last 2 week came back work after a long 2 weeks break..actually i could have extended my hospitalization leave because my eyes have yet ok but i am coming back for the sake of many follow up since my partner has left and i need to prepare for the teaching the following week. Another reason is because i wanted to go for his sharing..yes i did miss the voices and the laughter at work and also talking to him either virtually or face to face..
when i came back on 9th sept which was a tues, everyone gave me that look haha.everyone gave the same comments..wow your eyes have became bigger but oh well my eyes are still very very swollen and eyes still look like kana punch in a way even up to now.really wonder when will it goes off because it makes me look really sick and tired looking. when i first stepped into workplace, felt kinda lost as things seems to have changed over the past 2 weeks when i wasnt around. Many new colleagues were recruited and changes were made at lot at workplace.didnt have chance to meet up with him on tues when i was back, so wed was quite qiao to met up with him at the kopitam but we pretended not to know each other as usual haha cos my colleagues are around. well that day i did enjoyed the sharing he had..somehow got closer to his bff thanks to him..at the sharing his bff teased me then i smile smile and walked away. well pretty enjoyed his sharing and his stage presence..didnt want to be too close to him as i am not supposed to even know him that well since we belongs to two different worlds and league..
the worst part is when i tried forgetting his presence at work but it doesnt work !! coming to work just makes me wonders what's he busy with..for his level, he is never free for kopi neither is he free for any breaks because every min counts...but why does he still occasionally talk to me like once a wk?? haiz like that keep stirring my heart ;( i tried not to talk to him for a reason but it doesnt help if he keeps coming to talk to me. and the most jialat part is 2 of my colleagues seen him "MSN" me cos they were using my laptop...my first reaction was "shit" !! why of all time he msn me when my colleagues are using my laptop..since they already know that we do chat, of cos they will KPO ask this and that but obviously i didnt say anything much..just let them tease lo..
last thur this temp guy pei me for dinner..actually i am pretty certain that he has a crush on me..but i choose to act blur cos dun want hurt people. He obviously know i have a bf but still choose to have a crush on me lol..oh well, sometimes liking someone cant be controlled either cos i know that feeling..even you know that there wouldnt be any happy ending, you will still unknownlying fall for someone if the person is nice to you..i think i treat this temp guy pretty nice compared to other perms but yeah its my personality..i treat everyone equally.. anw still wanna thank him for the "welcome back to work" atas chocolate..lol my colleagues saw and was teasing me if they could eat the chocolates from my admirer..
last fri had a company movie team bonding..movie wise was good but unforunately didnt get to network and know more people before i leave. Sat was good as finally got time on weekends with dear. Went for dim sum feast at tung lok and after that went for hair cut and some atas fine dinning. The day was fruitful..i guess i need find more time with dear to clear my mind..still thought i straightened my thoughts but after i came back looks like isnt it that case.
few days back on friday went for a wedding and everyone gave me the same comments..they say eug beat me isit? lol my eyes look like kana punch...sianz ...yeah indeed i am quite affected by my eyes now so really no mood to go for meet up cos everyone ask me the same thing and i cant put on make up that much either cos my eyes haven ok yet..
its been 3 weeks and this week will be the 4th week liao...why arent my eyes bruises recovering yet :( i miss my small eyes last time cos at least its not as ugly as now..tmr i am going hospital to ask abt why my eyes arent recovering much..so sad really..i am kinda vain kind thus really mindful towards my face and eyes :(
and dear mr guy you are so near yet so far, pls stay at where you are...dun come any nearer to me anymore..dun stir my heart anymore..
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