~i am stress max~

mum is finally away from home.and of cos i was super duper happy but it marks the hell for me cos everyday go home needa clean up the hse.esp when my dad is someone who are very very dirty.so i had to clear up the mess! ;( i was very irritated when i saw many many ants on the table and the kitchen is in the mess.other than that, duno why the mum super itching hand suddenly put some paper on the window latch and since i forgot to close the window and tat day when it rains, the paper actually become crumpers and in the end the window gt freaking dirty..so of cos naturally i am super angry cos she is adding extra work for me to do !!!! and yes i washed the window until bloody damn pissed cos she wasting my time when i can actually sleep slightly earlier with that extra half an hr cleaning the stupid window.

then dad and bro keep pressurizing me everyday !!! dad keep fanning and talking abt his grandfather story of how he scared things will be for my bro..indeed true tat he is concerned for my bro, but he is just too overly concerned and he always tink too much until his imagination run wild.but i wouldnt blame him cos anw his tinking is really very traditional..and its how usual old ppl will tink.but nevertheless i will not be disrespectful to him by giving the bo chap attitude until towards my mum.but i will turn a deaf ear or switch off to watever he preached.then for my bro side, i am pissed wif him cos whenever he needs money he come approach me !!! i am not his ATM man.its not lik a few hundreds !!! its thousands !!! wth u tink i am really so rich meh.i also gt sch loan to pay off unlike u who are under scholarship...and i hate it when u come begging me and giv me tat attitude..say i dumb and stupid..wtf, this time u are begging me leh.not lik begging u to do things for me leh.ur stuff wasted lots of my time and eventually wasted practically my whole 1 wk recess wk.dad come barging me everyday asking me to help him asap when i am so busy.i know he wan to help him asap but he has no ability to do that cos he know nuts abt remitting money and he is cashless.so i am the only one who can help him. and i tink the worst thing ever by stealing his password frm my mum when she is overseas.i guess when she is bac, i will surely get very hard scolding from her.sigh this thing is never ending.this is my family ;(

anw apart from these unhappiness.there are stil happy moments happening this wk.i went to a free concert wif dearest..its my first time watching a live concert..the feeling not too bad, except tat concert abit screwed up wif its sounds system.

then last wk went for another airline interview.i guess after 2 rounds of air line interview i have decided to giv up on this career line cos i feel tat i cant really do well in the talking part.and i really lack team work.this is something tat i admit tat i am lacking in.thus i feel no matter how much time i try i also cant get through de. ;( agnes told me i shouldnt giv up cos her sis tried alot of times then get in de.so i shouldnt giv up so fast...but i know my limits la.very hard means very hard.no point putting so much effort over something i cant get.but i wasnt disappointed when i didnt got selected cos i went there just to gain interview experience only. i hope in future it will boost my confidence when i really come out for the real interview in time to come.