~how sia..tml i will hav to start doing my detention til veri late b4 i can go home..duno wat i hav to do also..hopefully dun ask me to clean toilet sia, if not i will cry man...anyway garnish said tat if we still continue to pon then we will be suspended for sch for 2 weeks...i still thinking of poning during next mon but looks like i dun dare now...i am scared tat i will be suspened..sigh..this is the worst time i ever get a big trouble in sch..die man...how how???????????

~sweet stuff~

eh think tat th quite sweet to his gf seeing his picts online..haha..didnt know tat he looked so the gu dong, but came out like veri sweet sia..the gf seems to grow prettier...haha...wa australia de scenary so the nice, i also wish tat i am go there with someone i like...