lonely christmas eve ~

            its been around 1 week since my parents came back..indeed life is slightly better since i need not do house work anymore..really more relax and i got time to focus now..sending CVs is real tiring when no one calls you..sometimes agency calls but its not the kind of job you want. either they ask me be recuitment consultant or give me a damn low pay which i am not going to accept. hai but pls pray hard that i can get a job soon..bank money keep deleting and i dun like the feeling..ever since i came back australia never even go out cos on budget..spend quite alot liao in australia..apart from just celebrating pre bday with my gd friends at an atas "Ship restaurant " , other than that i spend most of the time in front of comp ;( thats really sad cos abit loner though..the ship restaurant was really awesome cos we are dining near the sea ..but one thing is you get sea sick..bday girl couldnt take it so didnt eat..lol but the food was really good and worth paying for the voucher value haha..


           and sun went out though but didnt bought anything at the clothes warehse sales..wanted to buy to destress cos couldnt find jobs but end up decided to see see jiu hao..dun buy and spend money cos anyway i have tons of clothes which i buy and never wear ! and yes this yr countdown for 2014 will be different !! hmm should i go for the floating platform countdown or the siloso beach one leh?? hmm still thinking. ;)

          anway pls pray damn hard that i get the sci centre job that i applied for cos i am really really keen in that job and they are looking for material engineer students.just nice man ! i am jobless at the right time and available immediately..shall not slack liao cos april need go hk and perhaps june maldives ;) pocket need to burn a big hole so now gonna start working hard !

~ urgency to look for a job now ~

            so what have i been doing for the past 2 weeks since i came back australia? hmm actually nothing much..went to batu pahat for 2d1n and sadly that place is a dead town..wont want to go there again. heng the coach bus ticket is cheap if not really waste my money travelling there. but the hand made dao sa piah is super super awesome..put at my hse for 1 wk liao still damn soft and fresh.but oh all, wont purposely travel there again to buy cos its like 2 hrs ride from jb terminal.quite far actually.


            so before that was having fun with dear at home lo.never go out since parents not at home can stay at home save money..but after dear left i felt lonely partly because family all not around, only me staying alone and everyday so sian only look for jobs nothing interesting for me to do..and everyday also do housework until so shag.wash clothes, hang clothes and clear my hse rubbish..all these so tiring !! and worst case is when u wash your clothes liao and it rains and you wil have to rewash again..argh ! it really piss me off lo.

            so these few days i really then start sending out mass CVS..duno what has been the past 3 mths i doing man.probably just busy working temps and earning peanuts money..after which preparing 2 weeks for nea interview and then went off for holiday..this makes up my 3 mths business ;(

             oh well, now i really find it hard to find a job cos limited experience.want to go anywhere also stucked.job adverts posted online all write 2-3 yrs experience. ;( and i only have one yr ;( wanna do HR also canot cos not much experience.damn kind of regretted my previous job as to why i took it up initally.learn not much of skills that i can apply to other jobs and really wasted my one yr..hai but that time fresh graduate cant demand so much also..ppl want to hire you already very good liao and the pay was acceptable for fresh graduate so i didnt think so much..however, now i will still be the same..as long as people offer me with a decent pay and suitable job scope i will just take liao. got one offer me so low until i dun even want to think about it.seriously not that i picky but its damn low as a buyer.

            well, pls pray hard that i can start work by jan and yes my parents are back today..there goes my 2 weeks freedom ! i miss them, ! kay going airport to pick them now ! BYE ! and dear is coming back today ! yeah !

            

back from australia and now i have post australia syndrom

hello blog,

i have been missing for 2 weeks..went to australia and somehow its much enjoyable than the previous trip that i made to sydney a yr ago..covered more places this time round.went to sydney, melbourne and canberra and thank god, i didnt regret taking a plane to melbourne as i love this city..shopping and eating is good..but the only sad part is we didnt took up a day trip to see my penguins. I chose not to go as the day tour is really ex and i have to pay for 4 person and its really alot of money.perhaps got add up to $300+ SGD. so come to think of it, for that $$ i could have use it for shopping and food. and my dad also dun feel like spending this money as its really not logical to spend so much on this one day penguin show. oh well, that is my only regret and not able to cover those great scenary places like the great ocean riff. hai~~ but happy part is the shopping. Bought lots of stuff and aldo shoes !! Australia is amazing in a way such that their things are really ex if there is no sales. maybe can cost around $100+ SGD for a jeans, but when there is sales, the price can be real crazy and i bought lots of coloured jeans over there which cost around $12 SGD and some even less than that. and yes my mum and i are damn crazy over shopping in melbourne. and in fact after a wk, my dad and i are really worried cos our $$ are running low at the rate we eat..stupid bro keep bringing us eat ex food.keep saying its nice...of cos i know its nice..he is not the one paying of cos he can say nice la. in fact every meal is i pay for 4 ppl and my pocket really burn a big big hole. the most power is spending $200 sing in just a day for 2 meals. That is the most heartbreaking meal i ever ate. though its nice but my heart feels really really pain :(

and the worst part of all that happened in melbourne was tigerair cancelled our flight at 10pm when we are already going to board the gate..i was totally stunned and clueless on what to do cos it never happened to me before and my bro did warned me before i booked tigerair becos they always cancel their flights and damn it really came true. and its really suay..when they keep delaying our flight, i already know something is amiss. and when they delayed it for the 3rd time, the 4th call was cancelling of our flights ;( but oh well, things arent that bad as they did compensate us for our last min hotel stay. still thought we going spend the night in the airport cos from airport to city is freaking damn far and its not possible reach there by walking. and seriously dun understand why does melbourne airport so ulu. ..its stuck at a place where there is totally no tranport available except for cabs and "skybus" ..totally not convenient..and that bloody 20 mins ride cost 28 AUD for a return ticket..freaking damn ex..that day also burn a big big hole in my pocket for transportation. ;(

and well, after the 5 days stay in melbourne i went back to sydney again and one week of stay in sydney is real boring cos i explored the place before already so just gonna bring my parents around this time.

well, now i am having my freedom party at home for 2 weeks. parents not yet back so defintely i am very very happy cos no one to fann me and i can do what i want..but now, i gonna faster find a job cos bank really depleting money and i hate that feeling. this australia trip really cost a bomb for me..spend ard $8k for the family and i gonna work hard to earn this money back..somehow abit heart pain cos with that 8k i could have travel to many many cheap countries..but probably this might be the last time i am going anyway unless bro getting a PR there and i might go there again. but we shall see.

and today dear and i cook at my hse. and to my horror my pot caught fire. wa i sibei gan jiong cos first time caught fire in the hse.heng its just the pot..still cant figure out why the pot caught fire..maybe he put too much oil and rather the pot just couldnt stand the high heat ..

disappointed ~

lady luck arent with me for long i guess :( hai wasted 2 weeks of hardwork. but oh well, i am off to australia-sydney and melbourne for 2 weeks. hopefully it will be great time for me. but accomodation wise kinda sucks. hai hope i can stay well over there. GD BYE !

