wed decided to meet up with yh and agnes at ntu since its been a long time since we last seen each other..of cos when i took tat 179 bus, its kinda awkward when it seems tat i am the onli person who wear uniform when others are wearing their home clothes..not to mention tat when i was walking into the sch towards canteen 2, everyone was giving me tat look as if i am so alien like tat..since my friends knew tat i would feel kinda awkward stepping into ntu in sch uniform, so they decided to lend me their big jacket so tat it would cover my uniform, but somehow it didnt hide tat well..well, i expected tat everyone would give me tat look so in future i will not stepped into ntu with unifrom again..anyway i onli have 2 more months to wear uniform, after which i can offically throw again my "ITE" uniform..we chatted for 1 hour before heading home to study while yh has some hostel meeting..she told me ntu has lots of celebrities and actually they look reali normal looking when they are in sch..of cos i reali wonder how tat "Xiao lu dou" look like cos my friend has seen him with someone from our sch..
few days bac, the math lecturer was saying tat "i am sorry abt the repeat students tat we have to neglect u all cos its not easy to cater to everyone.." of cos i predicted tat at the end of the yr we have to do independent learning liao and no one can help u unless u do ur independent learning..well, for now i feel tat its kinda hard to follow with watever they are doing cos though syallbus is slightly different for chemistry but their style of questioning are totally different from us and i reali feel like telling my teacher tat i dont feel like going for the extra revision programmes cos i felt tat it wont help much..i would rather i study on my own man, at least i am covering wat i should cover and not covering and not learning new stuff from the new syallbus..she also said tat this yr if we did worst than last yr then u ppl will have wasted 1 yr..of cos everyone dun hope such things to happen, but maybe this time will do better ba, but i cant guarantee an "A", just make sure tat i put in my best can le ..thinking bac of having short of tat one grade then i can stepped into NTU doorstep liao, spur me even further when i must tell myself tat this time round i die die also must step into the sch..
i think our new vice principle is kinda veri "on" cos i didnt expect him to search for our sch to know more abt the history of yj..he said tat even though u might have deleted ur blog, somehow he can still manage to track bac using some system which i duno how is it possible..
todae my chem teacher had a private consultation with me cos he wanted to go through stuff tat he didnt thought in class since those stuff are not in their new syallbus..of cos i was thinking he is quite a nice teacher cos from wat i see from my repeat friends, their teachers dun even bother if my friends know abt their stuff..but duno why i feel kinda awkward when he teach me one to one but not when he teaches me in class..of cos he is not tat fierce, but somehow the mood just seems to be reali weird and i think i am reali scared of guys when it comes to indivual face to face talking..duno why also ...cos in the past when all my tution teachers are all guys (cos my mum wanted guys and not females) , i would also feel fearful of them despite the fact tat they are not even fierce at all..i am so scared of them tat i wouldnt dare to look straight into their eyes..and tat's wat i did with my teacher and pretended to look down seriously as if i am looking at the quesion paper..
A levels in getting nearer and nearer..hai~
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