~super heart pain over medical fees~

last wk sat had a buffet at marriot hotel in suzhou.the cakes are awesome ! whoo ！ and its really heart warming to meet all the singaporeans in suzhou..when u can hear all the singlish where i haven been hearing for months..alright then after the buffet when to eug hse for movie marthon, ended up falling asleep at their hse, so stayed over at their hse til the nxt day then i go home cos tat nite was freaking cold..too lazy to go home man..then last sun was out to celebrate anne bday..i guess celebrating ur bday overseas is something special, esp when ur family and friends arent wif u and the only blessing u got from ur friends would be through ur gip friends, so its kinda a heart warming thing when u gather ur friends to celebrate ur bday..:) fri went to see doc cos i felt my toe nail wasnt getting any better..in fact its getting worst..so i am kinda scared now man..cos it seems tat more and more of my nails are getting purple..but then in order not to let my parents worry i bluff them tat my toe nails are getting better..sometimes white lies are for their gd..bo bian..first i went to the sch clinic then the doctor quite cui also..keep giving me infection medicine to disinfect my toe nail which is pointless cos it doesnt solve the root of the problem..so end up they suggest me to go to the sch hospital..so i went cos i was told most likely i needa remove my entire nail cos the infection is serious liao..when i heard tat i was totally dishearten and stunned cos i didnt expect it to be so serious.. anw when i reached the hospital, i was alrdy very sian diao alrdy cos they told its kinda serious..so went to the foot dept to see my nails..then they also duno wat's the real cause of this problem..so they transferred me to the skin dept..then the doc told me one of the nail is infection, and the other is due to grey nails..wa lao different doctor tell me diff things..who should i trust and listen man..u know i was totally damn demoralised and sadded tat day cos i felt totally hopeless..wanna see doctor and yet was totally handicapped cos i duno hw to get there and couldnt understand wat the doc is trying to convey my condition..and worst stil she still commented tat she felt tat i am a little child when i am alrdy old enough yet cant settle things myself cos i am overprotected in spore..hai this comment really sadded me man..its not i cant settle things myself..i just feel handicapped..if i wan to go that hospital, i could hv gotton there by a cab, but i chose not to do so..anw i am just sadded by her statement in short..and wat makes me even sian dao was when i was the medical fees it costs a bomb ! $90 in total..wa lao freaking ex man for seeing one doc..initally the doc wanna giv me 3 months medication straight, but i told her i just wanna 1 mth since its freaking ex..at least try for the 1st mth first to see if there is any improvment or nt.. alrights then after tat went off for the hangzhou trip..in short the trip was so so..staying in a dorm was a new thing though the toilet is kinda dirty..but there is always a first time..and tat trip i suffered terribly over cold legs..cos i didnt want to wear my boots since i thought initally i was cycling, but ended up i didnt cos i was given a option to shop over cycling..but i must say hangzhou is a gd place for shopping..although most of the shops sell many tiongs stuff, but if u really slowly shop and go through every shops, there is surely nice clothes tat u can buy..in all i bought 8 clothes items in this trip and its only for $60..super worth.. but this trip was disappointing wass tat i didnt hav much interaction wif him cos we stayed in diff hostel..so ended up most of the time the activities tat we did was own time own target..so i chose to do shopping for 3/4 of the entire trip since it was freaking cold and my legs just couldnt take it so its better to stay indoor..anw i am really scared over my toe nails..cos the doctor said it was contagious..come on, at least show me some improvement, at least giv me some slighiest hope tat there is some recovery..hai..... and my bday is slightly 1 wk away from nw..i hav a couple of wishes this time round..pls blessed me...