~lao yu sheng with uni clique~

this wk was reali damn stress for me sia..3 tests in a wk and i totally haven study at all sia..mon after test then teach piano..then my student say "teacher u are very nice lei..buy mochi for me.." hehe i told its very cheap only..dun worry ;) yeah i bought something for her during cny cos i her mum always ask me stay for dinner so yeah i have to buy something as a token of appreciation..then she said to me tat day tat she very stress cos of exams and all these and she said can i not stress her..then i said : HUH ! since when i stress u man, i never scold u before lei ! and i always so nice to u.." alrights after she told me tat actually i always very nice to her tat's why she stress tat she couldnt play something gd for me to listen..yeah but i told her to take her time to learn..yeah cos i know different ppl has diff learning pace la...but then at least i must see some effort la..but she reali make no effort lei..and i always feel very bad earning her mum's money cos its reali very easy earn money la..but then i reali feel very guilty lei ! then tat day while playing piano she say "teacher u wan some bird nest? i wan to de-stress..hehe" then i have her tat stunned look cos who drink bird nest to destress one??? anyway she is weird ;)

then mon came bac home then was pretty late then i slack awhile then who knows end up i nv study for the test...then tues my class end at almost 9pm then came home damn shagged liao man then end up nv study so wed then i reali sat down to study le..by the time i realised its too late le cos no time left to study 2 tests liao when i nv did the tutorials at all..then tues ly still ask me if i can come dentist or not..initally i was kinda tempted to go de, but since i have lab and so many tests, so bo bian cant go..nvm lo need to wait for sch reopen then i go lo..

then wed i was so so gan jiong liao man..once i finished lab i faster rush bac home to study...and since thur i realised i reali no time le..so bo bian have to pon sch...and fri was the happiest time of the day cos its our uni clique reunion dinner..hehe we have our lao yu sheng at empire state at bugis illuma there..hehe then i like the shakes over there..wah its nice man but then its kinda a killer la cos after i drink finish i cant reali finish my chicken chop le..but the serving there damn big sia..after a while u will get sick of it le..so after tat went to ken house to play majiong, but then end up i was down there watching tv...i was supposed to sing for them but then i dun wan cos very stress lei so many ppl listen i sing..and i relai no confidence cos i haven practise the singing yet so i dun dare to sing la..but el say my voice is kinda different when i sing and talk..in fact when i sing i am more feminine..wah means all along i not feminine la ! ok la but then i reali think its diff when i sing and talk cos usually i am kinda loud when i talk but singing somewat i just cant sing loudly..duno why man..but its weird la..and this wk is holiday week,.,sian this wk gonna wil be packed for me man..i need to study and catch up wif so many things and test..this fri i have to sing liao and its graded..stress man..haiz..

tues will be cutting my cui hair le..hehe so happy..after which will meet up wif ch since tat time he asked me out quite a few times le but i kinda busy so yeah since this wk i slightly free-er so ok lo..and ytd i was talking to hm abt playmate..haiz..i tink very soon i wont like him le lei if he continue to be like this..haiz why the ppl i like always so bo chap de man..i am just tired le la..i shall just wait for a nice caring guy to appear in my life then ! or maybe in yrs to time i will tell myself that i will be "free for all liao"..now my expectants of guys is kinda high..i know though but he already set the standard liao lei..abit hard to downgrade to less nice guys when the first one is already super nice..and today my mum was asking so ur tat 2 friends (hm, and ken) attached le ma? then i told her ya..then she said u know any doctors or not..go find them as ur bf ! so i said yeah i know one dentist lo..but my mum reali realistic man..doctors she will confirm like de, but normal guys she must tink twice..hehe but tat "uncle low" reali not bad la but just tat i not close wif him for now..maybe i go for more appointments then will be more close wif him liao..anyway we always talk rubbish in the session..and his thick eyebrown friend..i aim-ing to make friend wif him cos he look kinda fierce man..but "Uncle low" say he is aunite killer..ya can see la,. he look so much older than his age, but girls like ! uncle low look so cool..perhaps hm will "like" him..but i prefer "Uncle low" than this thick eyebrow guy cos somewat he more engaging than him..and his build is reali WOW cos he got six pack sia..;) hehe

~first test of the wk~

today heng the ms2008 test i know sia..luckily i managed to study finish most of the stuff on time...but then tutorial i nv reali study much cos i no time liao so have to based on memory when i tried it during CNY break..next up gt 2 tests..i have to piah now,.this wk i will be more guai stay at home to study..hehe and i will be off to teach piano le..

haiz duno why my heart just feels nothing towards him now lei..actually i wanted to msg him de but he totally MIA..nv online and stuff like tat..duno if i should msg him or not..haiz..in fact now i am more interested in XXX but then i not reali close wif him sia..

