fri nite, my brother juz came bac from tekong..seriously he stinks like mad and indeed he have changed for the better..i think he is more guai this time.then suddenly he become so polite de, not as rude as last time le..i think its gd tat army has train him to become a better and more matured person.but seriously i dun reali miss him tat much even though he just came bac from army.my mum miss him alot, kept buying gd food for him this few days before he went bac to tekong for jungle trip.
sat evening, tat irrating and pervert ray msg again.dun understand why he always msg in chinese and why his msg is those nobody can understand one..in the words, all his past 2 msg are weird and he kept saying duno wat wolf is here..i am thinking, i dun care u are a pig, cat or dog, neither am i going to reply u and talk to u..then tat day after i went out for the bbq, mum called me saying tat there is a guy call me.then she ask me bac who is tat guy and i told her i reali duno cos seldom guy's will know my house no,except him.i am still wondering who is tat guy..i am so scared tat is tat pervert lah, but he also duno my house no..kay the JT bbq went out to be quite funny i think, though i am kind of bored cos i duno most of the ppl there except the kelvin and the leong wei jie who came to buy flowers from me tat time.initally it was raining, then JT told me tat i can no need to mafan come down since ming wei not going..but i sae last time i am going liao, so cant becos of the rain and ming wei not coming, tat's why dun come.moreover i understand how it feels when there are lesser and lesser ppl turning up for the bbq to celebrate his birthday.i believe it will be sad and disappointing,so i will turn up cos i understand how he feels..yup, overall the ppl quite joker, especially the guys.they made me smile and laugh alot..the gers quite ok also..the girrafe keep asking me if i wan any food and he got take some for me to eat cos i think he knows i pei seh to take.he still got offer me wine with coke and to me i think it taste weird and bitter..dun reali like the taste lah..but duno why the guys like it so nice leh when it taste not nice to me leh..anyway i think the guys can reali sing well leh.didnt expect them to be so gd in singing.first time hearing JT singing,think not too bad..think his whole grp of friends can reali sing.actually they can take part in the project superstar wat, why dun wan huh..when i reach the place, i was puzzled why got so many ppl to take me to the place, i thought onli 1 will do..i was onli expecting tat leong to come cos i onli know him mah, the rest was quite puzzled why they came along too..anyway i was abit frighten by their actions cos they throw the 2 birthday guys into the pool and smash some of the cakes on some gers and guys face.i was thinking tat time, lucky i duno them, if not i will kana..overall i think the bbq ok lah,at least got some entertainment.then after the bbq, 2 guy friends of JT pei me bac, but i told them tat there is no need for them to do so, but they insisted.seriously i feel bad when ppl send me home cos they still need to trouble to walk home.they asked me no guys send me home is it??haha, i laugh out saying no..but maybe i just dun like ppl to send me home lah, dun wan to trouble ppl..but something i realised is tat their class quite united, not like my yj classmates..we dun have tat strong bond as compared to the jj ppl..tat is something tat i cant see in yj.
sun evening at 6pm went to see fei lun hai at IMM..first time i made an effort to chase after idols..yup, i am as mad as those young gers..yup,on average all veri shuai and tall..the wu zun and ya lun damn shuai lah..seriously i am standing at an angle tat i can see wu zun quite closely and yes he is super shuai.his eyes damn big and nose super sharp.overall he is just a perfect guy.whenever he smiles, he just melt my heart cos he just got a veri nice and sweet smile.oh my god if i would have a bf half as shuai as him, then i will be happy like mad.then the ya lun,he is more of cute.the other 2 members cant reali see them cos they are blocked.but overall i think they are quite nice, not veri dao.the autograph ended up quite late, even up to 10pm when i started going home and they have yet to finish signing the albums, and the queue is still long..seriously i didnt know they are tat popular, but mainly their fans are those young little gers, ard those sec sch students ba.i see not much of guys.wu zun seems quite nice cos he still pose for us to take picts.some of the fans standing behind me kept shouting for wu jian and ask him to jia you and some encouragement words.At times, he got turn bac and smile and all the gers behind me all shout like mad.i didnt shout cos i am not as mad as them.haha..i took quite a no of picts of wu zun, but seems quite blur for all cos the hp resolution quite bad la..those little young gers damn funny lah, esp the comment tat they made for those ppl who block wu zun and ya lun.yup, i think they are kind of imatured..haha, at least i am better than them.yup, i also went to find poey to talk since long time never see her liao..her sales for tat day was kind of poor cos tat fei lun hai came, then she has to stop her business for fei lun hai.but somehow the security let me enter the shop.at tat angle i can clearly see the other members tat i didnt get to see.haha..so gd.tat poey was also smiling away cos she sae the fei lun hai veri shuai also..hehe..reach home quite late tat day, abt 11pm like tat..
todae was kind of boring day.practically suft net all the way..yup, fri is my last day.so happy, tml, wed and thur no work =) gd man!
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
~damn bored lah~
i am quite scared of sandie,the admin manager, whenever she walked past i will automatically closed down my internet and pretend tat i am doing some stuff..but the rest of the ppl who walk past, i dun usually care, still continue to use my net openly.some even ask me to go online to play games if i am reali bored.seriously man, i finished all the work tat has given to me, afternoon time is usually zhuo bo time..practically sit there do nothing.todae morning also did nothing.nothing for me to print and fax, so i zhuo bo..it seems tat todae i zhuo bo the whole day..i got plenty of time to blog and check my friendster and my mail..i think this job is reali too sian liao..nothing to do at all..but tat sandie always find things for me to do instead of letting me to waste time.sometimes when she use my comp, then i was thinking, oh shit, i am using the net and she saw it but didnt sae anything,but still i am still scared of her.haha..
then tat riduzwan was chatting wit me abt tat ray, the guy tat flirt wit me the past few days at the receptionist counter.he asked me wat he sae cos he was down there at one corner,but why didnt he come to my rescue tat day cos i am so scared of tat ray lah.i still tok i am alone ouside cos tat time no one walk past.aiya he veri funny lah and he sae i look like O level kid instead of A level kid..haha, i also think so lah cos i know i talk like a kid..trying hard to change now..hai~bored and more bored.
