~thank you yh n agnes ~

anw tonite i suddenly feel very xin fu to have them..cos today might be the last session tat we study together le.i am really glad to have yh's company, going bac to the jc days were we study hard together.agnes too was great ! ahem today she tried revealing my presence to "rabbit" and i do feel abit happy when rabbit said tat he did have some impression of me..at least better than nv see me before rite..lol..anw wanna thanks both of u guys for having my this sem a great one.nv felt happy for a long time since i was usually alone in sch most of the time after sch as my clique always nt ard.i was glad that at least i have both of them.

and today we discussed abt our placement..most wanted to opt out..but i am very luan cos i really very keen to go one, just tat i scared i duno anyone going to tat particular state.if i were to know just one person, then tat will be enough for me..to me, friends not really a big consideration as to wether to go or nt.cos i am rather indepedent.but being independant in SG and overboard might be diff..perhaps i might have overestimated myself in a certain way.but anw my feelings are very luan now.yh was beside me and she saw all the convo..we have the same personality, quite explain why we click so well.tat time she also went US alone.and she survived it through..for me, i relaly duno..although i may appear strong, but the inner side of me might not be..i am quite fearful actually..becos i travelled abroad quite a couple of times myself..naturally will have certain things tat i am scared of.

For now, i would say that life is just like taking a gamble, if you nv try u nv know.and i am trying to convince myself tat i can do it.since my bro can do it, so naturally as his older sis, i should be able to do it too.and if i nv stepped out of my comfort zone, i would nv know how is it like.i guess perhaps after through this trip i will grow to be more mature, perhaps learn to appreciate ppl more.half a yr is quite long actually.but i guess i will just treat it as a learning experience for me to discover more abt myself.who knows i might discover things which i might not discover myself..