~my first air stewardess interview for silkair~

ytd dear dear was kinda upset cos i nv intro him to maril when i bump into maril when she was bac to sch wif her current company to giv a talk..honestly speaking, it never struck my mind at that point of time to intro him to her.or rather i assume that she knows that she is my bf alrdy.and yes she indeed knows that alrdy cos its obvious frm fb.but dear was still upset cos previously when he met up wif my jc classmates i also nv self intro.end up also he self intro himself.hmm i tink mayb tat's part of guys pride to be acknowledged by gf??? actually i duno also.but i just wanna say it nv struck my mind to intro all along though practically everytime he will intro me to his friends.or mayb turn it other way round, i never ever introduce myself infront of ppl when i am required to do so, and this suituation onli comes when i am in camp or i enter a new company at work.so i guess i dun hv the habit to intro him to my friends.or maybe i tink most of the time i am rather a low profile person, so i dun see the need to intro to ppl abt myself or whoever it is.cos i just wanna to remain low profile although i might talk alot of rubbish. but nevertheless its a learning point for me...i shall open up and be more sociable wif ppl.and learn to be more interactive wif ppl.

ok so nxt up was the silkair interview.initally i kept telling jx tat hey the interview isnt be scary one.and yes i didnt yet anything when i go for the interview cos anw the interview was meant to be a test water interview for my upcoming interview.cos i just wanna experience the interview process of an air stewardess.actually the selection procedure was rather expected from what i read online.but then i tink the part tat i failed was i listened wrongly to the interviewer qns !!! and tat minus off alot of point cos imagine a passenger on board the plane requested something from u, but you gave him or her another thing she wans, this could led to adverse effects !!! so ya i tink this point really minus alot alot of point.and another thing is whenever i am gan jiong, i start to have lots of hand action so as to keep myself more calm.so i guess it reveals everything tat i am anxious.but one of the interviewer points out a super darn qn for my jx part.she asked since u have a degree why do you bother to apply for an air stewardess job when we dun really need tat high of requirement.wa immediately jx stumbled cos her purpose of coming for the interview was just to gain an interview experience and to pei me.her aim wasnt to be an air stewardess. ya lo i guess if i were her i duno wat to reply also.seriously tat hao jiao old women seems very stuck up and lao lian kind.i see the way she carry herself really cant tahan.!! i hope the nxt interviewer wont be as bad as her !

my 1st vday with someone special

i kinda screwed my own 1st vday cos i didnt dress up that day as i had lab so i was lazy to bring an extra dress since if tat's the case i needa carry along my top and heavy jeans wif me around.so yeah i admit tat i was lazy to change or rather go bac home to change when my hse is very near the sch.tat's why i wouldnt blame bf for being upset wif me that day cos i kinda spoil his wonderful 1st vday wif a girl.ok la maybe i can understand the feeling of the 1st time spending vday wif someone special, cos i am also spending my 1st vday spending wif someone special.In the past nv had a chance to celebrate this special occasion since by then i alrdy broke up wif ex bf.but honestly speaking, i stil dun tink that giraffe top is that cui,but probably really not suitable for wearing out on a vday event.but its definitely nt tat cui...anw i just wanna apologise to mr bf although i have said lots of time.at times i did tink through tat perhaps i really need to correct my bo chap character..sometimes bo chap can be gd and bad la.bo chap as in i can giv u alot of freedom to do what you want and i wont interfer since i bo chap ma.but on one hand, when it comes to serious problems to solve, i can be kinda bo chap too.so natuarally ppl will get pek chek or fed up wif me cos i just have the dun care attitude. and lik i always say i will try to slowly change..but it will take kinda slow though cos afterall a person character is very very hard to change.ok la but i will slowly change for you sake.just lik hw i am willing to change for my ex to be more mature to match his 8 yrs old age gap...cos i scared if i continue to bo chap and dun put in effort, one day or so, history will repeat itself and i dun wan to see the ugly side of an unhappy relationship ending up in a break up.so i will listen necessary to watever that i needa change..but habits are kinda hard to change ya dear dear..i am always disorganise and messy.its kinda hard for me to be neat though i did try a few times.but apparently after a while i get bac to wat i used to be.but i can try to remain my cheerful side cos its pretty easy though at times i do emo alot.but i guess most of the times it due to my serious pms.anw i really hope i can be ur ideal gf..mayb become half of u, minus off the leadership quality cos i am still very very far stretch from you and neither am i street smart and intelligent in anyway.so its kinda hard to level up so much over time..