if u ask if i still like ac, probably my ans to it is no liao.duno why also, but i guess my feelings for him are totally gone.the next one i am finding for muz be tall this time and can communicate well.probably i think i like tat ryan now but i duno is it a crush or i am just admiring him tat's why i like him..but something i am confirm wit is i wont like flirt guy esp tat ray those kind of pattern although he look quite gd looking to riduzwan opinion but not me, his total image is ruin just becos of the way he talk to me.
tml going to jt bbq session.wonder how it will be cos i duno anyone over there.just wan to go there see see look look at the environment and see how tat ming wei looks like in real person..
then tat riduzwan was chatting wit me abt tat ray, the guy tat flirt wit me the past few days at the receptionist counter.he asked me wat he sae cos he was down there at one corner,but why didnt he come to my rescue tat day cos i am so scared of tat ray lah.i still tok i am alone ouside cos tat time no one walk past.aiya he veri funny lah and he sae i look like O level kid instead of A level kid..haha, i also think so lah cos i know i talk like a kid..trying hard to change now..hai~bored and more bored.
if u ask if i still like ac, probably my ans to it is no liao.duno why also, but i guess my feelings for him are totally gone.the next one i am finding for muz be tall this time and can communicate well.probably i think i like tat ryan now but i duno is it a crush or i am just admiring him tat's why i like him..but something i am confirm wit is i wont like flirt guy esp tat ray those kind of pattern although he look quite gd looking to riduzwan opinion but not me, his total image is ruin just becos of the way he talk to me.
tml going to jt bbq session.wonder how it will be cos i duno anyone over there.just wan to go there see see look look at the environment and see how tat ming wei looks like in real person..
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
~i am damn bored lah~
yesterday an idiot msg me in the middle of the nite at 3 somthing saeing some weird things in chinese and it woke it up..from my guess i think is tat ray who is damn irritating.i told him liao i am not free which ever day he ask me out cos i am not interested in knowing and making friend with him at all..hopefully he dun come the receptionist counter to disturb me this few days, after tat he wans to come is none of my business cos i am not doing anymore.6th feb onwards, i shall step into the moe finance department to work as clerk le..pay is $6 per hour..consider not bad lah.
mum this few days keep finding fault with me again even though i am not at home cos working ma..then the moment i reach home, she will scold this and tat and duno why she is so mindful of keeping my room clean..i just think she is a clean freak.wat the hell man, she keep touching my stuff and putting in places tat i dun wan to put into..aiya she always got thing to find fault with me one lah..sian man everytime i step into the house.dad also canot stand her loh..my brother is coming bac this fri or sat time..wonder how he look like now..
working at the sci park as receptionist reali damn bored man..there is no one to talk to and everybody i also duno..eat also has to eat alone cos i duno anybody.so i choose to da pao to the receptionist counter to eat instead rather than eating at the canteen itself cos seems veri pathetic if were to eat alone.if i were to be in sch, i would feel ok but now wit working adults, i feel pathetic to eat alone.and i am the youngest in the office, all of them are adults..some of the ppl there ask me if i am a student or not..of cos i am lah.actually can see from the way i talk also.but seriously its damn bored man, there is no one tat i can talk to, got one malay guy quite gd, he is in shipping department,then he always walk past then talk to me one..the rest leh onli smile to me when they walk past..some more dao, treat u as transparent..morning tat time some will great u lah, then i smile bac loh.but serioulsy i duno who they are also.then whenever i pick up calls, i got a problem listening to their slang then i will ask them to spell out the name for me.haha..blur seh cos i reali duno how to spell their name esp those weird name.somehow i think office environment dun reali suit me leh..i still prefer the flourist job cos at least still got interaction and movement to do..for admin job, just sit down comp the whole day to do watever is needed.but usually morning i am abit busy, but after 12pm, i usually rot like mad..eyes are also getting painful day by day cos i keep starting at the comp for long hrs.seriously todae is the most bored cos todae i am quite familiar to the system liao so work abit faster now, but which means i get more bored after all my work and duties are finish.some of the ppl sae "so how, easy job rite?yup i sae, but i sae too easy until i veri sian..."actually gd lah, can get paid for doing nothing and yet still can surf net and do wat i wan.but i think those ppl who walk past knows i am sufting net lah cos i kept typing away when my job dun reali need me to type alot.hehe..never mind lah..
todae also so sway, pants kana some hole,then have to find safety pin like mad..aiya juz a sway day todae.canot stand up also cos if not hole will be obvious man.tml is a longer day to go...hai~
mum this few days keep finding fault with me again even though i am not at home cos working ma..then the moment i reach home, she will scold this and tat and duno why she is so mindful of keeping my room clean..i just think she is a clean freak.wat the hell man, she keep touching my stuff and putting in places tat i dun wan to put into..aiya she always got thing to find fault with me one lah..sian man everytime i step into the house.dad also canot stand her loh..my brother is coming bac this fri or sat time..wonder how he look like now..
working at the sci park as receptionist reali damn bored man..there is no one to talk to and everybody i also duno..eat also has to eat alone cos i duno anybody.so i choose to da pao to the receptionist counter to eat instead rather than eating at the canteen itself cos seems veri pathetic if were to eat alone.if i were to be in sch, i would feel ok but now wit working adults, i feel pathetic to eat alone.and i am the youngest in the office, all of them are adults..some of the ppl there ask me if i am a student or not..of cos i am lah.actually can see from the way i talk also.but seriously its damn bored man, there is no one tat i can talk to, got one malay guy quite gd, he is in shipping department,then he always walk past then talk to me one..the rest leh onli smile to me when they walk past..some more dao, treat u as transparent..morning tat time some will great u lah, then i smile bac loh.but serioulsy i duno who they are also.then whenever i pick up calls, i got a problem listening to their slang then i will ask them to spell out the name for me.haha..blur seh cos i reali duno how to spell their name esp those weird name.somehow i think office environment dun reali suit me leh..i still prefer the flourist job cos at least still got interaction and movement to do..for admin job, just sit down comp the whole day to do watever is needed.but usually morning i am abit busy, but after 12pm, i usually rot like mad..eyes are also getting painful day by day cos i keep starting at the comp for long hrs.seriously todae is the most bored cos todae i am quite familiar to the system liao so work abit faster now, but which means i get more bored after all my work and duties are finish.some of the ppl sae "so how, easy job rite?yup i sae, but i sae too easy until i veri sian..."actually gd lah, can get paid for doing nothing and yet still can surf net and do wat i wan.but i think those ppl who walk past knows i am sufting net lah cos i kept typing away when my job dun reali need me to type alot.hehe..never mind lah..
