Monday, January 24, 2005

duno wat can i do =(

hai~my dad wanted me to take piano exam again tis year since last year i failed..but i dun feel sad at all..duno why..i juz sae "ok..i failed.."tis is my first time failing and tis year he give me a choice to take exam again..but i dun wan..cos i dun even like to play piano..and morever i am not up to the grade 8 standard..wat for waste money man when u know tat u cant even pass the exam at all..and tis year i reali wish to focus on my studies..i reali wan to do well for my parents to see tat at least i retained i got some gd results to show them and i wan them to stop comparing me with my brother saying tat why am i so stupid...tis is sickening..
then when i told my dad tat i dun wish to take the exam at all then he say me again..he said i am giving up my piano and all those rubbish and usual stuff again..why cant he juz stop bothering me abt all tis piano stuff..i even told him tat i dun like piano at all..but he still refused to let me forgo piano since i learned piano when i was abt 3+..which is quite young..duno wat they sae is true or not..3 years plus i cant even tink properly..dun even sae playing piano..kay watever..i also told them tat i am reali not going to teach piano when i graduate then my mum scold me..she say " waste so much money since young to nuture you to learn piano but i refuse to teach..wats the point man"
sian man i dun wan her to keep complaining abt it..tired of it liao..how i wish i can stay out of the house forever until i wish to return home..but tis is impossible..cos i cant even leave my house even on normal days..i am juz a bird tat is caged without freedom..=(

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