Thursday, June 18, 2009

~haiz i made the sec mistake once again

haiz..yesterday since the day i reach spore from taiwan tat morning, my mum keep quarreling with me over small issues and i am damn freaking pissed with her cos i seriously see no problem with wat i am doing lohz.and she keeps finding fault with me..wat the hell man ! i got so pissed tat i reali raised my voice at her cos i am so fann with so many things to do and she just cant stop nagging and scolding me..and worst still she keep scolding me why i never buy bac stuff from taiwan for her when i already bought her liao..she feels tat the food tat i bought for her is not counted as a present..wa lao tat time i reali no money liao wat cos i spent it all on my friends gifts and my clothes, but at least i bother to bring bac and buy those food for her cos i reali look around xi men ding finding those food for her cos i know tat she dun reali like those stuff tat my friends bought bac for their families. alrights watever man, then today she was quarreling with me over wat to give my relatives in indo..then she wanted to gave away my clothes tat i bought tat time tat i haven wear..then i was kinda angry with her la cos i buy the clothes means i wan to wear wat,if not why i buy the clothes seh..so today the whole afternoon she reali kinda pissed me off man. alrights enough of her man..

yesterday once i reached home i went down to jog at my house park..its been a long time since i last jog cos i was overseas and partly was busy with work so always eat late or just no time to run after work.and after this trip i somehow gain 1kg so its reali time to slim down man.if not i dun wan go bac to my last time horrible weight.after which sat down to cool my body and watch tv at the same time.then after tat went online again to chat..all i know tat mistake i made another mistake again.sigh i think i shouldnt be tat straightforward man to expose him..somehow its not reali gd..sometimes self pretence is somewat gd..yeah at least it saves some pei-seh in him..anyways perhaps i should reali take the blame cos i just wanna confirm if i am right nia.and i reali hit the blingo..seriously i think my observation skills reali not bad wor, manage to guess so many ppl eye's candy correctly at first try.anyway i feels nothing when i hit the blingo cos i already knew tat quite long ago,so its not reali shocking to me.its just tat previously i pretended not to know, not reali duno..perhaps everything is just too obvious liao la.perhaps he dun feel tat, but someone who observe alot can feels its..but i will seriously be sad if he suddenly distance apart from me just becos i expose him liao.cos i dun like the feeling of losing a friend..as in not reali losing,but rather become less close cos i knew something which i shouldnt know.yeah anyway just see how it goes ba cos even myself duno how things will proceed..all i know is my eye candy is someone else...but i think i am not going to do anything cos i think tat's just a crush nia...though i reali feel he is reali not bad,but somewat i just dun feel like dropping hints or doing anything to let him know.perhaps i reali salute su min for tat courage to get tat guy phone no in taiwan when we are in party world singing.yeah i think tat guy also not bad, looks is certainly there,but i am not as crazy as her to get no from the guy..anyway i am reali thankful to him for being kinda nice to me.but then somewhere is just wrong somewhere.but i reali haven said anything with regards to him abt tat.but i am seriously kinda shocked by the icons and words tat he expressed yesterday.cos its reali not like him..and i seriously dun understand how can he feels for me so fast when we onli talk for like 2 times nia..anyway just gonna see how it goes ba..but yesterday i was kinda sian so reali chatted with eye candy til 3,30am again..then my dad saw tat and he is uttering nonsense again.haiz..i seriously dun understand why must they make a fussover it when i talk to a guy online..cant i make guy friends meh? haiz..why are my parents so conservative man..alrights its seriously watever cos its not like wat they kind.they can continue to misunderstand me cos i reali cant be bothered to explain to them.the more i explain the more they will think i am trying to defend myself.lohz..watever man..

and today i woke up at 11am like tat..kinda shoik la cos can wake up late late.anyway i am kinda bored at home liao doing nothing.haiz..then sat then can start work,,so sian la,.want to earn more money also no slots for me to do..i rather work than to nuah ard lo..seriously i dun like the feeling of nothing to do cos its super bored.i shall see tml wat i wanna do then..haiz..perhaps online chat again ba.haiz.

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