todae also so sway, pants kana some hole,then have to find safety pin like mad..aiya juz a sway day todae.canot stand up also cos if not hole will be obvious man.tml is a longer day to go...hai~
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
~feeling for working as receptionist~
last fri went out with sharon to town since she passing me the hair styling curl thingy..and later when we go home walk pass the sex toy shop, wanted to go in since long time ago, but never had a chance to do so.yup, went in their with sharon and her bf.i am kind of amazed at the things they sell..ya, but mainly sex toy lah..some key chain also, which are quite dirty minded..haha..her bf veri shy too..haha..
sun went out with to JT to eat sushi.after which went to jp to search for his friend present..then so sway tat day rain..then mon leh, tat jason (the agent) call me early in the morning, ask me want to work in panasonic and need to sign contract for 4 months.i ponder for a while, and i told him no..later in the evening when i go jogging, he call me again...ask me if i wan to work in sci park as receptionist for a week like tat..so i agreed since its onli one week contract..one disadv with agents are tat we need to sign contract, so cant reali run away if we wan to quit..but advantage is they are fast in finding jobs for u..yup, he sae if got other presentable and gd looking ger then can ask them come along.haha, he sae he wans those like me, nice nice and presentable looking..haha..i was thinking i am not reali tat gd looking lah, just ok ok onli..then i sae bac him tat where to find those nice looking gers for him..haha then i sae ugly canot meh??then he laugh out..he sae ugly ones canot be receptionist.seriously i think this society reali based on looks.if u are ugly then more difficult to get a job..but jason is a veri nice guy lah, he knows wat i am thinking also cos i and his brother same jc then he also repeat student..so qiao..find him quite nice too lah, in future wan to look for job can find him again..but one thing he veri luo suo..will give u morning call and everynow and then will pester u and ask u if u have reach the place liao or not..cos he scared i suddenly dun turn up then he will kana from his client mah..i not tat bad one lah, i sae i will come means i will come unless got something prop up last min..
then mon afternoon, cm told me tat she is eating with ryan they all, then i reply tat i am so envy of her, can see him so close up de and i sae i also wan it too!!then she show the msg to ryan..my god, it was super pei seh and cm told me tat he laugh like mad..cm and ming wei thinks tat i lik him but seriously i duno if i like him or not..but i reali admire him..reali like the interview with him, but i think no chance loh cos he much more older than me..and hardly i got the chance to see him again.sigh..=(
tues went to the sci park for training.wa lao there super inconvienent and tat bus driver told me the wrong direction, made me find the place like mad and ended up walking in circles.yup, training was ok lah, quite easy at first, but todae quite busy in the morning..calls kept coming in and i need to fax and do so many things at one go..hardly got time to breathe cos i super blur cos i am first day at work and no one is there to help me for my doubts.and i am alone sitting in front of the lift, so the moment the lift opens, everyone sees me.think it is super pei seh man.feel like some fashion model like tat for ppl to see..and todae one irritatin guy came and talk to me and ask me out for dinner and my personal life.ok lah, i entertainment him abit and later i find him veri irritating cos he ask me out for date and stuff like tat.i told him tat i everyday also not free one even though i am free, i just dun wan to go out with him.he ask me if i like older guys or younger guys, and i told him i duno.actually i would perfer older guys but why should i tell him man.i dun wan to entertain him anymore so i find thing to do purposely cos i wan him to go away cos he veri FANN!!and i dun like him!!so stop pestering me and asking me out for date and stuff like tat..he get my hp no and email but i will confirm ignore him no matter wat cos i just find him reali irritaing..and he look so flirt loh..i told him directly tat i am not interested at all..and he sae i am veri straight forward..ya wat, dun like to hear such rubbish so juz sae directly lah..
sun went out with to JT to eat sushi.after which went to jp to search for his friend present..then so sway tat day rain..then mon leh, tat jason (the agent) call me early in the morning, ask me want to work in panasonic and need to sign contract for 4 months.i ponder for a while, and i told him no..later in the evening when i go jogging, he call me again...ask me if i wan to work in sci park as receptionist for a week like tat..so i agreed since its onli one week contract..one disadv with agents are tat we need to sign contract, so cant reali run away if we wan to quit..but advantage is they are fast in finding jobs for u..yup, he sae if got other presentable and gd looking ger then can ask them come along.haha, he sae he wans those like me, nice nice and presentable looking..haha..i was thinking i am not reali tat gd looking lah, just ok ok onli..then i sae bac him tat where to find those nice looking gers for him..haha then i sae ugly canot meh??then he laugh out..he sae ugly ones canot be receptionist.seriously i think this society reali based on looks.if u are ugly then more difficult to get a job..but jason is a veri nice guy lah, he knows wat i am thinking also cos i and his brother same jc then he also repeat student..so qiao..find him quite nice too lah, in future wan to look for job can find him again..but one thing he veri luo suo..will give u morning call and everynow and then will pester u and ask u if u have reach the place liao or not..cos he scared i suddenly dun turn up then he will kana from his client mah..i not tat bad one lah, i sae i will come means i will come unless got something prop up last min..
