~shit i shouldnt have pick up tat call !~

sat and sun was at home nuahing man..and today i have been waiting for calls patiently but none called and worst still the phone call tat i picked up was my agent tat i broke contract wif..shit man, how come i didnt recognise her voice when usually i am gd at recognising her voice..shit man !!!!!!! i have to clear up this shitty trouble now..

haiz i wish the dentistry dept can hire me man, reali hope can work there.cos wanna learn new stuff ..or sch of medicine i also dun mind..actually i realised i prefer working in the medical or health field as compared to other sectors..perhaps i am the same as my bro ba, both of us like the medical field but i am not smart enough to enter this field so have to go into engineering. i tink biosci sector also quite nice also..my ex company not too bad but i am kinda sick of tat environement le, so wanna try something new..

and how should i go abt get close to him huh..wa lao i did think seriously, its abit hard lei..haiz haiz unless have to get can moo help !

day at marina barrage- nice !

bubbles everywhere -whee ;)

our flying "bat" kite
NICE water fall !


Thur went down for interview wif the agent..first its damn lame la, but if i dun go down interview then they cant find jobs for us then i will be jobless..so yeah bo bian i "Forced" myself to go there even though i am kinda sian to travel down just for the interview, which is more of taking up of particulars..lol and the temp agent still ask if i wanna be an agent or not..pls, i straight away turned down before even tinking cos agent is a damn hard job even though there is commision...and i was rite to guess correctly tat he is a youngster..lol ORD some more and waiting for entry to uni..cos from the way he talk to me on phone i knew he is from tat age grp..anw tat day he reali damn garang man, straight away tat evening help me find one job lobang liao..actually i can start work on mon de, but i scared regret signing the contract so fast then later got more job offer than i sure sian diao one..so yeah i decided to wait a while more..haiz..i am still waiting for tat HR reply from hospital..lol

anw fri which was a public holiday met up wif wp, tanu and anjana for kite flying at marina there and it was my first time here..kinda nice to chill up and picnic over there ;) hehe and the kite flying was fun too ! although our kite string kept on getting tangled up and blocking ppl way and at certain times our big kite almost "knocked" onto ppl..haha so moral of story is we reali need more skills to fly a kite man..but its nice la.. ;) maybe i can go there again wif my uni clique again.. whoo !

~sem 2 results out~

ytd i finally decided to find a job seriously le..send out many many resumes..i have to start working by june le and earn some money..almost 1 month of slacking and idling ard should be enough le ba..i have finished most of the taiwan dramas online and practically i am damn damn sian now..need to find some money else go out also cant spend money..haiz..

anw ytd was the release of results..haiz this time did much better than last sem but results still cui la...sian lei everyone did kinda well onli me tat's lously..anyway i wasnt sad at all ytd, in fact i dun feel anything seh..duno why perhaps i am immune to tat sad feeling liao man..too many da ji til i feel nothing now..i am IMMUNE ! seriously i very kan kai nw le cos i feel results not everything la..anyway i doubt i wan to be an engineer when i graduate..so yeah it doesnt reali make alot of diff.. and yeah when is my hospital job going to get bac to me man??? ..i scared like tat time when i confirm wan to take up a job then last min so late then get bac to me saying there are vanacy then i sure sian diao one..hai hai hai..

~a call that made me damn happy~

guess wat ytd i received a call from him, then i was super super happy la..though its just a short call but i was super happy..lol..initally i didnt know its him cos tat line has no caller id..then he was saying can i speak to qm..then i still thought its some agent sia..chey made me so scared to talk in my normal voice la cos i am supposed to be overseas now since i bluffed my agent tat my auntie died..lol..

anyway tat nite went ken hse to bake the muffins then it FAILED..so obviously since it failed alrdy so we didnt put in effort to decorate it la..lol..but i tink baking muffins seriously damn easy sia.. ;) today met up wif playmate again to do one study in NTU..wa lao its a damn freaking tedious study..;( alrights i am off to teach piano and share my muffins wif her ! haha

~outing wif the gers~

fri was out wif ben ang to sch first, then after which we headed for bugis for dinner then went to national library there to sit down to relax since we cant find anywhere to go to le..haiz i tink i reali no feeling for him alrdy man..the chemistry has died off..1 yr alrdy still like tat..although he still very shuai but then the feeling reali no more liao...

