i kinda screwed my own 1st vday cos i didnt dress up that day as i had lab so i was lazy to bring an extra dress since if tat's the case i needa carry along my top and heavy jeans wif me around.so yeah i admit tat i was lazy to change or rather go bac home to change when my hse is very near the sch.tat's why i wouldnt blame bf for being upset wif me that day cos i kinda spoil his wonderful 1st vday wif a girl.ok la maybe i can understand the feeling of the 1st time spending vday wif someone special, cos i am also spending my 1st vday spending wif someone special.In the past nv had a chance to celebrate this special occasion since by then i alrdy broke up wif ex bf.but honestly speaking, i stil dun tink that giraffe top is that cui,but probably really not suitable for wearing out on a vday event.but its definitely nt tat cui...anw i just wanna apologise to mr bf although i have said lots of time.at times i did tink through tat perhaps i really need to correct my bo chap character..sometimes bo chap can be gd and bad la.bo chap as in i can giv u alot of freedom to do what you want and i wont interfer since i bo chap ma.but on one hand, when it comes to serious problems to solve, i can be kinda bo chap too.so natuarally ppl will get pek chek or fed up wif me cos i just have the dun care attitude. and lik i always say i will try to slowly change..but it will take kinda slow though cos afterall a person character is very very hard to change.ok la but i will slowly change for you sake.just lik hw i am willing to change for my ex to be more mature to match his 8 yrs old age gap...cos i scared if i continue to bo chap and dun put in effort, one day or so, history will repeat itself and i dun wan to see the ugly side of an unhappy relationship ending up in a break up.so i will listen necessary to watever that i needa change..but habits are kinda hard to change ya dear dear..i am always disorganise and messy.its kinda hard for me to be neat though i did try a few times.but apparently after a while i get bac to wat i used to be.but i can try to remain my cheerful side cos its pretty easy though at times i do emo alot.but i guess most of the times it due to my serious pms.anw i really hope i can be ur ideal gf..mayb become half of u, minus off the leadership quality cos i am still very very far stretch from you and neither am i street smart and intelligent in anyway.so its kinda hard to level up so much over time..
btw my mum will be leaving in 1 wk time.whoo ! i cant be happy than anyone man.i have been looking forward to this day for damn long alrdy.its time tt i have my freedom again just lik hw i was in sz..
studies wise, for one module, i am super super screwed nw.cos i dun understand anything even after listening to the online lect again.i was so scared tat i kept on finding friends to ask if they knows or nt.apparently most of my clique are last min ppl so i didnt really ask them so i find other ppl to ask.actually this gal friend of mine is really kind of helpful though many times she is very vulgar.but overall she really have a nice heart ;)
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