then mon afternoon, cm told me tat she is eating with ryan they all, then i reply tat i am so envy of her, can see him so close up de and i sae i also wan it too!!then she show the msg to ryan..my god, it was super pei seh and cm told me tat he laugh like mad..cm and ming wei thinks tat i lik him but seriously i duno if i like him or not..but i reali admire him..reali like the interview with him, but i think no chance loh cos he much more older than me..and hardly i got the chance to see him again.sigh..=(
tues went to the sci park for training.wa lao there super inconvienent and tat bus driver told me the wrong direction, made me find the place like mad and ended up walking in circles.yup, training was ok lah, quite easy at first, but todae quite busy in the morning..calls kept coming in and i need to fax and do so many things at one go..hardly got time to breathe cos i super blur cos i am first day at work and no one is there to help me for my doubts.and i am alone sitting in front of the lift, so the moment the lift opens, everyone sees me.think it is super pei seh man.feel like some fashion model like tat for ppl to see..and todae one irritatin guy came and talk to me and ask me out for dinner and my personal life.ok lah, i entertainment him abit and later i find him veri irritating cos he ask me out for date and stuff like tat.i told him tat i everyday also not free one even though i am free, i just dun wan to go out with him.he ask me if i like older guys or younger guys, and i told him i duno.actually i would perfer older guys but why should i tell him man.i dun wan to entertain him anymore so i find thing to do purposely cos i wan him to go away cos he veri FANN!!and i dun like him!!so stop pestering me and asking me out for date and stuff like tat..he get my hp no and email but i will confirm ignore him no matter wat cos i just find him reali irritaing..and he look so flirt loh..i told him directly tat i am not interested at all..and he sae i am veri straight forward..ya wat, dun like to hear such rubbish so juz sae directly lah..
Saturday, January 20, 2007
~i am seriously sick of this family~
wed went out with maril..yup, i think she still the same in character wise..still tat look down on ppl..duno lah, dun reali like her character..but i went out with her cos i long time never see her liao..her job expectations are so high, no wonder she cant find a job till now..i told her tat its not there is no job but u are not willing to work cos of the low pay..yup, i told her honestly..she smile, so wat i sae was correct..anyway i ask her abt her bf, i think her bf is reali veri nice loh, but i think she duno how to cherish..she complaines tat her bf has low IQ and sae tat i can be his gf cos i got low IQ also..wat the hell man, such things also can sae..ok, fine, i kept quiet, let her sae all she wan, i shall not be angry over it..we went to bugis, lavander to find her job, i didnt find for it cos i am not interested cos its just too far from my house.so i just pei her loh.eventually she got the job in lavander lah..5 bucks per hr..
fri went for an interview by the recruit express, tat guy tat interview me was jason..initally should be daniel but he took the business away from him..yup, he sae the outside ppl sae i am super quiet, cold and fierce looking when i step into their office..haha..no lah, my mood wasnt feeling veri gd cos i quarrel with my mum..yup, he quite gd lah,not as bad as i think..so wether can get a job up to him liao..hai~~sian..day is reali bad nowadays without a job cos kept quarreling with mum..hai~~
fri went for an interview by the recruit express, tat guy tat interview me was jason..initally should be daniel but he took the business away from him..yup, he sae the outside ppl sae i am super quiet, cold and fierce looking when i step into their office..haha..no lah, my mood wasnt feeling veri gd cos i quarrel with my mum..yup, he quite gd lah,not as bad as i think..so wether can get a job up to him liao..hai~~sian..day is reali bad nowadays without a job cos kept quarreling with mum..hai~~
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
~kind of sad??~
sat nite went out with yh and yw to vivo..yup, quite sian arh when i reach there 1.5hrs earlier cos yw didnt tell me abt the last min changes.i wasnt angry with him but just dun like ppl to be like tat..once a while is ok, but dun always did it on me or else, i will reali get angry one..tat day, he was kind of guilty for forgetting to tell me abt the changes, so he treated us anything below $100..yup, there too much restaurants until we duno wat to choose, eventually ate "ben and jerry"..wa, super nice man especially the ice cream tat yw ordered-the banana split..later went to play pool, his treat too but i didnt play much cos i dun like playing such things and i duno how to play also.saw a no of yj ppl and wan yi too..she didnt changed much, still look the same..the scenery outside vivo is nice esp the open space where there are lots of benches, where opp is sentosa..haha, gd place to go for dating cos its quite romantic..as we are strolling, there are reali indeed alot of couples sitting on the wooden platform..
dad was saying past few days tat he wont object me to have a bf as long as he is decent, but mum still object cos she sae tat she dun like me to have a bf when i am still studying..but wat's the pt of saying all these now, if 2 yrs bac, they were to sae this, probably i would try ways to salavage the relationship, but it is all history now and it is not longer possible no matter how much i wish to try..i dun have a choice to choose at tat time..so i choose to give up, rather than to face the obastacles ahead of us..
