todae i have decided to pon sch since i guess tat i reali have to sit down to revise my own syllabus myself since those new jc2 didnt cover in their syallbus and i am kinda scared now cos all this while i haven been practising wat is not covered by them..actually i did tell my form teacher tat i might not be coming to sch during oct onwards and she say ok for me cos i am different from them since i am taking a different syallbus from them..she says u urself know wat u want this time..yup but i wont disappear totally to the extent tat i wont come sch for all the days, just tat i will onli come sch twice and thrice a week ba..todae dad also didnt say anything abt me not going sch, so i was kinda surprised cos last yr he will usually nag at me and would consel me for not going sch..todae nobody is at home now, and i am kinda relief cos lately my house has been veri noisy because my aunt came from indo, so cant reali study since sometimes she will chat with me..
yesterday my teacher was nagging at the j2 saying tat he dun see the sense of urgency in them, some still look tat happy go lucky or either they just have the bo chap attitude..and he say tat more and more ppl and starting to pon sch..so he said tat if we are so gd then dun bother to consult him when we got any doubts lah..but hearing wat he say abt tat, i am kinda guilty abt poning sch but i think i shouldnt care now and i think my teacher will understand my difficulty..i think my chem teacher is a veri gd teacher and i reali enjoy his lessons and i think his style of teaching kinda suit me as compared to my previous chem tutor who is a bullet train (So catch no ball) and i think having gd teachers will somehow make u like tat particular subject..i like his lessons cos his voice is super loud and clear so i wont fall asleep whereas during gp lessons my teacher's voice is so soft lah, so i always fall asleep unknowningly during her lessons..seriously i am kinda scared of gp this yr cos it seems tat my gp is deproving since tat 3 months of nuahing make me lost touch of gp..
todae i will tell myself tat i will study reali hard so tat at least i wont waste my time and let myself down, to me now every min counts and i must cherish every min cos i onli left with around 1 month to exams..phew hopefully this time the paper will be easier and i must reali pray hard for it..and i am kinda of abit stress now but not as stress as last yr, but i think eventually all it matters is tat u try ur best just like wat my maths teacher told me...but i am kinda happy this yr cos the RJ, VJ and all the smart ppl are not competing with me in terms of the old syallbus anymore..so we onli have the private candidates, reapeat students and MI students competiting with each other..
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