~trapped~

~trapped~
somehow last few days I feel trapped..duno why..sigh, I guess onli I can help myself, nobody else can help me..not even eating medicine can cure the sickness of my heart..sigh~~~seriously tat few days I also why suddenly I will feel like tat, do u know why?actually me myself also duno..
lately I have been veri crazy on those fake nails designs cos lately it is quite trendy..but it cost more than $30 for both hands..tat’s reali veri costy and ex..i always look but never buy cos I think abit not practical, it can onli be worn on days when u need not have to do anything..
recently I have got a new idol..tat show luo reali veri shuai and humourous..whenever I watch his show, I will always laugh..haha..
last wed intended to bid for the comp in ntu cos my brother’s friend ask him if he wants then he bid for us..we wanted to bid for it but my mum just refused to let us buy cos she sae 1 comp per household is enough already..morever it will occupy lots of space..then me and my brother veri angry with her becos my brother’s friend bid for $105 for the entire comp system, lowest so far is $70 and he is the so called “main organier “of this bid..tat’s why he is pro..wa lao LCD screen sia, I have wanting to get one already but I find it too ex tat’s why I dun wan to buy..plus there is rewriteable CD drive, and I dun have..its all my mum’s fault for not letting us buy..some more we are not asking her to pay for us, we wanted to use our money to pay for it..my dad also never sae anything..he sae whether we want to buy is up to us..when went ntu on fri to eat dinner since I was so free..my brother brought me to the office..it seems tat working over there seems quite gd sia..their sitting arrangement like those teacher’s office arrangement like tat..they give me the idea tat they are more like teacher..
nowadays keep feeling fed up becos got lots of things dun understand..then ask my brother to teach me then he keep asking conditions from me and I get fed up veri fast cos relai not mood to play with him, I just want to finish everything as fast as possible so tat I can dump my hw aside..cos reali sickening sia, from holiday til now I am still doing my hw..and I am starting to hate phy now cos currently we are studying on electricity..oh my god I reali hate tat, tat is my lousiest topic during sec sch..
wan yi confirm has a bf le..actually reali surprised cos tat time I was still guessing if I am right or not..then now confirm by somenore, tat means I am right..they sae he quite gd looking ..no wonder tat time I saw her msn nick saying “my life wouldn’t be complete without u..”starting from tat time I started to feel weird abt her..seriously she doesn’t look like she want to have bf cos last time she not like tat, she always sae sae but she is not serious abt wat she sae..tats why tat’s make me so surprised..anyway I reali curious how the guy look like..but one thing is tat she didn’t post her bf picts online so I duno is which one..last time in my sec sch, I still rmb tat I always have a nick in irc tat sae”my luv for u will never change..”but the guess the guy didn’t know abt it..actually thinking of it reali feel stupid..in the end I also fall in luv with another guy when I was in my 2004 jc1..aiya somehow I feel this kind of thing wont last..after a long time when both parties dun contact and see each other, feelings will tend to be lesser liao or even up to no feelings le..wei jie and yin mei are togther AGAIN..this is my duno how many times I hear them break liao then patch bac..it seems tat my sec sch mates couples indeed last veri long liao..i guess should be abt 2 yrs liao..time flies reali fast, wondered when will I hear tat both yh and maril will get a bf..i reali look forward tat..haha..actually howadays reali never contact with them le, I guess we different sch, abit hard to talk to each other..
then I was watching a dance show ..seriously the ending was sad, the guy has a changed of heart for another ger..intially he like both gers, but since he can onli choose one, he chose to break up with his gf..seriously tat’s veri sad and I feel tat it’s the most cruel fact to accept if I were her I will also do the same thing and cry..i reali dun wish to happen such things on me in any part of my life..seeing the guy together with another ger will onli break my heart..even though the outer side doesn’t show tat I care, but actually the inner side of me saes tat I do care..actually tat sounds contradicting..but I just dun wan the guy to know tat I still care for him..tat is just my theory for luv..
my brother was telling me tat his friend tok tat I am his gf..seriously I was laughing cos pls loh who will like this pimple face guy with attitude problem..lohz..
next thur will be going for Christmas party..reali look forward tat..