btw my mum will be leaving in 1 wk time.whoo ! i cant be happy than anyone man.i have been looking forward to this day for damn long alrdy.its time tt i have my freedom again just lik hw i was in sz..

studies wise, for one module, i am super super screwed nw.cos i dun understand anything even after listening to the online lect again.i was so scared tat i kept on finding friends to ask if they knows or nt.apparently most of my clique are last min ppl so i didnt really ask them so i find other ppl to ask.actually this gal friend of mine is really kind of helpful though many times she is very vulgar.but overall she really have a nice heart ;)

~yeah selective for airline interview !~

i dun rmb wat happened much for the past 1 wk.all i remembered was just my rountine life.staying in sch after class to watch online lect ;( i really cant wait for this darn rountine life over books to be over soon.anw past few days saw the email over the selection over the scoot airline.was pretty happy over it cos didnt expect i will get selected.but probably i was tinking, they might be short of staff right now.so naturally there might be a high demand for air stewardess.actually if u asked if wat i really wan to work as, i really duno cos i nv thought much even up to now.last sem alrdy still clueless wat i wan in life.i doubt i will wan to work in engineering line, neither do i want to work in a bank environment. but i certainly know tat i wanna find a job tat can travel cos i lik travelling.but i dun like the feeling of travelling alone cos i will feel very scared. i am scared of the lost feeling when no one is out there to help me when i am lost.

anw wat can i do to my dark rings man.i wan to sleep but i always no time to sleep.shall now make it a point to sleep at 1.30 everyday now.and i haven been gg out for long to enjoy,.wanna go out play also needa think twice cos once i dun catch up the lectures, everything will pile up again then i will be damn stress.esp now so many things to do so little time.but at least now gt tat" special someone" to share the burden wif me ;) i am not alone !!!

my bro has a car in sydney.looks lik he is enjoying life now man.but economically his bank is empty after buying the car.sometimes i guess one just have to weigh the adv and disadv of living a luxerous life.

~life sucks with this mum~

for the past few wks i had my first cny visiting after so many many yrs since i was young. its been long i last seen ang bao..and this yr received ard $68..considered not bad man.at least better than not having any..anw tat was the first time tat i felt family warmness between relatives..and they can be tat close.from wat i rmb when i was young, i doubt my relatives are tat close.in fact the bond in us isnt tat strong in the first place.anw tis yr my aunt did call up for reunion dinner at her hse, but my parents choose nt to go, even my dad.seriously i duno wat hatred for them, but i always heard the one sided story from them.so i cant really judge either.sometimes i am tinking who are my cousins actually.perhaps i have seen them before when i was young, but i duno who they are even if they were to appear right in front of me.

anw life really sucks now.i am really feeling lotsa stress from sch work and FYP.nv ending, no time to sleep also.wth duno why i study so hard man when i doubt come out work also these all these stupid knowledge,.last wk i really slacked and rest alot til this wk all the online lect accumulates like snowball now.hai~ uni life is just stressful. another issue is regards to home matters.seriously i cant tolerate staying wif my mum.and yes i cant wait to break ties with her.i seriously cant imagine how other ppl can stay along wif her.she just have a super f*** up attitude.always tink that she is right regardless of wat she does.whatever shit man. i just dun feel like tolerating all her stupid nonsense.and today she had a fight wif me.and yes its literally real fight..wth wat kind of mum is tat.i would rather not born in this family.why is dad is such a nice father but u are just an extreme end? sometimes certain things just cant be changed.its a fact tat u are my mum.but watever it is, i shall not tolerate ur nonsense..i tink once bro is bac, he sure cant tolerate wif her either.probably there will be more disputes.but at least now my mum will break focus or attention from me as there will be my bro to distract her.sometimes i really tink i have communication breakdown wif her.totally cant talk to her nicely cos she is just unreasonable.this kind of ppl shall not talk reason to her.

btw my dark eye rings are super jialat now.i want to sleep more, but i dun hav time to catch up wif my studies.not sure why this sem i am just nuah towards studies...perhaps its the final sem alrdy.my brain is calling me to take a break liao..actually this sem i wasnt tat lonely with my new study mate friend J.ok la, let him be the replacement for agnes. ;)