~may lady luck stay with me for long..~

this week i would say many happy things happened.in fact all unexpected things..

sat went out with dear for morning breakfast and after which we went off to do ourselves and met up again at nite.then night time went to a jap club for an event.pretty boring though and guess what i say terry from our ex YJC..he was modelling for the show.man how did he slim down so much..really amazing.nevertheless he is still my eye candy though..

sat nite was pissed off when i realised that my stuff was thrown by my mum again despite telling her many times not to touch my stuff..and worst of all is my computer table is thrown out for no reason and she paid $30 for someone to move the computer table out for me..seriously i was damn pissed cos who the hell ask you to throw my comp table !! and that fucking stupid mother put the desktop on a fucking unstable manjong table..seriously does she has a brain or nt.got proper comp table throw away put the desktop on that manjiong table !! i blew my top cos really she just pissed me off ! and my desktop area are like garage now..wires everywhere and she really mess up the whole things for me. keyboard and mouse and all the internet connection all damn mess up..she only bring trouble to me lo !!

sun was a bad day for me so dear last min jio me out for yacht outing with his uni gathering cos some of his friends pang seh last min..somehow after the yacht outing i felt better.felt less pissed and bad mood.we went fishing and catch alot of fishes ! really fun and the water activities are fun too though i didnt get to play cos its that period of the time.haha so can only see them play..

tues and wed decided to pon work and i am really happy cos really feel very dreadful working for this data entry job..keep kana said why my output for the data entry kinda low..and i keep telling them that i am not familiar with the codes thus couldnt type fast..how can they compare a 2 week experience person with a 3 month experience..seriously..zzz

and eventually the happiest news of all is nea shortlisted me for an engineer opening. still thought i got rejected liao cos its already 1 month plus since i last send my cv.oh well, my bestie indeed help me out alot.without her, probably i might even get a chance for interview. since i got the chance liao, i must perform to my best capability. at least for the first time having the chance to be interview in the govt sector. ;)

one last final week before i bid goodbye to tuas checkpt !

             nxt week will be my final week at tuas check pt ! yeah somehow feel really happy cos honestly they did ask if we temps wanna extend or not..although i still have 2 weeks before i fly to sydney and melbourne, i still chose not to stay on cos the job kinda crapy man. would rather slack than earn that peanuts money and make myself tired cos this job totally not slack and it really involve alot of concentration else you could have easily fall asleep. i swear next time i am not going to take up data entry job again..seriously first time and last time.this project defintely cant finish by nov de so even if after i come back, i doubt they can rush finish the deadline.so ya but i am happy that one of the perm actually going to give me the HR email so that i can directly contact them and ask them for current internal perm opening. Hope i can get it soon man before i leave..this is very important to me and its also my reason why i decided to take up this job although the pay really low..
 ;(


         and yes the job is real boring. no friend to make also..got friend also smoking friends..zzz seriously with the amt of money they earn, all of them are used to spend on smoking..seriously duno how these kids tink man..but yeah last sat was a torturing day as i have to work full day and after which the whole day is gone ;( so monday decided to pon work and nuah since those temp there pon like siao..i am the guai one that rarely pon cos i still wanna a perm job in this govt sector so i muz behave and do my best for this job although i dun really like this job..at least i do the bare minimum and not too lousy..and i am very certain that i never hit the target of 1500 quota everyday but nvm if the agency wanna deduct my pay jiu deduct anw i am gone after nxt wk.


          yesterday had a very full meat buffet..eat until scared of meat liao but the buffet is gd and cost ard $53/pax..quite ex but similar style to carnivore. i must say its much much better than carnivore and cheaper also by abit. ;)

          this week will be a busy week going out and enjoying yeah !! and ytd got one agency wanna offer me a contract HR learning and development govt job..pay quite ok actually but its only 5 mths contract..duno if will it extend or not..but i see that there are very good learning curve for this job..if can gain alot of experience through this job, i tink i will go for it even if there is no aws or bouses for me cos i tink partly i am contract staff.but well, more details shall be discuss cos the agent MIA and never reply now. dots that time call me so urgently, when i tell her i gg holiday then she didnt reply me liao..hope i am still under her consideration list lo cos i quite keen in the job..

worst sucky temp job ever

         i had two days of shaggness..never been so shag working as a temp before in a govt sector. even last time my slack job who pay better also much much better..firstly stepping into the company was already a shock when it was supposed to be a monday and everyone is in informal wear..jeans and sandles for everyone..my perception of govt sector are they need to dress formal but look my company is total slacker..and i am very confident that i am the most formal on monday cos i really expect a certain level of dress code.. Second shock that i gotten was why isnt there any young or middle age people working inside that organization.. why are these people mostly very old and most of them are already at their senior level waiting for retirement cos i feel that..and in fact being the chinese there, i felt like i am the minority since most of them are non chinese. well, i still can mingle well with that, just now they are really bonded and when those temp go smoking all of them will go smoking together..zzz so obviously people like me who hated smoke obviously wont follow them..and so my only friend when i entered as a temp in this job was a 55 yrs old auntie cos we are one of the few chinese over there. Not that i dun like working with auntie and uncles, but the whole office is really all 50+ ppl why cant i find any young people except for the temp..lol perhaps they are indeed working for the headquarters and people working in my branch office are doing the backstage admin..


           seriously this is the worst data entry i did before..there might be 1 million entry cards to key into the system and it wouldnt end de cos everyday will have visitors entering the country..man no wonder now i know why they need so many temp cos even if you dun sleep, the job can never be done..However, one good thing is everyone knock off at 5.15pm on the dot..its like an automatic clock..once 5.15pm everyone leave and not a single one is in office.lol cos afterall we worked in such a ulu place..no bus go back also.tats why have to catch the only shutter bus. This job really makes me damn shag lo..work from 8.30 to 5.15pm non stop cos cant slack also..no internet let me slack also..keep keying in data until wanna fall asleep..feel like i am in hell lo cos afterall when previously i was working in raffles as a perm, i still have some degree of freedom, but this one totally duno have,,canteen also have one malay stall and everyday just have to eat tt one..cant go out get food also cos we are inside an ulu area where its totally not accessible.MAN i wont want to work there if given a choice.really...and i can really say that among all the temp, i am the most highly educated liao..mostly are ITE students and in the first place this job is for ITE and diploma qualification..duno why that time when i applied for the job through the agent she didnt tell me..zzz but nvm this is really an experience. but pay really damn little..we still got sales target of 1500 entry to hit a day..if cant hit have to deduct $35..walao i confirm cant hit de lo cos i am very certain cos the data entry not very direct also..need to tink also..not really just type blindly.if the agency really deduct my pay then end of the day it will seems like i work for free cos one day we only earn ard $50+60+..ZZZ

            I AM tired of this job. lucky its just 2 weeks man..if they wanna extend me i confirm dun wan liao..unless they going give me a perm job at the headquarters then i will consider..otherwise, they will be wasting my time rotting there learning nothing,.

last week was a hectic week

               last sun went to mandai zoo and night safari..night safari is something interesting i feel cos its somewhat very different from most zoo and most importantly its dark ! however, still it has no changed my perception of zoo.still not a fan of zoo unlike most girls.haha..But that day was real shag and slept very late cos i reach home really late and next day have to do my survey job..OMG ;(

               survey job was relatively ok..i would say quick earned money for a 2 days job.i can earn around $700+ in two days being the team leader role.actually being a team leader is somehow different. Somehow got the feel of it..i have to be responsible for things, and collate and report figures at the end of the day..its a tiring job but i guess its a mangement skill that i acquire..thank god my team mates are uni student and relatively cooperative, else if those youngsters they sure giv me shitty work and i have to compile and do it nicely for them. Only thing is i cant sleep early cos i have to wait for people to tabulate the figures at the end of the night and i have to submit a report every day for that 2 consecutive days.its really shag especially i only sleep about 3-4 hrs and the following day i have to wake up 7-8am in the morning to report to serangoon statioin to start my survey,..zzz sian lo got jurong never give me end up put me in serangoon and sengkang, but oh well lucky its just 2 days..and then the third day, we have to do a data entry for all the survey we gotten..i have abt 51 survey and i really key until siao lo..tink i took ard 6-7hrs to key cos the freaking survey is damn long.zzz actually this can be accounted as a working day, but generally its still a good earn money..defintely better than a perm on a day rate basis. but if i am desperate i will work for this again cos they have a door to door survey coming up and i am still thinking if i wanna work this for extra allowances or nt.

