~not much time left~

last mon had kite flying wif agnes and yh..this time round our kite couldnt fly as high as before cos we bought a lousier kite,or rather we are rather budget so bought a cheapo kite instead.went around taking super lots of photos then evening went to suntec to eat dinner then after which proceed to the merlion for more photos again..whoo ! the day is just damn shagged..

tues went to meet up wif wp and tanu then morning saw lion.he just said hi to him then after tat went off..emo man, why all guys i eye candy one, all so cool one ! cant they be more outgoing?? lol anw he isnt my kind..cos initally i admire him as eye candy only.anw tat day went to chill out at a super atas hotel..the nite view is awesome ! whoo !~

then wed was busy wif medical check up then after which evening time met up wif playmate to play tennis..hehe learn tennis from him really much more better than from my other friends..quite stunned he quite patient wif me eh..he really teach me everything from scatch just like how a beginner learns..but he kinda poor thing cos he kept on helping me to pick balls..then tat day i was saying dun laugh at my cui sports attire ah, but apparently he say i look ok leh, just tat need to get more tanned.and one thing he said tat i am very lazy to run when i play tennis, which i find tat its true cos apparently i am always stuck at the same location.but this guy play tennis really quite mesmerizing sia..cos he demo for me to see, then i was stunned he could actually play so well ! ok, i shall ask him coach me nxt time..hehe..my foc instructor..

then went to some beauty centre,dun wish to mention was beauty centre it is..but thanks to them i wasted $108 on skin care pdt..darn man, their attitude is really cmi sia..they keep fanning me to buy their whole set of skin care pdts which cost $300 and its something i know for certain which i wont use at all.then i keep insisting tat i dun wan buy, then they keep on adding freebie for me..they really did dun understand my thinking, i dun wan to buy partly becos its $300 and i know i wont use at all..darn then bo bian end up i say i buy 1 of the skin care stuff then they are less hostile towards me..then wat makes me angry is after i agreed to buy one of their pdt, they still continue selling their whole package..then i really insist i really dun wan..then i very angry say i am late alrdy , then they shoot me bac saying u tink u are busy, arent we busy too ! wa lao wat attitude is this man..i hear liao really damn pissed...anw after tat went to the jc chalet..our chem teacher mr chua was there too ! wah i quite surprised he rmb me..but he still pronounce my name as qing ming..then he asked me wat sports i am doing..haha i abit stunned cos i didnt know i got a sports look..cos ytd my dressing was indeed abit sporty la..cos always wear so nice to chalet, so kinda sian liao..so wanted to try a something new..then i asked him bac why u tink i play sports one..lol cos i run more than playing sports..but now i trying to pick up tennis la..its a new game i wanna learn..then mr chua said see ur hair colour and attire can see u play sports..lol but i really dun play sports leh..anw my skin colour also dun show i play sports at all.but anw the chill out session was fun la, at least the last meet up before i fly...

anw i saw lion today again ! hehe he said hello to me..FINALLY he smiled for the first time..nvm i shall slowly find chance to know more abt him..

