fri after going to NTU went to cut my hair..oh man,my hair reali look like shit now.its kinda short and ugly now,seriously i dare not let down my hair unless i am too lazy to pin up my back hair.but less than 1 week time i am going for camps,oh man, i seriously dun wan to turn up with tat ugly hairstyle.sob sob..
sat morning went to my small boss house to prepare for the bbq,help her bought stuff for bbq also in the morning.yeah and duno why tat afternoon, when we are singing k, the photo frame placed on top of her threate system suddenly fell and broke into pieces, so the glass was smeared and broken into pieces.haha.i think my voice is too powerful liao until the photo frame fall unknowningly..anyway in all the bbq session was a nice and a warmful one.but this bbq is kinda a very "A bbq" cos the topics tat we talked abt are very "A" and its all becos of my small boss husband and somehow it makes our day lo cos its so funny tat we are practically laughing away all becos of the "DIRty topics" tat he started out with.and i duno why they always like to kar jiao me with this topic just becos i am 21 yrs old this yr.yeah, they did mentioned to me tat they are looking for a piano teacher and i think they do have the intention of hiring me cos i am quite "gum" with their daughter, but the thing is tat i live abit too far from their house and moreover my uni is starting soon, cant possibly have lots of time to devote to teach her daughter.moreover i already have a student liao and i think i cant overload myself cos if not my uni studies will be gone case.cos i reali dun wish to ta bao in uni just like in yj like tat..my wound for ta bao-ing has yet to heal and i doubt this wound will heal in a matter of time cos afterall its not easy to get bac my confidence when i always face many many setbacks in life..perhaps i am reali very very tired liao..
this particular colleague of mine reali damn niao and stingy man.$14 for bbq and present quite ok wat, but he was complaining why is it so ex and wants my boss to spell out literally and one by one wat we bought,oh man, cant stand him man.stingy old man.seriously i dun understand how could such ppl exist man.at least i am not as stingy as him man though i am quite a thrifty person.
anyway yesterday my friend came to my house to learn piano from me.haha,but i think its my honour teaching her cos at least i could get honest feetback of my teaching style.but at the same time i think tat i need more confidence and more training in the way i teach cos i was told tat i doesnt sound confident though i know my stuff..well, i guess i need to be more confident in watever i do in short..then yesterday i started fann-ing abt my uni tuition loan.cos i have to settle my tuition loan by this week cos next week i am going for camp liao..and next week is the deadline le.what should i do now? my dad is over the age limit and my mum is a PR so both of them cant be a guarentor for me as i am a spore citizen,neither do my brother since he is still not up to age 21.my dad tried approaching my aunts for help though we are not "Gum" at all cos over many family disputes problems in the past.apparently all of them shunted this issue as this issue involve money ma.and for instance if i have no money to pay up to the bank, then the bank will have to bark them for money.of cos under such situations, ppl dun wan la.but of cos i dun wan my gurantor to get and suffer any problems due to me..afterall its not nice when ppl are willing to lend u a helping hand.but apparently, none of my aunt wanted to help me despite my dad used to lend a helping hand in the past.sometimes i reali think tat wat's the point of having kinship,to me its equally no use.forget it liao ba, all got to blame it on my ill-fatedness.
though i did thought of asking my friends, but i understand from their part tat they do need their parental consent too and i doubt their parents will allow since this is quite a serious and impt issue, so i dun pin alot of hope of getting help from my friends.though i reali hope tat i could get some help from my friends, but highly tat my hopes will be dashed.so how wat should i do now?? i am reali helpless and lost at this junction of life.money is an issue to me now,.i reali need lots of money to survive in uni..yesterday i was so helpless cos i felt pathetic as in i always find tat my life is always screw up be it in jc or uni,so i cried cos i reali cant get help from any one of my close ties.i seriously dun understand why do other kids need not worry over guarantors issues and can happily get tuition loans when i need to search ppl like mad just to get a guarantor for me just to proceed with my uni studies.else, if not i doubt i am able to pay for the sch fees..sian i am reali very very fann over this issue now.i reali hope tat an angel would extent his/her kind heartedness and help me get over crisis.yes, tat's all i would hope for and nothing else..
todae my friend did came to my house again for piano lesson and after which i went to ntu bank again to double confirm with them tat is it tat my mum cant be a guarantor for me.and yes, i think those ppl have told me the wrong info previously,meaning tat its confirm tat my mum cant be a guarantor liao.sigh..hopefully i can find my way out soon i guess.sigh..and thank you my dearest friend for being so frank with me cos i dun wan u guys to be in a tough decision also..
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