          fri was really crazy..since its kind of my last day that i going to have my freedom, so decided to ask dear dear and wp if they wanna go sing k in JB since dear dear wanted to sing badly a few weeks ago but i find it really expensive cos not working le ma..so everything to me also ex now especially sing during weekends..and singing in JB is super super damn cheap. 21rm ++ ( around $9.60 SGD ) can get a good meal set and 5 hrs of k singing.super duper worth la.on avg, its only less than $2 for one hr and most importantly there is food and soup and drinks included, and the portion is really huge..actually we ordered the most expensive meal set, if not it could be 15++ rm only for the cheapest..so singing in JB Is really very worth it. So after that wp went back to SG since she had some meeting and i continue singing..after which went to supermarket to stock up my food for my australia trip.duno how i spend around $42 in a day in JB lo..must be i anyhow spend money and see everything also cheap end up keep buying then accumulate until very expensive. The bread in JB is quite ex actually considering its malaysia.i would say the price is comparable with the price of spore bread.but their bread somehow its nicer and slightly different. Dinner was at coffee shop..wanted to eat so much good food intitally but plans always fail so ended up dun feel like eating anymore so end up eating cheap food. ;)

                and tmr i am starting work as a temp in the govt sector. Man my workplace is at tuas checkpoint. it seems really isolated and i wonder if there is any ATM machine over there.i feel that i am stuck :( but oh well, let this be an experience ba since its a temp and who knows if i do well, they might extend me and convert me to perm. you will never know cos i never expect that i will end up in this job. please pray hard that this will be my stepping stone into my next perm job. 1 month from now my temp job will end and i will head to australia. cant wait as i am really tired of SG ! need to get out of this place !

i lost my drive and will to work

             recently i did realised that i lost my drive and will to work liao..really...in the past, i worked while i am still in uni is becos i needed the money for daily allowances and also pay off sch fees..but now all these isnt a concern for me now. i have paid off sch fees and there is nothing more to keep me working hard..i totally lost the motivation to work even as a temp..duno why perhaps i have been working for a yr and feel really tired liao..previously job really drained me out totally.everyday is all about sourcing for candidates and hoping when can i ever close a deal to earn a commission but sadly even after working for a year, i didnt close much..alot of time i feel that its really dependent on luck and i feel that i really do not want to continue as a recuitment consultant anyway more..

            so right now, i believe that the only drive that can push me on would be the money needed for my future..maybe i shall work word towards aiming to buy a house next time. i guess this is the only thing that can push me for now.even for temp jobs i am really selective now. i only will work for jobs that will benefit my CV or rather i am only looking into govt sector temp job. in the past, i worked for all kinds of shitty job motive is just to earn money and slack..but now my aim has changed.i wanna find a job that can reflect something on my CV..

            this whole week really shoik never go out..send some cv out but got no calls. ;( honestly speaking waiting for people to call you is really very tong ku..but well i am still very happy now as i feel that my body is getting better..not as drained as before.and last friday i went out the whole day and dear made me really pissed. just becos i have to wait for a single yes/ no reply, he made me waited for 6hrs at rws and ended up no reply and worst wait til the shop close and never get to collect and confirmed my tickets.seriously how can i not be angry..waited so long for him and this bloody ass hole never even bother to look me up after work and went off drinking with his colleagues..if he find me for half an hr and go off with his colleagues at least i wont be angry..but this guy never !!

         and so i am going to the zoo today..zzz actuallty not a fan of zoo but never mind since its class gathering so just go lo..

you will never know how your career path will be until opportunity arises

i duno if i should consider lucky or what, but yesterday was trying my luck to send a CV to an agency for govt temp opening since i am flying in a month time and wanted to earn some peanuts money for my transport and food allowance so that i can try not to touch my savings. Didnt expect the agent called me near to 9pm and ask me if i am keen for this job..honestly it doesnt pay well for a govt temp cos usual rate is about 11-12 bucks per hour but this is way way lower..but never mind ba i shall just go in and gain experience and get some networking in this govt sector so its easier to jump and apply for govt jobs next time. if i am confirm for this data entry job, i will probably be there for a month. kinda long to establish some relationship with colleagues..hope i can get eventually after their screening which is 1 week from now !

but anway next week onwards gonna be a super busy week for me. have to keep temp-ing around for different jobs.but oh well, i really wanted to slack all the way for 2 mths til i go sydney and melbourne de, but since now i see any opportunity i shall just grab..dun care le.low pay also gonna try out since its only 1 month and i get to learn things so why not rite. :)

I am kinda happy with my life now though I am jobless

Last week was really busy week. I kinda like the staycation at RWS. Room was spacious and it was accompanied with a nice dinner buffet which dear had to pay separately. $60+ for that dinner but after discount is around $30 per pax so afterall its still quite reasonable. However if its $60 per pax I would find them really ex as its really over price cos not all the food are really nice. In fact I couldn’t really name any food that really makes me unforgettable. The gelato ice cream was really sucky compared to the nice gelato that I had outside. But I whack lots of oyster that night. Cant remember how many I ate, but maybe up to 10 big oyster. I tink I will eat oysters again when I go Sydney but I guess its gonna be expensive over there.

The following day was raining so heng it rained for a while then stopped cos we really planned to go adventure cove de cos the ticket is only valid for 3 days nia.overall I would say the rides are quite ok but got one ride generally more scary cos its like a roller coaster ride suddenly drop you down from a height. Heng that day we go was a weekday and no queue and we only waited for a while to play..if I were to go weekend I sure sian diao one cos waiting time already makes me sian as I heard ppl saying that sometimes need to queue up to 1 hr.After which we ended up our staycation trip with a dinner at seah Inn. Wanted to treat dear a lot of food but we cant eat, ;( mayb the dinner buffet was too full the day before.

 Thurday was really a lame day doing nothing. Bought a massage package and honestly the massage package is really cui. Place was seriously run down and the bed is damn dirty..ppl use decent bed lining but this place uses those towel clothes..OMG I was really shocked when I saw that.i wont want to come back again lo although it comes with a facial package cos I am not sure if the products they use on my face is it gonna to be safe. So I rather waste my $18.i wont go back there again anyway. After which, went on to loiter around and walk from bugis to clark quay.its freaking damn far but what to do, have to kill time cos I have two appointment meet up with my ex colleague and friend. This ex colleague keep pushing me to join her travel package.zzz seriously I am going to block her if she continue to pester me. I already told her and state my stand that I wouldn’t be keen liao yet still pestering me. Cant she meet me without any motive de instead of keep selling me things ! argh !! I dun mind meet up to chat abt her current work or talk abt why I chose to resign.but apparently when I tried to shift focus she kept on talking abt her agenda.seriously very turn off lo.

Friday went to the Chinese clinic to see my neck and shoulder. Abit sian diao wasted so long queuing. And yes I have decided to go my acupuncture another time liao cos now anyway after taking the medicine not so pain le.