mon went to interview at cycle and carriage cos JT friend (ming wei) intro me a job over there to do admin work..yup, the sad part is cm got in but i didnt got in..i wasnt reali veri sad, just alittle bit sad onli..i wasnt veri veri sad cos i expected it cos i talk nothing when tat ryan ask me to talk aby myself and i said the wron gthings tat shouldnt be said when tat lady interviewed me..i didnt expect the interview to be like tat, so open ended qns..if i have known tat, i would do some research for the interview cos i always flock my interview..tat ryan is reali observant man, he asked why am i always holding on to my bag,,obviously, i am panic and nervous and he sae can see i have no confidence at all..he sae i look pretty worried of abling to meet the duties required..yup, tat;s just me, i am hyst worried tat i canot meet their requirements cos whatever they sae i also dun understand, everything just sound so chime to me and i have never study those stuff tat they are talking abt before..and wat the hell is marketing all abt???i reali have vague ideas abt it..it seems tat i canot connect with the outside society..tat ryan is relai veri charming man, initally i dun think so, but after the interview i was electrocuted by him..haha..both me and cm are some sort crazy abt him..i was veri scared when he look into my eyes for long time during the interview so i keep turning my eyes away from his eyes..haha, dun wan to be electrocuted by him..he look relai fierce when he dun smile and look super serious..however, he look veri charming and cool when he smiles.tat's the part why i had a slight interest in him, suddenly want to know more abt him, cos his smile captured my attention..haha, but he is too old for me and i dun have the chance to work there too, hard to know him also..the interview doesnt seems like interview at all cos i tseems tat i am more of chatting with him cos i set the wrong tone in the first place..more like friend-friend tone..when he ask me wat are my goals, seriously i have no idea abt it..so i cant ans him on the spot..wat i wan to study i also duno..it reali depends how well i did for my A levels then i can decide wat i can take.when he ask me and cm to go into the interview room, he looked at me again, this time to tell me tat the lady wants to hire cm instead of me..he asked me if i am ok or not twice cos he sae i suddenly so quiet when outside the room i kept talking non stop to cm..haha, he veri cute lah, then i sae ok la..yup, did smile bac too cos i see him so cute.then he reali smile bac and laugh too..serioulsy he look relai charming when he smile, why must always put up with tat serious and fierce look mah..i guess he is laughing secretly at us for making a fool of ourselves when we answered the qns wrongly..he was sort of suaning me when i said my hope is to be a fashion designer..then he suan me bac saying tat my neckacles and earings dun match at all..so i give him tat look, in a joking way, then he kept quiet.he was veri unfriendly and zuai initally but after tat i think he is actually ok, but he dun think so..but seriously, i wan to know more abt this guy, duno why also.some guys i am just not interested to know anything abt them, but he is an exception..hmm..why arh?cant find an ans to it also..both cm and i cant take our eyes off those shuai ge when they walk past..haha..
now, i got a job next week at moe to do data entry for 1 to 2 weeks.but after tat i will be jobless again cos they onli need me for 1 to 2 weeks.even though previosulyi wanted theis job badly but looking bac, i think the cycle and carriage is better..at least i can learn more things and can gain more experience..at this pt of time, i wan to earn some money to pay for my laptop and gain some experiences and learn more new things tat i never learn before in sch.now, i think its abit not practical to do data entry cos u wont learn much from there, although i think this job is much easier to do..maybe i need challenges to build my confidence , so tat i can be a stronger ger and a confident ger..
later i am meeting up with maril, long time since i last seen her..i are going for a job interview..duno gd or not, but why not just go there and see loh..better than jobless, no money to feed our mouth..
dad was saying past few days tat he wont object me to have a bf as long as he is decent, but mum still object cos she sae tat she dun like me to have a bf when i am still studying..but wat's the pt of saying all these now, if 2 yrs bac, they were to sae this, probably i would try ways to salavage the relationship, but it is all history now and it is not longer possible no matter how much i wish to try..i dun have a choice to choose at tat time..so i choose to give up, rather than to face the obastacles ahead of us..
mon went to interview at cycle and carriage cos JT friend (ming wei) intro me a job over there to do admin work..yup, the sad part is cm got in but i didnt got in..i wasnt reali veri sad, just alittle bit sad onli..i wasnt veri veri sad cos i expected it cos i talk nothing when tat ryan ask me to talk aby myself and i said the wron gthings tat shouldnt be said when tat lady interviewed me..i didnt expect the interview to be like tat, so open ended qns..if i have known tat, i would do some research for the interview cos i always flock my interview..tat ryan is reali observant man, he asked why am i always holding on to my bag,,obviously, i am panic and nervous and he sae can see i have no confidence at all..he sae i look pretty worried of abling to meet the duties required..yup, tat;s just me, i am hyst worried tat i canot meet their requirements cos whatever they sae i also dun understand, everything just sound so chime to me and i have never study those stuff tat they are talking abt before..and wat the hell is marketing all abt???i reali have vague ideas abt it..it seems tat i canot connect with the outside society..tat ryan is relai veri charming man, initally i dun think so, but after the interview i was electrocuted by him..haha..both me and cm are some sort crazy abt him..i was veri scared when he look into my eyes for long time during the interview so i keep turning my eyes away from his eyes..haha, dun wan to be electrocuted by him..he look relai fierce when he dun smile and look super serious..however, he look veri charming and cool when he smiles.tat's the part why i had a slight interest in him, suddenly want to know more abt him, cos his smile captured my attention..haha, but he is too old for me and i dun have the chance to work there too, hard to know him also..the interview doesnt seems like interview at all cos i tseems tat i am more of chatting with him cos i set the wrong tone in the first place..more like friend-friend tone..when he ask me wat are my goals, seriously i have no idea abt it..so i cant ans him on the spot..wat i wan to study i also duno..it reali depends how well i did for my A levels then i can decide wat i can take.when he ask me and cm to go into the interview room, he looked at me again, this time to tell me tat the lady wants to hire cm instead of me..he asked me if i am ok or not twice cos he sae i suddenly so quiet when outside the room i kept talking non stop to cm..haha, he veri cute lah, then i sae ok la..yup, did smile bac too cos i see him so cute.then he reali smile bac and laugh too..serioulsy he look relai charming when he smile, why must always put up with tat serious and fierce look mah..i guess he is laughing secretly at us for making a fool of ourselves when we answered the qns wrongly..he was sort of suaning me when i said my hope is to be a fashion designer..then he suan me bac saying tat my neckacles and earings dun match at all..so i give him tat look, in a joking way, then he kept quiet.he was veri unfriendly and zuai initally but after tat i think he is actually ok, but he dun think so..but seriously, i wan to know more abt this guy, duno why also.some guys i am just not interested to know anything abt them, but he is an exception..hmm..why arh?cant find an ans to it also..both cm and i cant take our eyes off those shuai ge when they walk past..haha..
now, i got a job next week at moe to do data entry for 1 to 2 weeks.but after tat i will be jobless again cos they onli need me for 1 to 2 weeks.even though previosulyi wanted theis job badly but looking bac, i think the cycle and carriage is better..at least i can learn more things and can gain more experience..at this pt of time, i wan to earn some money to pay for my laptop and gain some experiences and learn more new things tat i never learn before in sch.now, i think its abit not practical to do data entry cos u wont learn much from there, although i think this job is much easier to do..maybe i need challenges to build my confidence , so tat i can be a stronger ger and a confident ger..
later i am meeting up with maril, long time since i last seen her..i are going for a job interview..duno gd or not, but why not just go there and see loh..better than jobless, no money to feed our mouth..
