i lost my drive and will to work

             recently i did realised that i lost my drive and will to work liao..really...in the past, i worked while i am still in uni is becos i needed the money for daily allowances and also pay off sch fees..but now all these isnt a concern for me now. i have paid off sch fees and there is nothing more to keep me working hard..i totally lost the motivation to work even as a temp..duno why perhaps i have been working for a yr and feel really tired liao..previously job really drained me out totally.everyday is all about sourcing for candidates and hoping when can i ever close a deal to earn a commission but sadly even after working for a year, i didnt close much..alot of time i feel that its really dependent on luck and i feel that i really do not want to continue as a recuitment consultant anyway more..

            so right now, i believe that the only drive that can push me on would be the money needed for my future..maybe i shall work word towards aiming to buy a house next time. i guess this is the only thing that can push me for now.even for temp jobs i am really selective now. i only will work for jobs that will benefit my CV or rather i am only looking into govt sector temp job. in the past, i worked for all kinds of shitty job motive is just to earn money and slack..but now my aim has changed.i wanna find a job that can reflect something on my CV..

            this whole week really shoik never go out..send some cv out but got no calls. ;( honestly speaking waiting for people to call you is really very tong ku..but well i am still very happy now as i feel that my body is getting better..not as drained as before.and last friday i went out the whole day and dear made me really pissed. just becos i have to wait for a single yes/ no reply, he made me waited for 6hrs at rws and ended up no reply and worst wait til the shop close and never get to collect and confirmed my tickets.seriously how can i not be angry..waited so long for him and this bloody ass hole never even bother to look me up after work and went off drinking with his colleagues..if he find me for half an hr and go off with his colleagues at least i wont be angry..but this guy never !!

         and so i am going to the zoo today..zzz actuallty not a fan of zoo but never mind since its class gathering so just go lo..