8th may was the finale for my 4 yrs of studying in uni..Finally i can say that i am offically out of the boring studies.but that day was kinda sad cos i couldnt ans most of the examinor qns.he still commented that i didnt get my fundamentals strong enough.wa this comment is kinda impactful to me.esp it signals to me that i will get lousy grades becos of his comments. So of cos i will be sad. but then duno why on that particular i dun really feel very very happy tat i am finally out of the boring studying cycle.
after FYP presentation was my prom.i felt abit confident tat i was better dressed than usual cos with the make up and nice hair, i felt better looking..generally, this prom has nice food but interaction with course mates was just so so.we didnt make new friends cos we are always in a clique taking photos together.very hard to mingle around with new ppl and take photos wif them.but wat actually surprised me that my clique actually agreed to go club after the graduation nite.i thought everyone is gg back home to sleep.for me, a very memorable moment was el sabo-ing me to take photo wif my eye candy. Though i dun think he look really tat fanatasic,but of all guys i tink he stand out the most among my course.but then i was kinda disappointed with him.my image of him totally dropped after the clubbing event. I still prefer "gd boy" over "bad boy" though many at times its the bad boy who attracted me at first sight.but i still prefer having a "gd boy" being my bf. He can be boring at times but dun do unfaithful things to me can alrdy.i dun like the betrayal feeling and 2 time gers too. Nevermind he is nt my bf anw.whatever he does doesnt really concern me.afterall he is just my eye candy.i cant say much..i guess once i offically stepped out of sch, there wouldnt be much eye candy for me alrdy.
then sun went for my first ODAC trip with dearest. i can only say ODAC trip is my god.i didnt expect to be so bad.i thought its just bringing us to see waterfall, and not really getting into the water and get the whole body wet.and i am defintely not those sporty ppl and i have never tried all of these activities before.and so i am the most noob ppl of all who cant walk and conquer the difficulties with ease.duno why those ppl can walk so fast with so many unstable rocks and so much water..and i cant stand the mud and dirtiness.perhaps i was trained to be a "clean freak" and i have never ever exposed to such dirty trips so naturally i will be abit princess compared to the rest of the ppl.i think those ppl might be thinking why am i acting like a princess..
then today was a bad day to start with.quarrel with bf..actually not really quarrel but was rather upset cos he suddenly sound v pek chek and flare up when i was giving him ideas for his prom....of cos my reaction is FINE la..then dun bother to ask me for opinion lo...my ex never flare with me before lo..we were peaceful couple, just tat i couldnt connect with him cos i was young at tat point of time.the age gap was a BIG PROBLEM...i guess after a long time being together,couple tends to take for granted of each other...tat is wat i learnt from my past relationship.so i told myself i dun wan take ppl for granted.Since we started our r/s, i never have problems with him..never say or nag anything.i am quite diff frm most gers..i can quite bo chap at times too.but then i really dun like ppl to nag at me.i will turn a deaf ear to ppl who nag at me often. by then in the long run, i guess i will lose the inital love that i have for you. probably i will find you a nag rather than love you and care for you. somewat i always feel i am a lousy gf, dun pei u at all.but since we have stayed together for such a long time, i wouldnt want to giv up that's why choose to giv in and listen to you.cos i have no opinion many at times.
on the other hand, my first interview went pretty well though i was quite upset due to the quarrel..i didnt expect i will get the job cos i didnt talk much and i gave rubbish ans also.but wat i manage to research totally came out !!! somehow i feel like i am doing some past yr paper qns ;) but anw when the interviewer said tat i will be given laptop and blackberry..my immediate reaction within my heart totally sian diao liao cos meaning i needa work outside office hours.this kind of job totally no life one.but the interviewer was a female and a guy..the guy whom i will be working under has pretty nice slang.i guess probably he has stayed overseas for quite some time to get tat slang.tmr i am gg for round 2 interview.i really hope i can get ard 3k for this job, but actually i dun really know if i wan this job or nt.cos somehow i still prefer jobs tat can travel...
alrights i shall forget the unhappiness today and hopefully i can "recover my heart" by tmr..i really hope we can stay a happy couple.no quarrels and unhappiness with each other.
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