I am back from korea a few days back and everything is back to normal again..i am really very work stress now. cant produce enough good CV and boss kinda not very happy with my performance..hai what to do ;( wanna resign yet I am stuck at a venture where I cant resign now cos of aws and I am going for a trip in Nov which is like 2 weeks..how can I resign like that...the initial plan of me promoting was called off cos management not very happy with my work..They say I not very pro active in following up with clients and I do not produce enough good CV. Hai honestly speaking when something screwed up once, you get blamed for everything but once you done something good, people don't remember and praise you. I did something good for the company before but apparently no one mention that. I took about 4-5 months to follow up on a case and no one mention that. Yet, they kept on picking on one of the mistake I made.Honestly speaking I don't think that is my mistake too cos I was not the one doing it.. My role was just to supervisor the procedure and push people but apparently people like me do not like to push ppl so I got the blame eventually. Hai !!! LQM time to faster change job and look harder ! cant wait to resign..my feeling for tis job has turn from dislike to hate ! seriously don't understand why am I working over the weekend also just to get CV cos I scared the following day has no CV...working life should not be like that. and I don't earn much commission since I entered and worked for a yr..so I would say the push factor to resign is quite high. After thinking for long, I really think that this isn't the line that suits me..well the management change rules now..now got KPI and sales target to hit..u know people like me hate sales target and I definitely do not perform well. I prefer a rountine fix job which you give me a fix task to do everyday cos I will know what to expect everyday. I have a lot of uncertainity in this job..ask me to find ppl and I am not very certain..don't like the uncertain feeling...this is not a job should be going abt.
nevertheless I will update more on my korea trip soon when I am free..come back really busy..jeju, busan and seoul generally not too bad..jeju more of sceneary and I got terribly burn, but one good thing is we rented a car so life was easier for us. busan was more of a city life..but sad thing was I quarrelled with dear on our trip at the beach..he made me very sad over this trip..made me cry two times cos he laugh at me in front of my friends. I already feel very inferior all along, and he came laughing together with my other friends..of cos my heart feel very sad and angry..and he has no patience..whenever I wanna shop, he kept on rush me but he has the patience to wait for other people but just not me,..hai how can I not be angry and sad leh..generally he made me upset for 2 times lo !! But this stupid guy say sorry so I forgive him..zzz seoul was more of shopping for beauty treats...pz and tc bought masks and skin care like crazy..yes but I am not like them, I didn't bought much cos my hse has already quite a few and I hv yet to finish and there is always an expiry so no point buying so much cos I cant finish using within that 2 yrs expiry..girls always have the tendency to buy more during sales and its really proven on pz..she buy like no one business !! MAN I see liao also shocked !
came back korea was hectic with work, tons of email to clear and I am really tired..mum and I kept on quarrelling and I cant stand her..she threw a lot of my stuff away when I was in korea..and I hate ppl touching my stuff cos she always like to arrange my stuff and when I cant find my stuff in the old positions I put, I get angry and pissed..and whenever I cant find it, most of the time its thrown away by her..seriously dun understand why must see always intrude into my privacy..every single cent also have to see and ransack..wallet, cupboard and every corner of the house also wanna ransack..DAMN !! I am really tired..cant wait to get out of the house by 30..let me get rich soon and own my own hse so that I can have peace..
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