~haiz i am so so so stress~

haiz i am very very stress now man..nxt wk 3 test in a row..going to suffocate liao man..tutorials all haven do and lectures all haven study..wat have i been doing all these while..seriously viewing online lectures are seriously damn time consuming..how i know i gt my brother's brain man then at least i no need study so hard..but hor how did he get into top 5 of the dean's list..wa lao this brother is just damn freaking smart sia..some more he told me tat he studies very little for it,..dots man..he is just a genuis to me man..lohz..

after exam i am gonna piah during recess wk, at least catch up watever i haven did..and 2 days bac dad bought 3 bottle of love letters..lohz going to gain weight liao man cos i gt a feeling i will finish all these bottles myself since my mum ate very little of it..this wkend shall burn in studying tests..sian !

and playmate has MIA for almost one wk liao..where is he sia...

~cny 2010~

sat morning went to my hse market there hopefully can buy some last min cheap cny cookies..but sian i came too late cos all the shops already close le..lohz so went bac home to sleep cos i was damn shagged.... then after which nite then i went out wif my mum at chinatown to buy our cheap cny stuff..wah tat day reali super alot of ppl sia..damn packed and heng he managed to get our mochi for very cheap but then hor this yr i totally nv get to eat any ba kwa at all and cookies seh...initally i wanted to buy those cookies de but i v lazy to walk bac to the stall to buy cos its freaking damn far..and this yr the fireworks was a disappointment seh cos its lasted so short la..but anyway tat day helped ken and hm bought my mochi..so happy then tat nite ard 1 plus ken drove me n my mum bac home..hehe so nice !

then sun i slacked the entire whole day cos i was damn shagged cos cny eve i slept at 4plus am so yeah totally no mood..then mon i started to take my books to mug..but i also quite slacked also la..sian..

and ytd my mind kept wondering abt..cant concentrate on studying sia..cos i was totally memerised by ly english man...his english is reali damn power..and it reali shows the difference between a B3 and D7 english..serious he english is reali OMG...sometimes the terms tat he talked to me i couldnt understand but then i have to act blur to understand though i cant reali understand..but hor he reali damn naggy sia ..msges all type super duper long one and he still blame me for wasting his allowances for his long msges..lohz..is he naggy la ! wat he wrote i could just easily surmarised in a sentence..

then ytd i started to feel tat actually hor i tink guys who have a gd command of english is reali a plus pt cos the way they expressed themselves is reali very diff from those chinese speaking guys...hmm..and i was reali stunned by ly english man..so far i felt tat he is among my friends who has the greatest command of english man..WOW..ok la i tink guys who can speak gd english does attract my attention..hehe

~tmr is eve of cny~

4 more lect to go ! sian i still need how many hrs to complete listening to tat,..ywans i reali very very sleepy liao man..tml will be vday and i am still tinking should i do e card for him up to this point of time..haiz..i reali duno lei...duno why this time the momentum not strong enough to push me to do something for him..hm n ken all did something for their bf and even i am a girl also will feel touched seeing the hand made stuff that they made..let alone their bf..i am sure they sure very very touched one..ken bf say her vday gift was WOW..hmmm means reali very very gd lo..and i saw the cookies she made and the packaging tat she put the cookies..reali very nice..nvm i will learn more things from them in future..today i pon lect all the way cos i was influence by jia hua la..he say he not going then i also abit sian to go also..so end up zhuo bo in llibrary but after tat i did study la but i hear til damn sian..my mind is all abt ly now..haiz..

tml i will go chinatown and enjoy awhile when sun i shall continue to study and piah again..my tutorials all damn cock up man..totally nv read and see before..die !