Friday, January 12, 2007
~the entries for 2 weeks~
last sun was new year eve..morning need to go for gathering cos anjana leaving singapore soon,,food was nice, esp the choclates which was made by jun jie..haha, admire guys who can make choclate cos i like to eat those kuah stuff..i think he veri pro loh cos i also duno how to make..during the evening went to hotel to work..yup, it was the most sway thing tat it ever happens..both me and my brotherhave changed into their unifrom and preparing to start work le but who knows justwhen we wore our own black shoes, both the soles of our shoe dropped out..worst thing is i never realised it in the first place, onli realised it after i stepped out of the changing room..everyone was looking at me and it is the most pei seh thing..so i quickly changed bac into my own clothes and both my brother and i decided not to work anymore given our situation..my brother was just lucky tat he realised it fast, so nobody realised it except the cleaner kana scolded by the supervisior cos my brother diritied the toilet becos part of his shoes drop out and leave lots of black marks on the floor..luckily the cleaner duno my brother dirited the toilet, otherwise he would get scolded..somehow i think tat god dun wan us to work as waitress and waiter, else it is reali too qiao tat both of our soles of the shoe drop out at the same time..tat day initally wanted to go countdown but later didnt cos was too tired, went bac home to watch tv instead..
mon went to johor,,this time everything went veri smooth..traffic was veri smooth, no congestion at all and at the check pt, everything was veri fast..practically we didnt wait at all..there are lots of sale but i bought nothing on clothes and shoes cos i feel tat they are all not nice as compared to singapore ones.so i spend all the money i changed on a mascara, hair treatment and food..eat from morning to evening non stop tat day and got reali veri full although we didnt reali eat proper meals..food was reali veri cheap..think we order abt 10 or more types of food in all..
tues went for 106 gathering at newton to eat..yup, food there reali not cheap seh.we ordered lots of variety of food and we share all the food tat we odered..ended up paying like $9 per person..lately duno why so tired,,i can doze off anytime and anywhere, just like tat day at my dad's friend house, i doze off without any reason knowing tat it is quite rude..there is this another particular guy, unknown guy again msg me.this time i reali duno who he is but he claims he is joey's friend.i was reali confused how he know my name and my hp no, so i ask him how he got it..he kept dun wan tell me how he got it and saying tat i think too much liao.since he dun wan tell me the truth then why should i make friend with him..i just dun like ppl to lie and keep the truth from me..for 3 consecutive days, he kept msging me, but sometimes i ignore him cos i feel tat i am talking to a stranger of whom i duno who is it and how he looks like and his character..i see no pt in talking to him and we dun have any common topic to talk abt..i was reali shock when he ask me out for dinner and movie..my first reaction was HUH??i dun even know u in the first place and u are reali bold enough to ask a ger whom u duno for a dinner..althought tat day i am quite free, i told him tat i am busy cos i feel it is not safe to go out with strangers tat i duno..moreover i also duno who is he..i was also reali shock when he call me up, but i just refuse to pick up the call cos i am reali scared of him.i just feel scared the moment i think of, he knows who i am but i duno him at all..but now, he didnt msg me anymore..maybe he get the hint tat i am ignoring him..
my workplace is kind of sophicated..many ppl are veri unhappy abt alot of things..and the funny thing is tat everyone tell me their secrets and unhappiness but they didnt even tell their close partners..everyone who tell me always sae"dun tell anyone hor.."weird arh, it seems tat everyone trust me tati wont tell anyone and tell me all their secrets..it seems tat i am providing a listening ear to everyone..haha, i dun mind cos at least i wont be tat bored,,they sae ever since i come, they talk alot, else usually talk veri little..
fri was relai sayang cos hp suddenly got no access, reception was poor, not the first time liao..and so sway tat the ppl called and i was choosen for an interview to work in the moe but who knows myhp canot recieve the call, so they call my house but i am not at home, was at work actually..hai~when i call bac, the positition was taken up.so sayang loh..initally they ask me if i wan to work in innova jc as data entry, but i rejected cos its too far plus transport fee would be too ex by then..ho i wish if theys ae yj got vanacy then i would immediately agree..haha, maybe can make friend with my 2 idols cos i would their staff by then..haha..(dreaming away)
fri also sent off anjana at the airport..yup, can see she quite sad to leave..i made a bouquet of flowers for her and we shared the money amont 4 ppl.first time i feel tat my flowers i made is ok cos tat bouquet u spent alot of effort and time to do one..usually i just anyhow do..now then i realised tat when they sell flowers to customers, they usually sell them thrice or twice their cost price..they earn reali alot by selling flowers ..actually i didnt regret taking up this job cos at least i learn something which my friend might not probably knows..tat nite, went to sakae to eat..OMG, we still thought it was a buffet but acatually not, no wonder the ppl there was looking as us and nobody have lots of plates..i wasted lots of food since i thought it was a buffet, wanted to try anything but i throw all the rice away..haha..bad seh..tat day still thought canot pay up liao cos we eat 40 plates..luckily still got money and it cost like $24 for each person..actually initally still want to stay on there to learn more new things but my mind was veri confused cos i wan to have a change of environment so tat i can get more exposure..mum and i quarrel until veri jia lat on fri nite cos she is just unreasonable and i canot stand her.she wants me to play piano twice..fine, i play for her..i purposely wake up early to play for her and she sae i disturbing ppl's sleep..then at nite, i play, she sae i disturbing her sleep too..then what she wants man!i canot play piano in the afternoon cos i am working wat..she threaten tat she will call kat and sae tat i am quitting but i dun wan cos i haven found another job..even though i quit tat job i will still find another one regardless of whether she is against me working or not..