Saturday and Sunday was a day out with dear. TVB awards was normal I feel. Actually we sit a bit far though we are under the VIP seats.and seriously they should show the stars in the TV lo cos what we see is just a tiny bit of the stars.really small. Cant see clearly although I can roughly guess who they are. All of them are very pretty and shuai. I love Linda chung the most cos she is really a beauty and she really stand out from the stars although all of them are pretty also. Her gesture and smile really stand out somehow. Sunday had a quarrel with my mum cos wanted to go jb but she insist on tagging along with me and eug, but who the hell bring a mother when u go for dates.dots leh so I bu shuang and she also bu shuang so she say she can give me the passport but if that’s the case, she will go eug hse to meet their parents for chit chat.really angry lo cos she is out to create trouble,. Her chit chat is confrontation lo.damn shit !! so ended up went out with dear for food exploration at city square. Went to had atas pancake and laska. Then after walk to bugis to digest the food in our stomach..haha

This whole week gonna be a serious week cos I am going to send cv liao..slack for 2 week didn’t really send much CV. ;(

 

 

 

 

nuahing happily~~

duno why i am just too nuah to hunt for jobs now seriously. really tired...somehow sleep alot liao but dark rings apparently never seems to lighten :( sigh when can i get back my youthful look when i am still studying.. past few days really did nothing. Fri nuah, saturday nuah a while til afternoon go bugis and suntec for shopping..Sunday, monday also nuah.. today ( tuesday-saturday ) will be a busy week for me so i wouldnt have time to search for jobs. We celebrating our post 2th yr anniversary though its like 1 mth ago..lol.dear dear say its gonna be a surprise. and honestly speaking i duno wat reason to lie to my mum again for staying out. sian i hate to lie, but if i tell her the real reason for staying out will she allow me to stay out late and not come home? ans is of cos no ! so i no choice but to lie.

the surprise wil be for 2 days til wednesday. Thurday will be out for massage cos my neck and shoulder still hurts..shall go acupunture on Friday liao. After go massage need meet ex colleague. Abit sian and reluctant meet her cos i got a feeling she wanna jio me into the travel club again. Now not working la. no money for this kind of things. Although i love travelling but tats aside, i dun see the need to invest package for that cos i go for cheap travel package,. i no need stay in good hotel and travel with tour.zzz i prefer backpacking..

and saturday i going to TVB awards ! yeah so happy can see my favourite hongkong stars. that night must dress mei mei man cos its at MBS :) honestly speaking i haven been dressing up for years. work really made me tired to make up even. see my colleagues jiu sian liao.

and now i duno why i always get hungry de. i really wonder how did i did it without eating whole day in sch when i was studying in NTU.really amazing..ppl always call me zhuo xian who no need eat..yes that time i never felt hunger at all even from morning to night, now cant liao..once its reaches 12-1pm my stomach will be hungry and also at night too. sian now never work also hv to budget on eating liao.shall not anyhow spend $$ liao although eating resturant have been the crave for me now. no money now eat hawker liao ;(

a sad departure-not even a farewell

monday was my last day of work and i am indeed very happy that i am finally out of the company cos i have been waiting for this day..but i was really sad on my last day. no one even bid good bye to me, not even my team mates..As someone who as worked for a yr plus in the company, at least i hope to get a proper farewell..Seriously i feel like i am no different from a temp. Having to enter company and go off secretly without no one knowing. The most disappointed is my own team mates. The malay girl already know who shall not be named already know that i am leaving and she didnt even bother to bid good bye to me. At least i was hoping before i leave, we could break the ice, but nevertheless this did not happen..ever since the dispute we nv talk.. kay fine la seriously cant be bothered since i already left the company. But i can really say that i am truly disappointed in this company. Supervisor duno on leave or mc. said that monday i will be explaining and handing over stuff to him, but end up he never turned up..like that how you want me to hand over !! seriously and he wasted my time writing a summary of all the things i need to hand over when last day is for people to slack and wrap up things liao and ended up i stayed til 7.30 then left office. This shouldnt be the way !

Anyway i wont regret leaving this company honestly. they never gave me the sense of belonging in this company. Felt that ever one was self centred. i shall see how long that malay girl can tahan in her current role. give her another 1 yr i am certain she will resign..honestly speaking i am one of the rare one that stayed on for so long in the company..the most people stayed less than a yr..a few months also hv.hai !

since monday was last day, tues was a shoik day. had massage with wp to end my muscles and neck pain. it was really shoik cos one time all the pain is gone ! after which went to SIM for training for a 2 days job that i gg commit.and of cos it pays well so i am going to volunteer myself as team leader since they poach me to be one. its good money so i shall be hardworking and earn back all the losses i get for this month. After which meet dear to have my last final good meal before i really become poor having not to work..we ordered 5 courses of western.abit siao but well i said its the last good meal liao.

these few days really slack and i truely enjoy the time cos damn long nv enjoyed such quality time liao. next week shall start my job hunting !!

last day tmr ! ~

tmr will be officially my last day of work. cant wait feeling happy cos I am finally freed ! but yeah this also means that I am starting to be penniless cos no income. My ex student mum sms me if I wanna teach piano again. hai but honestly speaking I do not have the confidence to teach her daughter anymore cos I dun see any improvements de.as a teacher I hope to see some improvements so that at least I know wat I am teaching it relaly went into her brain. so I have not given her an ans although this might come into the right opportunity to earn some income when I am jobless now..

so this week was quite fruitful actually. Monday took MC to edit my cover letter but apparently I didn't know much things tt day too. But my shoulders and neck and indeed aching that's why I have to see doc..perhaps its really the strain that I have been ignoring.tues went to eat thai food delicacies. Its really awesome just that not full enough cos it was just like a food tasting...thurday met up with dear and went Avalon for a event..After which had dinner at Jin shan. Man that place is super atas and ex.one plate of 4 pieces of tofu cost $20 !! and one bowl of fried rice which I felt that was so so cost  $20 too ! everything is just over priced but oh well, its MBS so its kinda meant for tourist. But honestly speaking, I dun think the food is really that food, but perhaps presentation is quite different.

And Saturday was something different as I went to learn coffee art. Its kinda interesting cos I finally got to know hw do these ppl actually draw cute pictures on latte or cappuccino and after the lesson I actually know wats the difference between them although they always sounded the same to me, just different way of preparing them.

my eyes are like panda now. cant wait to have my beauty rest and recover the skin and no dark rings eyes when I was still schooling..seriously I think I have aged quite a bit after working. ;( .

1 more week to freedom which also means the start of my poor days !

its 4.29am now and I haven sleep !! OH NO ! actually I woke up at 1.30 pm today. so kinda kind of awake now and its Monday nw..I left 3 hrs more to sleep before going for work..But I decided to take MC..yes should just utilise this for the last time before I leave the company officially. cant believe that this is my last week and I am busy doing mobilizing for my colleagues. Shouldn't the final week be the time to wrap up stuff? and yes I do have a lot of things to clear on the laptop and my table too ! chunk of rubbish !!

last week was quite free for me. Monday met up with ter pass him USS tic..tues zhuo bo I think, wed meet up with dear for black ball cos he was really tired after work so cant go anywhere. Thurday met up with wp for cover letter discussion and Friday went expo alone to check out COMEX..ended up went to eat and see other stuff..zzz eventually when I tired to enter the COMEX at 9.30pm..those stupid security stopped me in and I didn't get to check out the rates that I wanna check for desktop and broadband packages..zzz

weekend wanted to go JB de for massage cos my shoulder is aching terribly..duno why ever since I started working, my shoulders always hurt. but dear damn bad promise me liao dun wan pei me go..and stupid mum wanted to tag along to jb with us..so she really a big lightbulb lo !! so I tink abt it, indeed its really very sian to go on dates with her tagging along. so end up never go and chose to sleep instead ;(

sigh hope tmr will be a better day.got tones of things to do before I leave the company. !! 5 more days to go!! jiayou !!

work load lightened alot ! ~whee~

Ever since I resign, life seems really relax for me..feel so much better lo..cos everyday so busy sourcing for new positions really very tiring and worst, if can find nvm..If cant find will get damn stress cos no CV to produce..and yes I totally heck care now..never really give CV now although I still have 2 more wk to go before I finally resign..anw got new staff coming in so I can relax liao..but now I have to think about what do I want to do in the near future..defintely not as a recruitment consultant anymore becos I dislike this industry..Its very sales oriented and a lot of time its dependant on luck factor, which is not something that I have..my luck has always been very lousy..so I really hav to look for jobs that need hard work..