then sat i went running cos i tink my face and arms reali gain weight liao..sian lei ;(

sun i was out wif the jc gers in the afternoon to marina sands there to check it out the casino since i nv went there before..after which went up wif can moo for luo zhi xiang autograph session..initally the entrance was locked one and so ppl wif no album cant go in of cos..but one of the kid was kinda nice to tell us there is a back door tat can allow us to have access to the autograph session then we damn happy la..cos at least our trip isnt wasted..we didnt managed to have a close up of him initally but later we did manage to "shift our position" to get a closer look of him and he is like omg !!!!!!!! reali he is damn damn dashing and he is just look like some prince charming, oh man i can moo was saying tat he is just close to her then she is sure to hug him..yeah i would do tat if he is close to us, but then we didnt get a chance la..so we can happy dream abt it man..haha..anyway after which we went to swensens to have our sticky chewy chocolate and its damn damn sinful..oh man, i am supposed to be on diet but thanks to tat can moo la, kept on desuading me to eat ice cream wif her ;( and we talked our love woes over tat ice cream..looks like she is reali in love wif tat guy..cos she will always tink of him when she sleeps..lol i nv tink of him lei when i sleep..but both of us do have something in common and tat is we always look out for our eyecandy if he is online or not.. even if he is online we dared not talk to him also..we are just happy enough just to see him online and know tat he is fine.. ;) but then both of us hopes tat he can click on us to talk to us..lol sometimes gers are just weird..she encourage me not to hide my feelings and confess to the guy..but how sia, i think the guy sure faint one if i say i like him..but then afterall i am a ger lei how to say !!!!!!

anyway tat steven lim approached me the sec time again at the raffles shopping centre outside..actually i didnt realised its him til he approached me cos he is not reali tat shuai la//if he is reali tat shuai i would hav notice him..but i reali ignored him this time so he didnt get to explain wat he wans from me this time though he keep saying tat he is from the media..lohz as if i duno like tat..past few yrs he asked me to be his model but duno this time wat he wans again..but then the pei seh thing is tat i turned bac to look at him and he saw tat..omg, so pei seh la cos i was telling tanu tat he is steven lim, tat blogger since tanu who he is ma..so i was showing her..and he saw it..gosh its damn damn pei seh..

i am slightly tanned now cos i was under the sun ytd for 20 mins while walking to marina sands there..whee ;) and tonite i am going to ken's hse to bake muffins..hehe..shall give 2 to my student tml and ben ang..the rest i shall just eat myself..haha

sian lei i still dun have to mood to find job lei..i still feel like slacking..3 wks have gone and i am still jobless..actually i do have lots of job offers but i kept on rejecting..haiz..qm qm qm ah..

~die man i tink i am attracted to him !~

ytd was meeting ly day, oh freak i tink i am kinda attracted to him man..wa lao can u pls dun me so nice and gentle to me ( or maybe he is just nice to everyone)..so tat i wouldnt have further hopes..haiz and sooner or later my appt wif him is going to run out soon man..so sad, so kinda have to find excuse to find more chance to meet up wif him..this guy i would say he is very diff from most guy i seen so far..as in the feel he give me la..or perhaps i just like english speaking guy and apparently there isnt much english speaking guy so they wont reali interest me..but yeah this guy certainly is a gd catch, but dun understand why he still single seh and tat can moo keep encouraging me to confess my feeling for him..i tink she is crazy man..i knew him for not tat long, how to confess sia..later he dun like me then its gonna be damn pei seh one la..anyway ytd i kinda like the dress i wore cos apparently when i went for wt 21st those guys commented :" eh this is not ur usual style hor.." hehe of cos its not my usual style la..so obvious, ytd is the floral dress style and my colourful christmas look doesnt apply ytd..ytd the party wasnt tat bored..i guess the environment was pretty nice and the bday girl just look great ytd ! ;) hehe

today met up wif this playmate, its been months since we last met up..he has lost weight somehow and he is bac to his shuai shuai look, but i dun feel for him now..weird ah..haiz duno wat am i tinking also..perhaps now i guess whoever who can touch my heart, i will fall for that whoever..and it depicts the storyline of one taiwan drama by the name of "Bai quan nu wang"..yes although i am not tat old now, but i guess it reali reflects wat i am looking for rite now...