~haiz should i do or not to do?~

ytd i came sch did nothing sian..intended to finish 6 lectures but end up onli finish one..sian how sia..so many lectures piling up liao man..nvm i must die die tell myself tat i have to chiong finish ! then ytd was very distracted cos went to the korean canteen to eat..whee so long nv eat korean so suddenly the food taste very nice..then after tat keep "moving house" cos the lab is booked for many activities..sian so its kinda irritating la move here and there..then ytd chatted wif hm and ken online..wah they reali very nice to their bf leh.kinda envy them ;).then they keep asking me to do something for playmate but i dun feel like doing lei cos i duno if i should listen to their advice or listen to maril advice..maril stand is not to take initative and let the guy like u..then the 2 of them feels tat since he already know so just do something for him for Vday..but then like tat arent more obvious???aiya i duno la..sometimes i just want to be bo chap like how i treat my ex in the past..cos i dun wan to be too nice to him everytime else he will take things for granted..finally now i can feel how my ex feels tat time..i can only say sorry at this pt of time..5 yrs bac i was just too insensitive and young...perhaps this kind of things just didnt struck my mind..but nvm everything was a learning experience..at least i did level up now..something to be gd abt..actually i dun reali miss playmate..the feeling is just not strong..or perhaps all along it was just a crush..i dun know either...it hard to differeniate..then hm asked so i like wat kind of guys..actually i dun know either..i tink nice to me gd enough le ;) looks not reali impt to me..but i told her i hope to find someone like my ex, but its kinda impossible la..so nvm lo..i tink mr dentist not bad either..actually i kinda tink he would be my eye candy when i first see him cos somewat he belong to the category tat i like..some more he play sports...wah so add more points..

today i pon lect just to go dentist..thanks to tat dentist low la..cos he everytime give me this kind of timing..but then today check up was another wash up session again and today i tried the plauge revealing toothpaste..wah its damn cool la..cos it will turn pink for whichever part which cant be brush properly when u use it...so when u smile..ur teeth will all be pink and u will look damn ugly..hehe but he say if i cant pass the minimum criteria for my teeth maintance with regards to brushing and flossing then i will nv "graduate" out of this lab clinic lei..haiz then he can never do my fillings for me..haiz so mafan la but then gd thing is my teeth is always in healthy condition cos gt him to help me floss cos i lazy..he keep saying he like some old man keep nagging...ya i also tink so he very luo suo man..keep asking me to brush here and there..then i hear until so sian also liao..ok la nxt appt i shall be nice and be more hardworking clean my teeth properly if not he got more job for him to do..he say everytime he help me scrap off the tar tar til body ache la.. hehe..

2 more days will be eve of cny...hehe so happy..i will be buying lots of things from chinatown..yeah !

~this guy is reali act blur lo~

last thur i msged him after his operation then he seems fine cos he still can joke around means he quite ok..then fri stayed in sch til super damn late..11pm then went off the sch cos after class i stayed inside the comp lab for many hours just to listen to one lect and i took 5hrs pus just to listen to one..seriously i damn emo la cos i take super duper long to take down things and understand the concept..then tat nite he came online when i was just abt to go home..then i was like aiya ok la i shall talk to u 5 mins then end up taking for 25 mins like tat before leaving sch..

then after which tat nite after i reached home i realised tat i forgot to do research for my tech comp and since he so free i ask him help me do research..hehe then he say ok..then i can concentrate on my test le..he say he abit pei seh to help me research cos we are doing some pei seh topic on some girls stuff..yeah but i told him can widen ur general knowlege ma..then he nothing to say...

sat i was stonning as usual..did nothing much and i spend lots of time reflecting,..lohz..then i started to tink abt last fri photos..haiz..i hope i can have a chance to congraulate him cos i am reali sincere..i reali hope tat he will be happy after his marriage..and i hope to talk to him after so many yrs..but then how to first break the "wall" tat we created for yrs? he is just in sch everyday but yet for the past 2 yrs plus i nv bump into him before..i onli bump into his LR onli many at times..tat's so sad la..and tat sun i wanted to talk to playmate abt it, but i tink he wont understand de man..so i told him nvm anyway he wont understand one cos he is still "young"..

then sun i started to piah for my test and sun nite i went online to get my project info from playmate..i quite touched he do until so nicely for me in table form..then i kar jiao him say i very touched lei..but i dun reali mean that i am relai very very touched la..but i abit touched onli.. then tat day i wanted to test him out de, and i tink he reali knows tat le just tat he trying to force me to say out the truth but i die die also dun wan lo..wa lao how to say seh..i am a girl lei..he told me" u will/can tell me when u are ready.." wa lao this sentence already implies so obvious tat he knows liao la..but he wan to act blur then i ask him tat if u know something then u dun wan make the person pei seh will u act blur then he say yes..then he say if he say yes i wont tell him wat i wanna say liao rite? then i say yup.. ! so moral of story is can playmate pls say be more auto and dun act blur liao la ! i dun wan to play mind games wif u le..half a yr liao man..its not fun anymore to play guessing games wif u le.. and some more u know liao still act blur !

ytd i pon class to study..sian so guilty and today the test heng was relatively quite ok and some of it is reali alot of stupid qns...lohz tat lecturer is reali weird man cos he sets weird qns...and ytd maril bf came just to find her in sch..wah so nice and sweet..was pretty envy of her..but then the bf abit dao sia..nv talk to me one..and hor vday coming man..this day as usual nothing special to me one..the 2 girls in my clique are busy preparing gifts and surprises for their bf but i super relax cos i gt no bf so nothing to tink abt vday also..i am just looking forward for cny onli..and ytd i finally found my pink and white thingy liao..but this time its double the price due to new yr..sian la but eventualy i still bought la..