 

This week I had more meet up with dear…Monday went to jcube for dinner and eat ice cream..Tues went for thai steamboat and wed went for movie !! rarely I get to meet dear so many times a week lo so I must say the time is short when we are together ! Thursday and Friday decided to go home earlier to prepare for one of the govt job application cos this weekend is the deadline and I really hope that after putting so much effort, at least I get to attend their interview. At least from there, I can access how well I do for interviews becos afterall I only went for one interview for my current job and I did a lousy job in replying my ans..but apparently they still hire me..oh well..

 

News spread really fast in company indeed..those higher management staff already knew I resigned and one of them ask me why I wanted to resign..come on, people always wan to resign for certain reason..of cos I wouldn’t tell the trust or main reason that I wanna resign..so I put it in a nicer way..i say that I wanted to change a different industry, which is what I always wanted to do when I started the job cos initially I dun like the job alrdy but I stayed on til a yr.. I could have stayed longer for the aws but seriously I duno if I can tahan til then..the criticising and constant asking about KPI and why aren’t I performing..i am tired of all these liao..just give me a break man ! supervisor kept on asking me again if I really want to resign even up to now..i think he kept on thinking that I resign becos of the manager lectured me..that could be a reason but seriously I doubt I can work with such people anymore..honestly speaking sometimes he should find out the reason cause first before jumping into conclusion..last fri also anyhow send email to confront people when small employees has limited say in the company..if the higher management dun approve the doc, how u want them to proceed..seriously I just dun understand why cant he see this problem..all in his mind is, the employee is inefficient cos she didn’t process the candidate salary on time, BUT I have to emphasize again ! she has limited control over that..i wasn’t helping her at all, but I am just trying to be logical and be fair to everyone. Well, he give me the unhappy face, but I dun give a damn cos its none of my business anymore.

 

Counting down to 2 weeks to my last day ! feel like taking MC liao cos my whole body really aching badly !! ;(

did i make the right decision by resigning at this point of time? tell me about it !

this week many things happened..most of which are really unhappy stuff..Monday took half day leave, or rather mc to SGH to visit the eye specialist for my eye..the initial plan was to do a follow up and discuss with the document which treatment should I seek for..but duno why ended up I did the electrolysis procedure on the day..It was a mini operation which lasted for half an hour..and I waited bloody long just for my turn..and doctor say that this will be the temporary solution at the moment. If the lashes grow back and touches my cornea again, I will have to do another electrolysis again or a eye lid surgery..so pray hard that the lashes wouldn't grow again cos I dun wan do the procedure again cos its really very painful.Nurses poke needles on my eye lid to numb the area so that they can poke the needle into the roots of my eyelash and zap it with current. So obviously with current, its really painful and worst, it bleed a lot !! really grouse and disgusting !! but what can I do man, I just gonna tahan the pain not having to shout out. and the good thing about the procedure is I get free mc after that...doctor ask me how many days of mc I wanted..wanted to say 3 days to cover the day itself and 2 days to rest, but when I thought of some work that was unattended for me and I am supposed to submit them to the client by tues, so I decided to be nice to the company and take 2 days leave.1 day to cover my mini operation and one day to rest.

But people are really so ungrateful ! come back office on Wednesday manager called me up for a chat..The chat in fact is some lecturing session which makes me feel stupid and dumb..he keep asking me why aren't I performing recently..i should be the one asking this back ok cos I am not doing my scope of work that I used to did in the past and sourcing crews are really not my field of expertise and I sucked at it cos I did source for them before while covering for my ex colleague when she was on leave. Come on la, am I wrong? no one teach me anything and I have to figure them myself slowly and this take time too ya ! you want 50-60 CVs in a wk..how can it be attainable for someone who has zero knowledge on this field. Please be realistic CAN !! and now you come blaming me that I have one year of experience and yet I still doesn't seems to know much..come on la, other agency also got recruiters who specialized in a different field. You don't expect me to cover all area of knowledge when even my current job scope I am still learning plus when I am hired, its agreed upon that I look for white collars crews not blue collars..now I am doing double work !! whatever la, to me I am really pissed at those comment.. don't wan promote me jiu forget le cos I dun wan to be promoted either cos I feel I have reached that level yet..but that is not the issue, I am pissed at the whole organization.. I dun like doing things basing on my feel and by guessing..This is what I am doing now to source for blue collar crews,..and when I made a mistake in giving unsuitable cvs, I get blamed..in the first place, you should ask yourself, did you provide me with the training that I always wanted..i have told them earlier that I feel that training is really very important to me. I do not want to do my work with that uncertain feeling of guessing if he is right of suitable for the opening. Hai ~ so I was angry and I really thought of what I really wanted to do in my next phrase of life as I was already thinking of tendering.. actually I longed wanted to tender but I always wanted to tender in dec after getting aws. but somehow I must be out of my mind to tender last Wednesday after I came back from my mc..my supervisor didn't want to accept my letter cos he felt that I wasn't serious about resigning and he ask me to think about it carefully again. I told him that my stand will still be the same and fri I gave the letter to him again and he accepted..i felt relieved that I have finally tendered but now what worries me is what am I going to do in my next phrase of working life..i do not want to work as recruitment consultant anymore..wanna change a new industry..got some agencies poach me but I dun wan cos I am tired of this line liao..its really very results oriented and if you don't perform well, you are out of the company ! I MUST BE CRAZY TO RESIGN NOW cos that aws could actually be used to sponse my Sydney and melbourne trip in nov ! hai but sometimes really buay tahan liao so no choice.

tues also celebrated dear bday. went to restaurant eat and nothing special happen actually..i am lousy at preparing surprise. even the present he alrdy know is a bag but I changed design last minute.the restaurant was lousy and I wont want to go back again. portion so small and charge so ex ( $34 ) for a main course..zzz

thur and fri had hair treatment  and facial..seriously sometimes I really doubt can online deals stuff be purchased or not cos some really lousy to the max !! the hair treatment was damn lousy and I really doubt if the hair dresser really pass her exam or not cos the way she put the hair treatment on my hair is using bare hands !! wth usually people will use a glove and brush but she use nothing ! just dig out the treatment from the tub and apply on my hair ! sibei professional la !!

kay tmr is another working day again !! sian !!

feeling really vexed !!

                  this whole week really busy..Monday meet dear for a movie but apparently I have to work late so end up miss the front part of the show..Tues went for my last eye treatment..was really tempted to sign up for more sessions but its really ex ;( Wednesday was busy for me too.work til really late til 8pm then ended work..Thurday met with dear again for dinner at sun ray café.. Friday met up with my good friend, wp..She talk to me a lot on my decision to resign. She support my decision whereas my mum totally agreed it when I haven found a job and wan to resign.but I really cant tahan le..first of all, I not performing well in sales ( not closing enough placements ), secondly now got KPI liao, so the more I stress.. and I really not happy doing operations work liao..I was not hired to do operations de and now I am doing just becos my ex colleague have left and they decided to ask me source for marine crew, which is something I hate it cos its really very jialat and imagine you need to find 20+ people on board the vessel, which can commence work asap..first of all where to find ! and come on, I will be crazy reading and requesting all the related documents from all these 20+ people.they going flood my email and worst still some don't even reply all my questions in a single email and they like to send me info piece by piece and I get really irritated cos they make me waste more time by reading more email when I have a lot of email to read liao. I am really sian liao..I dun feel anything that I can stay on..All my colleagues have left and the joy that I used to be working as a team no longer persist. Had a cold war with current colleague and I shall keep it a secret that I am leaving..since she has been wanting me to leave, I am leaving for real this time.

meanwhile, while I am jobless I shall try to cut down on my expenses..no choice, I have to go back to sch days and be thrifty.

