Thursday, January 27, 2005

~tIs iS WeIrD dUNo wAtS wRoNg~

yesterdae we had entrepreneur..and we hav decided to sell roses with nice packaging..i saw how they packaged and they look reali nice..but i dun reali appreciate flowers duno why maybe i am not girly enough..then after they finish packaging..there is some left over flowers so we juz brought home..i brought quite a lot of "leaves" and three roses..they look quite nice and the colour look sweet..then on our way home, a female teacher ask we all wats the occasion and she was like laughing away when i said "some left over"..isit funny? no i dun think so..then on the train lots of ppl were looking at our flowers..aiyo so pai seh..i guess tat they are tinking tat is it too early to give flowers when v day has not even reach..or perhaps they will think which guy give us one arh..i attracted the most attention than tanu cos mine is reali big..gosh..
then at the stall i was talking to alvin..he chat with me and i find tat he is a nice person except tat he talk too much..we were talking abt jjc and the ppl down there..and he asked do i hav any programs on v day and i got anything to do? then i sae duno..depends..aiya then i asked him so are u asking ur ger frien out on v day?he said i dun hav gf..then i said why u dun wan to find? he said he scared of rejection..ok i tok guys veri thick skin and brave one?do they reali scared of rejection?haha ..then he still asked do u expect ur bf to give u any flowers when ur go out? i said no..duno wat is he trying to say..ask him he also dun wan to sae..guys are weird..
then last nite when i was sleeping at abt 1.30+ i suddenly cried..duno why i suddenly feel so sad and uncertain..why do i feel tat " weird feeling" when i read tat and when i know tat wat has happen was all in the past..and why do i feel so not sure and uncertain abt my feelings..i reali duno why and there is still alot of ??? in my head..hai~~~~~~~~
then todae morning they all pon lectures and i dun wish to..i am left alone with feezah..tat is reali bad..they are retained already and why are they continuing to skip lectures..i reali dun understand..then at tat pt of time i reali miss 106 and the time i spent with them..how i wish tat i am not retained then i could be in ms ong class and with wee ping they all..at least wee ping can act as mother to give me advice and encouragement..when i am down she is always there to talk to me no manner wat..i still rmb tat day when i know tat i am retained she bought a happy meal to cheer me up though its lame..but i know tat she is trying to make me happy and i reali appreciate it..now tat the class is disbane..i duno how can i stop missing them.. =( why does tis kind of tings always happen on me? sec sch also like tat..jc also like tat..i am reali tired of this already..

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