i feel so upset and demoralised

                 today and yesterday cant help feeling upset and demoralised because of work performance and words said by xxx behind my back. Becos of his words, people are hesistant of talking me in now. Thanks argh. Felt so unhappy when my informer told me abt it. Now i am lost, should i just leave this place and start afresh and establish a new image? i really want to do so..leave this place and forget everything just like what my colleague does. Well, but i dun have the courage to do so when market is so bad now and i have no other job offer. Feeling so depressed now after my informer told me this. Cant help feeling sad and affected by those words. Well, at least i learn hard that i shouldnt be too low profile next time. At least whatever i do should be made known like what some people does.Copy the bosses and make it loud. But haiz i am really not such person la. i like to be low profile.

              i really feel like asking  xxx about what he told my new B. I really feel injustice. Becos of ur words, people's decision are suay. i hate this. I wanted to be mean and just resign to jump over but can i really do this? I AM REALLY CONFUSED !!! what should i do? June is way too long. people canot afford to wait for me :( 

               i want to leave this place :( Forget all the memories that i should forget and GO !!! 

~ very very miserable ~

         I went missing for blogging so long just simply becos i was lazy to blog already. I went for holiday to taiwan for 2 weeks and it was a nice trip with lots of food and shopping and doing activities that singapore dun have. Bf made a paper ring and banner for me during the paragliding activity in nan tou. It was a memorable one but its a paper ring :( not a real ring zzz 

      well, other than that, couldnt remember what have i did for months. I feel really really miserable now. Mind so confused. You are gone for long why come disturb my life again :( Can i just pretend that i duno you and go back to the days where we are just strangers??? Just when i almost forgotten abt the past. You came remind me arghhhh