yesterday saw a rainbow on my way to sch..its just super nice..hehe, wanted to take a pict of it but i dun have a camera hp so too bad, but anyway its my first time seeing a rainbow in my whole life, chio man..haha..
i was veri distracted lately, didnt reali do much during the weekend ..was thinking abt mm, miss the day with mm when there is no sch, just concentrate on competition and no work to do, but after tat reali had a hard time catching up with work lah..but tat's was reali the nicetest time in my whole life..seriously mm is a cca tat most gusy will join but weird its gers tat rules mm..ya got lots of guys to see, but all i not interested cos tat time i onli got eyes for bc..th not at all cos i find him veri rough..ac not at all also cos just no feeling at tat time..but seriously i feel sad when bc didnt talk to me, always talking to maril..haha..but i dun like him now, tat time i was just having a crush on him..
in the past i used to be quite "popular" with qwss ppl cos they sae got one guy like me but i also never talk to him b4, or not even sae a hi b4.he is a stranger to me, initally duno his existence cos didnt even notice him at all, its onli when his friends sae then i know..haha..still rmb the day when we win the competition, we shaked hands with them but i just refused to shake hands with him cos veri pei seh, duno wat to sae also, but they pushed me and dragged me to shake hands with him..evil rite? tat time face was like tomato cos reali super damn pei seh, duno wat to sae also,anyway tat time first 3 months saw him again and i was supposed to dance with him, ya man, i got no choice..so i just anyhow and get it quickly done and i will get to change partner..actually he isnt tat bad lah cos heard some of his friends in yj telling me abt him..then i was always the one asked to borrow things from qwss cos they know me mah, but i abit shy lah..hehe..hai~~seriously why must mm be removed in yj??tat's like so sad man..if it is not removed, most likely i will join mm and continue to learn more abt mm, rather than this sian cca..but cca not tat bad afterall, still got to know someone (z), a guy, not ger this time..
yesterday chem test was like difficult..no time to doa nd my mind wasnt veri calm..so cant properly..expecting to fail this test..block test results out le, overall still not tat bad considering i never study these b4, expect gp, which is like super damn lousy..seriously quite worried abt university admission cos gp cant make it..results will be out soon, probably in 1 to 2 weeks time..i will pray hard for all my friends..will be down there to support my friends if my lessons have ended tat time..
yh was saeing tat i am a person who is easy to bully..sometimes she bully me and i didnt even realised tat..haha, maybe i too nice to ppl liao..anyway in the past, whenever i am bullied, my friends will stand up for me when i kana bully..hai~~actually sometimes i know tat i am kana bully but i always keep quiet.duno why also, by right should be mean and scold them..
chem lesson yesterday got relief teacher cos mr chua went for reservist..the teacher quite ok lah, better than mr chua and mrs lim..but i find tat his face veri fuuny arh, was commenting alot of things abt him to yh until we laughed cos we linked it to something disgusting..abt kissing..hehe..seriously i am veri scared at looking at teachers' eyes cos whenever i look at them then they will catch me to ans qns, so i always bend down my head, pretending to be thinking but actually not..sometimes just drawing picts on my paper..or sometimes just day dreaming..
look veri tired and pale yesterday cos reali not enough sleep, look like some zombie, lacking of blood..and yes my eyes bag has appeared..and its veri ugly..gers usually panick when they reach 20s cos tat time they will start to age, wrinkles will start to appear and skin will becomer yellower..so now i am starting to take care of my skin and complexion so tat in future i wont look old and ugly..
saw lr a no of times not long ago..in the past i reali believe tat seeing a lr means tat i will see mr C cos its reali true, but i dun believe now, cos i feel tat fate dun exist between us anymore..actually not veri sure how i feel for him now.is it like or not like?i reali duno seriously..sometimes just worried and concerned abt how he is doing, sometimes not at all..he broke my heart too many times whenever i came to know more things abt him..ya duno why just canot stop myself from wanting to know more abt wat he is doing now but i just find it hard..sometimes i am just thinking is it worth it to think so much abt him cos i dun think he got think abt me loh, his mind just got this ger now, but never mind, wont blame him cos cant expect him to stuck there forever..
on the contrary side, my heart has started to have a little bit of liking for this guy, should sae tat i think of mr C less often now, much of time thinking of him..hehe..actually i am observing him more and more than last time..i reali like when he smile tat time cos it look reali nice and sweet to me =) seeing him smile also makes me smile.. =) hehe..actually feeling of being a secret admirer is nice, rather than letting the guy know tat i got a little liking for him, so obviously i dun wan to know tat i am looking at him becos if one day he knows tat, then i wont like him anymore and i also duno how to face him, cant avoid him forever cos sch isnt tat big afterall..actually we dun reali talk much, cos whenever he talk to me, then i like dao him just like todae, cos reali shy to face him, duno i got blushed or not, but i reali want to talk to him, but just dun dare to face and look straight into his eyes..actually sometimes thinking of dropping hints to him but i think better not cos i ger mah, and i dun wan to take the initative, so i shall wait..i shall see whether are we reali meant for each other, and if he got any feelings for me or not..we shall see hor..but ya, look forward to the day when we will talk alot and hopefully i wont dao him liao..
i got one small wish for my birthday for this yr, not wanting any gifts or wat becos it doesnt reali matter to me, but i got one simple wish tat i have been waiting for a yr liao le..something tat has been longing for a yr liao..
this week reali busy, got lots of stuff to do, phy tests got so many topics!!!and got so many dun understand..die..and tutorial so much and this sat still got CVD..and hor, reali dun like yj loh, gave us $30 coupons and we are expected to sell everything, if any sell any then u pay for everything..hey, wat logic is this man..anyway i also duno also, should i ask my friends to come? just scared tat the bazzar will be veri lousy then later waste their money..and todae went out with them to buy cloth for banner, on the way talk alot, just came to know someone bad things..i reali hate ppl who make use and toy with ppl feelings loh, hello, u are the one in the wrong and u sae tat he has changed..i am starting to look at this person differently le, dun havce gd impression of the person anymore..
by right todae i am supposed to go home early to study for my maths test but since its so late liao, so can forget it liao..
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