Sat also went for colour run.. It was really bad..the body and face are badly stained with red dye..damn ! wanted to be as clean as possible so that I need not wash my clothes that jialat when I got home.. Apparently the more I siam, the more dye I got.zzz but honestly speaking, I wouldn't want to join this the sec time liao..play one time for me is enough,..

Sunday had a food tasting..ate and simple like 6 dishes til damn full..afterwhich went for a high tea break with all the muffins and bread jam..generally the food is good !

I am so tired and tmr need to work again. but lucky is half day for me cos I gg SGH again. should I do the eye procedure or an eye lid surgery?? All cost equally ex and when I am jobless I guess I just have to save save save !!

back from korea and i feel stress again

I am back from korea a few days back and everything is back to normal again..i am really very work stress now. cant produce enough good CV and boss kinda not very happy with my performance..hai what to do ;( wanna resign yet I am stuck at a venture where I cant resign now cos of aws and I am going for a trip in Nov which is like 2 weeks..how can I resign like that...the initial plan of me promoting was called off cos management not very happy with my work..They say I not very pro active in following up with clients and I do not produce enough good CV. Hai honestly speaking when something screwed up once, you get blamed for everything but once you done something good, people don't remember and praise you. I did something good for the company before but apparently no one mention that. I took about 4-5 months to follow up on a case and no one mention that. Yet, they kept on picking on one of the mistake I made.Honestly speaking I don't think that is my mistake too cos I was not the one doing it.. My role was just to supervisor the procedure and push people but apparently people like me do not like to push ppl so I got the blame eventually. Hai !!! LQM time to faster change job and look harder ! cant wait to resign..my feeling for tis job has turn from dislike to hate ! seriously don't understand why am I working over the weekend also just to get CV cos I scared the following day has no CV...working life should not be like that. and I don't earn much commission since I entered and worked for a yr..so I would say the push factor to resign is quite high. After thinking for long, I really think that this isn't the line that suits me..well the management change rules now..now got KPI and sales target to hit..u know people like me hate sales target and I definitely do not perform well. I prefer a rountine fix job which you give me a fix task to do everyday cos I will know what to expect everyday. I have a lot of uncertainity in this job..ask me to find ppl and I am not very certain..don't like the uncertain feeling...this is not a job should be going abt.

nevertheless I will update more on my korea trip soon when I am free..come back really busy..jeju, busan and seoul generally not too bad..jeju more of sceneary and I got terribly burn, but one good thing is we rented a car so life was easier for us. busan was more of a city life..but sad thing was I quarrelled with dear on our trip at the beach..he made me very sad over this trip..made me cry two times cos he laugh at me in front of my friends. I already feel very inferior all along, and he came laughing together with my other friends..of cos my heart feel very sad and angry..and he has no patience..whenever I wanna shop, he kept on rush me but he has the patience to wait for other people but just not me,..hai how can I not be angry and sad leh..generally he made me upset for 2 times lo !! But this stupid guy say sorry so I forgive him..zzz seoul was more of shopping for beauty treats...pz and tc bought masks and skin care like crazy..yes but I am not like them, I didn't bought much cos my hse has already quite a few and I hv yet to finish and there is always an expiry so no point buying so much cos I cant finish using within that 2 yrs expiry..girls always have the tendency to buy more during sales and its really proven on pz..she buy like no one business !! MAN I see liao also shocked !


came back korea was hectic with work, tons of email to clear and I am really tired..mum and I kept on quarrelling and I cant stand her..she threw a lot of my stuff away when I was in korea..and I hate ppl touching my stuff cos she always like to arrange my stuff and when I cant find my stuff in the old positions I put, I get angry and pissed..and whenever I cant find it, most of the time its thrown away by her..seriously dun understand why must see always intrude into my privacy..every single cent also have to see and ransack..wallet, cupboard and every corner of the house also wanna ransack..DAMN !! I am really tired..cant wait to get out of the house by 30..let me get rich soon and own my own hse so that I can have peace..

~work unhappiness~

It has been quite some time since I last updated my blog. And yes I miss my blog as much as I miss my dear. Recently have been very troubled over work. Got scolded and blame for no reason when I am not the one doing the work..in fact I was the one doing the coordinating only and when things don’t get well, I became the scapegoat and get scolded for no reason. And I am not happy about it cos its not me who delayed the whole mobilization procedure as like I say I am not the one doing it ! I am just giving task to my colleagues in my other branches office to do. So not totally my fault so I was really unhappy about it ever since that meeting with the manager we kind of have a cold war..he didn’t talk to me and I didn’t talk to him either although usually we will joke here and there.

 

And yesterday I chose to take mc although my eyes wasn’t that bad..cos I really need a rest for my eyes. I have been feeling constant pain on and off on my left eye and I suspect that it has something to do with my ingrown lash which causes the pain, thus I do not want to over exert my eyes now. For the past few weeks, I kept on getting the pain and its really very enjoying and give me lots of trouble as I cant see clearly and I do get constant headache, really very jialat..i do feel bad that I kept on taking mc but really no choice..yesterday is I took mc on purpose as I had a shoot in the morning and since I have limited leave already so decided to take mc as alternative. I like my Korean makeup and the makeover really makes me like a Korean and the receptionist said that I really stunning after the makeover..of cos la its professional makeup artist help me makeover de how can I not look chio rite. But the thing is dear dun like my wavy hair cos he say I look mature. ;( actually I like that wavy hair cos its somehow diferent from my current look.haha

 

These few days I was feeling really down cos first of all, my colleague who is younger than me lecture me and I really damn bu shuang cos who is she in the position that she can lecture me when she is just a junior level in the company..and the way she phrase her message really very rude and I dislike tt..i duno how long the cold war going last as I really feel very troubled seeing her black face everyday. Who is she to question that why haven I leave although I kept saying that I wanna leave the company soon. True indeed that I wanna leave but I have my reason for staying on. I not so dumb to leave now when bonuses are to be given out soon. Come on, I have worked for the past 1 yr, at least I have to press on for that bouses rite if not I leave for nothing.. Honestly speaking I just feel damn bu shuang that she question me in this way and moreover she is 3 yrs younger than me. Stop talking to me as if you are an adult and knowing me very well. DAMN..Indeed I am furious but what can I say. I shall just face her blackface everyday then. Hope it wont affect my work in the long run. I told dear abt it and dear told me that I don’t have a sense of belonging in the company. What he say is true indeed as I use to enjoy working together as a team with my ex colleague previously but all of them have left and new comers have come. I can sense that this lady is very determined to climb up the ladder and I am very certain that she is eyeing on promotion if given a chance. Seriously I don’t care about all these promotion la. To me, as long as I am happy with my work and salary I am ok. Hai ~

 

Nevermind, apart from the sad thing, there are happy things happening in the past few weeks. My mum actually tag along me and dear to jb.. I didn’t want her to tag along cos she is really a big lightbulb but she insisted else she wont give me my passport ;( after the trip hope she is better with dear. Hopefully better impression now cos dear isn’t as bad as what she think, except for poor.

 

Another thing is my 23^rd anniversary was a surprised too although dear didn’t celebrate it with me. Giving me a surprise is already a good celebration..He left a cake outside my door step and I was really really touched cos I didn’t expect him to do that. This was kinda sweet I would say.. ;) my mum was down there smiling cos she got free cake to eat and me myself happy too cos I like cakes !!