~a special christmas eve~

this yr christmas eve was rather special..at least i didnt spend my christmas alone this yr..so tat day went to go to pei agnes in sch since i had nothing to do at home.cos i thought intally they coming sch to play wii one.but then aftertat in the afternoon it rain so ended up we meet outside.so we met up wif her clique at vivo.wat makes me happy was lion came along too.. ! haha nice man..tat shall be a gd start to know each other.ok when i first saw him i was damn pei seh cos i duno how to start the convo..so agnes start wif "this is qm" then i said hello..then aftertat through the dinner at a thai restaurant we talked more.but i realised one thing is tat duno why i dared not eye contact him when i talked to him ! siao liao man ! but anw aftertat at nite i feel more comfortable liao.at least not tat pei seh anymore.but ytd was indeed suay la.the soles of my shoes spoiled halfway through, then bo bian end up have to buy slippers from outside..but he was rather helpful and nice and asked me if i need any help or nt.ok i tink this is kinda a plus pt and i see he is actually quite gentleman too la..i was quite impressed when he kiap food for everyone of us during dinner..haha..i told agnes tat he seems abit quiet, but agnes say to her he seems ok..she felt tat this other guy is "More noisy" but i tink tat the other guy is ok leh..at least more interactive..but i must admit ytd i talk alot to this talkative guy cos duno why he keep talking to me la ! then i crap along wif him lo..so after dinner initally wanted to go mount faber one, but ended up tat talkative guy and wx didnt wan to go cos we will have a problem going bac home at nite cos its alrdy kinda late when we reached there.so endedup we changed our plan.so we celebrate at vivo rooptop sharing one tube of ice-cream.wa lao tat wx exposed all my chou lou de yi mian in front of everybody..seriously wanna kill him tat time cos lion was there man..now impression spoil liao la ! he told everyone say i always look at shuai ge..but i say its not true lo ! where got always,..its just sometimes nia..i added on to say tat i look at guys' legs more..haiz now impression spoil liao la..lion sure tink i very superfical one.then later they keep adding on to make things worst then wx gave a scenario saying tat if nxt time ur bf give u an LV bag for ur bday, u sure happy like siao cos its somehow like a status..then i said i wont accept tat gift lo cos anw i wont use guys' money also..i feel tat its not very nice anw..so i said i would asked him to give tat LV bag to his mum instead.quite is true cos last time when i had a bf i didnt use his money to buy clothes or watever except for meals only.cos i feel bad using his money..but anw tat wx keep paring me up wif this talkative guy just becos tat time during exam he gave me hot chocolate to drink when i am hungry cos there no food for me to eat..then wx say first session know each other give hot chocolate liao..they know each other so long he also nv give hot chocolate to wx..then he say "wah ai xin leh.." then i was like zzzz cos its only a cup of hot chocolate wat..nothing much..then wx added tat actually its those small tiny details tat sweet..lol seriously sweet ur head la ! i would be happier if u pair me up wif lion..i prefer lion ! hmm duno still got chance to meet up wif lion before i leave or nt..actually he is the kind of guy tat i will like, cos his personality is quite caring towards gers..i believe he is those kind tat will dote on gf alot..hehe.just like my ex..but i didnt cherish him before..tinking bac, i really felt regretted why didnt i treat him well, til the moment i lose him..haiz.nevertheless i guess my expectation is somehow stil pretty high..but til now really cant find someone as perfect as my ex..lol...

anw they will be running in sch one of the day to do their FYP..duno wan to join or nt..i run so slow man..and somemore so long nv long liao..i promised myself to start jogging after exams..now exams over i should start my daily routine..perhaps in sz, i should find my guy roomie to run wif him cos he looks lik he got go gym those kind.perhaps he will be my best jie mei liao.hehe.anw ytd agnes did create chance for us and we took photo together wif his other friend la.but not the 2 of us.if 2 of us i wont wan to take also..like damn weird.hopefully its not tat bad..lol..anw nxt few days i will be pretty packed man..haiz i really duno how sia for my china trip..the money part how should i transfer all my money from SG to china..its damn risky to carry all my cash wif me cos i hard there got alot of pickpockets and robbery..aiyo headache man !

~the most edible buffet i ever eaten~

haiz my last paper was damn cui..jialat cos i slacked too much from sat and sun, then onli left mon and tues to piah..gone man..cos some i didnt study finish then mostly come out pyp qns..darn..i shouldnt have slacked so much ! sian..anw tat day after exam went to shop wif hm..the feeling after exam is damn shoik...mind totally cleared from studies..damn shuang..ok, then ytd went out to meet those ppl going suzhou..most of the guys seem got leadship qualites..the gers seem those guai guai type, not like me very talkative,..but the 2 guys tat i staying wif seems quite gd and helpful..hehe..gd gd gd i like..then after tat met up wif playmate to eat some hotel buffet...tat buffet is super super jialat..paid $47+ heng is one for one if not damn really damn bo hua..but ytd i paid for playmate since its his bday then i have nothing to giv him also..so yeah..anw i wont go there to eat nxt time.its super duper cui max...alrights then after our buffet, we went starbucks to chill out..hehe..chatted and crapped kinda wif him..hmm actually this guy really cant make my day..go out wif him always feel very relaxed and happy..then ytd i praise him tat he has become more muscular..then he was very shuang dao and was trying to show off tat its one yr of hard work leh..haha then i laughed..cos ytd i tinked he really not bad looking esp when he wore the tight fitting shirt..hehe, but still the sparks is gone liao la.so no use !

anw this few wks i will be super busy wif many stuff..need to read up alot of my suzhou trip..lol..and i wanna learn tennis from playmate also and met up wif my friends before i fly..

