wat he wrote..

ponders :
Thursday, Dec. 09, 2004 @ 12:17 p.m.

The feeling of being love and to love another can be indeed a strange one. Sometimes we tend to take for granted the other until he/she just gives up.
Maybe I’m at my junction in which I might have just committed that. Or maybe it’s her way of saying something which I don’t understand. I’m just trying to pretend that there’s no problem. To me, I’m totally lost as to what is going on and if she just doesn’t want to speak up, I won’t know.
Doing a little reflection since I feel better today. Was sick yesterday but still had to do OT. The amount of work is not really killing it’s just that you need to wait for A to be completed before B can be done and then move on to C. things then to drag when there are many parties involved.
To love someone gives you strength, to be loved in return gives you courage. Sigh…
the real problem is??

the real problem is??
thur, Dec. 09, 2004 @ 11:59 a.m.


maybe i'm trying to avoid the real issue. pehaps drowing oneself in work is the best way to pretend the problem doesn't exist. i shall continue to do that.

weird
Wednesday, Dec. 08, 2004 @ 11:48 p.m.
girls are pretty hard to understand. especially when one is in a relationship. somethings might not be what they seem. sounds hurting. hmmm.


Reflections of 2004 Saturday, Dec. 25, 2004 @ 8:15 p.m.
Love life was kinda terrible initially. I felt so scared of being in a relationship in the beginning of the year till almost august. My ex was pretty loving and she kept wanting to patch things up, but the lousy guy here wasn't willing to give a commitment. I had the feeling of that nothing matters to me more than making it, be it in studies or work. I climb the ladder from the bottom and i want to make it. Anything aside from that, i'll check if i'm free. My heart was closed and i just refuse to accept love. Came august, i finally found someone who can love me for who i am and hopefully understand me. It started out quite uncertain and we've been thru a few quarrels already. love is something that i'll never understand, but yes, the heart is willing to learn to love again.