 

Nevertheless, next week I am going korea le ! honestly speaking, I cant wait man ! cant wait to take a break from work ! I am really burnt out le working for this one yr without much rest.

 

GIVE ME A BREAK NOW !

 

 

 

 

A happening week !

this week took half day leave to cook for dear for his lunch. I cooked sambal prawns and dumpling..no main course so dear kind of hiam..haha but I don't like eating noodles or rice ma ;( evening went to JEM. That mall is really huge..its practically like another orchard ! I shall go there again if I have the time.

tues and wed stayed late in office cos the haze was really bad, so don't feel like going out and walking cos staying in office might smell better..Thurday went for facial and I felt cheated cos somehow I felt that the service wasn't as good as what it was when we decided to sign the package..looks like wp was right. ;(

and fri the haze finally got better so I met up with dear for dinner at MBS..seriously one pizza and one baked mushroom rich cost $70 after GST for a meal is really damn ex ! and I don't find the food really that nice. I guess its the ambience afterall. nxt wk I gg there again..seems like recently have been earing non stop !

Saturday went for a super high concert for JPOP and KPOp singer..nevertheless was a bit sian diao cos our seats damn far from stage. and the images we saw really tiny..hai but better than nothing since its a free ticket. But generally the concert is really high especially with SNSD and 2NE1 !

Hello blog-one month of updates

Its been almost a month since I last updated my blog. This month was kinda a busy month as weekend I am always out for events hardly got time to update nowadays. Brother has left for Sydney again last month and somehow the time spent with him was short. But I will be there in Sydney again in Dec. I think I am really lucky to be called up for scoot contest in the cinema and my dad got called up too. Somehow that night I just wanted to try my luck or rather I just wanted the get the $50 Voucher so that I can use it to buy my scoot tics..never will I expect to get a return tickets to Sydney cos the contest kind of like screwed up everyone in the cinema so to apologises for that, the management decided to give us a return tic to Sydney. So its really zuan dao and drop from the sky ! but one thing is I have a problem, I needa return to Singapore by 4^th dec but my brother’s graduation is on 13 dec. So I cant really utilise the return tic. Actually my aim purpose to go Sydney is to explore Melbourne and help my brother carry his stuff back but if that’s the case, I might just forfeit my dad’s return tic rather than wasting two tics cos flying to Sydney is really not cheap !! and I have to pay for my mum’s ticket too ! its like one month of pay gone just by flying a plane ! But ya I am still thinking on when to return to Singapore cos the cost of the ticket is really a problem. Not I dun wan attend my bro’s graduation ceremony but taking into consideration of the additional luggage that  I gg check in ( maybe 40KGS ) I will go bankrupt for all 3 ppl as its always a better option to carry them back rather than air mail all the 5 yrs stuff that I my bro hav in Sydney. In a way I helping them to save money but mum couldn’t understand my intention. ;(

 

Apart from that, I went for a pool party at sentosa cove W hotel. It’s a super atas place and I would say there are a lot of pretty babes and hunk ! and where do I stand..hmmm I no figure or long hair totally no match for them. All of them really hot man..but the food is seriously ex over there..i always assume that since it’s a pool party aren’t the food in the event free too ;( but apparently its not !

 

And last weekend went to ubin with dear. Long time never exercise alrdy so decided to try out cycling. Dear kinda poor thing cos he has to cycle double bike. But I didn’t leach him cos it will be tough for him to cycle all the uneven road so I really tried my best to cycle afterall I dun wan to tired him too much. After which we went for food exploration in Changi V.

 

This weekend was just nuahing at home. Really dun feel lik going anywhere cos every tired everyday go out. But my eyes have been feeling really tired and pain L sigh is it a sign that my eye power is going to increase or my eyes are just purely tired? One thing about I dun lik my job is becos I need to read CV constantly and its really v tiring for my eyes. And when can I resign from my job ;( I really wan my healthy eyes back and my dark rings pls go away. I cant imagine after working , I kept on having dark rings despite having many hours of sleep already..its really the blood circulation problem so I have no choice but to sign up for eye treatment package..really cant see myself ageing from last time to now. Like they always say, women hate to age !

 

Yawns yawns I dun wan to go work tmr !  

3 days of MC is never enough

              u know I really have the temptation to resign becos I am really tired now..past 3 days of MC is definitely not long at all.apparently the weather was damn hot last week so I couldn't sleep..i dun remember me sleeping well at all..in fact kept on disturbed by my brother and mum in the morning..zzz my dark rings nv got better despite sleeping so much le.hai I look seriously very shag now. when can I ever get back the young and energetic look that I used to have when I am studying.. ;(

Last mon and tues nuah at home to do my stuff..wed was the happening thing where I went to a couple of place to collect my stuff and had good food. first went to collect my movie tickets, after which went to sentosa cove, W Singapore for the lunch buffet at the "kitchen table" ..Man this place is super duper atas..I think I kind of undress liao for that buffet..didn't thought its so atas..got yacht by the bay for view..super enjoy the ambience,. but the buffet really not cheap ehh ! perhaps its meant for atas ppl to go..but walking in from the bus drop point to W Singapore is super damn far..i got lost for almost an hour til I almost wanted to give up..Sentosa is really damn freaking big ! 

After which went to collect my twelve cupcakes and meet up wif my brother for ice skating since the vochur expiring ;( sian initially buy to play wif dear but he couldn't make it..But somehow this time I wasn't as scared as before when I skate. in fact I can skate without holding the railing le..and the amazing part is I didn't fall down a single time at all.. after skating went to itacho wif my bro..damn bastard this guy waste damn food. he say the sushi too much rice alrdy..threw away all the rice and ate the ingredient..zzz

 

 

 

thur and fri came back for work..work is horrible.so many mess to clear up..really sian..zzzz cant even do my proper job..damn long nv do sourcing for CV liao..like tt how to earn commission if I dun source. everyday just follow up with those timesheet payment and get bug by those irriating ass candidates asking for their salary when its not me who is giving me the salary !! seriously very tired of this liao..


yesterday went to watch the star treks..the movie not too bad but its kinda a guy movie I feel..cos it talks abt spaceship..zzz but nvm since its a free tic from bro's friend just go watch lo..zzz tmr back to work again..sigh ;(
  

terrible week-food poisoning !

Wed went to town with dear for food hunt..ate curry noodle at sakae sushi..After that for our second round ramen..$18 for 2 bowl..quite ok for restaurant..if its not one for one, I doubt I will want to try it out cos its kinda ex for $18 per bowl..

Thur decided to went back home early cos just tired needa some rest..Friday went for clothes sales at expo with pz..sadded didn't buy anything cos wanted to get a maxi le but cant zip ;(

Saturday was supposed to celebrate tc bday but stomach was damn bloated that day..totally cant eat buffet..some more its dinner buffet. I dun like eating dinner buffet cos too full at nite I cant sleep and feel very uncomfy..lunch buffet still ok cos at least still got the whole day to digest..

The terrible thing happen yesterday when I felt very sick..lied on the bed cant move..headache was very pain,stomach very pain too and I had diarrhoea 8 times and fever til I felt damn weak..first time got no energy to even walk properly..really struggled to walk from my hse to visit the clinic at pioneer mall, but the MC gave me the motivation so that I can rest at home..really too tired working for so long and everyday everyone comes bothering you for payment and money..really very irritated liao..today on MC also got ppl come find me for money, lucky my office hp no batt else even I am on MC also no peace.. 

nevertheless felt very touched yesterday night that my dad was worried abt me not able to walk home so he decided to go the clinic see me for a while..before I visited the doc, I was really weak, even thought that I cant walk home cos legs felt very jelly. But somehow after trying to walk around instead of sitting down, I gained more energy and sweated more and my fever subsidized..