~cancer illness~

anyway my relative 1 yr child just tio some cancer and they came down to sg just for treatment..seriously i tink the 1 yr old child reali very kelian man..so young kana such illness le..haiz duno how long can tat poor child survive..anyway my mum family side has cancer history, i am kinda scared also cos i have the same blood type as my mum..my grandpa died of some cancer, dad tio bladder cancer, my uncle in indo died of cancer also..haiz reali scared also,..looks like i have to take care of my health reali well..;(

tml i am seeing ly, whee ;) and at nite will be attending wt 21st bday !

~the job just sucks~

sat shopped the entire day..shoik man..but sg kinda small man, i almost finish shopping whole of spore le..sat bought one top and its smiliar to a top tat i wanted to buy in taiwan..naise ! hehe and its $10 only..so cheap..then sun went to ubin wif the uni clique..sad man i didnt manage to tanned much..lohz and somewat i still cant overcome my phobia of steep slopes when i descend down the slope, cos somewat i am scared cos i was thrown out of the bike when i was cycling in ubin tat time..then tat day had zhi char at ubin and its kinda nice ;) and desserts at the changi v there..after which i went to walk ard in suntec cos i quarrel wif my stupid mum cos she is just unreasonable, so i dun wan go home early face her..

then mon was my first day of work..seriously its damn damn sucky this job..this is the worst job that i seen so far..all the temp staff said tat most of them regretted signing the contract on first day of work man..and yes i totally agree wif them..and the system is just totally damn screwed man..hello i thought training should be those perm staff who train us? why is it those temp staff who is training the new comers for work>? seriously i dun understand..and wat are those perm staff doing? they are slacking ard, what is this man???? this sucks man..and i was reali shocked when the temp staff first day already flood me wif all the plans available..hi card plans, line plans, cable plans, soccer plans, tv plans, hp pricing plans...wat the hell, how am i supposed to know everything in 2 hrs training and u expected me to let me die alone when u guys ask me to attend to the customers when i know nuts abt these plans..seriously ytd i am damn stress cos i reali know nuts abt the plans then customers keep asking me many many qns which i cant ans them, then bo bian i have to keep finding the temp staff to help me til i tink they are kinda unhappy..watever la, seriously..in short the job scope just sucks..

and the guys there seriously need some bash-ing man cos when this temp ger was training me on the plans, then this guy came along talking to her..alrights i am fine wif tat, but if he wan to talk then talk la, why put his hands on her waist and thigh and fake fake he wan to something from the photocopy machine..seriously wth la, when i saw tat i STARRED at the guy cos i seriously feels like wacking tat guy up..hello so wat u are perm, i dun giv a damn abt u..and the ppl there i seriously cant click wif them la..the guys are just beng and one ger is just ah lian..i tink i cant onli click wif one very nice perm girl staff..and one of the guy tried to smile smile and be-friend me and i seriously didnt giv a damn abt him and i gave him a black face cos i wan them to know tat i am not someone tat u guys can play ard wif..if u guys try to be funny wif me i will sure say out loud on their damn face..but the manager was ok la, so when i talk to him i talk nicely..cos apparently he is more educated then he is not like those perm guys trying pao girls..and ytd i did tio complain from one customer..seriously u can complain all u wan la, best if the manager kick me out of the job..

today i told my agent tat i cant work for many many for certain reasons..i guess this is the best way already without directly telling them tat i wan to quit...i shall be more tatical than those xiao mei mei who told them directly tat they wan to quit..lohz..like tat they confirm make sure u stay in the job one..

