Tuesday, January 19, 2010

~i kinda feel like giving up~

sat was supposed to be my studying day but ended up wasted the whole day...zzz first i went to church wif ch then after tat watch movie and hav dinner at jp..then after movie went to the 24hr NTUC stock up his food supplies for hostel.then i bought sushi bac home since it was cheap since its at nite liao..anyway the movie tat we watched was kinda nice..comedy show and practically i laughed alot in the movie theatre..hehe..haiz and hor tat day i duno why i dun dare to eye contact him lei..can u tell me why why why??? or i scared of him?? or i am shy??? aiya wat's wrong wif me man..but the topics kinda dun interest me at all..lohz..the church was pretty nice..once a while go still ok..but if i were to go frequently i sure sian diao..all i like abt this church is their gd "concert threatre"..

sun i was totally sleeping the whole day..oh man i seriously duno why am i so sleepy man..the moment i wanted to take out my lecture notes i kept on falling asleep..and mon ytd i met up wif playmate..ytd the 2 of them keep asking me when n i getting together?? haiz i just tink this issue is just damn stressful..feels like kinda avoiding it cos we haven progress much except became closer..as in now we can watever crap and nonsense, but tat doesnt mean anything..yeah..4 months of constant going out reali dun mean anything although lots of ppl might thought tat we have progressed pretty much..ken keep asking me to drop obvious hints but how obvious u want man ! i thought along its been obvious? or maybe tat playmate just acting blur..i duno him also la..his acting skills so gd..he tell lies also cant see tat he is telling lies also la..=( then they ask if i wanna find those life time partner or just a normal bf will do..i told him of cos if gt life time better la, but still it all depends on FATE..aiya all these things is not for me to choose de..sometimes i just tink he is just reali not the one..more of activity mate..but of cos if he were to ask i will still say ok la cos afterall i still feels for him..but then i guess everything will just gonna be hard..haiz..

and ytd we went for food hunt again..went to bugis before going geylang..bugis there to have our dessert and geylang there to have my oyster and durian..ytd i was kinda tempted to drop obvious hints de, but then i told myself tat i dun wan le..nxt wk he is going for operation le..after tat i will very very free liao..no "outing" wif him til his leg can walk..i guess it gonna be a few months..sad man =( i guess i shall let this few months be a test of our ambigious friendship..
nxt wk will be the last wk i will see him le..


and today i came to sch and was pretty shagged..lessons all cant understand..emo man..haiz..i feel a chore to go sch now everyday man cos i cant understand most things in class even if i go..

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