~triple date~

hehe so much nice food ;)

playmate says its so wrong to take pict wif a guy !

~chinatown trips~

tues morning went to do some econs survey and its super duper easy earn money..haha earn $19 for nothing just by watching a video clip then can earn money liao..seriously the sch money is reali damn gd to earn man..i love my sch..hehe..so after which proceeded to class for tutorial..sian 2 tutorials at one go..all i totally cant unerstand at all..reali emo man..walao this sem i reali total lost man..i seriously know nothing up to now lei and its now the 4th week already..i am starting to panic liao man..how can i piah everything finish which i lagged behind for 4 wks during cny..sian..so many many things piling up and most of which i cant understand..haiz..think of it also emo man..

alrights enough of the sad part..so tat day since the lecture was cancelled cos tat lecturer was hospitalised..so i went out happily wif him..actually i do feeling abit guilty for poning my elective cos i need to wait 6hrs just for the elective to start lei and he onli left tues free cos mon and wed he going out wif friends, so bo bian hav to skip lect lo..but then after all everything was pretty fine though it was abit shagged..initally i was supposed to meet playmate at je platform de, then ken say wanna meet her bf at je also since tat time her bf already at clementi..so one stop no diff..so the 2 of us happily meet our respectively "playmate" at je..then took the train together..initally i thought we were going town to watch our movie de, but then end up realised town dun have the movie tat we wan, so ended up going marina instead...in short the movie wasnt reali scaring was this advertise..sian cheat my feeling man..i thought it would be super duper scary movie cos its a thai ghost movie ma..so i thought should be quite scary..but turn out to be ok nia..but then the pei seh thing is tat one of the instance i got shocked by the sudden loud voice from the movie, so i somewat accidently lied on his shoulder to cover my face to avoid the scary screen....my first reaction was "Shit ! how to overcome tat ackwardness? cos i dun mean it to lie on his shoulder one..cos i was just scared !" but then phew his first reaction was laughing at me cos i say i wont be scared de..so heng lo, at least not so pei seh eventutally....

so after the movie we walked around and window shop..he was looking around for his nerdy no degree spects..then we manage to find one shop and he reali look nerd in black spects sia..so i told him dun buy so i look equally nerd in tat black spects also..then after which we passed by one bridal shop then the uncle was saying "xiao jie u want to get married ma?" my first reaction was HUH ! do i look like i am getting married with ben ang..oh come on, i am still so young la..anyway after tat went to chinatown then i tink he was pretty sian cos he say every yr the same one..but i told him wif youngsters going to chinatown sure going to be a during experience and feeling one cos he stereotype chinatown as old uncles and aunties places..but i told him chinatown during cny is different ma..and i tink somewat tat day i asked him" so how? today not bad rite? cos got my friends to provide entertainment.." then he die die also dun wan admit today is fun lo cos he kept on smiling again then i know liao..hehe..but hor i feel like tat day i am reali the clown of the grp lei..everyone keep teasing me n him then make us so pei seh then the da ge also keep teasing me cos i eat the jelly at one go-so he implying tat my mouth is very big can eat alot..but then reali ma, the jelly reali not v big wat..can reali eat in one mouth..then all of them laugh then tat da ge keep asking those uncles let me try their jellies..then i was like sian diao la.cos he out to make fun of me ! aiya but i am ok one as long as everyone is happy ! tat day we had our dinner at chinatown and we ordered lots of stuff..yummy man..hehe and actually tat day i wanted to take david car's home de cos he going bac ntu but then later playmate will be going home alone..so yeah i pei him lo then talk to him for the last time before he goes for his operation..anyway i dun understand why he keep smiling away in the train lo..and hor i dun understand why he so happy when i say i can pei him go pychio..i tink maybe he is just lost how is he going to hospital alone without anyone to help him when he is handicapped now..hehe alrights i shall see..

yawns i got so many many things to catch up wif..i feel so stress now..at least now i wont go out tat often now since playmate cant walk for afew months so i can focused on my studies now..and i reali hope he will be fine soon..i shall msg him tonite since today morning he is having the operation ..