Wednesday, July 17, 2013

~work unhappiness~

It has been quite some time since I last updated my blog. And yes I miss my blog as much as I miss my dear. Recently have been very troubled over work. Got scolded and blame for no reason when I am not the one doing the work..in fact I was the one doing the coordinating only and when things don’t get well, I became the scapegoat and get scolded for no reason. And I am not happy about it cos its not me who delayed the whole mobilization procedure as like I say I am not the one doing it ! I am just giving task to my colleagues in my other branches office to do. So not totally my fault so I was really unhappy about it ever since that meeting with the manager we kind of have a cold war..he didn’t talk to me and I didn’t talk to him either although usually we will joke here and there.
 
And yesterday I chose to take mc although my eyes wasn’t that bad..cos I really need a rest for my eyes. I have been feeling constant pain on and off on my left eye and I suspect that it has something to do with my ingrown lash which causes the pain, thus I do not want to over exert my eyes now. For the past few weeks, I kept on getting the pain and its really very enjoying and give me lots of trouble as I cant see clearly and I do get constant headache, really very jialat..i do feel bad that I kept on taking mc but really no choice..yesterday is I took mc on purpose as I had a shoot in the morning and since I have limited leave already so decided to take mc as alternative. I like my Korean makeup and the makeover really makes me like a Korean and the receptionist said that I really stunning after the makeover..of cos la its professional makeup artist help me makeover de how can I not look chio rite. But the thing is dear dun like my wavy hair cos he say I look mature. ;( actually I like that wavy hair cos its somehow diferent from my current look.haha
 
These few days I was feeling really down cos first of all, my colleague who is younger than me lecture me and I really damn bu shuang cos who is she in the position that she can lecture me when she is just a junior level in the company..and the way she phrase her message really very rude and I dislike tt..i duno how long the cold war going last as I really feel very troubled seeing her black face everyday. Who is she to question that why haven I leave although I kept saying that I wanna leave the company soon. True indeed that I wanna leave but I have my reason for staying on. I not so dumb to leave now when bonuses are to be given out soon. Come on, I have worked for the past 1 yr, at least I have to press on for that bouses rite if not I leave for nothing.. Honestly speaking I just feel damn bu shuang that she question me in this way and moreover she is 3 yrs younger than me. Stop talking to me as if you are an adult and knowing me very well. DAMN..Indeed I am furious but what can I say. I shall just face her blackface everyday then. Hope it wont affect my work in the long run. I told dear abt it and dear told me that I don’t have a sense of belonging in the company. What he say is true indeed as I use to enjoy working together as a team with my ex colleague previously but all of them have left and new comers have come. I can sense that this lady is very determined to climb up the ladder and I am very certain that she is eyeing on promotion if given a chance. Seriously I don’t care about all these promotion la. To me, as long as I am happy with my work and salary I am ok. Hai ~
 
Nevermind, apart from the sad thing, there are happy things happening in the past few weeks. My mum actually tag along me and dear to jb.. I didn’t want her to tag along cos she is really a big lightbulb but she insisted else she wont give me my passport ;( after the trip hope she is better with dear. Hopefully better impression now cos dear isn’t as bad as what she think, except for poor.
 
Another thing is my 23rd anniversary was a surprised too although dear didn’t celebrate it with me. Giving me a surprise is already a good celebration..He left a cake outside my door step and I was really really touched cos I didn’t expect him to do that. This was kinda sweet I would say.. ;) my mum was down there smiling cos she got free cake to eat and me myself happy too cos I like cakes !!
 
Nevertheless, next week I am going korea le ! honestly speaking, I cant wait man ! cant wait to take a break from work ! I am really burnt out le working for this one yr without much rest.
 
GIVE ME A BREAK NOW !
 
 
 
 

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