sat i overslept and made sharon wait for 1.5hrs..feel reali bad cos fri nite i quarrel with my mum and slept at 2.30am.so couldnt wake up on time at 6am.i am angry with her cos she knows tat i am going out yet she purposely dun wan wake me up and i made ppl wait for so long..yup, tat day went to her house to dye hair..come out still not bad and i still owe her a favour..i think sharon is a veri nice person..happy to be her friend too cos she teachers me alot of stuff tat i wan to learn earlier one..
sun went to a wedding dinner..yup, food as ok ok onli..not tat nice also..seriously i duno most of my relatives although they sae they know us..bride is veri pretty and dun look like her at all..the guy looks veri ah beng and fat to me..haha..not reali the type of guy tat i will like..anyway the wedding is quite sian loh, talk to nobody at all..tat day also went to work in the morning..saw JT coming into my shop..stil thought he wanted to go in to buy things..but so happen tat his friend is buying a bouquet of flowers and bear in our shop.so sweet seh..haha..
all the part timers are quitting, i was relai shock to hear tat even the most hardworking also wan tot quit..i duno wat is the real reason for them to quit but i do admit tat i am the most slack among all the outley cos the sales for my shop not so gd..seriously getting $5 per hour is quite worth it considering i zhuo bo most of the time.and moreover i always take leave as and when i like..by rite tat shouldnt be the case but i guess i still want to quit though it is abit sayang to give up such a job with flexible working hours.i wan to try out those admin works..
my resoultions for this yr is to get gd results for my A levels and go NTU or NUS..mon went out with jin yi for job interview..intially wanted to ask but she not free so i call him instead since tat time i still owe him a favour by borrowing his cam.when i reached there i sort of like kana cheated..it is an agent company who called me, still thought it was the company itself who call me..tues had a reali scary experience..there is this guy whom poey and i think tat he has mental disorder came to our shop..he stayed in our shop for veri veri long and when poey ask him wat he wants, he kept keping quiet and ignore her..i could fell something was amiss the moment he stepped into the shop..it is obvious tat he dun wan buy anything and yet he still dun wan leave..worst part is he kept looking me, duno why also!!was so scared tat time...cos he kept moving nearer and nearer to me..luckily poey was there to protect me..me and poey write nites secretly to one another and she tell me to call the security guard..i quickly ran out of the shop to find them but just couldnt find..but poey sae once after i ran out of the shop, the guy immediately go off..and poey call for help from the ppl near our shop..she said tat he has mental disorder but a mild one cos he knows wat he is talking abt,,or maybe he is just fegining to act siao.she siad tat his aim is not to target me but to kar jiao gers, but so happen tat i look scared, so i became his target..aiya meet up with such things where will not scared one..
thur went to tekong to send my brother off for army..environment isnt tat bad, not as bad as i expected..i not sad at all when he go off leh, just feel tat house abit empty now..army uses alot of short forms which i feel is abit hard to understand..like OTOT..i feel so excited when i know i was going to take a ferry cos never take b4..yup, felt abit dizzy too cos i not used to it arh..some of the ppl had their gf and parents to sent them off..think it is so sweet cos i see tat their parents are willing to accept the gf at such a young age..when will my parents allow..hai~
yesterday (12/01) is my last day at work cos i told kat tat i am quitting since she called me to ask me wether i can work during new year eve and valetine.since i not working til tat day, i decided to told her tat i am quitting..but last time she said tat befor i wan to quit must give her 3 days notice, but yesterday she sae i no need to stay for those 3 days liao, she sae yesterday is my last day..the way she sae it was kind of unfriendly, i was kana abit hurt by wat she saes though i am the one who iniated tat i wan to quit..suddenly feel tat yesterday i lose alot of things, cant see poey anymore and i will miss her laugher and entertainment..but i am looking for another now, hoping it would be better than this ba..saw yi hui too yesterday at imm..yup , she call me and she changed alot..how i wish i can gather the mm ppl again..
mon went to johor,,this time everything went veri smooth..traffic was veri smooth, no congestion at all and at the check pt, everything was veri fast..practically we didnt wait at all..there are lots of sale but i bought nothing on clothes and shoes cos i feel tat they are all not nice as compared to singapore ones.so i spend all the money i changed on a mascara, hair treatment and food..eat from morning to evening non stop tat day and got reali veri full although we didnt reali eat proper meals..food was reali veri cheap..think we order abt 10 or more types of food in all..
tues went for 106 gathering at newton to eat..yup, food there reali not cheap seh.we ordered lots of variety of food and we share all the food tat we odered..ended up paying like $9 per person..lately duno why so tired,,i can doze off anytime and anywhere, just like tat day at my dad's friend house, i doze off without any reason knowing tat it is quite rude..there is this another particular guy, unknown guy again msg me.this time i reali duno who he is but he claims he is joey's friend.i was reali confused how he know my name and my hp no, so i ask him how he got it..he kept dun wan tell me how he got it and saying tat i think too much liao.since he dun wan tell me the truth then why should i make friend with him..i just dun like ppl to lie and keep the truth from me..for 3 consecutive days, he kept msging me, but sometimes i ignore him cos i feel tat i am talking to a stranger of whom i duno who is it and how he looks like and his character..i see no pt in talking to him and we dun have any common topic to talk abt..i was reali shock when he ask me out for dinner and movie..my first reaction was HUH??i dun even know u in the first place and u are reali bold enough to ask a ger whom u duno for a dinner..althought tat day i am quite free, i told him tat i am busy cos i feel it is not safe to go out with strangers tat i duno..moreover i also duno who is he..i was also reali shock when he call me up, but i just refuse to pick up the call cos i am reali scared of him.i just feel scared the moment i think of, he knows who i am but i duno him at all..but now, he didnt msg me anymore..maybe he get the hint tat i am ignoring him..
my workplace is kind of sophicated..many ppl are veri unhappy abt alot of things..and the funny thing is tat everyone tell me their secrets and unhappiness but they didnt even tell their close partners..everyone who tell me always sae"dun tell anyone hor.."weird arh, it seems tat everyone trust me tati wont tell anyone and tell me all their secrets..it seems tat i am providing a listening ear to everyone..haha, i dun mind cos at least i wont be tat bored,,they sae ever since i come, they talk alot, else usually talk veri little..
