Sunday, July 04, 2010

~i need more courage~

wed went thomson wif ken,hm and david to eat prata,dian xin and beancurd at one go..wow tat day is reali damn damn full man..but at least we met up during the holidays, so not so sian..then tues nite got a call from a friend and he is kinda confused over a relationship..haiz all i can say is many things are realli unpredictable and he cried over her and i duno how to console him also cos the issue between them is realli not easy to solve man..so yeah i guess time is all they need lo..other than tat, i cant tink any solution alrdy...but i can clearly understand how he is feeling la, cos the ger was mirror image of me when i was attached many yrs bac..

and this sat and sun i work for 2 days..seriously my legs damn damn cui now..cos i have been standing 18hrs for 2 days..omg, this is bad for my legs, and i have been eating the ice pops non stop when i promote..actually damn job reali super damn bored man..but at least got ppl to talk to, so at least not so bad..somewat our chatting topics always revolve ard the same topics..then we will talk abt how many bf/gf we have and blah blah blah..so when i told them tat i had an 8 yrs older ex before, they were totally stunned..yeah actually if i were them i will be stunned too la..not surprised by their reaction..all of them felt tat the timing was not right, even though he is really the right guy..if i were born earlier or if he born later, then perhaps we might be a long lasting couple..haiz nice and gd guys like him doesnt exist anymore..most of them said my benchmark is too high, but this is something i dun wan also leh, he is just way too gd, to the extend tat i unknowningly set other guys against his benchmark..and this guy tat was working wif me said tat i should giv other ppl a chance wat ! ya i did give them a chance wat, but i dun have any feel for them ;( or perhaps i have really like a person for long alrdy..duno wat's the feeling of love and like..aiya watever la, too sian to realli find one..and this guy still say i should initate more, if not how would tat guy know ! lol he is true to certain extend la, but this guy so smart, i scared later too obvious he will avoid me in future then i will be damn sad one la !

and ytd when i was promoting my ice lollies,then saw my colleague, wa lao she realil pretend to not to see me..then when i called out for her, she damn faked la ask me wat i sell, then later faster go off..seriously wat kind of attitude is this man..even the guy whom i was working wif me say she damn faked la..so wat i am just a temp ger..temp ger also got feeling one wat, and why always give me tat hao lian attitude man..seriously if not for ly, i would have quitted this job..i reali bu xi han work here la..at least i go outside still can make more friends..and tmr is their sch reopen...hehe cant wait to see him..3 wks didnt saw him alrdy and tat day we were chatting on thur over this issue, then he was reasoning wif me over tat issue, then i gave in to him eventually..wa lao cant imagine we reason things over 1 hr plus..actually i reali tink he not a bad choice la..just tat i reali need to know him abit more..alrights, i shall start a 1 month mission to get close to him..tmr he going to make a mould for me, then 15 july i have the op alrdy..omg, this is damn scary la..duno why i trust him so much also even he is just a student nia..have i reali fallen for him alrdy or its just a crush?? seriously i cant differeniate....

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