~suzhou finally confirmed ~

i am on my amiss of exams, and wed i was called up for the interview.and i didnt know i could actually got in cos i really talked crap sia..the person ask me to intro abt my studies.then i duno wat to talk also..then ask me wat position i keen..then i say i open to all options cos i duno wat i wanna work as also..actually i go china is more of holiday than work..anw got ppl to sponser me for this china i am more happy sia, no need to fork out money to pay myself.damn shoik !!

anw thur i really wanted to take mc for 3003 liao cos i felt tat if i were to take 03 in yr 4 then maybe i can do better cos afterall i have studied it before liao in yr 3..cos i didnt wan to screwed up my GPA this sem.cos i have no idea of this module since i nv really touch this module before.lol. and some more wat can be more suay is tat when i "Planned" to take Mc, i actually really got sick and kana mild fever on wed nite..and my head is hurting terribly cos of the headache..wah i really damn suay man..when want to take MC, god make me really sick..darn ! but heng tat paper wasnt as bad as i thought leh..at least i didnt regret nv taking MC.if nt yr 4 must see 3003 again..

then today's 07 paper is cui..wa lao i tink my 03 paper better than this 07 la..sian leh..results cui liao..anw i onli left 3 wks like tat then i will be flying off liao..haiz damn scared man..i will be flying off at 13th jan..i scared i will cry on tat day man..half a yr man, duno if i will miss home or nt,...haiz..anw i going to stay wif this guy who is going to same company as me..he is from mse too, but its kinda weird to stay wif a guy..afterall i have less freedom..have to be catious of my actions..actions cant be too big..but anw sad to say after this exams, agnes and yh will be leaving sch by the time i come bac from suzhou..lion will not be around liao..lol haven got a chance to talk to him seh..although tat time he did ask agnes if i am in sch or nt..aiya tat time so near exam i cant be in sch liao cos i sure very distracted one.if i continue to stay in sch sure cant study one.if its 2-3 wks before sch, then i sure stay more often in sch.

~my mind is very luan now ~

2 days alrdy and i have yet to study much.die ! I kept on sleeping..wa lao at this rate, how am i going to finish..die..totally damn scared this sem..cos it seem tat this sem i keep on dreaming..and these 2 days i was very distracted by the news tat they wanna opt out of our china IA trip..haiz initally i wasnt much affected as i was very calm, but when i was alone studying halfway through, my mind just couldnt stopped worrying and being fearful..but i guess i really hope at least one of them would continue to go the trip wif me..though i know 90% its unlikely..sigh..the ytd the sch office called me and said tat i was selected for the loreal interview.to me, it was gd news cos i wanted to enter this company compared to the rest of companies in suzhou.but then the issue is no one tat i knew is going to suzhou..most of them ended up in shanghai..haiz..i really scared staying in a foriegn land when i have no one to approach to when i have problems..i need at least one friend so tat i wouldnt feel fearful.i doubt its hard to describe wat i am feeling now..REALly..going overseas to study and work has always been my dream, dad is very supportive of it even despite knowing tat i have no friends coming wif me..mum was kinda against it, cos she feels unsafe..ok from her point of view i can understand how she feels...for me, i also equally scared wat..its half a yr leh..i duno wat is going to happen to me over there..i might get killed over there if i am suay max..who knows..who knows there might disasters then i would lose my life over there..all these are really uncertain..i dared nt say all these to my parents so tat they wouldnt worry much for me..but inside me, i really did think through alot..agnes and yh kept on telling me not to forgo this trip cos its really a rare opportinuity..yeah i tink so, but in the first place, i must convinced myself first tat i will be happy over there.i need alot of assurance too ! i am just scared tat i have no one to approached to when i have problems over there..i guess even an independant person like me really do have my weak side, though i appear to be strong pretty much..but eventually at the end of the day, i still hope at least one of them would change their mind and continue the trip wif me. if i am really alone, i am sure to freak out..honestly, today i cried over there cos was kinda upset over this issue, but i guess i shall keep myself busy for now.shouldnt worry abt this til exams end..haiz.

~thank you yh n agnes ~

anw tonite i suddenly feel very xin fu to have them..cos today might be the last session tat we study together le.i am really glad to have yh's company, going bac to the jc days were we study hard together.agnes too was great ! ahem today she tried revealing my presence to "rabbit" and i do feel abit happy when rabbit said tat he did have some impression of me..at least better than nv see me before rite..lol..anw wanna thanks both of u guys for having my this sem a great one.nv felt happy for a long time since i was usually alone in sch most of the time after sch as my clique always nt ard.i was glad that at least i have both of them.

and today we discussed abt our placement..most wanted to opt out..but i am very luan cos i really very keen to go one, just tat i scared i duno anyone going to tat particular state.if i were to know just one person, then tat will be enough for me..to me, friends not really a big consideration as to wether to go or nt.cos i am rather indepedent.but being independant in SG and overboard might be diff..perhaps i might have overestimated myself in a certain way.but anw my feelings are very luan now.yh was beside me and she saw all the convo..we have the same personality, quite explain why we click so well.tat time she also went US alone.and she survived it through..for me, i relaly duno..although i may appear strong, but the inner side of me might not be..i am quite fearful actually..becos i travelled abroad quite a couple of times myself..naturally will have certain things tat i am scared of.