~the resort world offer isnt tat great afterall~

ytd went for interview for the resort world then met up wif martin..anw, its been a long time since someone "sayang" my head..seriously cos when ytd he sayang my head as a form of greeeting, i suddenly thought of mr A cos he usually does tat on my head..haiz reali yearn tat kind of feeling..its been 6 yrs..come on man i dun understand why 6 yrs already, and my heart still feels abit for him when i saw his wedding photos???? why why why..the feeling is just not very gd..but its isnt the sad feeling either..duno how to say also..haiz..

anyway ytd when we heard need to work in warehouse, me and ken kinda feels sian diao liao man..seriously, but if both of us can get the job offer we will take up..else i shall continue work in my singtel..lohz..anyway mon i am starting work and its damn stressful for me esp ppl like me who is a noob at phone.lohz..alrights today i going to meet my relatives and shop in town..after which tml i am going ubin again !..whee ;)

~my feelings arent that much for him actually~

today went to sign the contract for singtel job in the morning, then noon met up wif ly to have lunch but he suddenly got lesson last min so bo bian the lunch was cut short at the sci canteen..and can who recommend me the avogrado drink isnt tat nice afterall man..its not worth the price i am paying..lohz..then while waiting for him to finish lesson, i stayed in the toilet for 45 mins just to brush my teeth reali throughly clean cos if not i will fail the test,..thanks god, i pass the 1st round of the test..so he told me today tat i have to remove my 2 wisdom tooth cos its causing my the decay in my teeth...i abit sian when i heard i need to remove the wisdom tooth cos i dun intend to remove up til i am old..but he is charging $50 for each wisdom tooth nia, cos i am his 2nd gunine pig cos he onli did once for other patient nia..so yeah duno if i should take the risk or not..cos i abit scared lei..and he told me if i wan to do, then it will be on 11july -15july tat wk and tat wk is my trip to sichuan lei..like tat how to go liao..cos if not i have to pay $1000+ just to remove wisdom tooth outside when he do just $100 for 2 wisdom tooth...wat i scared of is its gonna be damn pain cos my bro remove all 4 at one go and his face swell like some goldfish man..and he still said tat i need braces..haiz but i reali dun like wearing braces cos its ugly and painful..and its ard $2000+...if i going to spend $2000+ i can spend on travelling liao..lohz..but mum keep asking me to do braces and he also !!!!!! he keep saying "u have got a nice smile..after do braces sure even nicer.." lohz tat's not the point..my point is its painful and ugly and the money issue..

hmmm somewat today i met up wif him and i realised i dun reali like him tat much ah cos i do feel abit of gap between us..although i still idolised him and are memerized by him, but then somewat today the feel isnt tat great ah, duno why and i saw his friends...tat ger whom she has rumored wif him somewat looks not bad looking..but then i duno why his friends keep looking at me man..is it i overdress or just they are wondering why i seems so friend friend wif him when we arent tat close except during appt..

haiz and hor why i always so suay always get so many jobs offer and its so last min and at the same timing when i already sign the singtel contract !!!!!! the sentosa resort HR Called and asked me to go for interview tml..i tink i am going for the interview though i already have sign the singtel contact, cos i wanna see who's pay is higher and i shall decided..haiz i reali hate to make choices esp when it concerns to giving up jobs cos i feel damn guilty if i last min pang seh the agent...

~yeah tml i am seeing ly~

past few days saw mr A marriage photos on fb..hmmm kinda glad tat he has found his true love and have settled down after so many yrs..though he is married, i will always rmb the memories tat we share and he is always be my role model for everything..

today had buffet in sch but somewat i ate lesser today i feel fat already..;( tml i am seeing ly..whee so happy..

~my stomach want to explode liao man~

today i am finally back to sch for work..then ytd went to my student hse to teach her chem...seriously when did i unknowningly become her chem tutor? lohz..but anyway i dun mind teaching her since we are still learning chem stuff in uni..then ytd she treat me eat bird nest and chicken rice..wah not bad sia..i tink the bird nest is kinda worth sia..

then today my job is just super super damn slack..totally zhuo bo and sit down and relax for the entire day and i earn free pay ($100+) for today just by sitting down and eating..not bad man..but hor the 3 rounds of buffet is reali making my stomach explode sia..my stomach seriously cant take it anymore liao man..seriously i tink they no need to hire us de la..cos there is seriously nothing for us to do..they are just wasting resources paying us for today..lohz and tml there is another 2 rounds of buffet..oh man i am sick of buffet already..i am not eating buffet for a few months !

anyway nxt wk i am working in singtel liao man..haiz duno i will like the job ma cos seriousy i dun like working frontline..but nvm i am onli trying til end june..i reali wish i can work in nuh lei..reali reali reali..cos i wan to have lunch wif eye candy everyday...now cant liao man..aiya i should have agreed to start work on this mon ! instead of tues ! reali very very regretted man..haiz..nvm i shall take up this job for 1.5 months first then july i will try to get into nuh..