Yesterday was glad that I somehow helped dear gain some credit..cos ytd is mother's day..dear wanted to buy pizza deliver to my hse ( But sadly I cant eat cos I food poisoning until like that ) ..at least it will somehow change mum perception of him..i wanna change her perception that dear isn't what she thought..my dear dear is a nice guy..ytd on my way back home, my dad mentioned as long as the guy loves me and can take care of the family, able to support future family and has good character is more than enuff..yes I tink so too..money to me aren't really a big issue..as long as I have enuff to support everyone that is gd enough.car isn't essential at all, duno why mum keep wanting a car..i seriously dun see the point. ZZZ

brother is finally back after 4 yrs plus !

last sun bro finally came back spore..couldn't sleep for that night initially after he came back cos he was packing his stuff and was really noisy..zzz and the day after was his first day of work..wanted to watch iron man 3 on last Monday de, but end up only left with 1st and 3rd row..seriously I wont want to tired my neck just by sitting so front before the screen..its not worth...so ended up having dinner at JP with dear.

Tuesday met up with my JC girls to catch up..apparently as we stepped into different phase of life, we want diff things..i have yet to find my goals in life..hai when will I ever find my goals?? I am just wondering aimlessly everyday with no aims and motivations..;(

Wednesday dear suddenly had fever..so decided to take half day urgent leave to visit him,..then buy him porridge eat..when he sick wanna sayang and this stupid dear say duno why today like me a lot...zzz he say maybe he is weak tat's why he like me a lot that day..come on, he should like me everyday !! not just that day !!

alrights today went to some fashion show cos was really too bored..saw a lot of GBGS girls and they really damn zzz.. some gave the super sian look when I lost the lucky draw..seriously come on la, I tink u guys are richer than me..i really got turned off by their actions..that day had my hair make over into perms..its abit auntie but dear says its a fresh look ! ok honestly speaking I still prefer straight hair..

then this weekend went to hotel fort canning for sunday brunch buffet..seriously the food not really fantastic..not hot at all the food..very disappointing cos its supposed to be an atas restaurant but the food aren't nice..and the worst thing is they charge $83 like that after GST for 2 pax..lucky this is FOC.otherwise I wont even want to spend such expensive brunch especially its not really that nice..

honestly speaking, where can I ever find good buffet..so far never eaten really good ones..

And I have so much chocolates how to finish sia..I tink I will take half a yr to finish !! OMG !!

this worst scary week ever-the feeling of a blind women for a short while

this week was a bad week for me..suddenly no vision for a short while-in fact was totally blind..cant even see any image..this is the wost i experience.. so today woke up in the morning, felt very scared too..scared once i open my eyes no vision again..yes its really that scary..i shall elobrate further in the post..

Monday was a random day where we decided to go drinking at new aisa bar at swiss hotel there.. I wanted to bring dear up there since he hasnt gone up there for a drink, plus its happy hour so why not go for a chill..actually my motive is just to eat the wedges only..didnt want to drink cos i dont drink anw..But dear like to try new drinks so suggested this place...

Thur went to catch a movie..disappointing cos the movie was lousy..no plot at all..just telling random stories of the spring break..and yes i tink i dun like these kind of no plot movies..

and so the big thing actually happen yesterday went i went to a club for some event after work wif dear..duno why i totally blackout suddenly when the metal hardrock music was really loud..yes initally i felt very uncomfortable as my heart was beating really fast and i felt some pain in the heart..after a while i felt like vommitting but somehow cant vomit out..then all of the sudden, my vision became blurry and red and out of the sudden it became totally black and no vision at all..when that happened to me, i was so scared, hug dear dear cos i duno wat to do as i cant see..lucky he was with me, else i couldnt never get to go out of the club without he telling me how to get out of the club since i cant see anything..equally to a blind person..but gradually once i got out of the club, i regain my vision slowly..at least now can see colours not red vision..but heart stil felt pain at that point of time..and i felt weak too..cant walk properly..even up to today somehow i haven regain the energy that i used to have originally..somehow something is not right but i duno wat is it..

sigh initally today was supposed to go out for a play..end up at this state i cant go out..i needa visit the night clinic to check what's happening, else i will feel more scared..hope its not something really serious.. ;(

My 26th birthday was wonderful and memorable ;)

It been 2 weeks since I last updated my blog. Had a pretty enjoyable day for the past 2 weeks. Last 2 weeks was totally packed with activities. Watch a very nice Korean movie, then friend celebrate my pre-birthday wanting to queue and try out the famous hong kong restaurant but unfortunately when we reached there, the queue is freaking damn long and it might probably take ard 2 hrs to reach our turn, so ended up we had Thai food at PS. The thai food was gd, in fact somehow different from Thai express. Then past 2 weeks went for savour 2013 too with my mum. Cant imagine going with her as I was thinking since I have the tickets and she never had good food before, so aiya just be nice to her for once. When we reached there and tried the food, it was really disappointing as every food portion is so small and it alrdy cost $10+ . most of which is $14-18 and the portion is freaking small like appetizer. Walao is this even call a main course?? Its more like for kids meal ba…really disappointed man.

 

Friday was my departure for the Port Dickson trip…honestly speaking even until Friday I don’t even know where I am going and where to meet dear. InITALly thought that we are going there by coach, but I was wrong. He ask me to meet at immigration, so confirm need to travel via JB le. And becos I really don’t get the idea of how in a way solving the puzzle can give me a clue to my destination. When he guided me step by step I finally came to a conclusion why he says that after you finish solving the puzzle, you will know where you are going. Bf is really full of ideas and creativity, honestly speaking which bf will go to the extend of designing puzzle and making QR scan for you just to decode the photos..most people would probably just tell you the destination that they will be going, instead of going through such effort to keep the suspense. For that, I really admire dear cos he is quite gd at that. Hehe at least I didn’t chose the wrong guy. One thing which I felt wasted was the coach bus trip as we couldn’t reach the larkin terminal on time. Man you should see how congested and packed the whole immigration was when I left on Friday nite..totally un-imaginable as I didn’t expect to jam until like tat. Really bad man. So reach Seremban around 2-3am le. Check into an ulu hotel and headed to take a coach bus to port Dickson the following day.. Went to their city to stay for a night. The hotel is cui. Freaking damn small and I cant even walk much in the room. But lucky cos I am only staying there for a nite. That night we went to explore the malay bazaar and went to explore a super ulu Chinese restaurant..i didn’t want to go there as it was really dark and ulu but dear wanted cos he say its famous..port Dickson this place really inconvenient man. No bus nor taxi.damn hard to get to your desired destination. My final day was at Grand Lexis, which is a super atas hotel. Probably got 5 star hotel. Felt so happy staying there as there is private pool in my own room, and the bed is freaking damn big. 2 king size bed is really damn huge. Can roll here and there even with no space constraints. That night was my birthday and I was really happy spending my night there. Afternoon took a swim or rather soak in the pool inside my room, after which decided to explore the whole hotel campus. The hotel is freaking big and it has everything. All you need is money to enjoy these activities. At night I was really random, saw a pizza advertisement on the TV, so decided to call in pizza to our room. And best is there is room service til to our room. No need for me to even go to the hotel lobby to collect. This is wat I call living the life of a tai tai. And best of all, the pizza is hot and gd and its so damn cheap. But we spend $3.20 RM on the international call la. But nvm its still cheap.

 

Last day headed back to SG. Was feeling damn bu se de cos felt really happy with all the freedom for the past few days. And tues had to return to workplace. ;(

Next week bro will be returning back to Singapore to do his internship. Shall see how he tahan mum..i am certain he cant stand her like I do. We shall see !