fri was relai sayang cos hp suddenly got no access, reception was poor, not the first time liao..and so sway tat the ppl called and i was choosen for an interview to work in the moe but who knows myhp canot recieve the call, so they call my house but i am not at home, was at work actually..hai~when i call bac, the positition was taken up.so sayang loh..initally they ask me if i wan to work in innova jc as data entry, but i rejected cos its too far plus transport fee would be too ex by then..ho i wish if theys ae yj got vanacy then i would immediately agree..haha, maybe can make friend with my 2 idols cos i would their staff by then..haha..(dreaming away)
fri also sent off anjana at the airport..yup, can see she quite sad to leave..i made a bouquet of flowers for her and we shared the money amont 4 ppl.first time i feel tat my flowers i made is ok cos tat bouquet u spent alot of effort and time to do one..usually i just anyhow do..now then i realised tat when they sell flowers to customers, they usually sell them thrice or twice their cost price..they earn reali alot by selling flowers ..actually i didnt regret taking up this job cos at least i learn something which my friend might not probably knows..tat nite, went to sakae to eat..OMG, we still thought it was a buffet but acatually not, no wonder the ppl there was looking as us and nobody have lots of plates..i wasted lots of food since i thought it was a buffet, wanted to try anything but i throw all the rice away..haha..bad seh..tat day still thought canot pay up liao cos we eat 40 plates..luckily still got money and it cost like $24 for each person..actually initally still want to stay on there to learn more new things but my mind was veri confused cos i wan to have a change of environment so tat i can get more exposure..mum and i quarrel until veri jia lat on fri nite cos she is just unreasonable and i canot stand her.she wants me to play piano twice..fine, i play for her..i purposely wake up early to play for her and she sae i disturbing ppl's sleep..then at nite, i play, she sae i disturbing her sleep too..then what she wants man!i canot play piano in the afternoon cos i am working wat..she threaten tat she will call kat and sae tat i am quitting but i dun wan cos i haven found another job..even though i quit tat job i will still find another one regardless of whether she is against me working or not..
sat i overslept and made sharon wait for 1.5hrs..feel reali bad cos fri nite i quarrel with my mum and slept at 2.30am.so couldnt wake up on time at 6am.i am angry with her cos she knows tat i am going out yet she purposely dun wan wake me up and i made ppl wait for so long..yup, tat day went to her house to dye hair..come out still not bad and i still owe her a favour..i think sharon is a veri nice person..happy to be her friend too cos she teachers me alot of stuff tat i wan to learn earlier one..
sun went to a wedding dinner..yup, food as ok ok onli..not tat nice also..seriously i duno most of my relatives although they sae they know us..bride is veri pretty and dun look like her at all..the guy looks veri ah beng and fat to me..haha..not reali the type of guy tat i will like..anyway the wedding is quite sian loh, talk to nobody at all..tat day also went to work in the morning..saw JT coming into my shop..stil thought he wanted to go in to buy things..but so happen tat his friend is buying a bouquet of flowers and bear in our shop.so sweet seh..haha..
all the part timers are quitting, i was relai shock to hear tat even the most hardworking also wan tot quit..i duno wat is the real reason for them to quit but i do admit tat i am the most slack among all the outley cos the sales for my shop not so gd..seriously getting $5 per hour is quite worth it considering i zhuo bo most of the time.and moreover i always take leave as and when i like..by rite tat shouldnt be the case but i guess i still want to quit though it is abit sayang to give up such a job with flexible working hours.i wan to try out those admin works..
my resoultions for this yr is to get gd results for my A levels and go NTU or NUS..mon went out with jin yi for job interview..intially wanted to ask but she not free so i call him instead since tat time i still owe him a favour by borrowing his cam.when i reached there i sort of like kana cheated..it is an agent company who called me, still thought it was the company itself who call me..tues had a reali scary experience..there is this guy whom poey and i think tat he has mental disorder came to our shop..he stayed in our shop for veri veri long and when poey ask him wat he wants, he kept keping quiet and ignore her..i could fell something was amiss the moment he stepped into the shop..it is obvious tat he dun wan buy anything and yet he still dun wan leave..worst part is he kept looking me, duno why also!!was so scared tat time...cos he kept moving nearer and nearer to me..luckily poey was there to protect me..me and poey write nites secretly to one another and she tell me to call the security guard..i quickly ran out of the shop to find them but just couldnt find..but poey sae once after i ran out of the shop, the guy immediately go off..and poey call for help from the ppl near our shop..she said tat he has mental disorder but a mild one cos he knows wat he is talking abt,,or maybe he is just fegining to act siao.she siad tat his aim is not to target me but to kar jiao gers, but so happen tat i look scared, so i became his target..aiya meet up with such things where will not scared one..
thur went to tekong to send my brother off for army..environment isnt tat bad, not as bad as i expected..i not sad at all when he go off leh, just feel tat house abit empty now..army uses alot of short forms which i feel is abit hard to understand..like OTOT..i feel so excited when i know i was going to take a ferry cos never take b4..yup, felt abit dizzy too cos i not used to it arh..some of the ppl had their gf and parents to sent them off..think it is so sweet cos i see tat their parents are willing to accept the gf at such a young age..when will my parents allow..hai~
yesterday (12/01) is my last day at work cos i told kat tat i am quitting since she called me to ask me wether i can work during new year eve and valetine.since i not working til tat day, i decided to told her tat i am quitting..but last time she said tat befor i wan to quit must give her 3 days notice, but yesterday she sae i no need to stay for those 3 days liao, she sae yesterday is my last day..the way she sae it was kind of unfriendly, i was kana abit hurt by wat she saes though i am the one who iniated tat i wan to quit..suddenly feel tat yesterday i lose alot of things, cant see poey anymore and i will miss her laugher and entertainment..but i am looking for another now, hoping it would be better than this ba..saw yi hui too yesterday at imm..yup , she call me and she changed alot..how i wish i can gather the mm ppl again..
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