Thursday, July 16, 2009

~i guess i feel somehow to the rock bottom now ~

my 2 weeks of jakarta trip from 27/6 to 11/7 was somewat terrible cos i can hardly survive there alone..and 1 wk after reaching indo i cried desperately to go bac singapore though my air ticket only allows me to fly on 11/7..and tat time i dun reali care if the ticket was expensive or not cos all i wan to do is to get out of indo as quick as possible cos i reali dun like the environment over there.but then i auntie keep delaying time and stopping me from going bac so i was kinda pissed with her man...the weather there is freaking hot and humid and worst still my ah ma house tat i am staying in is freaking hot like some oven man cos sunlight can get into the house and we can reali get tann over there.the sunlight over there somewat are just reali tat penetrating man...so it just shows how terrible it is..and my ah ma house was totally sealed and no air can come in at all, so it makes things worst so i cant get any fresh air..i kept on telling my ah ma to open the windows and stuff like tat but she dun reali wan cos she says tat the house will be super dirty and dusty cos she stay at the construction site. wah and tat 1 week stay at her house, suddenly it rains one nite and after which the flood came along le..seriously i cant tahan the environment over there cos its freaking dirty and stinko esp the air from the car exhaust and becos there are too many cars and motorcycle over there, so it makes things worst since the air exhaust is reali freaking smelly man..so everyday i am breathing bad air into my brain..and everywhere i go ppl smokes so i reali lost my appetite eating cos i cant tahan ppl who smokes cos like wat i say earlier (It stinks) and everyday for tat 1 week i have to stay at home and can onli go out at nite once my aunt came bac from work cos i cant go out alone since i cant speak malay at all and no one understands english at all over there.and i was somewat shocked to know tat in fact 95% of the population are malays cos whereever i go i hardly see any chinese at all.so i am kind of like sian diao like man..tat 1 week i kept on begging and crying to my ah ma to let me fly earlier but no one is free to send me off to airport and even if there is, my aunt is not willing to let me fly off earlier..so i am reali kinda pissed to her man..cos i seriously sees no point in staying on over there cos i am just wasting my time over there sitting at home everyday doing nothing (Just plain sleeping and eating everyday) ..at least if i were to go bac to spore earlier then at least i can go bac work and earn bac my air ticket money..so i felt tat its a better way out..but then my aunt just die die dun wan let me go.. and tat time i was kinda touched when wp and eye candy offered to help me bk the air tickets from the net cos they helping me to escape from indo, and i felt so happy cos i suddenly feel some hope though over there its reali cui cos i could hardly find any comp around to surf net..so yeah and when i was feeling reali down tat time cos i cry everyday begging ppl to send me home, then somewat the 2 of them send quite a lot of overseas msg to me..so got kinda touched by them..anyway great thanks to 2 of them for being there for me when i was reali down =) and another reason why i wanted to fly off earlier was becos everyone nags at me alot and i am freaking irritated with them cos i am here for a holiday and these freaking ppl just couldnt stop bugging me..they kept on saying tat i dun act like a decent ger and is getting from bad to worst and this and tat..and i was like wat the hell man.my way of thinking of somewat more open minded than them and most of the time they just couldnt take it..my ah ma was still scolding me tat i woke up every late when i was staying over in indo cos she feels tat gers should wake up early in future when they are married so as to do house chore or wat, but then i seriously sees no point in waking up so early over there cos i seriously got nothing to do over there after i wake up..cos wat i will do is just eat then after which i will be bored to death doing nothing le and its not as if there are tv shows for me to watch cos the programmes there are all in malays..so yeah wat's the point of waking so early man..and another thing tat she kept on scolding me was tat i like to wash my hair everyday at nite and she kept on nagging tat later will get headache or watever shit, but like wat i say headache can come as and when they like, they do no need to see if its morning or nite to make u headache cos they cant differeniate from tat..and those bloody ppl kept on saying tat my attire is very ugly and somewat disgrace them from the relatives..and when i hear this i was damn pissed man cos they are seriously damn sickening and irriating to give such comments...so yeah my stay over there was reali terrible which explains why i wanna get out of indo as fast as possible..


