Wednesday, August 27, 2008

~contridicting thoughts~

past few months i always yearn tat my hopes can be fufilled,but my hopes are getting so much closer to wat i pin for right now, but duno why i dun feel any happiness or watever emotions tat i should feel for.i think i am just weird man.i think i reali like challenges, now tat i am almost getting to wat i can get liao and this kind of feelings has already died down le..duno why i just dun see tat sense of movivation to fight anymore since i have gotton wat i wan to know le.and i feel veri confused over too many things also.studies reali like shit now.got one whole stack of notes to study but yet i always dun have the time to study..its seriously piling up like a mountain now, so tat's wat tat worry me now.uni style is not like jc..at least jc we do have some small tests and stuff like tat so tat can recap our memory, but uni NO..aiya all i hope is dun ta pao can liao.results not gd i also heck liao.once i am done with uni, then i will be free from studies liao.
tonite got piano lessons to teach again.actually i am kind of wanting to give up teaching liao since i think i cant reali cope with my studies.but thinking of it, my $100 is just gone just like this is kinda of wasted cos i could use tat allowance money to buy clothes and eat gd food.tat's quite a gd bargain man.anyway today i reali need to piah liao.i think i shall just sleep less then maybe can get my engin to start cos past few weeks, i think i am relai too slack liao.i realised tat the more i sleep the more sleepy i get.so i shall try not to sleep so much now

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