~my foot is swollen~

fri my johor trip is kinda sian cos perhaps i always go the same shopping mall and also do the same thing and see the same old clothes so tat day we went home pretty early...most of the jb stuff hor many months later still the same..and i am implying abt their clothes and shoes..lohz. and they totally nv change at all de lo...so i bought nothing..though i was reali keen in buying in one of the heels and its onli $30+..quite ok the price...and the impt thing is when i wore tat i look super duper tall..tat's the feeling i like..hehe..so tat day brought lots of tibits and bread back as usual..and we went to the roadside to eat 10 statay each..and each satay onli $0.20 nia..so cheap ! but then after eating tat 10 sticks of statay i became kinda full liao man..so didnt reali try other food..anyway i am kinda sian of jb liao man..need to explore further in and its onli possible if we take taxi but i dun dare to take a taxi a jb unless there are guys ard to accompany us ! cos i feel its kinda dangerous..and fri my leg was damn pain til i cant shop..seriously i duno why my foot suddenly so pain and swollen..damn ! now i cant run when i am so free cos i haven found a job other than working in sch..sian now nothing to keep me occupied other than shopping, but cant possibly shop everyday rite ! cos like tat i will go broke de man..

then sat went to ubin but then tat day damn sad lei..initally wanted to go tanning de, but then it rain..zzzz...so bo bian we took an umbrella talk along the cycling track in ubin lo..suay lo tat day cos i kana mosquito bites damn big and alot..but then the food in ubin kinda nice man..after which went for food hunt in changi V..then after tat went tampines there to shop..sian there de things reali not my taste..the clothes kinda cui..tink town clothes so far is reali the best liao..

freak my legs are just freaking damn pain now..i cant run now..sian lei i wan to slim down now then the leg in this condition now to run man.. ;( and today was supposed to go bac sch work de, but then my supervisor ask me to come tml then i sian diao liao cos like tat initally i can work in NUH de lo !!!!! cos the person wans me to start work on mon de, but i say tues instead then they say they dun wan me le..sian lei !!! haiz regret man..cos i hav reason for wanting to work there..first its more convienent for me when i travel to my student hse, secondly, the working hours more flexible,..3rdly i wan to meet tat eye candy more often for lunch over there..

hehe and this day is coming ! this thur 1pm..yipee ! ;)

~shop til my legs are just so cui~

my last paper was 08 and sad to say the paper i didnt reali study hard for it cos i slacked too much before that...wasted sia...haiz cos all come out is mostly derivations and from pyp de, so nv mug hard for tat sure die one..and this module was supposed to be my most confident subject cos i prefer this module as compared to other module..but then the final exam paper i screwed up,..damn !

after exam then i went to repair my cui mp3 cos its been damn long i nv listen to any songs since my mp3 has spoiled..then after which had lunch wif ken at swensens then i went to little india to thread my eyebrows..then went vivo..actually tat day i am kinda shagged already cos the day before i didnt sleep cos i was rushing to finish the 08 cos i studied super slow man..

then ytd morning i woke up at 7.30am just to run 12 rounds in the morning and my mum scolded me for waking up so early cos i have no sch anymore and its quite lame to wake up so early just to jog..aiya watever la, i just wan to slim down now..thanks to her tat i have become fatter during the exam period cos she keep forcing me to eat..lohz..so now have to slim down..then in the afternoon went to town wif hm to shop..and i so happy i bought one floral dress ! whee so nice ! but actually its not reali tat cheap la, probably reasonable price la..then at nite met up wif the uni clique to eat prata at thomson..and the plain prata is just solid ! didnt know its tat nice..all i know is the double cheese and durian prata tat is nice.. ;)

and today i decided not to go out cos 2 days in a row of going out i already spend $100..sian so much money..and its seriously damn bored man when u have nothing to do..but tml and sat i going out again..hahaha..tml i am going jb ! shoik, shall go there eat and buy lots of food bac..my favourite chocolate bread and tibits..then fri shall tink of ways to slim down..going ubin on fri i tink sure will confirm slim down de cos cycling over there makes one reali damn shagged and some more the weather nowadays is just damn hot..should be able to sweat and slim down..yeah !