for the past few wks i had my first cny visiting after so many many yrs since i was young. its been long i last seen ang bao..and this yr received ard $68..considered not bad man.at least better than not having any..anw tat was the first time tat i felt family warmness between relatives..and they can be tat close.from wat i rmb when i was young, i doubt my relatives are tat close.in fact the bond in us isnt tat strong in the first place.anw tis yr my aunt did call up for reunion dinner at her hse, but my parents choose nt to go, even my dad.seriously i duno wat hatred for them, but i always heard the one sided story from them.so i cant really judge either.sometimes i am tinking who are my cousins actually.perhaps i have seen them before when i was young, but i duno who they are even if they were to appear right in front of me.
anw life really sucks now.i am really feeling lotsa stress from sch work and FYP.nv ending, no time to sleep also.wth duno why i study so hard man when i doubt come out work also these all these stupid knowledge,.last wk i really slacked and rest alot til this wk all the online lect accumulates like snowball now.hai~ uni life is just stressful. another issue is regards to home matters.seriously i cant tolerate staying wif my mum.and yes i cant wait to break ties with her.i seriously cant imagine how other ppl can stay along wif her.she just have a super f*** up attitude.always tink that she is right regardless of wat she does.whatever shit man. i just dun feel like tolerating all her stupid nonsense.and today she had a fight wif me.and yes its literally real fight..wth wat kind of mum is tat.i would rather not born in this family.why is dad is such a nice father but u are just an extreme end? sometimes certain things just cant be changed.its a fact tat u are my mum.but watever it is, i shall not tolerate ur nonsense..i tink once bro is bac, he sure cant tolerate wif her either.probably there will be more disputes.but at least now my mum will break focus or attention from me as there will be my bro to distract her.sometimes i really tink i have communication breakdown wif her.totally cant talk to her nicely cos she is just unreasonable.this kind of ppl shall not talk reason to her.
btw my dark eye rings are super jialat now.i want to sleep more, but i dun hav time to catch up wif my studies.not sure why this sem i am just nuah towards studies...perhaps its the final sem alrdy.my brain is calling me to take a break liao..actually this sem i wasnt tat lonely with my new study mate friend J.ok la, let him be the replacement for agnes. ;)
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