For now, i would say that life is just like taking a gamble, if you nv try u nv know.and i am trying to convince myself tat i can do it.since my bro can do it, so naturally as his older sis, i should be able to do it too.and if i nv stepped out of my comfort zone, i would nv know how is it like.i guess perhaps after through this trip i will grow to be more mature, perhaps learn to appreciate ppl more.half a yr is quite long actually.but i guess i will just treat it as a learning experience for me to discover more abt myself.who knows i might discover things which i might not discover myself..

~i am glad to have the 2 of you!~

ytd i was still telling yh tat i am really very glad and happy tat this sem i have her and agnes to pei me practically everyday after sch..yh will pei me in the nite time.agnes will pei me in the morning and afternoon..lol..then we were talking abt why this sem we only started to be closer..cos yh was busy wif bf all along, til currently she is single, so she have more time for me.then agnes since she is doing her FYP this yr, so apparently she spend more time in sch..haiz nxt yr i will be alone again.sian..cos the 2 of them would have graduated.no one to pei me now.haiz.

ytd online lect was down.damn shit man, cos wasted my time as i alrdy planned out nicely wat i wanna listen..sian i have to piah liao..NO TIME !

~home cook food !~

ytd was mugging in sch with yh and shuan, then apparently the nite after 7pm, we kept on eating..lol cos yh mum brought home cook food from yishun to sch..her mum cooking is awesome ! so we ate in yh hall and after which continue mugging..lol then at 10 plus at nite, shuan's friend came when i wanted to go home tat time..lol, then he brough popiah from my 24 hr coffeeshop there..sinful man, ytd really had a super heavy meals for all the 3 meals.
ytd wasnt effective..darn, didnt manage to finish even 1 online lect cos i was busy finishing up my 05 assignment..how how how? left only ard 1 wk and i need to clear finish 8 online lect.jiayou man..
ytd yh was saying, eh through out uni life no one jio me meh? ..haha then i said got la, but i dun like..LOl.i guess perhaps my expectation kinda high, alrights left 2 more yrs to look..dun have then tat's it..too bad, then i will remain single for my rest of my life..actually being single not too bad either at times..got freedom to do watever u wan..

~lion or rabbit can i own u?~

1.5 wks more to exam and i still doing project..wat the hell, this is just the life of a yr 3 student...i totally darn pissed.cos always cant finish my things one..wed was totally damn screwed..came to sch wanted to study and mug for my elective, but apparently i wasnt effective at all.the comp lab was just too noisy to study and i was too occupied disturbed by ppl ard me..cos wed had some photoshoot at the comp lab..then i was totally occupied by the lion cos apparently he is eye candy and tat day during the photoshoot, he really looks wow..not to mention the other yr 4 guys who were selected for the photoshoot.but apparently, of all lion is still considered the best..haha..apparently, lion did noticed my presence cos he is agnes friend..lol but still trying hard to know him as a friend.not easy..i waiting for the christmas eve to come cos they have gathering. ;) hehe..

thur was busy at home mugging, but it wasnt really tat effective cos i kept on falling asleep..then fri elective was somewat cui cos i didnt studies finish and the test was hard if non mse ppl were to take..but anw we have ppl to copied from..so yeah..03 clicker test was totally cui max..dun mentioned abt the grade liao..anw ytd i was kinda stunned by my eye candy actually waved to me on the bus sia..initally i didnt see him one, but then i saw someone keep waving then i suddenly realised "eh its him!" but i wasnt really excited cos my mood was totally dampen by the rain cos i was walking bac to my workplace, but apparently i ended up in the wrong place cos i lost my way ! as usual, this is the blur qm who always get lost.

today its sat, but i haven do anything..totally damn stress liao man..2 projects waiting for me to finish ! darn ! and totally i was totally pissed cos go library find a txtbk also cant find when references book should be there one.then on my way to sch, i was totally dirtied by the pool of mud til all my legs and bag got dirty..wah tat time i was just freaking darn pissed off cos its just not my day !