but then the 2nd week things were much better cos i stayed at my other auntie mansion which is freaking rich..and the house tat i am staying in is watever cant be found in spore de cos i cant see any house tat is as big as wat it is in spore..and the happy thing is i get my own personal bedroom and toilet..so i can sleep anytime i wan without disturbing them cos the ppl over there kinda siao one man cos they sleep super early de..maybe 9 or 9.30 pm then they sleep le..for ppl like me who sleep super later of cos i cant get to sleep la so i listen to mp3 everyday just to past time..and yes i must agree tat during this trip my mp3 were some wat my "best friend " le...but the bad thing staying at her house is the water taste like seawater man cos we stayed very near the sea so my lips got reali dehydrated becos of tat..other than tat everything is quite ok with it cos this aunite dun nag as much as others so i prefer staying with them seh as compared to my other aunt and ah ma...but at least tat week i did more shopping and i stayed in somewat more like a civilisation (urban area) as compared to the rural area tat i was in tat past 1 wk..so i kept on complaining to my ah ma tat staying in her house is reali like some prison seh though i dun reali wan to say out directly de, but then i relai cant tahan le so i have to voice out..at least tat week i shop for more stuff..bought bags and one sunglass at super cheap price...but then the clothes there is reali cui to the max cos most of it doesnt reali suit our style..so yeah i got reali half sian when i bought one one clothes for myself and its those simple tank top..other than tat the food there is reali nice and cheap..and i loves the avogrado drink and i cant reali find it in spore man..so sad seh =(


and my last day of stay somewat my ah ma was sad til she cry cos i bid gd bye to her through the phone cos i was at my another aunite house ma..everyone of my relatives kept on asking me to come indo next time but i told them this shall be my first and last time here..cos i reali got a bad experience over here..so unlikely tat i will want to go bac there again for holiday..seriously coming indo is a big mistake man..i should have gone to shanghai with them on 11/7 when i was bac to sg tat day..at least i think tat trip will surely be more enjoyable than this indo trip cos being alone in a foriegn country with no friends is reali bored seh..


and tat sat evening once i got bac to spore i suddenly felt tat the air was super different and indeed i reali prefer to stay in spore cos its much much way better..then after which at nite i went to jog cos its been 2 weeks since i last jog and i reali grew fat le in indo for eating non stop and not doing any exercise over there cos there has no gym or watever for me to exercise over there.then sun slag at home and mon went off to work after so many weeks..and tat day finally got to see eye candy after so many weeks cos heng he also got work tat day..yeah so tat day after work some of them wanted to chill out somewhere..but ended up onli left 3 of us nia..so yeah went to bugis to catch a movie then later went to eat dinner and at nite wanted to get hm present de, but then later couldnt get anything at suntec so i suggested go the merlion since its been a long time since i last went there..but eye candy was kinda sian cos i think he dun reali like these kind of places so i think he feels tat taking picts is kinda lame..so tat day i feel kinda bad abt it cos somewat we are the one who dragged him there.

the tues went out early to attend mse camp but then all of us were super sian cos we didnt interact with the juniors and none of them look enthu at all.so we hid in the room to blow air con and take a nap..then during lunch went off to vivo to thai express to eat my green curry chicken.

wed was off to work again and thur met up with jy in the noon and evening time went off to teach piano after stopping for so many months. yeah and today i will be off at nite to meet ch cos its been a long time since we last met up..but initally i was abit sian to go cos somewat it was far, but since last time i already promised him to meet up le, so yeah i just go out then ..anyway i dun think i wanna stay at home to hear my mum nag.


now i am somewat kinda lost cos i reali duno if wat i felt was rite or wrong.as in i am not certain for tat..haiz..sometimes i think i should have just wake up my idea man..then now duno should i give up or just let it be..ytd was kinda sad tat i reali intend to give up le..cos i confused now ! sigh ..

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